Nov.11-Happy Veterans Day

Ok, im going to try to post one of my sasusaku stories on here hopefully sometime soon.Between High school drama and Homework it's become nearly impossible to do anything anymore...I've had this friend since the 2nd grd.,dated um in 7th, and we've been close friends after the breakup too (lets name him cupcake for short ok) at least up until recently...ever since he got this girlfriend who didn't like any of us he never really came around again.It sucked big time cause he was like my everything at one point.Even if he doesn't talk to us anymore i still continue to look out for him... after all i could of saved him the heartbreak when his girlfriend was cheating on him all up on this other dude at homecoming of all places, i knew a lil before that too but i was scared to break his heart since i knew he REALLY liked her but hey im the one that has to live with that guilt since i don't plan to tell him that I didn't want to say anything in fear that it was something it wasn't.Well that's my life(in the shortest of possible way to put it)...

(see Prosecutor of Death's profile for a lil more info, hes(referring to "cupcake") the one who dated the other guy and im the one who was rumored to like that other guy when she(PoD) liked him)

Nov.17-Tues.

I'm having the worst week ever...everyones fighting and theres so much freakin drama because of this i may not be able to post any form of story for awhile at least till some of the many issues that are going on as of right now clear up. I'll keep you posted on what's going on when it comes to the stories...

Dec.2-Tues.

Although its not as bad as it originally was last month its been going great. Today as me and my friend were walking our high school track we decided to write a story together. It's titled "You Skipped Me" a kuroFai fic hehe it's going to be so AWESOME!!(see Prosecutor of Death's profile for more info) It was quite funny walking the track acting out what may or may not be included in our little KuroFai story, but we did get a lot of people who we didn't even know looking at us like were idiots or something. X3 LOL I hope this story goes on for awhile cause just editing it makes me want to keep helping her with it.

For of other stuff:"cupcake" still isn't talking to us :( i really am worried about him but i guess he'll come around eventually right? Still single too but that can be a good thing too. I'm also feeling pretty bad about a couple of things...I'm always feeling like im in the way of things such as one of my best friends (Babydino/jwills110) and her boyfriend, and another friend who im always talking about on this thing (PoD) and her boyfriend, mat the perv (not joking lol).Not to mention the fact i sit here watching some of the most important people in my life disappear...like Dakota, i never get to see him but that's because of stupid issues between the families, Trevor because we never really talk anymore and were unfortunately not as close as we once were and Connor, we just haven't talked in awhile...

Dec.6-Sat.

Yesterday the final season of Monk has ended, it was great.Today i seen New Moon which was also great till Edward took his shirt off...yuck.LOL j/k...still thinking of more ideas to put in the "You Skipped Me" story im trying to make to were it stays going for as long as possible but still be an hilarious plot between the couples of Tsubasa(one of CLAMP's best anime's)

Dec.14-Mon.

Love the Mondays i have anime club. The Story me and PoD are working on is going great:) but...Cupcake still isn't talking to me whine Maybe he's hiding something?? Anyway I'm looking forward to tomorrow :D since it's closer to Wednesday. Which means Wednesday Walk which means more planning on the fic and acting out the scenes in public on our track. lol im going to look at my high school days and laugh at how much of a nerd i am :D but i love it and don't want to change it X3

Dec.18-Fri.

Today we got crap done for our biology project PoD and i were the only 2 out of 5 in our group who were really doing anything at all but what ever. It was after the last bell rang that made it all better. :) This is the first in a long time that I've been truly/genuinely happy for once, normally it's fake smiles (that im quite good at by the way...). It started when we were talking about the whole "cupcake" situation and PoD had said "for some reason i think cupcake and you would end up together again one day, and out of all the girls you would be the one i see spending the rest of his life with", keep in mind he hasn't talked to me in months so I've been quite sad, so we were walking to catch our bus and as usual i attempted to get him to talk to me so i said "hello" with a gentle smile and he finally said hi back. This time he wasn't like i have been seeing him lately, he was actually smiling, so i asked how he was. He replied that he was doing well but still feeling a little like crap (hes been sick as well;yes i still watch over him that's what friends do ya know) and he asked how i was doing lately i said decent but then he out of nowhere hugged me...it's been a VERY long time since I've felt his warmth and seen his beautiful blue eyes of his. God did i miss my long time friend but that's not the point, as he was hugging me i could see PoD and her boyfriend making a i-told-you-so face at me as this was happening, then i remembered our previous conversation. lol . I was so happy i forgot my lockers combination and had to sit to think about it for a minute, then as i thought about it...i started to cry tears of happiness. At least now i know he's still there. :) This happened many hours ago and im still smiling.

i think after today ill be more of my old normal self and not so upset/depressed all the time.

Happy! Happy! Happy!

Dec.22-Tues.

We had an early Christmas at daddy's house a couple of days ago. I finally got my volleyball (YAY) since the dog ate my other one. lol . A beautiful silver bracelet with earrings. A Naruto piggy bank LOL which i looooooove. Oh and a Rubix Evolution cube, which if i might say is quite entertaining. sigh PoD's mother grounded her so the "You Skipped Me" kurofai story will be held off for awhile.

Dec.28-Mon.

Christmas at home was amazing, got lots of naruto stuff and new drawing stuff aswell. With in this week PoD might spend the night with another friend of ours(babydino). Were starting up "You Skipped Me" again as well since she is off groundation. :)

Any-who on the brightside "cupcake" and i had a good 3 hour convorsation on christmas day :) He asked me to tell the family Merry Christmas so i did...as i walked away my mother went on how i've been in love with the guy since 2nd grade and if i dont end up married to him ill at least be his best friend or have a kid with him...yea embarrassing much?? After that i had to sit there as my grandfather gave me death glares and my grandma and mother sat there laughing as my 2nd cousin looked dumbfounded...ooh and i have a creeper who likes me...AWSOME CHRISTMAS X3

Dec.