He can't let her go. It's not fair that the first time he gets to hold her is also the last, and he can't let her go.

"I did some stuff because I was a stupid teenager around the wrong people. It was dumb. But then I had Quentin, and I thought I would just stop. But his dad was really bad, and I constantly felt like I had this huge hole in my life. My baby should have been enough to fill it, but I just felt so bad all the time that it was like he was was making it even bigger… So I filled it."

"I think my mom's sick." Jake feels the panic set in immediately, but Quentin shakes his head. "Not like that. She always gets sick. Like she doesn't feel good, and she just has to sleep a long time. And she doesn't want to talk to me and can't play with me… I'm just supposed to go to my grandma's when she gets sick." post 1x09