"I RIDE LIKE AN AMERICAN. MY PUSSY TASTES LIKE PEPSI COLA. I SING THE BODY ELECTRIC WHILE WEARING BLUE VELVET, WHICH I BUY AT THE LAND OF GODS AND MONSTERS. YAYO IS MY BOYFRIEND, AND HE LIVES AT BEL AIR."

Ever since i was little child, i thought of myself as a freak. I was an outsider, someone who adored fantasy and rejected reality. I found solace in books, in music, and in TV shows. While i was growing up, i didn't know that i could mix all those things and create something epic. I had no idea i could express myself without being judged.

That is, until i found Fanfiction.

Fanfiction became my home, my heaven. It was the place i could be myself at, where i could be me without being judged. It became something of vital importance to me. For years, i wrote under another pen name. My stories were loved and cherished; lots of people read and reviewed them. But the writer of those storied died. I no loger felt identified with what i wrote, so i decided to create another account, and begin again. After all, what's a guy to do?

“I was in the winter of my life — and the men I met along the road were my only summer. At night I fell asleep with visions of myself dancing and laughing and crying with them. Three years down the line of being on an endless world tour and my memories of them were the only things that sustained me, and my only real happy times. I was a singer, not a very popular one, who once had dreams of becoming a beautiful poet — but upon an unfortunate series of events, saw those dreams dashed and divided like a million stars in the night sky that I wished on over and over again — sparkling and broken. But I didn’t really mind because I knew that it takes getting everything you ever wanted and then losing it to know what true freedom is.

When the people I used to know found out what I had been doing, how I had been living — they asked me why. But there’s no use in talking to people who have a home, they have no idea what it’s like to seek safety in other people, for home to be wherever you lie your head.

I was always an unusual girl, my mother told me I had a chameleon soul. No moral compass pointing due north, no fixed personality. Just an inner indecisiveness that was as wide and as wavering as the ocean. And if I said that I didn’t plan for it to turn out this way, I’d be lying — because I was born to be the other woman. I belonged to no one — who belonged to everyone, who had nothing — who wanted everything with a fire for every experience and an obsession for freedom that terrified me to the point that I couldn’t even talk about — and pushed me to a nomadic point of madness that both dazzled and dizzied me.

Every night I used to pray that I’d find my people — and finally I did — on the open road. We had nothing to lose, nothing to gain, nothing we desired anymore — except to make our lives a work of art.

Live fast. Die Young. Be Wild. And Have Fun.

I believe in the country America used to be. I believe in the person I want to become.
I believe in the freedom of the open road. And my motto is the same as ever —
I believe in the kindness of strangers. And when I’m at war with myself — I ride. I just ride.

Who are you? Are you in touch with all of your darkest fantasies?
Have you created a life for yourself where you’re free to experience them?
I have.
I am fucking crazy. But I am free.

-Lana Del Rey, "Ride"