Hi everyone who accidentally (or not) came to my profile. I wanted to tell you one thing: you guys are awesome for coming here, because if you're not lost in the internet then that means you're probably here because you're more or less interested in my writing, which means for me A LOT. I love you all.

QUOTE OF MY LIVE: "OF COURSE I'M OUT OF MY MIND! IT'S DARK AND SCARY IN THERE."

Soooo... you probably wanna know something about me? Well... here you go but don't blame my if you got disappointed cuz I'm really boring person

Random facts about me:

#1 I like sweets. A lot. Really. Almost love them ... Okay, I do love them from the bottom of my heart. Nonetheless I try to eat less of them, you've got to take care of your body if you don't want to be fat! *0*

#2 I'm a girl. Suuurpriseeee! Umm, maybe not.

#3 I think about myself as a shy person but no one really believes me in this when I tell them ;-;

#4 I love rainbows and unicorns (what the heck?! I'm not 7, I should be more mature!!)

#5 I think that heaven looks like infinite rose-blue space with a lot of clouds made of cotton-candy (u think there's something wrong with me?)

#6 My friend told me that he was dreaming about me... dead (no, we are on a pretty good terms... I think)

#7 Sometimes when I look down from a great height I can't help but imagine bloody corpses of people who fell down with part of their bodies twisted (I know it's sick but I really have no control over this) and I don't really have acrophobia

#8 When I tell my friends that everything is fine with my psyche (or mind) they never believe me

#9 I'm so called 'artist' (I love drawing, painting, sketching and all this artistic stuff)

#10 I've never had a boyfriend; love life of a twelve years old girl is more developed/advanced than mine ;_; (but as long as I have friends I don't really need one :D)

#11 I don't like cucumbers (have no idea why people think it's strange, they're awful)

#12 One of my favorite (if not the one) bands is Iron Maiden, it's one of firsts bands that I got familiar with and started to listen and even if I'm not listening to it now as much as before I still have a great sentiment for it (UP THE IRONS!!!)

#13 I love cooking even if I'm not really good at this (my family:'haha same goes for writing' me:'oh shut up!')

#14 I want to make my own animation (even if it will be really short and simple) someday

#15 I think the boy that my friend likes looks like a gorilla (and it always reminds me of Kondo from Gintam so sometimes I can't stop laughing when I see him xD)

#16 I enjoy looking at people's face's and their bodies and remembering all the details and proportions just to draw them later at home. I also sometimes think about people in categories 'he has interesting/good looking/unusual face - I want to draw it!' My friend calls it 'artistic perversion' (hey, but it's not so strange is it?)

#17 My favorite activity is sleeping

#18 I have a guinea pig (nah, that's actually a lie, it's my brother's)

#19 I'm scared of pigeons (laugh at me if you want but they are really fearful and cunning creatures! And they shit everywhere!!!)

#20 I love singing even though I have zero musical talent

favorite anime/manga:

- Gintama

- DOGS

- HxH

- Tonari no Kaibutsu-kun (Natsume why u not love Sasayan?!)

- Fairy Tail

- SnK

- Soul Eater

- Pandora Hearts

- Watamote (I wish Tomoko found friends *)

-Shin Sekai Yori (one of the very few anime in which my shipping actually came true)

- Tokyo Ghoul (yay! they're making an anime! )

- almost every Ghibli production

favorite books

- Hunger Games

- The Books of Beginning (still waiting for the third volume to be released!)

- Harry Potter

- Ulysses Moore

- Hobbit

- Lord of the rings

- Discworld series written by Terry Pratchett

- The Witcher/Wiedźmin by Sapkowski

- Achaia

- Ender's Game

- The tales of Alvin Maker

and many many others (I luv reading!)

Lately I'm also watching some tv series and I'm really into 'Sherlock' and 'Game of Thrones' *can't wait for the next season to be released*

Soo... that's probably all about me, so if you've read this I've got to say you one thing: you probably have no life and a lot of free time if you bothered to do so, or you're just extremely bored. However I'm glad that you did it because it means that you're, less or more, interested in my person or my writing.

How to deal with... tips by me

- you're scared of the dentist? the pain? think about people who are fighting at the moment in some war, loosing their limbs and lives, think about people whose arms got ripped off, think about how much they have to suffer and then compare it to this one unlucky tooth in your mouth. Dental treatment? What is it compared to the moment when you're loosing your arm or leg or any other part of your body. Think that it's only your fault for leading your teeth to such a state, think that the pain is nothing, think about soldiers with the bullet in their chests, dying; how they suffer - that is the real pain, not this one rotten teeth in your mouth! This pain is nothing you can't bear, there are a lot of worse things in the world! For example: your limbs could be ripped off, you could be in much more pain than while dental treatment! so stop being such a crybaby and stop fearing the dentist - it's nothing scary! You've got to be strong, not limp!

Conclusion: when at the dentist just think about detached limbs! (I know that may seem totally stupid and random, you can just ignore this, but when I'm at the dentist I always think about detached limbs, so the fear fades away and the treatment is not really painful. I'm not scared of dentists anymore!)

the theory can also apply to anything that scares the hell out of you and is quite stupid and casual thing that most of people isn't scared at all, for example blood samples, injection, grafting and other stuff like that, or simply to the stuff that you have a hard time doing but you know that they are for your good and have to be done: eating broccoli (or any other vegetables), exercising, trying not to eat sweets (I know that pain * stupid wagers!) etc.

- that's actually very easy - imagine all the people around you naked, only you have clothes. And who is now in the worse situation, huh? Who should be the nervous and abashed one?! - For sure not you!

practice your handwriting skills everyday for a proper amount of time just become a doctor!

-talk to people! there's no other way, just talk to them, start the conversation, overcome your fears, don't be a sissy! It's not easy but it's nothing you can't do! People don't bite and if you don't start talking to them on your own you'll never overcome your shyness! be strong, not weak! Only you can do it, there's no one other than you who can make you brave and social! So get yourself together, bite your lip and go, fight!Fight with your weaknesses and talk to people!

Here is some random crap that I've found on other persons' profiles ENJOY!

FRIENDS: Lend you their umbrella.

BEST FRIENDS: Take yours and say 'RUN BITCH RUN!'

FRIENDS: Never ask for anything to eat or drink.

BEST FRIENDS: Helps themselves and are the reason why you have no food.

FRIENDS: Call your parents by Mr. and Mrs. and Grandpa, by Grandpa.

BEST FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD and MOM and Grandpa, GRAMPS!

FRIENDS: Would bail you out of jail.

BEST FRIENDS: Would be sitting next to you sayin, "THAT WAS FRICKING AWESOME!"

FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry.

BEST FRIENDS: Won't tell everyone else you cried...just laugh about it with you in private when your not down anymore/Cry with you.

FRIENDS: Asks you to write down your number.

BEST FRIENDS: Has you on speed dial.

FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then gives it back.

BEST FRIENDS: Loses your crap and tells you, "My bad...here's a tissue."

FRIENDS: Return your stuff right away.

BEST FRIENDS: Keep your shit so long they forget its yours.

FRIENDS: Only know a few things about you.

BEST FRIENDS: Could write a very embarrassing biography on your life story...

FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.

BEST FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowd's ass that left you.

FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.

BEST FRIENDS: Walk right in and say "I'M HOME."

FRIENDS: You have to tell them not to tell anyone.

BEST FRIENDS: Already know not to tell.

FRIENDS: Are only through high school/college. (aka: drinking buddies)

BEST FRIENDS: Are for life.

FRIENDS: Will take your drink away when they think you've had enough.

BEST FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place and say "Bitch, drink the rest of that, you know we don't waste."

FRIENDS: Will talk shit to the person who talks shit about you.

BEST FRIENDS: Will knock them the fuck out!

FRIENDS: Say they are too busy to listen to your problems, but when it comes to them they expect you to have all the time in the world.

BEST FRIENDS: Not only kick everything out of their schedule to listen to what's wrong, but help come up with vindictive plans to make you feel a whole lot better!

FRIENDS: Say sorry when you want to talk to them at odd hours of the night, or even just hang out at odd hours.

BEST FRIENDS: Come right over and hang out with you, until you either fall asleep, or kick them out.

FRIENDS: Will comfort you when the guy rejects you.

BEST FRIENDS: Will go up to him and say 'its because your gay isn't it?'lall

FRIENDS: Would ignore this letter.

BEST FRIENDS: Will re-post this crap!!

At age 8, your dad buys you an ice cream. You thanked him by dripping it all over his lap.

When you were 9 years old, he paid for piano lessons. You thanked him by never even bothering to practice.

When you were 10 years old he drove you all day, from soccer to football to one birthday party after another. You thanked him by jumping out of the car and never looking back.

When you were 11 years old, he took you and your friends to the movies. You thanked him by asking to sit in a different row.

When you were 12 years old, he warned you not to watch certain TV shows. You thanked him by waiting until he left the house.

When you were 13, he suggested a haircut that was in fashion. You thanked him by telling him he had no taste.

When you were 14, he paid for a month away at summer camp. You thanked him by forgetting to write a single letter.

When you were 15, he came home from work, looking for a hug. You thanked him by having your bedroom door locked.

When you were 16, he taught you how to drive his car. You thanked him by taking it every chance you could.

When you were 17, he was expecting an important call. You thanked him by being on the phone all night.

When you were 18, he cried at your high school graduation. You thanked him by staying out partying until dawn.

When you were 19, he paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus carried your bags. You thanked him by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed in front of your friends.

When you were 25, he helped to pay for your wedding, and he told you how deeply he loved you. You thanked him by moving halfway across the country.

When you were 50, he fell ill and needed you to take care of him. You thanked him by reading about the burden parents become to their children.

And then, one day, he quietly died. And everything you never did came

crashing down like thunder on YOUR HEART. If you love your dad, post this on your

profile!

Honestly I've cried reading this (honestly, I'm such a crybaby :'( ), I won't say that I'm not doing things like that because I don't want to lie, but reading this somehow made me more conscious about my behavior and how good and caring is my dad and that loves me, so I'm trying hard not to be ungrateful brat for him

RULES You must fill out EVERY question! No skipping! Copy and paste this on your profile!

ARE YOU?

1. Perfect? Hahahaha, good joke! Nope, I'm just a lil' stupid girl who probably needs some psychiatrist

2. Tall? I consider myself as such a person (170cm) though sometimes when I look at some of the boys from my school (who are younger!) i really feel short

3. In your pajamas? Nah, pajamas? who wears it? underwear all the way (when at home)!

4. Left handed? No.

LAST:

1. Friend you saw: Dominica

2. Person to text you: Kate

3. Was today better than yesterday? idk, it was pretty much the same

FAVORITES:

1. Number: 13

2. Color(s): Blue, black, green... yeah, that would be it.

3. Fruit: Blueberries, raspberries, strawberries and other berries, nectarines, peaches, lemons, grapefruits etc. I love all of them

4. Place: Anywhere with the people I love and care for

EIGHT EMOTIONS:

1. Are you missing someone right now? My lil' brother (but i know we'll see some day)

2. Are you happy? Pretty much.

3. Are you sad? Ain't that obvious now (look question 2. )

4. Are you bored? Would I be doing this if I wasn't?

5. Are you nervous? should I?

6. Are you tired? Yeah, a bit.

ABOUT YOU:

1. Real name? Mary

2. Nick names? Mery, Inka

3. Eye color? Something between grey, blue and green, am not really sure, my friends define it as a "dirty Vistula" but because it's always dirty it was reduced to "Vistula" alone, that way it sounds better :3

4. Zodiac sign? Libra

5. Male or female? Female.

6. Slut? NO! Duh, what a dirty questions you have in here!

7. Smart? Idk, it depends on what people define as smart, I'm intelligent but sometimes (ok, often) act stupid so... I'll leave it for your judgement

8. Hair color? Blond

9. Long or short? Medium but rather longer than shorter

10. Sweats or Jeans? Sweats at home, jeans when I go outside

11. Phone or Camera? Phone, I guess...

12. Drink or Smoke? Drink, it tastes good and smoking sucks

13. Righty or lefty? Righty

FIRSTS:

1. First best friend? Ola, first and current :3

2. First crush? Fufufu, when I was at kindergarten I think i had a small crush on my friend but I'm not sure cuz it was long time ago and you know...

3. First pet? Brother?

4. First big vacation? Italy with my family

CURRENTLY:

1. Eating? Tomato

2. Drinking? Water

3. I'm about to: Answer the next question

4. Listening to? Bully - Three Days Grace

5. Plans for today? End painting withered flowers , I don't get why my dad tells me to throw them away, they're still beautiful in their own way *.*

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?

1. Shorter or taller? Taller

2. Romantic or spontaneous? Why not both?

3. Sensitive or loud? Depends on situation

4. Hook-up or relationship? Relationship? It all depends with who

HAVE YOU EVER:

1. Drank bubbles? Yeah

2. Lost glasses/contacts? how can I loose something i don't have

3. Ran away from home? Why should I? I like my home

4. Broken someone's heart? I don't think so...

5. Been arrested? duh, no!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

1. Miracles? Of course!

2. Yourself? Sometimes

3. Heaven? Yup!

4. Santa Claus? Who doesn't

5. Love? Yes

6. Do you like someone? Yup, my friends, I like them all

7. Do you believe in God? Yup!

8. Answered the truth on all questions? 100% Yes!

(Be honest no matter what.)

1) Have you ever been asked out? Yep! ... ah, you mean on a date, then: no

2) Where did you get your default picture? I've drawn it

3) What's your middle name? Ann

4) Your current relationship status? Relationship? What's that?

5) Does your crush like you back? What crush?

6) What is your current mood? Hungry

7) What color of underwear are you wearing? Wait a sec, I'll check!

8) What color shirt are you wearing? Grey, cuz it's too hot for black :P

9) Missing something? Someone.

10) If you could go back in time and change something, what would you change? Nothing! What if it turned out even worse than it's now, duh?!

11) If you must be an animal for one day, what would you be? Some bird, maybe an eagle, I've always wanted to fly

12) Ever had a near death experience? I've had 11 missed calls from my mom, she was pretty angry, does it count?

13) Something you do a lot? Breathing? Yeah, I pretty much do it all the time

14) The song stuck in your head? Actually none

15) Who did you copy and paste this from? NekuSakuraba101

16) Name someone with the same birthday as YOU? I can even two people! Michael and Joanne

17) When was the last time you cried? Recently, i'm a terrible crybaby

18) Have you ever sung in front of a large audience? ...No

19) If you could have one super power what would it be? Flying! totally flying

20) What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Appearance, you know you first see the person then you talk (or not) so appearance is first, unless you're blind

21) What do you usually order from Starbucks? Coffee

22) What's your biggest secret? Why would you want to know that?

23) Favorite color? Black, blue, green...

24) Do you still watch kiddie shows? Don't tell me you don't?!

25) What are you? I'm a lot of things but I'm to lazy to type all of them in here.

26) Do you speak any other language? English, Polish, learning Spanish

27) What's your favorite smell? lilac or coffee

28) Describe your life in one word what would it be? Mine.

29) Have you ever kissed in the rain? No

30) What are you thinking about right now? How to answer to this question.

31) What should you be doing? A lot of things, that I'm not

32) Who was the last person that made you upset/angry? ... idk, I wasn't really angry since... hmm, long time

33) Do you like working in the yard? Nah, too lazy

34) If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want? Never thought about it but I guess something shorter than I have now

35) Do you act differently around the person you like? No, it would be hard since I don't have a person like that at the moment

36) What is your natural hair color? blond

37) Who was the last person to make you cry? ...My friend? We had a really teary talk :'(

What is my element?

Fire

I have a short temper

I often act on my emotions rather than thinking (blame the hormones!)

You are competitive

You like to play with fire

You are not a strong swimmer or can't swim at all

You prefer warm weather over cold weather

You lose control over your self

You can be reckless

You sometimes hurt people without recognizing it

People often call you insane

5/10

Water

I have a laid back personality

You like going to the Beach

You rarely get angry

When you get angry you know how to control your self

You think before you act (it depends of my mood, sometimes I think before act and sometimes the opposite)

Your good at breaking up fights

You are a good swimmer

You like rain

You can stay calm in bad situations

You are very generous

7/10

Earth

You are physically strong

You have a close bond with nature

You don't mind getting dirty

You have strong opinions on issue that concern you

You could easily survive in the wild

You care about the environment

You easily focus on your work and don't get distracted

You rarely get depressed

You aren't afraid of anything

You prefer to have a strict set of rules

2/10

Air

You have a free spirit

You don't like rules

You prefer to be out in open places

You hate to be restrained

You are independent

You are quite smart (intelligent!)

You tend to be impatient

You are easily distracted

You are hyper or annoying sometimes

You wish you could fly

10/10

My Element is Air! Yay!

That boy you punched in the hall today? Committed suicide a few minutes ago.

That girl you called a slut today? She's a virgin.

The boy you called lame? He has to work every night to support his family.

That girl you pushed down the stairs the other day? She's already being abused at home.

That girl you called fat? She's starving herself.

The old man you made fun of cause of his ugly scars? He fought for our country.

The boy you made fun of for crying? His mother is dying.

You think you know them. Guess what? You don't!

Re-post if you are against bullying. I bet 99% of you won't, but re-post this if you are the 1% with a heart.

IF YOU IGNORE THIS WITHOUT READING IT YOU HAVE NO HEART...BUT IF YOU FIND YOU CANNOT STOP UNTIL YOU REACH THE END THEN YOU MUST HAVE A VERY BIG HEART.

Mummy...Johnny brought a gun to school

He told his friends that it was cool

And when he pulled the trigger back

It shot with a great crack

Mummy I was a good girl

I did what I was told

I went to school, I got straight A's, I even got the gold

But mummy when I went to school that day, I never said goodbye

I'm sorry mummy I had to go, but mommy please don't cry

When Johnny shot the gun he hit me and another

And all because he got the gun from his older brother

Mummy please tell daddy that I love him very much

And please tell Chris, my boyfriend, that it wasn't just a crush

And tell my little sister that she is the only one now

And tell my dear sweet grandmother that I'll be waiting for her now

And tell my wonderful friends that they were always the best

Mummy I'm not the first I'm no better than the rest

Mummy tell my teachers I won't show up for class

And never to forget this and please don't let this pass

Mummy why'd it have to be me no one deserves this

Mummy warn the others, mummy I left without a kiss

And mummy tell the doctors I know they really did try

I think I even saw a doctor trying not to cry

Mummy I'm slowly dying with a bullet in my chest

But mummy please remember I'm in heaven with the rest

Mummy I ran as fast as I could when I heard that crack

Mummy listen to me if you would

I wanted to go to college

I wanted to try things that were new

I guess I'm not going with daddy

On that trip to the new zoo

I wanted to get married

I wanted to have a kid

I wanted to be an actress

Mummy I wanted to live

But mummy I must go now

The time is getting late

Mummy tell my Chris

I'm sorry but I had to cancel the date

I love you mummy I always have

I know you know it's true

Mummy all I wanted to say is "mummy I love you"

In memory of the Columbian students that were lost

Please if you would

Pass this around

I'd be happy if you could

Don't smash this on the ground

If you pass this on

Maybe people will cry

Just keep this in heart

For the people that didn't get to say "goodbye"

Now you have two choices

1) repost and show you care

2) Ignore it and you have just proven you have a low-down, cold-heart (Please just copy and paste this on to your site and show that you care)

A teenage girl about 17 named Diane had gone to visit some friends one evening and time passed quickly as each shared their various experiences of the past year. She ended up staying longer than planned, and had to walk home alone. She wasn't afraid because it was a small town and she lived only a few blocks away.

As she walked along under the tall elm trees, Diane asked God to keep her safe from harm and danger. When she reached the alley, which was a short cut to her house, she decided to take it. However, halfway down the alley she noticed a man standing at the end as though he were waiting for her. She became uneasy and began to pray, asking for God's protection. Instantly a comforting feeling of quietness and security wrapped round her, she felt as though someone was walking with her. When she reached the end of the alley, she walked right past the man and arrived home safely.

The following day, she read in the newspaper that a young girl had been raped in the same alley just twenty minutes after she had been there. Feeling overwhelmed by this tragedy and the fact that it could have been her, she began to weep. Thanking the Lord for her safety and to help this young woman, she decided to go to the police station. She felt she could recognize the man, so she told them her story. The police asked her if she would be willing to look at a lineup to see if she could identify him. She agreed and immediately pointed out the man she had seen in the alley the night before. When the man was told he had been identified, he immediately broke down and confessed. The officer thanked Diane for her bravery and asked if there was anything they could do for her. She asked if they would ask the man one question. Diane was curious as to why he had not attacked her. When the policeman asked him, he answered, "Because she wasn't alone. She had two tall men walking on either side of her." Amazingly, whether you believe or not, you're never alone. Did you know that 98 of teenagers will not stand up for God, and 93 of the people that read this won’t repost it?

Since when is my profile so long?! Oh, God...