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navivory: [#000080] Navy (Hyukjae) and [#FFFFF0] Ivory (Donghae)

Basically because after saw Hyukjae's recent pictures i started to think that his eyes are as calm as the midnight sky. His gentle gestures and actions make everyone falls in love twice. He's a guy that every woman would like to die for.

Meanwhile Donghae is just as sweet as cheesecream filling in your cake. His innocent smile and stupid thoughts causes a slight smile formed on your lips. He's that kind of everyone's favorite dongsaeng.

If you think that i ship Hyukhae, then you're wrong. Not completely wrong since i also like to see Hyukjae topping and being a sexy beast, but i'm so into Haehyuk. Don't ask me why because i don't know either. I think that's it?

And oh, i'm still the same Nim. You can still call me so. Please don't force me to continue my fictions because i make them depends on my mood. I'd like to thank everyone who supports me though i always disappoint them *cry* *cry* Thankyou so much guys, i love you! *cry again*

I've made such a big decision for the sake of the future—No, not your future, but mine.

Today is exactly a month before Hyukjae's enlistment, and i think i have to find my own peaceful and cheerful life. I should be starting to check on real life boys, going on a date, having a teenage love story, chasing after my dreams, and shaping the future. I should stop screaming over a certain korean guy that will never ever ever notice me, and get a life.

It's probably not the right place to write this, but i always want to write a goodbye message like those korean stars despite my chance of getting missed is zero. I feel like moving to another planet and leaving a diary book full of complains behind, only to make people understand how hard my life is.

Like Hyukjae that's being asked what would he become in 10 years, i also have a lot of plans, have a list full of dreams. Well, 10 years later, we'll probably be a different person, meet different people, have a different life.

And might also forget our past.

10 years ago i joined many drawing competitions, but now i forget how it felt when i stood on a small stage and held my first cup. It's a similar case to my existence as an author now. Who knows i'll forget the vibe of being here someday? Forget the things that i love the most as an author? A review especially the really long one, readers' satisfaction after reading my stories, readers' complains due to my disability of updating story as fast as a single blink.

With this update, i want to tell you that i...

Never get ready for this but i—

I'll no longer be an author here.

Yeap, that's my decision. I'll miss you guys though ain't nobody misses me too. I'll miss everything i got here, i've learnt so many things here you know. I started as a stupid potato that was trying to produce her first fiction, and ended up still as a potato.

Puberty hits me inside, but never outside. Lol.

And i'm getting mature as time goes by, it must be only me who think like that HAHAHA but yeah that's positive so why not?

I'm gonna say thankyou and sorry so much for what i've done these past 2 years. I'm indeed not the best author here and not gonna act like one, but since i'm kinda exaggerating (do you know that i'm that type to write you a message though you're only going into the next level, not graduated or even move to the opposite part of the world?) so yeah, a farewell message is a musts for me.

I can't leave someone without leaving any single word, that's my weakness point indeed.

Thankyou so much for 84 people who followed me and 86 people who marked me as favorite. And those who have favorited my stories, left reviews and waited for the updates. Also 70k viewers from 14 posts in total until today.

I'm sorry because i've never brought any of my chaptered stories into the end, and left them discontinued. I'm such a bad author:(

I might still publish some stories after this but my status is officially resigned.

Well, it's not about how long it takes and how strong i am to wait them to comeback. It's just about the things i should start to chase while they're away now.

I love Hyukjae. I love D&E. I love Super Junior.

But i have a life that i should also love:)

So, i hope you guys understand. I'm not ever gonna leave them, i'm just gonna leave the world where they all are exist.

My fangirl world.

Umm, goodbye then?

Please send me a PM when you read this only to make me know that i still have friends

Tell me something i need to know~!

((Ariana is that you))

Lol no.

"Bumi itu bulat dan berputar. Selalu ada tempat kosong untuk diisi. Suatu saat nanti, entah kapan, kita yang bakal nempatin tempat kosong itu, menggantikan orang yang dulu pernah menempatinya dan pergi untuk mencari tempat kosong yang lain. Bisa jadi kita menganggap itu sebagai tempat terbaik untuk kita, bisa jadi nggak. Tapi percaya deh, Tuhan selalu ngasih kita jalan terbaik yang Dia punya, dan Tuhan nggak akan ngebocorin kejutan apa yang Dia persiapkan untuk kita kedepannya."

If you want to stay here, then stay here and wait for them. If you still love them, then love them until the end.

Best regards,

Nim and her Haehyuk pride

was monkeunim on January 31st 2013

was chaqueshouffle on May 19th 2013

was naefellas on January 31st 2014

and navivory until today

Jakarta, July 25th 2015, 13:02 PM.

P.s: If one day i change my mind and comeback as an author, i wish you guys are still here:)