Welcome to my humble profile. I go by Kat. Feel free to message me, I don't bite :). I'm also on tumblr as 1singlesecond. Aussi, je peux parler et comprend un peu de francais, mais ce n'est pas vraiment ma force...

So uh. I tend to take a really long time between updates. Just so you know before following a story of mine (there's only one here so far lol)
I love writing, my English teacher recently surprised me and said that I wrote beautifully, but I don't write (at least not until now) because, well, here are the reasons why.

1. I'm in a demanding academic program. I'm a high achieving student in this program. But at what cost? My spare time. My time is separated into three tiers: homework, youtube, and everything else, which is where fanfiction falls in. Not that I mind that I use what little spare time I have online, I'm very much and introvert, meaning I recharge by spending time alone.

2. Procrastination. I hear people say all the time "oh, procrastination is so bad for me and stuff", not saying that it's not a problem for them, but thing is it's an actual behavioural problem for me. Meaning, it's not just a bad habit, it's in my behaviour. I get really bad with online friends (I'm sorry senpai!) especially if there's only an email function and no text function (like here on fanfiction). I guess the best way I could describe it is like: I have time to do it, but when I think about the effort it takes I shy away from the task. Starting things is hard for me but the rest is okay. However, repetitively starting things (like writing, I mean I can't write a whole chapter in one go) is the worst. Every time I have to start is worse than the last one. I cope by basking in the rewarding feeling when a project is completed.

3. Sakurai syndrome (that's a knb reference, in case anyone doesn't know). I feel incredibly guilty about... everything really. In this case, writing a story. I worry about people liking it because as a new author, I feel like my readers deserve something worth reading. I worry about taking a long time to do things, and then when I do take a long time then I feel guilty, then I cope by taking even longer, then I feel guilty because I feel like I'm being selfish and it just a vicious circle downwards. I don't want it to get to the point where I don't feel any joy by writing the story. That's why I started in the first place, besides self-indulging. I feel happy writing out what's in my head and I want to share that happiness with others.

Anyways, there you go, my selfish excuses. I'm really incredibly sorry for everything. Even though I probably have nothing to apologize for (just like Sakurai), I still feel horribly guilty.

So uh, from now on in the future chappies, I'm going to say "review because it helps", because it really does. If you don't know what to say, just a simple "that was great!" may be enough to propel me forwards to finish a chappie. I have to know that I'm doing something right.

This is also the reason why I try my hardest to review.

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