For Shepard, death is just another technicality (AU, Shakarian).

Ten billion people over here die, so twenty billion over there can live. After the war, there are pieces to pick up, and lives to rebuild. And even with the Reapers gone, nothing is easy.

Short episodes about the sacrifices you must make for interspecies love.

Hawke is at her wit's end when it comes to Fenris, and Xenon poses an offer she can't refuse. A miscalculation sends her into a past that is unrecognizable - will she take a step in the direction of understanding, or will she die at the hand of her lover?

The story of Garrus and Femshep as told by me. Lots of off-canon. Sequels incoming. TW: It's been brought to my attention that some of Garrus' more animalistic behavior in some scenes have caused panic attacks for victims of abuse. I am so sorry for anyone who had a similar reaction. SO sorry. I would like to make any new readers aware of this beforehand. Thank you.

A collection of various drabbles and short ficlets I've written for Dragon Age, either for one of the LJ comms or for the eponymous Quark's insatiable appetite.

Very short stories. Various characters, various genres. Updated irregularly.

Heroes are made, not born. It's a lesson Shepard learns the hard way. "A hero is no braver than an ordinary man, but he is braver five minutes longer." Ralph Waldo Emerson

Twelve years after the end of the war, Shepard is living a quiet, retired life, having put her past behind her. An encounter with an old friend makes her reconsider some choices and just might give both of them another chance at happiness. A story about friendship, love, and blending families. FemShep/Garrus, references to past FemShep/Kaidan and Garrus/OC.

Shepard is distracted. So is Garrus. Awkwardness ensues.

This story I wrote as a kind of Farewell to my Commander Shepard after finishing my definitely last playthrough of the whole Mass Efect saga. I guess I just wanted to leave some kind of record of the profound emotional journey these games have taken me on, and I hope this has led to the production of something worth reading for other fans of the game.

ME3 AU: With the galaxy ending all around him, Garrus finally decides to go after what he wants. Too bad Shepard's too dense to realize that's her.

Most days, coming back from the dead is something she just doesn't want to think about. (Set during ME2)

A hand study.

It's a long road from "alien" to "partner."

They have become masters of speaking without words.

It's a Shepard and Vakarian thing.

Whenever Hawke thought back on it later – and she had plenty of reasons to – she still thought it was ridiculous. A silly prank war, started over a silly card game... and it got a bit out of hand. Well, that was an understatement. It nearly killed her.

Commander Shepard is ready to die. What she isn't ready for is crash-landing on Earth; broken, battered, and alone. Now she must struggle to survive, all while coming to terms with the truth of the Reapers, and what it means for her and the one she loves. Post-ME3.

What better way to wake up than by the woman you love? Garrus certainly can't think of one. Post-Reapers, FemShepx Garrus, Rated for SMUT with a lot of fluffy adorableness. Oneshot.

"This close, the fatigue in her eyes, in the darker patches of skin that decorate the space beneath them, is obvious...She's still the most beautiful sight in the universe." Unabashed romantic fluff starring F!Shep/Garrus. Takes place in some amorphous happy post-war galaxy. Originally written for a KM prompt looking for a 'reading in bed' scene (no kink included).

Commander Shepard meets with the mysterious Archangel in a dark corner of Afterlife. He's clearly turian, but that's all that she can tell as he's kept his helm on throughout the whole meeting. But she can't help but feel like she knows him… ME 2 F!Shepard/Garrus M Content

The Reapers are coming and no prayers or pleas or weapons will turn them aside. The galaxy will have to fight them off the old-fashioned way. ME3 without the Crucible.

Garrus Vakarian's past and present, told through interconnected short stories one letter of the alphabet at a time.

A series of sniper-related vignettes spanning all three games, tracking the friendship - and eventual relationship - between Garrus and Shepard.

Shepard's in lock-up, the Reapers are coming, and Garrus isn't going to sit idly by while the galaxy is lost. Garnering turian support means returning to Palaven, but returning to Palaven will involve answering questions—and facing stark realities—he's been avoiding for years. Written for the 2012 Mass Effect Big Bang.

The worst part about waking up after a snarling bare-knuckle fight with your best friend is waking up in the same medbay.

Two lives, running side by side. Two phantoms, from the future that never was.

When Shepard's suggestion that she and Garrus "blow off steam" doesn't turn out quite as she expected, she and our favorite turian embark on an emotional rollercoaster complete with confusion, angst, anger, and a "happy ending".

Shepard finally works up the courage to make a move on her gunnery officer. Only things don't play out as well as she hoped. That's okay… she thinks. Sometimes things just don't work out. But it seems like he might have said no for very crazy reason. Seriously, how can anybody think that? Set ME2 Garrus/F!Shepard Romance/Humor with M content.

As the final battle with the Reapers grows closer, Shepard and Garrus are forced to face the missed opportunities and regrets that have led them to where they are. Will it be enough, or is it too little, too late? Garrus/Tali, Garrus/FemShep

Snippets of life, the downtime between missions. Highs and lows, tears and laughter. A series of non-chronological but connected fics over the course of three games. Might order chronologically if there's too much time whiplash. DISCONTINUED.

Shepard and Garrus reconnect after Menae and James is an accidental witness. The sex he's good with, it's what comes after that makes him uncomfortable.

A collection of short fiction from the old masskink meme. Contains some editorial changes from the original kmeme versions, spoilers for ME1 and ME2.

A doctor and a vigilante find some common ground on Omega.

Prequel to "The Teyrn's Daughter and the King's Son". A peek into the past, touching on some of the events that shaped the lives of Lyra, Alistair and others before the Blight in 9:30 Dragon. Rated M for safety - language and intimacy in some chapters.

When a routine reconnaissance mission goes awry, Shepard and Garrus are pushed to the bounds of their endurance.

Shepard has her orders. Garrus will always wait for her. Two-shot. Set post game. Extended Cut spoilers. Destroy ending.

Spoilers for EC. Just a whole lot of sickeningly-sweet post-ending fluff.

Shepard returns from the abyss, but she's broken, and her old friend, Garrus, has spent the last two years in hell. But maybe they can repair the damage... together. Possible game spoilers. Still in progress, continues into ME3 and beyond. Yes, there are sexytimes. Sporadic updates, love-driven writing engine.

Set post-Lair of the Shadow Broker DLC. After Liara's visit, Garrus makes a… fairly significant tactical error. Shepard educates him. Takes place after the events in the Omega-4 relay, since that's... how I played it. Previous FemShep/Liara in ME1. Likewise, this is the same FemShep and Garrus as in previous two fics.

It wasn't something she would have necessarily considered before. Before Cerberus. Before coming back from the dead. Before Reapers and Collectors and a suicide mission that actually might be a suicide mission, this time. Before, Garrus had been Shepard's de facto second in command, and it was never, never a good idea to sleep where you worked. But the rules were different now.

There are always bumps in the road that need to be navigated. Set after Garrus' loyalty quest. On the path to a FemShep/Garrus romance.

Even in peacetime, the nightmares keep her up some nights. But he's always there for her, even when he's not. Shepard/Vakarian. Post-ME3. Pure, unabashed romantic nonsense.

Shepard and Garrus deal with the implications and consequences of fraternization. Angst with a healthy dose of schmoop and gunfire.

When Shepard strolled into the lounge, wearing civvies and a smile, Garrus knew the time had finally come, whether they were ready or not. She'd lined them up in her scope and was preparing to take her shot.

She could scrape away the Cerberus paint and tear away the Cerberus symbols, but she couldn't change the Cerberus science that had raised her from the dead, or the Cerberus cybernetics under her skin. Shepard deals with hard truths after Omega 4.

Garrus doesn't know if she is real, or a hallucination, but when Shepard storms back into his life on Omega, he finds that he doesn't much care. He just knows that he's not letting her go again, not if he can help it. -Another kinkmeme fill.

Before she died, Shepard loved the stars. Not so much, anymore.

Shepard is restless. Garrus is agitated. Vega just wants to do pull-ups. Shepard/Vakarian.

During some downtime on the Normandy SR1, Shepard seeks refuge with a friend. -Just a little friendship/humor piece between F!Shepard and Garrus.

It was going to be a joke. At least, that's what she told herself as she opened her mouth and the words, "We could test your reach… and my flexibility," fell out.

This was the first time they'd done this, and Shepard was in some serious pain. But it could be worse. Shepard/Vakarian. Rated M for... language?

It's been a good day. Maybe not quite saving the galaxy at Shepard's side good, but good. And then it isn't.

To be fair, Shepard probably shouldn't have been eavesdropping in the first place.

Every day, starting when Garrus rejoins C-Sec up until the destruction of the Normandy, Shepard and Garrus exchange emails. After all, good friends stay in touch.

After years of working together, Shepard and Garrus can speak volumes to each other without ever saying a word. But when Shepard accepts an impossible mission on a dangerous planet, all bets are off. Rating subject to change in later chapters.

A collection of one-shots and drabbles about the characters of Mass Effect before, during, and after the game. Mainly FemShep/Kaidan centric. *04/03-The Space in Between* 12, 100 word drabbles based what happens after the ending of Mass Effect 3

After seeing the results of Hawke and Isabela's shopping trip, a jealous Fenris decides that it is past time to reconcile with Hawke. F!Hawke/Fenris, kmeme fill. Complete.

You glanced over your shoulder and smiled, cocking your gun with a spark in your eyes. I couldn't resist smiling back, bracing myself against the door. I waited to step into Hell beside you. SPOILERS FOR ALL THREE GAMES!

Kaidan and Garrus have a sane and rational discussion about the woman they both love. Takes place after ME 2. Shepard/Garrus, past Shepard/Kaidan.

Shepard asks Garrus for some sniper training. Things get... up close and personal. Rated M for sexual situations.

Anders stumbles across Hawke and Fenris in a private moment and confronts some unwelcome truths. Justice is no help at all. Hawke/Fenris, complete.

Shepard and Garrus revisit the site on the Citadel where they met with Sidonis.

I always wanted to know what the other fire team was doing during the attack on the Collector Base. This is how Garrus experienced the suicide mission.

It's a long road, from hatred and suspicion and fear, through friendship, to love. Alistair/Amell

AU: fem!Hawke is a Tevinter magister. She kills Denarius and wins all that he owns...including Fenris. This will be a full length AU - events will unfold in different ways because some things are simply fated to be. M for later graphic sex and violence.

They all looked the same to him. Two wooden limbs, joined in the middle, tied together on either end. A bow was a bow to him- except that this one was not. This bow was for Hawke. Female Hawke/Fenris oneshot.

She will not leave him alone. A kmeme fill about accidental touches that spans the entirety of the Fenris romance. Hawke/Fenris, complete.

mShepard barely survived the suicide mission, and decides to take Morinth up on her offer.

Meanwhile, in the Houses of Healing...

Merrill through the looking glass. She watches her companions from a hidden room with many windows. She spies on their dreams. A Dragon Age one shot, Merrill POV.

fem!Hawke/Fenris Anders... A DA2 post-game one shot in response to a story request. "Break her heart and I will kill you," he warned. Angst, violence, romance.

Hawke and Fenris go to the Hanged Man unprepared for Danarius and there is no way to prevent him being taken. So she gives him up - but when the time comes to save him, she may not be able to fix what she's done.

An M rated epilogue to my T rated Gentrification series. Hawke has a few things of her own to teach him and they're nothing to do with etiquette... F!Hawke/Fenris.

Hawke needs a few lessons in etiquette and Fenris is the most qualified to help much to the dismay of both parties. Hopefully they can manage not to kill each other in the process. AU. F!Hawke/Fenris Find it in Russian at /readfic/2628013 - huge love to the talented lenokkk x

Hawke loves music. When the opening night of Kirkwall's theater arrives, the Champion plans to be there. Her enthusiasm is contagious. Meanwhile, Fenris has issues. What's new?

Not a new story, rather the trilogy already written gathered together under one name. I have added to it, however, here and there. Non canon for story purposes. Fenris' wounds are more than skin deep. F!HawkexFenris

Hawke and Fenris seem to get into a lot of trouble when they wander out at midnight, from getting stuck in windows to thrown in jail. Smattering of oneshots in the dark space between acts.

She tries being who she was before but the push-and-pull is too confusing and she's losing sight of her aloofness. He knows it's selfish, she deserves better; but to give her up is unthinkable. Fenris/F!Hawke

Of all of her companions, Fenris was the only one who never used her given name. To him, she was always, and only, "Hawke." Fenris/F!Hawke

Hawke's barricade of jest and optimism can be pierced on occasion. It takes a mother's care to soothe away the sting. Companion piece to "Obsession is a Purpose" from Leandra's POV. Implied FenrisxF!Hawke.

One shot set during the Act II Questioning Beliefs conversation. F!Hawke/Fenris

Dragon Age 2. F!Hawke/Fenris. Set after "A Bitter Pill" and written for a fill on the DAkinkmeme. When things don't go according to plan, how do you get back to "normal?"

He wasn't there when she needed him, and now he shows up at the mansion.Events after Leandra Amell's death in Act 2. Continuing with my f!Hawke/Fenris arc. Rating for swearing, and violent subject matters.

Lady Hawke/Fenris one-shots. Smut, angst, drama, stupidity, and whatever else the muse spews out.

The Hawke sisters were laughing like schoolgirls. It was a village dance, they'd said, one they'd done in Lothering. Female Hawke/Fenris oneshot.

F!Hawke/Fenris pre-romance. Hawke crashes at Fenris' place for a few weeks.

For those who asked me for this, with love. And because I can't for some reason, stop messing with what Varric thinks. Pre-battle conversations in the Gallows Courtyard: f!Hawke/Fenris plus pretty much everybody .

F!Hawke/Fenris. Continuing along from No Place Free, a week later, Hawke gets angry, does spring cleaning, then learns some Arcanum during a thunderstorm...M rated for the obvious M-rated things agaimst walls.

That little trip to check out the Bone Pit Mines? It didn't quite turn out as she thought it would. A retelling of Act 2's A Bitter Pill. F!Hawke/Fenris; rating is for violence.

Set shortly after Undone; a reimagining of Fenris' Questioning Beliefs mid-stage relationship quest. And yes, there is cake involved. Also a lot of Aggregio. F!Hawke/Fenris.

Kmeme fill. One-sided Fenris/F!Hawke. For the first time, Fenris finds himself desiring a woman.

Everyone has been to dinner at the mansion already. Except him. Awkwardness with the parent, dinner conversation, and angst. Sounds familiar-you might like this one. F!Hawke/Fenris.

Kmeme fill. F!Hawke/Fenris, with a Red Riding Hood twist.

A collection of stories, each tale mapping out the inner life of a compelling character from the ME series. Varying lengths & genres. Shipping, dark themes & strong language. Same canonical universe as my fic, "Invictus". Latest installment: Garrus

DA2 Fenris/femHawke wishful thinking

Story of a great friendship between a human N7 trainee and a turian C-Sec officer. AU, because they're fun. Rated M for strong language and adult content. FemShep.

Fairy tales always end with the marriage of a handsome prince to a beautiful princess. But sometimes there are no happy endings.

One bad choice, made during a time of severe stress, has defined Eloise Cousland's life ever since. The men in her life both try, in their own way, to set things straight. Warning: includes a scene of mild bondage and dubcon. One-shot, COMPLETE.

People stuck on ships have to come up with ways to entertain themselves. Here is one such means of entertainment from the Normandy crew about our favorite Turian. G/T and J/EDI if you squint.

This story is a what if. What if Zevran had been interrupted, while giving a massage to a very weary warden, by a very much in love, but still undeclared, Alistair? It is a one-shot and my very first fanfic.

The Citadel Council tries to tie Garrus and femShep up in an open-ended project to "improve relations" between turians and humans. They didn't expect the two to cut right to the chase. The turian Councilor is most put out. Crack fic, contains smut.

He knows that one day this may end, that she may find something more permanent, or he will. Femshep/Garrus, written for the masskink meme on LiveJournal.

Death changes things. When Commander Shepard tries to tell her old friend what he means to her, she finds out that her own thoughts about him have changed. Garrus/FemShep. ME 1 and 2 spoilers. T for innuendo and cussing. COMPLETE. Sequel: Closer to Home

Of patchwork ships and oddities. A collection of unusual pairings from Mass Effect.

In an alternate universe where the First Contact War never ended, Commander Shepard and Garrus Vakarian meet on the battlefield-as enemies. But destiny will not be denied... Garrus/FemShep, AU. 2 chapters. First story of a series.

Squadmates, friends and acquaintances react, in their own words, to the new turn in Garrus and Shepard's relationship. Because everybody's got an opinion. Fem!Shepard/Garrus.

She is fast as lightning and burning just a bright, pushing him across the hundred year distance they have crossed since meeting and beyond. Femshep/Garrus, written for the masskink meme on LiveJournal.

Blessed are the peacekeepers, the champions of the just.

An alternate ending to my story Oaths. Will probably be 2 chapters? Possibly 3? Not really sure yet. Rated M to play it safe. First chapter is strictly Alistair & Morrigan

Rhiann Cousland and an unlikely group of characters learn that some oaths transcend all else. Warning: I played up a few darker aspects of this tale. Rated M for violent images and adult themes.

Angry Garrus is angry, and Shepard goes to extremes to try to help him. *Initially* NONCON, so if that sort of thing upsets you, please steer clear. Oneshot.

Even after finding Sidonis, not everything is right between Shepard and Garrus. Sometimes talking isn't enough to clear the air.

The morning is chill and heavy with mist on the day that you realize you can no longer ignore the Call. Post-game spoiler warning Alistair/Any FemPC. One-shot

The Normandy's automatic language translation services go offline briefly. FemShep and Garrus benefit immensely.

An alternate take on what happened between fem!Shep and Garrus before entering the Omega-4 relay. NuitNuit gave me the title, which is nice.

I was once Cousland and then a Grey Warden. I have known all sorts of betrayal. Now my body becomes a pyre, fuel for my vengeance. This is a metamorphosis, of sorts.

If they're going to rebuild the wardens, they need to establish some new rules. Alistair/female PC fluff, post-game.

Five years since The Blight was driven back, and you have not returned to Denerim. Until now. Complete

Alistair does not like Zevran, but Zevran has some tricks up his sleeves. // The first night Zev spends with the party; Drabble, for swooping is bad weekly challenge #3.

Introducing his ward to his wife does not go nearly like Eamon hoped. // Drabble, for swooping is bad weekly challenge #2.

Alistair introspects, after his encounter with the Witch of the Wilds. // Spoilers for endgame.

-on indefinite hiatus- "I will not stand beside Loghain. And neither should you." Four years after Anora is crowned and Warden Loghain ends the Blight, there is a stir surrounding an unexpected arrival at the Grey Wardens' stronghold of Highever.

Post-Orzammar; Alistair comforts the Warden. // DARK liek woah. You have been advised.

-"If you kissed your sister like you kiss me, we might have a problem," she says. In which Alistair has an epiphany, and Cousland thinks it's about time. On family ties and what really matters when the world is falling down. Rather fluffish.

Alistair and Amell meet one last time in Orzammar.

Arl Eamon tells him, "All women are princesses in their own way, lad. Once you realize that, it's merely a matter of what dragons they need slain."

Once upon a time a mysterious girl joined the Fellowship...damn her! Sick of annoying Mary Sues? Actually READ Tolkien? This may cheer you up.