We are intimate shadows of ourselves. There are bits and pieces of me scattered everywhere. I’ve gained some, lost some. But I’m more wise that most 40 year olds. I have an old soul and have been reincarnated more than a dozen times but I can’t really remember many of my past lives. I have strong beliefs, I question myself a lot and I’m a philosopher. I’m also a theorist (one with theories). I refer to life often as a game with dice involved. It’s not because we’re nice or mean that we get what happens to us, it’s just how the dice rolled. Maybe it’s God rolling them, maybe it’s just us. I suppose we’ll never know. I’m not Atheist. I find it hard to be. I’ve been raised with Gods in my life for so long that I find I’ve become one of those people who fear having nothing up above me, to believe in, to pray to. I think God is often times, an invention. I also believe we’re God in ourselves and that’s why so many things happen. It’s not a higher power, it’s just us. This is just a theory or thought of mine.

I have many faces, many names. You will see all kinds of sides of me. It’s just who I am and I don’t regret that nor will I apologize for it. I don’t ask you to accept me so don’t assume I need you to. I don’t like fake friends, people you’ve been there for time and time again and the moment, you decide to be selfish and let them stand on their own two feet, their standing there calling you selfish and a fake friend. Learn to fucking stand. Pain breeds strength. Trust your struggle. Isolation is something we all go through. Trust me, I have depression, I know. Some days it gets to me, other times it doesn’t. Sometimes I’m overly needy and other times, I want to hide from everyone, everything. I’m still learning to cope with it.

I’m 20 nearly 21, working my way back into college and I’m a student teacher 5 days a week. I watch kids from 6 weeks to 6 years old. Mostly I work with 1-5 year olds. I love my kids but sometimes they get on my nerves as with most kids. Also, I'm a babysitter on the side when I have time to be & I'm a foodrunner/busser at a cafe not too far from my house. So I'm usually ALWAYS working. If not, I'm with my family at home relaxing or I'm with my boyfriend

I believe in many things. As I said, I have strong beliefs. I’m very abstract, weird and crazy but sometimes I won’t show it, depends on who you are and how well, and long that you’ve known me. I don’t ask to be forgiven for anything. I’m an asshole sometimes, but aren’t we all? You shouldn’t take it personal most times, it’s probably just me being bipolar or telling you a truth you don’t want to accept about yourself.

I don’t smoke, don’t drink, don’t do drugs or sleep around.I’m cautious with myself when it comes to giving pieces of me away. Not saying I’m a know it all, just that I am a big observer and I analyze things a great deal of the time.

I no longer believe in soul-mates and don’t tell people I’m in love with them anymore. Why? As cliché as it sounds, I’ve been through too much , and gone through too many fuck ups and heartbreaks to say it again. The man I'm with now, thinks we are very much soul-mates & I am still skeptical of the term so therefore, I just call us life-mates which may very well be relatively the same thing. Either way, it works for us ]

All In all, I believe I’ll end up alone with a shit load of animals in my house. I love animals. And my dream is to do something life-changing for all people that meet me, with my life. I want it to be important. I want to start a revolution. I’m a writer. Have been since I could first pick up something to write with. One day I will publish many books and they’ll probably suck. I’m not overly confident. I’m an artist, self taught and have been since I was 12. I’m a photographer and have been since I was about 17 or 18. You can check me out on deviantart. The link is below.

www.TheUndoneAngel.deviantart.com

I’m friendly, understanding and caring. I’m also a cunt, intolerant and cruel. It depends, once again, on who you are.

PLEASE DON'T THINK THAT YOU CAN INTIMDATE ME by saying that you're going to hurt me & whatnot. Shove that shit up your ass, sit and spin because I don't personally give a shit what you think you're going to do for me. You fuck with me, it's over. Plain and simple.

I both love and hate the human race for various reasons. We are selfish cruel creatures that deserve to be annihilated but at the same time, we created love, we are beautiful and endless and open. It’s a double-edged sword.

As said before, I have many ideals. If you wish to speak with me about them, I suppose we could. Just message me. I usually respond back.