p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"There was nothing that could hide my scream of raw horror./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Terror filled me rapidly and huge hot tears spilled over my eyes immediately. It was as if my heart had been attached to a bomb the moment I had imprinted on Jacob. Now my time was up. That bomb had exploded./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Along with every other member of the pack that saw what had happened, I rushed to the cliff where my Jacob had fallen, poking my head over the edge searching for any sign of Jacob's body. If anyone was thinking anything I wasn't hearing it. I couldn't hear anything. I couldn't see anything except for raging waters. They attacked the side of the rocky cliff fiercely. There was no way Jacob could have survived the fall. There was no way at all./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"My head snapped up to the sky and I let out an earsplitting howl of pain. The sound bounced off the surrounding trees and filled the air so that it could be heard a thousand times over. The howl choked off into a gurgled sob and then everything was quiet again./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"emIt didn't happen, it didn't happen! It was all my imagination!/em In fury, I stepped back preparing to jump- then leaped off the cliff to a harmony of growls and hollering behind me./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"The wind emwhooshed /emthrough my ears deafeningly and my head broke the surface of the water quite smoothly. Ice captured my hollow heart. My whole body shook with the unbearable cold but I didn't care- I twirled under the water and splashed up to the surface as I gasped the cold air. Despite the fact that my body temperature was well above normal for a human being it felt like I was breathing in sharp shards of ice./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"My snout dug under the water- I dived in again and again but there was no sign of his body. It was no use. Jacob was gone. I was gone. I felt disconnected from my brain as I searched hopelessly over and over my will fading away as if the rushing water had drawn it away./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Suddenly my body was still. I could fight no longer. I saw no use in living if I couldn't be with Jacob. My paddling paws rested and my head dipped under the water. I sunk into the black depths of the waters. My white fur swayed in the icy water the bright surface shone tantalizingly above me tempting me to go back up. My lungs exploded for air. They screamed it so loud that they began to shrivel up into little nothings./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"I closed my eyes and let myself go. Suddenly something hit me square on the stomach causing what little breath I had left to whoosh out of me in a swarm of bubbles. Water filled my mouth, nose and ears burning my throat and nostrils. One of emthem/em was trying to save me./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"I didn't want to be saved. I didn't want to live anymore. I just wanted to die. Why couldn't they just let me die? Unconsciousness threatened to take me away and I was just about to give in when my head dipped under the water while I was being dragged back to the rocky shore. My mouth filled up with water once more and I began to choke. I gagged and coughed violently but I was never able to get the salty seawater out of my system./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Breathing became more difficult as my body was pulled onto the sharp rocks. I was trying to breathe but the water in my throat wouldn't let me catch one breath. "Bella! What's wrong with you?" Sam's sharp voice yelled- he was back to his human form. Someone placed a hot hand up to my cheek and it reminded me so much of Jacob. My white fur curled back up into my body. The freezing air gnawed on my bare skin and I began to vibrate madly as the wind pricked my body like a thousand tiny teeth./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"None of the boys seemed to care about what they were seeing they only cared about getting me home alive. Who cared about me? Why weren't they looking for Jacob? I wasn't on the brink of death. I wasn't lost somewhere in the ocean./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"I was tilted forward and a fountain of water erupted out of my mouth. It seemed to last forever but eventually, the water receded and I was able to breathe air. Someone lifted me off the ground like a groom would his bride and began to run very quickly through a web of trees. The heat of nausea swam in my head, motion sickness hung in the air as I tried not to throw up all over a brother. "Jacob!" I croaked. "Jacob!" I pounded on the chest of whoever was holding me./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""They're looking, Bella. They really are. But that was stupid jumping off the cliff like that when you have just barely gotten out of bed. We'll be lucky if your ribs didn't fracture again!" I recognized the voice of Sam./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""Where did you leave your clothes?" he questioned mostly to himself. I couldn't answer him. I wanted emJacob/em. No one else./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""Where is Jacob?" I sobbed. "Make Jacob come here!"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""We'll find him don't worry. But if we don't-" I didn't even get to hear what he said next. There was a 'but'. emMaybe /emI'd be able to see Jacob again. Maybe. That was what sent me off away from the rest of the world. That was what disconnected me./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Maybe they would find Jacob. Maybe he'd be alive if they maybe found him. Maybe I will die if I find out that Jacob wasn't maybe alive if they maybe found him./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Maybe I would die- but I'd never really been the lucky type./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Terror filled me rapidly and huge hot tears spilled over my eyes immediately. It was as if my heart had been attached to a bomb the moment I had imprinted on Jacob. Now my time was up. That bomb had exploded./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Along with every other member of the pack that saw what had happened, I rushed to the cliff where my Jacob had fallen, poking my head over the edge searching for any sign of Jacob's body. If anyone was thinking anything I wasn't hearing it. I couldn't hear anything. I couldn't see anything except for raging waters. They attacked the side of the rocky cliff fiercely. There was no way Jacob could have survived the fall. There was no way at all./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"My head snapped up to the sky and I let out an earsplitting howl of pain. The sound bounced off the surrounding trees and filled the air so that it could be heard a thousand times over. The howl choked off into a gurgled sob and then everything was quiet again./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"emIt didn't happen, it didn't happen! It was all my imagination!/em In fury, I stepped back preparing to jump- then leaped off the cliff to a harmony of growls and hollering behind me./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"The wind emwhooshed /emthrough my ears deafeningly and my head broke the surface of the water quite smoothly. Ice captured my hollow heart. My whole body shook with the unbearable cold but I didn't care- I twirled under the water and splashed up to the surface as I gasped the cold air. Despite the fact that my body temperature was well above normal for a human being it felt like I was breathing in sharp shards of ice./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"My snout dug under the water- I dived in again and again but there was no sign of his body. It was no use. Jacob was gone. I was gone. I felt disconnected from my brain as I searched hopelessly over and over my will fading away as if the rushing water had drawn it away./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Suddenly my body was still. I could fight no longer. I saw no use in living if I couldn't be with Jacob. My paddling paws rested and my head dipped under the water. I sunk into the black depths of the waters. My white fur swayed in the icy water the bright surface shone tantalizingly above me tempting me to go back up. My lungs exploded for air. They screamed it so loud that they began to shrivel up into little nothings./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"I closed my eyes and let myself go. Suddenly something hit me square on the stomach causing what little breath I had left to whoosh out of me in a swarm of bubbles. Water filled my mouth, nose and ears burning my throat and nostrils. One of emthem/em was trying to save me./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"I didn't want to be saved. I didn't want to live anymore. I just wanted to die. Why couldn't they just let me die? Unconsciousness threatened to take me away and I was just about to give in when my head dipped under the water while I was being dragged back to the rocky shore. My mouth filled up with water once more and I began to choke. I gagged and coughed violently but I was never able to get the salty seawater out of my system./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Breathing became more difficult as my body was pulled onto the sharp rocks. I was trying to breathe but the water in my throat wouldn't let me catch one breath. "Bella! What's wrong with you?" Sam's sharp voice yelled- he was back to his human form. Someone placed a hot hand up to my cheek and it reminded me so much of Jacob. My white fur curled back up into my body. The freezing air gnawed on my bare skin and I began to vibrate madly as the wind pricked my body like a thousand tiny teeth./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"None of the boys seemed to care about what they were seeing they only cared about getting me home alive. Who cared about me? Why weren't they looking for Jacob? I wasn't on the brink of death. I wasn't lost somewhere in the ocean./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"I was tilted forward and a fountain of water erupted out of my mouth. It seemed to last forever but eventually, the water receded and I was able to breathe air. Someone lifted me off the ground like a groom would his bride and began to run very quickly through a web of trees. The heat of nausea swam in my head, motion sickness hung in the air as I tried not to throw up all over a brother. "Jacob!" I croaked. "Jacob!" I pounded on the chest of whoever was holding me./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""They're looking, Bella. They really are. But that was stupid jumping off the cliff like that when you have just barely gotten out of bed. We'll be lucky if your ribs didn't fracture again!" I recognized the voice of Sam./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""Where did you leave your clothes?" he questioned mostly to himself. I couldn't answer him. I wanted emJacob/em. No one else./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""Where is Jacob?" I sobbed. "Make Jacob come here!"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""We'll find him don't worry. But if we don't-" I didn't even get to hear what he said next. There was a 'but'. emMaybe /emI'd be able to see Jacob again. Maybe. That was what sent me off away from the rest of the world. That was what disconnected me./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Maybe they would find Jacob. Maybe he'd be alive if they maybe found him. Maybe I will die if I find out that Jacob wasn't maybe alive if they maybe found him./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Maybe I would die- but I'd never really been the lucky type./p