kty-ou:

well i don't know how start...

i've been created fake identities for the last 9 months. Even don't know why. I can't explain it so lightly. i just do it. Well at my last identity i've been caught for a girl who i really like her. It's so easy speak out with her. It's so friendly. But now she's confused because i deleted one of my so many identities and she found me an another one. That i've been so active lately but i've been letting it off for a time. Now she's asking me for questions even i can't answer. ''Why you have so many accounts?''.. ''Why are you changing alot of identities?''.

I just don't know. I guess i want to stay away from fake people who just want me for their convenience. But i'm the fake now because i can't be myself and i've been making another personalities or creating another people who isn't me. How ironic, isn't it?. I was trying stay away from fake people and now i'm become into one. This it's so fucked up. I just wanted get meeting true people who wants me for how i really am. JUST THAT. At my real identity the people just wants me for my work. Not for me. I used to draw. Design pictures. Whatever you may call it. Llongtime ''friends'' just called me for request or Art Trades. Just greeted me 'cause they wanted a fucking drawing. Not for me. And i don't know why if my work sucks. It's a shit. But anyway they seem doesn't care about it .They just were asking for more. I was tired of it. So fucking tired...

They loved my work...not me.

I've been hating the drawing just for that. Well just my drawings. Fake people. Fake people everywhere. This feeling it's so ugly. I'm not a good person. But i don't deserve this...nobody deserve this. I just want friends. True friends. It's all. Well i'm ''kty-ou''..for now.. tomorrow i could be, i don't know...''rumblelover02'' or ''Ramdomtre87'' or another shitty username. But the situation will be the fucking same. Just with a different username. Anyway i feel me so empty. Yeah i have friends at real life (very few but they're so good people ). But you know. I want people who share the same hobbies like me. Who likes draw like me. It's so hard to find them. Especially when you live a little town where all the young people likes Beer, Fuck, Money, Superficiality, Drugs and Tasteless music.

I hope she can forgive me about this. I'm so shamed. I don't know how tell this. This it's so wrong. I don't know what i've to do. I told this by frist time to a friend who it's a really friend. And she know about my situation. She undertsand me. But i haven't told her about my multiple accounts and identities that I have. i'm so fucking sick of this situation. And, who am i? The true me?. Even i don't know who fucking i am. It's so sadly huh?. I can tell you i'm a fake person. I've become into a fake person at whole this time. I'M FAKE, I'M FAKE.

Yep this is my situation. To you this could be so ridiculous. But to me it's so serious. Going around there, doing and creating false identities, it's not normal.

Fuck i'm not normal.

Forgive my bad english. Yes i'm not a english speaker. Isn't my native language. I don't live at U.k, Australia, neither at the U.S. And i won't tell where i live becuase is very likely that I lie about it. And i'll going to create another fake identity. I'm a lier. And i don't want it, So. I just gonna say i live at this little planet. I'm person like you. With at strange temperament and a strange way of thinking and reacting. And very antisocial from what I see. I don't know where i'm going to stop with so many lies.

Take care ( if anyone are reading this, which I doubt)

kty-ou

p.s: Don't be like me.