pain depends on mind.

It was a happy day for me. Wasn't cold. Wasn't hot. My neighbors were burning their meat so it smelled like BBQ. He came up to me and I smelled his cologne. It hit me hard at first. Then I just smelled a big breeze of onions. it was probably my neighbors. He spoke in an angry tone. Just didn't show it. "Hey steph, uhh I heard about last night..." "Oh Josh look it wasn't what you think it was." " Honestly I heard you were sitting on your porch and he took you. Put a bag over your head and abused you until you... well until you did what he asked. lets put it that way." I blushed at what he said. Not because I was nervous, but because he was to afraid to say what actually happened. "Josh. I was raped. The whole school thinks I'm a freak. i dated a rapist. it is what it is." He stayed quiet. At this point i wasn't mad or angry. Just remembering the events that occurred last night. Wow. last night. so close. I heard josh's mom call my name. I saw Victor with her. I instantly ran. Well tried to until I felt josh pull me back. " I know. Your going through a lot right now. I'm your best friend. And he's your crush. come hang with us for a little bit. get your mind off of stuff." "Are you sure?" "Positive. Now lets hurry. My mums making a cake." I ran in the house and got my jacket. i brought a pack of cigaarrets. Victor said hi with a smile on his face. I did the same. We were in his room. dead silent. I got tired of it. "I'm sorry if I'm being rude but its dead silent in here and yeah i have to go."uh really? its a block away ill walk you." Josh said. Victor spoke right after him. " I'll walk her. besides I have the same street." josh said " pick one of us Stephanie" " nice really nice guys but I would rather walk myself..." "NO!!" they bith said. "let Victor take you." "uh okay?" Me and him walked. it was quiet. a guy approached us as Victor got infront of me. the man asked kindly for a $1 for his daughter who was dressed in baggy jeans that looked like her fathers. i touched Victors arm to get infront of him. i picked up the little girl and we started walking to my house. the man and Victor looked confused as they walked behind us. i got to the front as i out her down. i told them wait here and took victor with me. i told him take anything in the fridge. he grabbed everything i went to my room and grabbed a shoe box. i saved up $700 dollars my whole life. i got $300 out as Victor yelled at me to give him $5. i said no. he has a child that's barely 4. he asled how i knew i told him i asked. so he said fine we went outside as the father was praying and the child mimicking him. i gave him the money and food as they both started crying. i told him my mom was never here so he could come anytime he wants and ill give him food. they started crying. and praying. victor gave me a kiss on the check. i wasn't expecting it. i jumped at the feeling he muttered sorry. but i did the same back.