M.R.Roth
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Joined 11-21-16, id: 8480172, Profile Updated: 01-08-19
Author has written 2 stories for How to Train Your Dragon, and Rise of the Guardians.

This is like a 15 hundred words presentation, but I wrote it by heart, and even if it speaks about someone else, It says exactly who I am.

First Gay Crush - from a Gay Mormon

Not sure if someone’s going to read this or if anyone will ever believe this but I don’t care. I’ve got this thing weighting down on my chest for years now and I feel like it’s time I start opening up about it.

I am in love with a friend. I’m not going to say some shit like “the only problem is that he’s a guy” or whatever. There are many problems. One of them is that we’re Mormons. He’s much younger, and apparently much more faithful than I am.

I’m not going to say I’m afraid of him being straight, because he’s Kinsy-6 gay. We weren’t like “best friends forever” or anything, but I’ve known him ever since he was a toddler - and if I remember it right, I’ve loved him even then, that innocent childish and friendly love. He is the first boy I’ve ever found cute. We’ve met through church, him being 3 years younger and with his entire family devoted to faith.

I stepped away from church as I grew up, and we wouldn’t see each other for years, to the point I didn’t even remember who he was then, and he probably didn’t remember me either.

Until I made 15.

Depressed and dealing with my conflicting rainbow that insisted in growing inside me - which didn’t go well with Mormon beliefs AT ALL. When I came back to church, after beginning seminaries every day, eventually, I found him.

That film taken moment when you see someone in the mid of a crowd. And then BAM, your heart stops and everything goes in slow motion. He was so beautiful, dark wavy hair and that crooked smile. Those dimples on his cheeks, and his eyes… So big and shining with wonder and mischief. He was taken out from a John Green page right there. But he’s real, and if he reads this, may the living Jesus forgive me.

I tried to convince myself it was just a phase. That eventually it’d die out. I focused into school girls, kissed a few dragons and tried to read the scriptures. In the sickening feeling of my despair, I finally jumped into the wastelands of fear and prejudice.

Nothing worked.

I didn’t have one straight inch on me. Fear gave out to sadness and anger, and I was depressed, more than ever. I’d cut, skip meals, cry sometimes and consider suicide. Most of all, I considered running from my life.

All I wanted to do was to love him, to show him how much I cared and felt for him. It was not a choice to feel, or to want to have him, to hold his hands or just simply be with him. Was that really so evil of me?

That’s when we met. Gospel classes paired us up in seminaries, and I was afraid of him. By then I was already 17. At first, we didn’t talk much. I was so afraid of saying anything to him, I felt like I was embarrassing myself… And I probably was. I forced myself to say anything about this girl in our class who I was friends with, and tried to believe I had a crush on her.

The problem there was her boyfriend. A tall, arrogant jock that gave homophobic remarks every now and then. And he mocked the boy I liked, constantly. The way he would blush and lower his head, and the visible sadness that grew in him, made me realise what an idiot I was becoming for not taking a stand.

I decided to talk to him. Quite idealistic too, there was this party - which I had zero fun, trust me -. I didn’t hope to find my crush there. But I did. He was shy and introspective most of the time, and the awkward way he tried to move in through the crowd and try to dance between his friends was so sad and adorable at once, that when I finally decided to do it, I waited a minute just to watch. It was cringy, but funny as hell. I pulled him by his arm, and he seemed too happy to have an excuse to leave…

I took him outside, and it was the first time we actually talked. Talked for what felt like hours. We looked like opposites on our personalities, but boy, we weren’t. Every single topic of our conversations would match. Books, Netflix series, that meme on Tumblr, even old vines, rest in peace. Self depriving jokes and sarcasm. I fell for him all over again. He was so adorable, like the kind of person you just want to cuddle and kiss the daylights out of his cheeks.

And like me, he was just as lonely. Insecure, fragile and seemingly sad. His self-esteem was so low already, and it broke my heart to see so much of me in him.

We became good friends. We’d sit next to each other and pair up for every activity, first class every morning. He was much younger, and so smarter than me. I’d sketch him when no one was looking, and I’d try not to be too obvious. I consider myself decent with a pencil, so when a colleague of ours found his drawing on my sketchbook, details like his lit freckles and dimples, she immediately showed him.

The entire class got silent, as if something shockingly horrible had just happened. Blushing furiously, I said, “he just appeared on my drawing” and tried to convince that it was only meant as a friendly thing. For my relief, honestly, he loved it. He couldn’t keep it, but I saw his blush, creeping up beneath his skin and for a moment, I knew that there was a chance, however small it was, of my feelings being mutual.

I never came out of the closet, though. On that year, I managed to befriend him, get his bully suspended (apparently he messed up with his girlfriend - that before anything is a great friend of mine, even today), and even get some sort of choreographed dance with him. He’d just follow my moves, and yell excitedly that we were in sync.

He hugged me once, by the year’s end, and he’s not a person for showing his feelings through physical affection. So when he did, lacing his arms around me, just like normal friends do, I hated myself for the warmth that spread through my body, inside out. I still remember his scent, something between grapes and freshly clean clothes.

That was my last year on that class, while it was only his first. Two years have passed. I came out to my parents the following year, which… Wasn’t easy, and sometimes I think it’s my fault that my father feels so depressed. My mother was harder, though. I think I broke her heart.

Now I ask you, was it so selfish to tell them the truth? All I did was to open up to them, being honest like they have always asked me to, and what I get is the realisation that often, the truth isn’t enough.

About him… He won’t talk to me anymore. On the rare occasions we meet nowadays, he’ll probably pass by me without waving on my direction, or ignoring the poor attempts of conversation. It’s shitty to realise that someone you love actually hates you. Maybe because I left church. On social media, he likes and follows everything I do, but only messages me on my birthday - three days after his own, when I message him first. If he ever finds this, and probably knows it’s him, then I am sorry for whatever I did. If I ever scared you or tried to push you to coming out. If I lied to you when I said I was straight, all the times I laughed along with those terrible jokes. Or if I never came back to church when you asked me to. I can never truly be in a place that has messed up so much with my head, and you know that. I can never trust anyone for granted. But I know why I never came out to you.

Because it would break you. If you find this, I’m so sorry for falling for you. You have a family in there and friends. You have your faith a million times stronger than mine, and I have no right to put myself in your way. I have known you forever, and I hope you come out of your shell one day. You have no idea what an amazing, beautiful mess of a human being you are, and I love you. I miss you.

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And Then I Met You by Dragonire reviews
(College AU) Hiccup's meets Jack, and the two become best friends straight away. But Hic is crushing hard. So is Jack. Will it be easy? NO WAY! The road to happiness is filled with drama, involving Hic's Ex, Confessions, Abuse, Sex, Love, Heartbreak and so much more!
Crossover - How to Train Your Dragon & Rise of the Guardians - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 14 - Words: 54,027 - Reviews: 33 - Favs: 68 - Follows: 88 - Updated: 8/10 - Published: 6/16/2015 - Hiccup, Jack Frost
Negative delta is the beginning of fun by Lajt Hane reviews
Hiccup thought that this day couldn't get any worse. And there he was, in the boy's bathroom, trapped with Dagur and the school's prankster and star - Jack - who was claiming to be Hiccup's boyfriend. And he only wanted to clean his sweater…
Crossover - How to Train Your Dragon & Rise of the Guardians - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 21 - Words: 395,183 - Reviews: 77 - Favs: 113 - Follows: 120 - Updated: 8/1 - Published: 6/1/2016 - [Hiccup, Jack Frost] Dagur, Bunnymund
We Will Be Okay by dragonsxsnowflakes reviews
*This is the new We'll Be Okay. To see original, go to my profile* Hiccup glanced up at Jack, observing his face while the older boy concentrated on destroying Bunny in their video game. How did this happen? When did his best friend, the one who saved his life, start to look like that? Sound like that? When did Hiccup start to see his best friend... as more than his best friend?
Crossover - How to Train Your Dragon & Rise of the Guardians - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 2 - Words: 6,835 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 16 - Updated: 1/17/2018 - Published: 1/13/2018
We'll Be Okay by dragonsxsnowflakes reviews
Hiccup and Jack met when they were seven years old, after a heartbreaking incident that caused Hiccup to move to Burgess, Pennsylvania. They kept their friendship a secret from Jack's friends, but now they are teenagers, their lives filled with death-facing accidents, awkward nights alone, and their mom yelling at them for not taking out the trash, causing the dog to eat it.
Crossover - How to Train Your Dragon & Rise of the Guardians - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 31 - Words: 135,450 - Reviews: 29 - Favs: 33 - Follows: 42 - Updated: 1/13/2018 - Published: 8/8/2015 - Hiccup, Jack Frost
The Sixth Semester at Munster University by Trixter Dark reviews
Hiccup and his friends have begun their second year at Munster University. As a strange turn of events begins to unfold, lines are drawn, friendships are tested, and a friendly face might be behind it all. Frostcup, ROTBTD College AU (Part 5 of a series)
Crossover - How to Train Your Dragon & Rise of the Guardians - Rated: T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 4 - Words: 27,406 - Reviews: 13 - Favs: 28 - Follows: 26 - Updated: 6/22/2017 - Published: 7/30/2015 - Complete
Guardian by CyXandrix reviews
The world has knocked Hiccup down so many times he doesn't see the point in getting up again, he'd rather just stay down. Its at that point when an unlikely and very unexpected hand reaches down to help him up. Its then that a Guardian appears to save him. Modern HiJack AU. Rated M for Language and later chapters, Triggers and later chapters. Yaoi.
Crossover - How to Train Your Dragon & Rise of the Guardians - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 21 - Words: 106,216 - Reviews: 203 - Favs: 294 - Follows: 355 - Updated: 12/27/2016 - Published: 6/4/2013 - Hiccup, Jack Frost
I can't do this or can I? by Ilmazzobro reviews
YAOI, WARNING. PAIRING IS HIJACK. Hiccup is a sad boy whose life sucks. His father doesn't like him and he have a crush. On a boy, Jack Frost who happens to be one of his closest friends. And that disgusts him to the point that he goes into a deep depression and is happy only when Jack is around and when he isn't he sink deep in sadness...[summary continues inside]
Crossover - How to Train Your Dragon & Rise of the Guardians - Rated: M - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 18 - Words: 85,276 - Reviews: 295 - Favs: 150 - Follows: 197 - Updated: 5/15/2016 - Published: 12/18/2013 - [Hiccup, Jack Frost]
Marvelous Misadventures In Chemistry Class by HoneyBeeez reviews
A story in which Astrid accidentally brings two people together, and the fact that they are in chemistry class totally has NOTHING to do with it. Hijack! High School!AU. (my writing sucks, im sorry, also still ignorant about genres/ratings. whoops.)
Crossover - How to Train Your Dragon & Rise of the Guardians - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,995 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 21 - Follows: 9 - Published: 11/15/2015
Senior year with Hiccup Haddock by Trixter Dark reviews
Third fic in a series. Start with "The sixteenth year of Hiccup Haddock" and then, "The first trip to Berk for Jackson Overland"After a series of fortunate and not so fortunate events, Hiccup wants to get ready for college, spend more time with Jack, and maybe..just maybe...run again. Frostcup, featuring tons of Disney/Dreamworks/Laika/Sony SEQUEL UP! "One week with Lilo"
Crossover - How to Train Your Dragon & Rise of the Guardians - Rated: T - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 10 - Words: 25,998 - Reviews: 40 - Favs: 56 - Follows: 55 - Updated: 6/3/2015 - Published: 10/24/2014 - Hiccup, Jack Frost - Complete
The Art of Thawing a Heart by the-meek reviews
Jack is a thief that can steal anything... maybe even the heart of Prince Hiccup. Hijack, Frostcup, Hiccup from HHTYD X Jack Frost from RoTG
Crossover - How to Train Your Dragon & Rise of the Guardians - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 13 - Words: 60,644 - Reviews: 162 - Favs: 190 - Follows: 150 - Updated: 1/16/2015 - Published: 5/19/2014 - Hiccup, Stoick, Jack Frost - Complete
Runaways by Sahreah reviews
When Stoick throws Hiccup out for being gay, he didn't know where to go. It had been a complete coincidence when he bumped into a white haired boy who opened him the door to a world he hadn't known just yet. But who knows, maybe Hiccup can change a few things in Jack's life too.
Crossover - How to Train Your Dragon & Rise of the Guardians - Rated: M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Chapters: 24 - Words: 69,419 - Reviews: 325 - Favs: 307 - Follows: 228 - Updated: 8/26/2014 - Published: 12/19/2013 - [Hiccup, Jack Frost] [Toothless, Bunnymund] - Complete
Skinny Love by lalalaalalaala reviews
Modern AU about a new white haired neighbor moving in next door to Hiccup and their friendship developing, maybe even into something else, with help of his friends Toothless and Aster maybe the two boys will realise their true feelings for one another. -Sorry this is discontinued, I don't write things like this anymore-
Crossover - How to Train Your Dragon & Rise of the Guardians - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 25 - Words: 53,389 - Reviews: 201 - Favs: 124 - Follows: 135 - Updated: 8/4/2014 - Published: 1/8/2014 - Hiccup, Toothless, Bunnymund, Jack Frost
The sixteenth year of Hiccup Haddock by Trixter Dark reviews
This is a ROTBTD fanfic with Frostcup/Hijack. Hiccup's junior year of high school is full of new friends and new experiences that ultimately lead to a major change in his life. (a tiny-teeny bit of self harm, but not cutting or anything like that) Reviews can cause new chapters.
Crossover - How to Train Your Dragon & Rise of the Guardians - Rated: T - English - Romance/Friendship - Chapters: 26 - Words: 70,261 - Reviews: 215 - Favs: 198 - Follows: 168 - Updated: 6/29/2014 - Published: 6/7/2013 - Hiccup, Jack Frost - Complete
Leave It To Lauren by HoneyBeeez reviews
Hey guys! First Fanfic! please be nice! So Hiccup and Jack go to Hogwarts, and they fall in love. Do they know it? No. After four long years of liking each other, they get paired in almost every single class. What will happen? THIS! HiJack! Don't like, don't read. Bonus Chapter added! M for the slight content in the last two chapters!
Crossover - How to Train Your Dragon & Rise of the Guardians - Rated: M - English - Humor/Romance - Chapters: 32 - Words: 158,649 - Reviews: 283 - Favs: 169 - Follows: 112 - Updated: 6/17/2014 - Published: 10/13/2013 - Complete
Funny Name by the-meek reviews
When Hiccup meets his new neighbor, he makes a wonderful first impression by getting beaten into the ground. Hijack or Frostcup action. RotG / HTTYD Jack Frost / Hiccup Haddock.
Crossover - How to Train Your Dragon & Rise of the Guardians - Rated: M - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 14 - Words: 62,425 - Reviews: 180 - Favs: 275 - Follows: 163 - Updated: 5/23/2014 - Published: 8/15/2013 - Astrid, Hiccup, Bunnymund, Jack Frost - Complete
Our Beginning by TheBansheeQueen reviews
When you were in love with another boy, there was usually two choices to go. Either tell them, or keep it hidden away. For Hiccup Haddock, he had kept it hidden for years that he wasn't interested in girls. He's also kept it hidden that he's had a crush on his classmate Jack Frost. It becomes harder to hide it though, when Jack Frost starts crashing on your couch. HiJack
Crossover - How to Train Your Dragon & Rise of the Guardians - Rated: M - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 29 - Words: 117,665 - Reviews: 384 - Favs: 420 - Follows: 261 - Updated: 1/31/2014 - Published: 10/21/2013 - [Hiccup, Jack Frost] Astrid, Bunnymund - Complete
Just Two Strangers In A Crowd by Shibeme reviews
Hiccup goes to a convention in a viking cosplay and he drags his friends along. There he meets Jack Overland and his crazy family. The two talk after the con and begin to come close, but problems arise. Of course they do, this is a fanfic. Rated T yo
Crossover - How to Train Your Dragon & Rise of the Guardians - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 45 - Words: 170,821 - Reviews: 746 - Favs: 401 - Follows: 261 - Updated: 9/29/2013 - Published: 5/10/2013 - Hiccup, Jack Frost - Complete
Double Trouble by geminisonic reviews
Hijack romance, modern AU. Jack and Hiccup are high school students with one thing in common; their younger sisters are fighting. So when the time comes to resolve the matter, both end up becoming fast friends that will lead to something more. Includes Brave and Tangled characters as well. Rated T for sex. refs., language, severe bullying, and talk of past abuse.
Crossover - How to Train Your Dragon & Rise of the Guardians - Rated: T - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 28 - Words: 97,028 - Reviews: 330 - Favs: 556 - Follows: 295 - Updated: 8/6/2013 - Published: 6/16/2013 - Hiccup, Jack Frost - Complete
Like a Corny Old Song by EmmaLuLuChu reviews
One day I feel so happy Next day I feel so sad I'll guess I'll learn to take the good with the bad Cause each night I ask the stars up above Why must I be a teenager in love? (AKA Hijack high school romance with a twist thrown in)
Crossover - How to Train Your Dragon & Rise of the Guardians - Rated: T - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 5 - Words: 15,348 - Reviews: 13 - Favs: 45 - Follows: 20 - Updated: 6/10/2013 - Published: 5/22/2013 - Hiccup, Jack Frost - Complete
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The Guardian of Shadows reviews
Everything at Stake - Everyone at Risk. Hiccup and Jack are attending their fifth year at Hogwarts, 20 years after the Second Wizarding War. But a mysterious dark creature decides to break from their world into our own. A new kind of war is coming. How can Jack and Hiccup know who they can trust? How can the world survive its darkest threat? Who is the Guardian of Shadows?
Crossover - How to Train Your Dragon & Rise of the Guardians - Rated: T - English - Adventure/Romance - Chapters: 16 - Words: 34,169 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 7 - Updated: 7/14 - Published: 12/17/2018
Shatters reviews
Jack suffers a terrible car crash with Hiccup and Emma that launches him into a dangerous downward spiral, until he faces the ultimate choice — if Jack wants to keep living. Modern AU - Hijack/Frostcup - based on the novel WINTERGIRLS
Crossover - How to Train Your Dragon & Rise of the Guardians - Rated: T - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 36 - Words: 41,587 - Reviews: 23 - Favs: 33 - Follows: 36 - Updated: 9/25/2018 - Published: 12/19/2016 - Hiccup, Jack Frost