Hey~

Names Mavilier Adore... it's an odd name, well that's what my friends tell me. Honestly they think everything about me is abnormal so whatever, their still my friends.

I have two brothers... their both really great.
Ones either dead or missing. His name is Christophe, I haven't seen him for about a year. I think I might know where he is at the moment cause he sends me e-mails or mail about every two months or so, sometimes every week. He has the same last name as me so if you ever pass by a brunette with really dark eyes and EXTREMELY scary looking... last time I saw him he was wearing his favorite black jacket, and smoking... I swear hes going to kill himself doing that. Anyway yeah if you happen to see anybody that matches this description and looks to be the ages of 18-25 just message me on here. I just want to know if that dumb ass is okay.

My second brother is completely normal... er sorta. His name is Stephan, and hes a smart ass. I mean really... he's really smart, he already graduated from college(he's one year older than me, so he's 17) well it's real close by are home so he stayed at home instead of getting a dorm or something. We still share the same bedroom together, and its honestly just cause it doesn't bother either of us. Were both really used to our room, but are parents always beg us to move into two different rooms, or one of us to keep our original room and the other to move. We have a pretty big house, about four bedrooms. Two of them are guest rooms, one used to be Christhophe's room. My parents got rid of everything I didn't keep or that he didn't take. Anyways the biggest room is ours, and second biggest is my parents. Their never home anyway. Their planning to move soon, cause they think the house is too small. I don't get it, but Stephan has a job already so he's going to pay for the rent of our old house when are parents move into another "big house". I guess I'm going to stay with Stephan, I've already discussed it with my parents and their both fine with it. Stephan says that maybe if mom and dad move out Chris will come back, I really hope so.
Okay back to Stephan. He's not related to me by blood, he's adopted. So he doesn't share my brown curly hair or my dark eyes like christophe's. He has really black hair, and gray eyes... they might have a hint of blue though, I'm not sure. He's tall, but not as tall as christophe who's about 6 feet tall, he's most likely about 5'10... I'll ask him... never mind he's 5'11. I was close... he used to be extremely depressed and quiet when he was little. He had a twin named Leo, and he passed away when he was eight. I never knew him, I wish I could have met him... it would have been strange though because their identical. I saw one of their pictures together, but Chris made him burn it because he thought that Leo wouldn't like the idea of his brother being sad and crying all the time... well Stephan never really cried, it was scary he was just like dead. Kind of like he lost his other half when Leo died. I never got to see him before Leo's passing, but they always looked really happy in his pictures. Stephan's back to normal though, the death like stat only lasted for about 2 years.

If you hadn't guessed before that was the reason my parents adopted him. They wanted another child that wasn't a freak(me) or a delinquent(Chris), but they thought making/getting a baby was too much work because their never home... so they picked the kid that looked the most promising... don't get me wrong Stephan is great I love him and everything... but when he was little he didn't look very promising. He was well behaved though, well he didn't speak back or do anything wrong. My parents made the right choice in the, Stephan is promising, he has an extremely high IQ and he had great grades, and now he has a stable job and makes... I don't know about 100,000 dollars a year? last year it was 90,000. He's about the only radiologist technician around are town, and if he weren't he would still be the best god damn one in our whole state. He worked his ass off in college to get all the fucking degree's and majors he got, so he better be.

My parents are disappointed in me because I'm "normal" in school work, I have no honor classes, I made sure not to get into any... especially AP classes. I absolutely hate work. Stephan already graduated college when he was 15... I feel bad cause I hoped someone might just push him around in college a little... but Christophe made sure that didn't happen.

Stephan is smart... but he does really stupid things. He won't leave me alone when I'm drawing. I draw my sketches naked, so its really awkward. And he always pokes my arm and tries to get me to mess up when I'm drawing a lil sex or make out scene... But he does do some good things! He promised to get me a tablet for Hanukkah. (which the last day is tonight, but we got in a little argument because he played a stupid stunt earlier today) He's going to get it for me for New Years... he better.

He's lying right next to me on my bed while I write this so I have to be super nice...

Oh he says he loves all of you Fanfiction people... how nice.

Anyway that's enough about him? I'll add more later.

My parents are assholes. I would usually say enough said... but most things need an explanation.

My mom hates me, when Christophe left are house I was really lost. I mean him and Stephan were my guardians that protected/protects me from my mom and dad. So when he was gone, it really hurt. He used to tell me bed time stories... some that scare the living shit out of me and others made me smile. He would kiss my tears away when I had a nightmare. Or he would fight with my dad if he tired to lay a hand on me. He's so special to me, so I was really confused why he just disappeared. He left me a note, and Stephan a little letter saying take care of me or something.

So my mom spent her money to send me to a psychiatrist after I went out to look for him, she told me he was dead or something. I believed her for hell of a long time too, but I didn't want to. So my mind started playing tricks on me, and every time I went to sleep I could swear he was petting my hair ... I still feel as if he is in my room sometimes. Last year he actually was. I was sleeping and he came in through me and Stephan's window. He just told me about what hes been doing, and sang a song, that was part of this bed time story he used to tell about the man who was madly in love with his wife that cheated on him or something...

As she closes her eyes, the world falls apart.

Silent tears flowing from her eyes, falling upon the non existent floors.

Covered in blood we shall lie there, holding hands like lovers should.

Because here, far away from reality. Were meant to be.

You loving me, and I loving you.

We can smile and laugh without all the hate filled stares.

There will be no rights and wrong.

Just me and you.

Together for eternity.

Er... I think that's the song that he sang... I'm not sure. Christophe sang a lot of really weird song to every story he told. But he was actually there that night. I think it was because I hadn't gotten a letter in about 4 months, so I thought he was gone or something. But really my parents were just throwing away his letters for me. I don't know if he knew this and just came by at random... but he did.
I know he was there that night for about 10 reasons.

1. He was drunk off his pathetic ass and actually slept over. (in my bed)

2. He told me the story of the man and the wife

3. My pillow he used still smells sort of like cigs, strawberries, liquor, and just plain old Chris...

4. He brought me a letter

5. he was bleeding so I had to throw away my bed sheets

6. Stephan saw him and tried to get him out before my parents saw him

7. They did see him and my dad got pissed as hell and called the cops

8. The cops showed up and he was no longer there

9. my dad tried to bar our windows

10. the bars broke every other week do to some magical being(Chris) with a hack saw cutting it down every time it was put up... he stopped putting the bars up after about the 12th time.

Anyway my mom is a bitch. She thinks I'm a whore... which I think is funny cause I'm still sorta a virgin. I've only ever had one sorta boyfriend. Still with him. He's real awesome, I'll get to him later.

She blames me every time my dad and her fights... All they do is fight, its a miracle their still together.

She blamed me for Christophe leaving... that broke my heart. She made me sick in the head. Poor ole' me I was only 12 when she put me through the hell of thinking he had abandoned me.
She's told me more than once that she will kick me out of the house if I get pregnant... she doesn't want me to make the same mistake she did supposedly... two bad for her she made two fucking mistakes.
My dad... he has his good moments. He actually was sad when Chrsitophe left. He even takes me out to get ice cream every time he comes back from business trips. We both love mint and chip. Stephan likes chocolate. Christophe likes whatever I'm having. And my mom is constantly dieting.

I feel bad for him, he must have been really good looking at some point, but it's all fading away with stress and age. He might have even looked like Christophe, cause when I was little I always remembered my dad being this handsome guy... and christophe was my superhero saving me from my mom, while Stephan quietly sat in the corner doing math. God he doesn't looks like a nerd.

I really love my dad. It's my moms fault that he gets mad all the time. I know this because are family is always so nice and peaceful when moms away spending thousands traveling the world to "take a break"... shes a terrible mother. All the photos from my childhood and Chris's that I kept cause my mom was going to throw them away... shes always on the phone in the background or not in them in general. Its always my dad trying not to smile as I cry because I dropped my ice cream... so Chris give me his cone or something. We have plenty of photos in front of are ice cream parlor.
I love my family minus my mom. Shes just not a good person... shes always more concerned about her looks than about us.
her top priorities...

1.money

2.appearance

3.work

4.vacations(by herself)

5.dieting

6.putting up a facade to make us look like a happy family

7.killing dads happiness

8.making sure Stephan is doing well(she wants to feel as if she did one good thing... but he doesn't even like her)

9.making sure that hoodlum rat doesn't try to step a foot into our house...

10.taking away my contact from the outside world(i was home schooled for a year because of her)

... that's all I really have right now.
I'll add more about my friends and sorta boyfriend soon... and better things about my brothers and dad.

sorry for the sorta life story? well there was no stories XD Oh well! Next Profile update won't suck so much... I'm new so sue me.