Luke can't remember the first time he started feeling like this, but he remembers the first time he was told it was bad.

They've been planning a long time to come out, but now that the camera's set up and Dan's making them tea for the video, Phil allows his mind to wander.

It's late when Amy gets the call.

Jake's side of the bed is cold, like it's not been used in weeks. Amy knows different, she knows he's probably just up working a particularly difficult case. He's there somewhere, she tells herself she's sure of it.

the words complicate things / but all i know / is that she smells like heaven / and she feels like home.

Dan misses the body next to him in bed that he'd become accustomed to during his week in the north.

Their first night together is not desperate or heated. It's hurting and healing, and enjoying being in each other's company again. It's counting blessings, taking nothing for granted, and being reminded how it feels to be loved.

One word is running through Jake's mind as he slumps into his desk and opens his case file. It's settled in the front of his brain and had gathered more and more weight until his head is pounding, one word plays over and over, drowning out the rest of the world and only leaving him when more painful words hit his ears like bullets and make him shudder in pain. Innocent.

(aka When Will Jake Learn That His Actions Have Consequences) it was a good idea at the time, and Amy was definitely worth it, but that doesn't mean Jake is thrilled about being cold and stuffy on the sofa with the flu.

(now i only spend it dreaming of you.) post-first date season 2. Jake has slowly fallen more and more for Amy, and he can barely believe he even got that chance with her.