Hello! This is AVAgrl and I welcome you to my (updated) profile!

Recent news!!!!!

Welp, out with the old news, in with the new:

I'm back!

Well, not that I actually ever left. Funny thing is, I've been floating around reading a shit ton of fan fictions. Ranging from Sailor Moon, Hellsing, Rurouni Kenshin, Bleach, Code Geas...and a bunch of others that I can't even remember. See, the thing is, I lost all my motivation for writing. I was going through depression, and all the side stories that I wrote on the side would reflect that. Well, I can't just write angst stories all the time, especially when I have stories that I need to work on that aren't angst in the slightest. So, my motivation for Pharaoh Atem just went down the toilet. Actually, all of my writing stopped. Depression can do that to you, but I'm getting stronger. I have the support of a fiance, who's been encouraging me to be a better person, while my father is supporting me in the best way he can. Am I out of it completely? No, but I'm a lot better. I've been trying to motivate other people with depression and so, randomly, a friend asks me what's something I love to do. I immediately responded with writing but then I realized, I haven't wrote anything in years. It hit me how much I used to love writing. So, I talked about it with my fiance. He told me how he actually read my fanfics and how he loved them. The best part was, he even went into detail. He wasn't going about it to make me feel better, but actually giving me his honest opinion. So I was struck by the writing motivation gods and wanted to start writing again, but not just any story, but my current fanfiction.

So I'm asking your readers to forgive me for not giving any updates on my stories.

So here's the updates:

My Twilight fanfiction, Nightmares and Pianos will not be continued. Maybe for some unknown reason it may be, but honestly, I lost a lot of respect for Twilight and there are several fan who make me want to bash my head into the wall. I also hate the writing that I personally have done in that story, so, not only would it require me updating it, but rewriting the previous chapters aka deleting the whole thing and redoing it. I'm not proud of it, but I'll keep it there as a reminder of what I need to improve on and see how far I've come. Also, who knows; maybe once I'm completing my pride and joy Pharaoh Atem, I'll take the time to redo it. Who knows? But for now, I'm not touching it.

My other one shot from Twilight, I'm leaving it there and may redo a couple of things, but I'm leaving it the way it is. It's a one shot that desperately needs to be edited, but I don't really have the motivation to do so.

Pharaoh Atem is going to be my main focus. It's gonna take a lot of time and effort to get this sucker going, but I feel, personally, that it'll be worth it. It's gonna be a longer fic and I'm trying to make it as historically correct (in a sense) while keeping it close to the actual manga/anime universe. Honestly, I might need a beta to kick my butt into gear, but only time will tell. Updates will be sporadic since each chapter will have it's own amount of detail work and whatnot. As funny as it sounds, the chapters that are going to be about the day to day things will be more complicated to write than scenes with battles. I'm trying to be correct with Ancient Egypt customs and what they had back then. Sure, some things will be off for the sake of making them seem civil, but I'm so particular about a couple of details, that not only will I be satisfied, but hopefully the reader (you) will notice them and take them into consideration.

I have a thing for dramatic flare and pauses in my writing, but gosh darn it, I hope you can feel the buildups and pauses that I'm trying to convey! I'm not doing this for just myself, but I want people who are actually taking the time to read something of mine, that they actually feel that they didn't waste their time.

However, enough of my rambling. Sometimes I can get a bit passionate.

So, my lovely readers who I graciously bow down to and love, thank you and I want to apologize for being an asshat and not updating. Thank you.