Kylo walked fast, clearly angry.

"What's wrong with you?" Rey asked, jogging to catch up. He stopped and turned to her.

"What do you think you're doing? You were supposed to stand there quietly and let me handle this!"

"You we're doing an awful job at it and could have easily gotten us killed if I hadn't said anything!" She said angrily back. He stepped up in her face more now.

"You don't know anything about how war works! Your not my apprentice or advisor or-or even friend! You have no say in what the order does!" He began walking again, black cloak flying out behind him.

"So I was to let you threaten the leader of a planet that makes weapons and do nothing while they killed us? Is that pretty much it?" She yelled still following him.

"Yes! I was handling it!"

They got back in the elevator.

"You handled it like you handle everything else in your life! With anger! That's all you know how to do!" She yelled. He remained silent and when the doors opened, quickly got out and made for the door

"Now you won't even talk to me because you know I'm right!" They continued outside to the ship and Kylo opened up the door to get in, Rey following.

"You can't even face your own feelings! You bury everything so deeply down inside of you so you don't have to face it, that it eats away at you bit by bit and all that's going to be left soon is a hollow shell!" She slammed the door behind them and buckled herself into the co-pilot seat while the storm troopers silently sat listening in the back.

"I'm already a hollow shell!" Kylo yelled, starting the ship up.

"No you aren't, Ben, you have feelings and that's okay! Why can't you see that?! If you didn't hang onto all this rage, you wouldn't have been so easily manipulated by Snoke or Palpatine or anyone else for that matter! But you just want to sit here and wallow in self pity, throwing tantrums that cost people their lives, and murdering anyone that dares to make you feel anything!" She knew her face was red, she was beyond enraged, so mad at him for what he had done to her, so mad at everyone that had hurt him, because despite him being such a despicable human being, some part of her still cared about him and sympathized with him. And it pissed her off to no end that she couldn't just turn her emotions off for him.

Kylo stared at her, an odd look on his face Rey couldn't quite read.

"Are you done?"

"Not even close," she hissed staring him down. He closed his eyes tightly and opened them back up and took the wheel, flying them back up into space toward his ship. Rey refused to back down off of him.

"You think a leader means you need to be feared to be respected, that if you use the force on a few people everyone will give you what you want! And it's not true! Yes people will fear you and do your bidding, but behind your back you will not be respected! You will always have enemies waiting to slaughter you first chance they get because you've wronged them!" She turned around to the storm troopers who had been silent up to this point.

"Are you two loyal to the first order?" She asked loudly.

"Yes."

"Of course we are."

"Is it because you believe in their values or because you fear what will happen if you try to leave?"

The two remained silent, glancing at eachother before putting their heads down. She turned back around to Kylo.

"You see?"

"I'll deal with you two when we land," he said lowly.

"No! You won't! If you punished every one of your soldiers who felt that way, you would have hardly any left! Maybe your stupid...knights of Ren or whatever they call themselves...but other than that-"

"It doesn't matter what they believe!" Kylo yelled, "they are raised from birth to do their job and take orders without questioning me!"

"That's how you want to be remembered is it? You want everyone who thinks of you to say 'oh that Kylo Ren, everyone hated him, we couldn't wait until he died so we could be free to fight for what we actually believed in'. Is that it?"

She felt his rage and how badly he wanted to yell and break this ship apart, but he gripped the wheel tightly instead surprisingly controlling himself.

Rey leaned back in her chair, gripping the arms of it tightly so she wouldn't punch something.

"I don't know why I'm even arguing with you about this like I can help. It's too late for you."

There was a long silence between them as they made it back to the ship.

When they disembarked, the storm troopers quickly disappeared, and Kylo grabbed Rey's arm, dragging her back to his quarters where he was certain she would remain for the rest of her life if he could manage it.

When they got there he threw her in and closed the door behind him. The adrenaline had worn off of Rey now and she was tired of yelling. She knew he was just about to get started though. She felt all the anger and pain rising to the surface of him about to boil over.

"You think I enjoy being called a monster and a bad supreme leader day after day?" He slowly walked up to her where she stood her ground.

"You think I don't hear what people say about me? That I don't know they talk about me behind my back? You have no idea what this is like! The pressure of every little thing that happens during the day resting on MY shoulders, if something goes wrong it's MY fault, if we lose a battle it's because I did something wrong! Everyone looks to me and blames me for every little thing that happens! Nobody cares about how I'm doing mentally, nobody cares I had to kill my own father just to get where I am today!" His voice shook and he blinked hard a few times.

"You didn't have to kill Han, Ben! You act like you had no choice but you did! We were all there and we all could have helped you!"

"Nobody can help me," he said struggling to control the emotion in his voice now.

"Not my father, not my mother, and not you..." he turned around putting his hands on the wall, letting his head droop down between them. He breathed heavy for a minute then pounded his fist on the wall a few times, yelling out in frustration.

Rey had never pitied him so much as she did right now. So he felt like he couldn't be helped...that nobody would even try. That he didn't have a choice.

He was starting to make sense to her now. She gave him a second to cool down then walked over to him and placed an arm around his back. As soon as she touched him he fell to his hands and knees, head still down, hair covering his face, sobs taking over his body. Rey's never ending sense of good told her to help this man. He needed her. No matter how he had hurt her in the past, they were connected and needed each other on a level they could not yet understand. She leaned down with him, arm still over his back, and placed her head against him, remaining silent. The feeling of grief and hopelessness coming from his very core shook Rey to her bones. He felt so alone...so abandoned. A feeling Rey understood all too well.

"You're not alone, Ben." She said. He tried to shrug her arm off of him but she refused to move. He calmed down a bit, his breathing evening out, and wiped his face. Eventually sitting back on the floor. He found he felt so much better suddenly. Like a weight was lifted when he showed his emotions. Nobody had ever seen him this way before, and he wasn't proud of it...but it helped to have Rey sitting here on the floor with him while he fell apart.

"Rey..." he said quietly, eyes cast downward.

"Yes?" She replied just as quiet.

"...help me become a better leader. People like you. When you talk, they listen. You know how to be kind when others aren't."

"Ben, you don't need to be a better leader, you don't need to be a leader at all, you need to go home and apologize to your mother."

"I can't," he said immediately.

"You can! You know she would accept you in a heartbeat!"

"No!" He said loudly. Rey sighed and sat there quietly a moment.

"I'll help you." She said, "but you have to be willing to take my advice! And you can't throw tantrums every time something doesn't go your way!"

"I don't throw-!" He glanced at her, "fine."

She grabbed his hand and he wiped his face again with his other hand.

"You tell anyone about today-" he threatened.

"Don't worry, I won't tell anyone you're human oh great supreme leader." She rolled her eyes.