Warnings: Profile may be rated T in some spots, but I tried to keep it vague just in case. (Mild profanity and non-graphic mentions of sexual situations.)

Segments are long, and I'm a habitual rambler. I probably should make up an index. [I feel sorry for the editor if I ever get around to writing my autobiography.] Seriously, this thing is on its way to becoming a novella... run away while you still can.

* Under Construction *

Age: Older than Miles Matheson & younger than Harry Potter (by their birth dates.) [ SO WEIRD still to realize I'M older than Miles! ]

Gender: *waves hand around vaguely* Something like that.

Location: Hopefully somewhere cold and cloudy. On Earth. Currently residing in The United States, somewhat south of Canada.

Profile name: Read, as in past tense.
Yes, that's a nod to the F.O.B. song 'My Songs Know What You Did in the Dark', and also the movie I know What You Did Last Summer. I didn't want something that would fade away with time; I wanted something that would transcend fandoms, and is perhaps a little creepy and taunting. I'm like that. ...then I'm all smiles and rainbows as if nothing happened. I was toying around with a few screen names (as I recently retired my screen name that I had been using online since 1998... to leave my dark past of RL behind. Even seeing it brings up bad memories.) A few of my more recent screen names are very purpose centric. The only one that is sticking is my VERY public persona... and well yeah. You know. I'm not ashamed... but I still don't want my prudish mother running across this stuff or not getting hired, etc. And out of my three top runners my Love liked this one, and it stuck (I mean, seriously, I came up with it almost a year ago, didn't write it down, and never forgot it.) *huggles the SN.* So, I'm keeping it.

Profile pic: The Cheshire Cat by Julien Kaltnecker

If there's one thing you should know about me, it is that I'm...

REVOLUTION (NBC*) OBSESSED

[NBC sold the rights to the show in 2015 (I could be off by a year)]

Index of what you'll find here:
A bit about me & why I'm here (in the realm of fanfic)
Quotes
Favorite Worlds / Pairings
Status of my fanfics
Likes & Dislikes
Lost & Found

I've lurked around here for well over a decade, but I'm on a new path in life that has taken me from just telling myself stories in my head to writing them out. (My rekindled love of Revolution couldn't have come at a better time.) I figure it's about time I get to sharing them. (Didn't hurt contemplating "What is it you really desire?" ~ Lucifer, and realized that if I died tomorrow that one of my biggest regrets would be not joining these sites.) My only regret for waiting so long is all the stories I've missed out on bookmarking, and authors not favorited.

In the past I mostly read Harry Potter, Pitch Black, Invader Zim, South Park, Fruits Basket, and occasionally X-Men fic on here. These days I'm totally Revolution obsessed, but still like to toss in some Rise of the Guardians, South Park, and Invader Zim now & then. (I prefer the IZ stuff here and Revo over on AO3. Each fandom has a different feel on each site.)

And speaking on missing out on things... I missed out on so many good stories over the years because I thought "slash" was referring to the movie type of slash. ...and I do NOT watch movies like SAW. I can't remember when it was that I finally figured out that "slash" in writing was usually exactly what I was looking for. *facepalm*

I owe a HUGE thank you to the players in an old RP (2004 and I was "late to the game") on LJ dedicated to a "mature" HP setting. Not only did they introduce me to my first fanfic so to speak, but they helped me realize things about myself in a more tangible way (at a time, when for the first time in my life, I was questioning who I was. I was always happy just being "me," but all of a sudden for some reason I needed labels.) For that, the Snape/Sirius pairing will always be near & dear to my heart. No one played/wrote it as well as those two did (imo), but I'm a sucker for the pairing all the same.

I will make it a point to mostly post only completed stories. It breaks my heart when I fall in love with an amazing story and the author never updates it. Too much happens in my life and I fall away from the internet for a while. That and if I don't complete a story, I likely never will. (I still have a prequel to an IZ story sitting uncompleted from YEARS ago. I find it one of my best works, but I have never been able to get back into the right mindset.) I don't want to tease people with what could have been. I myself don't like cliffhangers. (*glares at CBS for cancelling Zoo*)

Some stories will be posted here. Those and some more graphic ones will be posted over on AO3 once I get an account and DW (since I hear the really explicit stuff is getting deleted from FF.)

Feel free to point out spelling and grammatical errors in my stories. (But be respectful, please.) I'm a bit OCD when it comes to that. Currently I have no beta readers (even in RL,) and one's own proofreading only goes so far (even when that person is the go-to person for proofreading & editing.) (Note that I may not use all suggestions, for various reasons; but they are appreciated.)

I encourage PMs and emails (is it okay to put addys here?) Feel free to drop me a line. Doesn't matter if it is because you don't want to leave a public review on a story, you want to critique my profile, you're excited that such and such show we both like is getting a new season, or you just want to tell me you seen a really neat shape in the clouds the other day. Go ahead, it'll make my day. (Well, unless you're really rude about something.)
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For the next year or so (well into 2018) my presence may be quite sporadic, as there will be a LOT of things I need to deal with in real life. I would have held off on joining, but I need this form of escape now more than ever. I hope you will understand, &I thank you for your patience.
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Please note, (and I will try to list this in every one of my stories where it comes up, but I can't emphasize it enough,) that just because one of the characters I'm writing as may have an ignorant view of the world, misunderstands how things are supposed to work, or is just one heck of a belligerent person... does not mean that I am like that. (i.e abuse of sub/dom roles, swearing, racist, etc.)
(There are some stories I felt really uncomfortable writing, but it helped me become a better writer by exploring topics/issues/situations that were hard for me. It forced more creativity in ways I hadn't imagined, and caused me to think about characters from new angles. They became so much more richer and vivid.
It reminds me of the time in debate class where on an issue that is VERY important to me I had to defend the side that is opposite from my own beliefs. While in the end it didn't do anything to change my mind, I AM a lot better informed now about the issue, and I can better see things from the other side's pov.
So, even when you don't like something, it is still important to understand it. In writing, it can really open up your options.)
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Quotes & random things:

“I live in a world of fantasy, so keep your reality away from me. I see what I want, I want what I see and that is all okay with me.” ~Itzah C. Kret

“Closed in a room, my imagination becomes the universe, and the rest of the world is missing out.” ~ Criss Jami

“Fantasy is escapist, and that is its glory. If a soldier is imprisoned by the enemy, don't we consider it his duty to escape?. . .If we value the freedom of mind and soul, if we're partisans of liberty, then it's our plain duty to escape, and to take as many people with us as we can!” ~ J.R.R. Tolkien

“Fantasy. Lunacy. All revolutions are, until they happen, then they are historical inevitabilities.” ~ David Mitchell, Cloud Atlas

“If you want to write a fantasy story with Norse gods, sentient robots, and telepathic dinosaurs, you can do just that. Want to throw in a vampire and a lesbian unicorn while you're at it? Go ahead. Nothing's off limits. But the endless possibility of the genre is a trap. It's easy to get distracted by the glittering props available to you and forget what you're supposed to be doing: telling a good story. Don't get me wrong, magic is cool. But a nervous mother singing to her child at night while something moves quietly through the dark outside her house? That's a story. Handled properly, it's more dramatic than any apocalypse or goblin army could ever be.” ~ Patrick Rothfuss

“When you compare the sorrows of real life to the pleasures of the imaginary one, you will never want to live again, only to dream forever.” ~ Alexandre Dumas, The Count of Monte Cristo

“Don't forget - no one else sees the world the way you do, so no one else can tell the stories that you have to tell.” ~ Charles de Lint, The Blue Girl

“You're entirely bonkers. But I'll tell you a secret. All the best people are.” ~ Tim Burton, Alice in Wonderland

“Fiction can show you a different world. It can take you somewhere you've never been. Once you've visited other worlds, like those who ate fairy fruit, you can never be entirely content with the world that you grew up in. Discontent is a good thing: discontented people can modify and improve their worlds, leave them better, leave them different. ..." ~ Neil Gaiman

"One raindrop raises the sea." ~ James Gurney - Dinotopia

"Laws were made to protect humanity. When laws are prohibitive to someone doing the humane thing, then humanity must stand together to make sure the laws are changed to do good." ~ Winter Wolf

"Have you ever danced with the devil in the pale moonlight?" Joker - Batman (1989)

“There are many kinds of joy, but they all lead to one: the joy to be loved.” ~ Michael Ende, The Neverending Story

"We are not ourselves in the presence of others. By this I mean, If you really wanted to know someone, you’d have to spy on them when no one else is around. When you’re young, you truly believe that no one understands you and, well… you’re mostly right. In fact, if you can find even one or two people in your entire lifetime that genuinely care about “getting” you, you’ve done pretty well. Art (in any form) is really just a quest for some sort of remedy for that “lack of understanding” and like it or not, our lives are constantly influenced by the product of that quest and the people who set out on it. I’m pretty sure I didn’t recognize this philosophy when I was a kid but I definitely wanted to be one of THOSE people and I myself, couldn’t understand those who didn’t." ~ Billy Burke

"Life's no fun without a good scare." ~ Jack Skellington, The Nightmare Before Christmas
[ Thus my thinking when I've prayed to Pitch as a Demi-god. ...And yes... I had wonderful delicious nightmares most those nights. ] ( The power of prayer is only as strong as your amount of belief. )

“We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That's who we really are.” ~ J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix
[This reminded me of the Fight of Two Wolves parable when I read it. Nice and concise though.]

“But you know, happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.” ~ J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
[ This rings true for me, as Revolution became my lifeboat in a sea of troubled times... and the fandom shone many lumens, lighting my way out of the darkness. Thank you all so much! ]

“Fandom, after all, is born of a balance between fascination and frustration: if media content didn't fascinate us, there would be no desire to engage with it; but if it didn't frustrate us on some level, there would be no drive to rewrite or remake it.” ~ Henry Jenkins, Convergence Culture: Where Old and New Media Collide

“Tell me a story—a small story, a true story (or as true as you can tell it)—a story from your life. Tell me of a time when you were hurt or afraid. Or tell me of a time when you lost something—your keys, your heart, your mind, your mother or father, your way in the world. Or tell me about a small joy you had today. Tell me a story—and your telling it will change you—and your telling it to me will change me—and such stories will move us both a little closer to the light. Tell me a story—and then tell me another—and I will tell you mine—and we will sit in a feather circle and listen carefully to each other. And then we will write thank-you notes to each other for gifts given in these stories. And then we will do it again, anew. And we will continue doing this—until we heal ourselves, until everything begins to become properly precious, until we stop killing each other and destroying the Earth, until we care for it all so much that we ache, until we and the world are changed.” ~ G Lynn Nelson

[ Thanks to dizappearingirl for sharing the last two! ]
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This is far from being a comprehensive list of all shows & books I like. It is just a few of the favorite fandoms I like playing around in & reading:

Favorite Worlds / Pairings

Revolution:

Bass/Miles/Charlie [No matter what I do now, this is how the stories end up in my head. I have to wrestle with them if I want them to go anywhere else. ]
Miles/Charlie [Yeah, I know... ewwe. On the surface I would agree... but my god, the on screen chemistry! ...and for this duo, it works. ]
Bass/Miles
Bass/Jeremy/Miles
Miles & Charlie
Strausser & his knives

Notes: I support other pairings, but those are my favs. Due to excellent writing, the Bass/Charlie shippers got me on board, even though in the beginning I couldn't possibly see how they could ever be a thing. I was pure Charlie/Jason. ...then C/M or M/B ...But my goodness you people won me over. And did you see what you did?! You see the bold at the top of my list. That's your fault Charloe shippers for writing well enough to make me like Bass.
There just are not enough Strausser stories!!! or Jeremy stories for that matter.
And seriously, what is with all the hate for Jason/Charlie pairing? That was my original pairing for that show. Not even close to one of my favs now, but I don't mind it when I see it. (& still get all "awww!" and squishy seeing them together during rewatches, especially that hospital bed scene.)
"You are Nothing to Me" has to be the most painful scene in all of television. It makes my heart hurt so bad every time I watch it. I've learned to be ready to pause and have tissues on hand. [ before that TLK "Dad, wake up"/"I killed Mufasa" had to be the worst for me. Those set the bar.]
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Invader Zim:

Zim/Dib [Apologies to Jhonen's squiddly spooch.] [And I am saddened that many of the delightfully violent gory fics between these two have vanished. They were the ones that kept me warm at night. While I generally don't like such violence, it worked for these two. You'd expect nothing less. This is a pairing that even stray thoughts out of the blue, years later can still turn me on.]
Dib/Gaz
Dib&Tak
Original stories based off this world

Notes: I first discovered this show after it had already was off of Nick. True Fact: Watching it gave me horribly terrifying nightmares. I only ever found two pieces of fan art that came close to the level of horrifying that the live version of Zim was in my dreams. (And yet these nightmares endeared me even more to the show... once I got over them.) (And I was already a grown *bleep* adult. I have a vivid imagination.)
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Pitch Black/Chronicles of Riddick:
Riddick/ (I can't f'ing remember, but my god, Riddick!!! *swoon*)
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Zootopia:
Nick/Judy
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Rise of the Guardians/Guardians of Childhood:

Jack/Pitch
Jack/Jamie
Pitch/OC
Pitch & OC
Pitch/Jamie

Notes: After reading the books it was hard for me to get over the mortality thing to actually enjoy pairings. (Once I see or read something official, my brain doesn't want to diverge from it as fact. It takes a bit of coaxing.) I'm still hoping someday someone addresses it in one of their stories in a way that my brain finds plausible. As for people adding Jamie into pairings, I was like "ewwwe, he's just a kid." Then I found some where he's older and it started to grow on me. (Just as some artwork from a certain archive changed my mind about South Park.)
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South Park:
Kenny/Kyle

Notes: After discovering a gay art site (when it was up and running *tear running down face for all that lovely artwork that is now gone*) and finding beautiful renditions of the boys, much older, I sort of became obsessed with South Park pairings for a while. After all this time K/K is still one of my all time fav pairings. (I still support Stan/Kyle ...but not if it's breaking up my two... lol.)
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Zoo:
Jamie/Mitch
Jamie/Mr. Duncan [o.O' Yeah, I so went there. (I even wrote a fanfic of it. Yay, go me!)]
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Harry Potter:
Harry/Draco
Severus/Hermione
Severus/Harry
Snape/Sirius
Severus/Harry/Draco
Draco/Ginny
Lucius/Harry
Fred/George
Fred/George/Harry
Scorpius/Al
Charlie W & Harry
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Red Riding Hood (2011):
Valerie/Peter
Valerie/Cesaire
Valerie&Cesaire
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Twilight (books)
Seth/ Anyone/OCs
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Hanibal Lecter (books)
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Star Wars: The Last Jedi
Kylo RenBen Solo/Rey

Currently also reading Salvation (TV) fics:
Darius/Grace
Darius/Liam
Liam/Jillian

Lucifer:
Lucifer/nudge nudge wink wink, know what I mean?
Lucifer/Chloe
Lucifer/Dan
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Crossovers/pairings I currently support/am interested in seeing:
Revolution/ Zoo
Revolution/ Vampire Diaries/The Originals
Revolution/ original vampire and/or werewolf characters and/or Revo characters as
(book) Hannibal Lecter / TV TVD
Revolution/RotG
Charlie (Revo)/ Jonah King
Charlie/Mitch
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Past interests I may still read from time to time or look back on with fond memories (or am interested in, but just not in fanfic)
The Vampire Diaries/The Originals [ see Venture Bros note below ]
Fruits Basket
Pet Shop of Horrors
X-Men (movies) / Wolverine: Origins (book)
The Nightmare Before Christmas
Nick Burkhardt/Captain Sean Renard (Grimm)
Jägerbars/any (Grimm)
Roddy Geiger a.k.a. Retchid Kat (Grimm)
Flagg (Eyes of the Dragon)
Freddy Krueger
Duncan/Gwen (Total Drama Island)
Duncan/Trent (TDI)
So, so many pairings from Venture Bros. [ Insert 'to be updated' message here ]
(Moonlight)
(Wolf Lake)
(The Gates)
(Kindred: The Embraced)
(Reign)
(Hellsing)
(Sabrina Online) [Yeah... I started reading that before it was even complete. ...and that was the naughtiest thing I seen online before stumbling on that adult HP RP. (Aside from the porn spam that came in email.) I was so innocent back then. Innocent isn't the right word... since I was far from it. ...Just innocent when it came to internet use I guess.]
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and I'm a sucker for any generic/original fic of the classics Red Riding Hood and Beauty & the Beast. The more AU and inventive, the better.
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Status of my fanfics:

Hopefully I'll get my Revo stories posted soon. (Not going to list what they are. Will just delete this line when it's done.)

(Some of) What I have in my head & in the works:

In Progress is a Revo/Zoo crossover where a bewildered Jamie is dumped into the world of Revolution while chasing down someone from Reiden. (Once I fleshed it out, it surprised me how much it was plausible... and explained so much about S3 Jamie.) (This was actually inspired by another story on AO3 (not a Z/R co, set more in their original very AU) and another TV show, and I will give proper credit when it's posted.)

For YEARS I wanted a vampire Dr. Lecter, and there was nary a story to be found. Now imagine my surprise in this post Hannibal (TV) setting, that they are running amok! ...and they still are not even close to what I had imagined for our de-countried royalty. ...one day I may give my hand a try at my Justice League style book Lecter/TVD crossover... but don't hold your breath... he is a hard one to get into and I'm bad at crime novels.

Also... the very stories I plan on writing, since they were my inspiration for typing out fanfic in the first place... They are the whole reason for me even joining in the first place:
Revolution: Charlie/Miles - It's a sweet romantic story, explaining my head cannon of why it even happened in the first place. A pragmatic Charlie, & a very reluctant Miles. [Though current head cannon tells a very different story.]
Zootopia: Judy notices that her partner is not at his best in the line of duty and wants to help Nick get over some of his fears. She is a very cleaver and sly bunny.

Floating around in my head are a couple Revo werewolf/vamp stories.
~ One I want to see, but have had no idea how to write it is it is mostly set by the TVD parameters. Miles is a werewolf and finds out shortly after the blackout. Later Bass gets turned into a vampire, and that is the true reason of how Miles tries to kill Bass & leaves. (If anyone wants to try their hand at this, go for it! ...just don't be mad at me if I ever get around to it too.)
~ The other one is reminiscent of Red Riding Hood (2011) (and I didn't even realize it when I first started world building for this one. It was actually inspired by someone's non-supernatural fic ...paired with my interest w/ werewolves in general and really badly wanting a Revo fic with Miles as a werewolf.) Miles is a werewolf of one species & Rachael is another. When Charlie is born, Ben(he has the heightened sense of smell, but can't shift) can tell that Charlie is the same as Miles and that she wouldn't be safe. To hide her away and keep her safe before she turns when she is a teenager, they send her to Philly.

Also floating around my head, but I don't know if I can recapture them:
~ (this is a substoryline of one of my Bass capturing Charlie stories -S1) Danny ends up enjoying becoming Strausser's sub. (Started out as a way to control Charlie, but it turned into something else.)
~ Strausser isn't all that he appears to be. This one also branched out into one where he takes over the former MR after the bombs are dropped. ...and Charlie becomes his captive. ...where upon she gets to know the real him and helps the war efforts to maintain his rule. (all three of the former lean heavily on psychology as the foundation and pivot points. You will see that my other stories have many writing styles and things that push them along. Some it's romance, while others are humor.)
~ There is one (can't remember much, but it was one of my favorites, and I regret being too embarrassed to type it out.) where Charlie rides out west, Miles & Bass find her, and they go along with her plan to start a horse ranch. Much crack ensues, as Bass is "larger than life" *ehem, Charlie befriends a shy gay stable hand that can talk to wolves (we all know how much Bass likes dogs.), the stable hands get no end of laughter pulling pranks on Bass... it's all good natured though, so by some miracle he lets them live. (and because this was one of my happiest stories to date... The RP near the end really stood out, where Charlie got to enjoy the guys playing their old roles. Usually my stories in my head are quite dark, or full tilt all the way. This was more of a nice lazy afternoon feel.)
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Likes & Dislikes

Real Life: Likes (regardless of real life getting in the way) Pie, Wolves, milkshakes, laying in the sun in the grass staring up at the clouds, South African wine, Michigan Cherries, Washington apples, donuts, hiking, pretending I'm a local when on vacation, and did I mention PIE? Oh, and stained glass. BDSM (figured that out when I was like 14... w/no help needed from the internet... I just didn't have a name for it yet.) & RP... Out and in the bedroom, and online. Skateboarding, coffee, fancy/big words. Dislikes: Racists, judgy people, those who would hurt others just to make them miserable, hypocrites, zealots, rapists, violence, war, pyromaniacs who burn forests, attacking other fandoms, changing clothes, any sound children make, monkeys and such, ...humans in general (though I do like some individuals,) pigs.
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In fan-fiction: Let me start off by saying that just because I like something in fandom, does NOT mean I endorse it in real life, and vice versa. For example, just because I fantasize about being "gang raped," does NOT mean I want it to actually happen to me. There is a line between fantasy and reality that this world seems to be forgetting exists.

Likes:

Dislikes & Squicks:

[ If you haven't noticed a theme yet, no, I really don't like children IRL. Dolls scared the crap out of me, and by the time i was 5 (yes, five) i was CERTAIN I was never having children of my own. Even back then I MUCH preferred the company of adults. I made very few friends my own age until high school. *pets her desk spider lovingly* Oh fine, fine, no petting. Yeash! *goes to search for food for it in apology* ]
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Lost & Found:

(not that there is really any found to this section unless you want to PM me asking if I remember that one fic or someone helps me figure out what I'm talking about.) a.k.a. "What the heck was that story called?!"

Long time ago there was an Invader Zim fic I never got to finish reading and I thought the world this author had created was amazing. All I can remember is that it was set a long time in the future and Zim & Dib had long since died. Humans enslaved the Irkens and treated them worse than dirt. There was a resistance building, calling for better treatment and some rights. One of the main characters in the story was a slave Irken that was a trucker.

Another one that sticks out and I'm more interested in finding the author of this; is Zim dropped Dib & Tak off on some distant moon to die. (If I remember correctly this absolutely was NOT slash.) The story revolved around them surviving. It was very well written. It seemed so militaristic that it didn't surprise me to find out the author was serving in the military. At the time they had been "in the sandbox." I don't think the story got many hits or comments and it's always haunted me that I never got the chance to tell the author how much I enjoyed their story.
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[ See people, I may come here for the smut, but it's the serious stuff that sticks in my brain. ]

Keywords: (I'd make this small or hidden if I knew how on FF. Just doing it to make it more likely to connect with others who have similar interests) Revolution, Miles Matheson, Stu Redman, Sebastian Monroe, President Monroe, Sebastian "Bass" Monroe, Bass Monroe, Monroe Republic, Monroe Militia, Jimmy King, Charlie Matheson, Jeremy Baker, Captain Baker, William Strausser, Judy Hopps, Nick Wilde, Harry Potter, Hermione Granger, Severus Snape, Draco Malfoy, Hannibal Lecter, Mary Queen of Scots, Sebastian "Bash" de Poitiers, Louis Prince of Condé, James Stuart, Damon Salvatore, Elena Gilbert, Niklaus Mikaelson, Enzo, Elijah Mikaelson, Hayley Marshall Kenner, Andrea Labonair, Alexia "Lexi" Branson, Joshua "Josh" Rosza, Invader Zim, Dib Membrane, Kenny McCormick, Kyle Broflovski, Jackson Overland Frost, Jack Frost, Kozmotis Pitchiner, Pitch, E. Aster Bunnymund, Richard B. Riddick, Seth Clearwater, Lucifer Morningstar, Count D