A/N: And I keep going and going and going... I am just on one hell of a roll it seem's like I have it going on non-stop! Here's hoping you all get to see an impressive display unfold! Oh and I happen to check on the Code Geass Wiki just to keep the details and such in check, and I can't believe I FORGOT THE CAT HUNT! That would have been SUCH good comedic material! Oh well, it's not that big of a deal, I'll just have a bunch of flashback's to the day that all occurred, although now that I think about it. My Lelouch would try to keep such thing's in check...
Well, either way I guess it's time to get on with the story!
Code Geass: Specter of the Rebellon
Chapter 13
A bit of time off, and thinking about recent event's
Ashford Acadmey, Area 11, August 23rd, 2017 a.t.b
Lelouch P.O.V.
It's only been a day since I revealed the Black Knight's to the world...
I can still recall how everyone there, both among the hostages and the Knight's in question of how they cheered for me after my speech...
Yet as I went to sleep, my mind was plagued by nightmare's...
Of seeing of all the people who I have and will bring into my rebellion, all of them being in states that tormented me...
Ohgi and Viletta, left dead beside a grave for a child they wished to have yet died before it could live...
Todoh and Chiba, a blade from the other stabbed into the other's chest, their eye's wide in shock, as if they never saw it come for them...
Gilbert and Nelly, beaten and blooded, his glasses smashed, her limb's broken...
Nunally and Rai, her with her leg's torn off from the knee down, and eye's gone from her eye socket's, and him being left with his throat slit, unable to speak anymore...
Suzaku and Euphie, him wishing to shield her from the pain of the world, her just wanting her Knight and Love to remain by her side...
Mother and Father, strong and certain in their will, yet fallen beside all of those whom served under them...
But the one that left me with the most dread, was that which I saw the last, as if it was DESIGNED to be like this...
I saw myself and Kallen. my Mask broken, my left leg damaged, her left arm limp and lifeless, our bodies littered with cut's and gashes and wound's of all kind's, and yet we were not dead like the rest, instead we were fighting that which was rather easy to say was the cause of it all...
The Lord of Wraith's...
Even with all of our will, it seemed as if we nothing more than incest's to it, to be beaten down and dealt with as saw fit...
Then it had enough of our attempt's to resist, and moved to cut us down...
"YOU SHALL NOT HARM OUR KING AND QUEEN! MONSTER!" Jeremiah and Sayoko cried out, as they attempted to intercept the strike, only to be cut down like all the other's...
It merely looked at their bodies for a second, before it just turned away...
"Did they honestly think that any of them could do anything against ME! It's fitting I suppose, that they died as they lived, trying to protect their King and his Queen..."
"D-Don't you know anything about us, we aren't so easily Bro-Broken!" The Dream version of myself and Kallen Spoke in unison...
The Lord of Wraith's merely let out a dark chuckle...
"At one point you might have had a chance, but you lost it when you lost the Darker Halves of your Soul's could no longer return to you, as you can see..." It said as it held up the remain's of Dark Ranger and Shadow Wayfinder, the red glow they held had vanished, the armor cracked and broken to such an extent that whatever they held would have long since been gone for all of time, never to return...
"Y-You think we'll give up! Don't you know who WE ARE!" The pair cried out as they readied one last attempt, trying to stab him with the blade that Zero is known for...
"I know EXACTLY who you both are, and that is why you shall DIE!" It told them, as the blade broke against it's form, and it stabbed them both in their Heart's...
Wait, does it feel as if I'M the one being-
I suddenly realize that the Zero and Kallen I saw fighting the Lord of Wraith's weren't dream-selves, but ME and HER together...
I felt as if my heart was going to finally halt, my eye's meeting her own, when I heard a distant voice say...
'Don't give up! YOU CAN BEAT THIS!'
And then I woke up...
Screaming like death itself was in front of me...
And I then went to my private bathroom and voided out whatever I still had within my stomach...
"MASTER!/YOUR HIGHNESS!" I heard Sayoko and Jeremiah exclaim in shock and concern...
I quickly ran to them both and just held onto them for dear life, as if to confirm that is was all just a Nightmare...
It's not real, IT IS NOT REAL!
'You bet your ass it wasn't...'
Where you...
'In a sense, I guess so yeah...'
Thank you, just, thank you...
"Is everything alright, Lelouch?" Nunally asked, concern in her eye's and tear's threatening to leak out from them...
"It's just a nightmare, just a nightmare..." I tell them...
"Your Highness, perhaps it would be best if you just stayed in today, perhaps you should-" Jeremiah started, but I was not going to have ANY OF IT!
"NO! I can NOT Simply Rest or halt my work because of something as petty as a NIGHTMARE! DO YOU HEAR ME!" I shouted out in anger, it didn't matter what, I just felt such anger!
"Master, please. With your near death last night, it might be best to-" Sayoko started.
"NO! Every moment I waste time, the more likely it is to end in ALL OF OUR DEATH'S! I can not AND WILL NOT halt my plan's because of what woke me up!" I said still, anger coursing through me, I CAN NOT HALT FOR ANYTHING!
"AGH! What the-" I Cried out as I tried to walk, only to find my left leg unable to hold my weight, and as I tried to move it I only felt an extreme pain.
"If nothing else Lelouch, I think you should stop if only because you need your leg to heal up right." Nunnally told me.
Ah, right, my leg...
Despite all concern's, it was only a minor fracture, nothing that a few day's of bed rest can't fix, but even still...
"No I can't, I have to keep-" I try to say, only to fall down yet again and am unable to move...
"Brother, I know you want everything to go a certain way, but PLEASE you need to rest, even the one who play's the role of Zero is just a man, no matter what the idea behind Zero is." Nunnally tells me, her voice and the look in her eye's saying she is having no room for argument...
'Face it Lelouch, we can't do much right now, and beside's, we have time before anything major occur's, we need to rest...'
Even you, Ranger?
'Yes, now shut up and tell everyone you'll rest and get your ass in bed or I WILL find a way to make you, understand?'
Yes, 100% happy now?
'Good.'
And so I told them that I would keep it light for today, and thankfully Milly knew better than to tease me, especially when it was explained to her how I looked upon waking, as if the Lord of Wraith's had came to me itself and would preform my own execution...
Perhaps that is what my nightmare as about, it trying to get back at me for such a slight?
'Listen, Lelouch, either you just take your time to rest or I will MAKE you rest. Clear?"
Crystal, Ranger...
I hear someone knocking on the door.
"Who is it?" I say with no real concern, as I know if anyone were to try to come after me they would be left dealing with the combined effort's of Sayoko and Jeremiah, and C.C. for that matter.
"It's Kallen, can I come in?" Ah, so I guess one of the teacher's asked her to bring me today's classwork or some such...
Not that I really need to do any of it, when you've been taught by some of the best teacher's Britannia can offer to the royal family, everything else is already figured out. That and how it's all stuff I know anyhow, so it's nothing new for me...
As such Ruben was rather generous to 'exempt' me from the standard scoring record's, as it was said I was far enough intelligent to not have to be scored the same as other's, and it also helped with maintaining my cover, as having in depth knowledge of subject matter's even more advanced teacher's have only basic knowledge of would raise suspicions, and I'd rather not have Ruben deal with any more inquisitive type's skulking around...
It was already bad enough when Sayoko and Jeremiah had to deal with a few before in the early day's of the Academy...
"Sure thing, come on in." I say to Kallen on the other side, as it would be impolite to keep her waiting by my door.
I see her walk in, and I can't help but have my eye's widen in shock as she has some bandages around her arm's...
"What happened to give you those, Miss Stradfield?" I ask, trying to hide anything that would lead her to think I am Zero.
"Oh, I just happened to put a fair amount of strain on my arm's the other day, it's nothing that bad, and you?" She tell's me.
"Well, I'm sure you heard about the incident at Lake Kawaguchi last night correct? Well I wound up knocking into something rather heavy and I must have given my leg a slight fracture, don't worry though! It'll heal up in a few day's and I'll be dealing with the antic's of the rest of the council in no time at all!" I tell her while trying to put on a cheery voice.
I'm sure she doesn't buy it, but she doesn't bring up the subject as she say's "I'm sure it must have been scary, dealing with all of those terrorist's..."
"Actually no, to be honest it didn't really scare me all that much..." I tell her, honestly I have never been one to scare easily, in either life...
Which make's the fact that I was scared above all else at the idea of her dying all the more perplexing...
'Are you SURE you don't have feeling's for her?'
Will you PLEASE just SHUT UP!
Kallen P.O.V.
Honestly, today has just not been my day...
First I have a nightmare were so many people I know and 'don't know' were all dead in various way's, and when I woke up I felt like throwing up...
Actually I did throw up as a matter of fact...
'Guess it's a good thing then you still have you V-Card, other wise you'd be worried...'
OH SHUT UP WILL YOU!
'Honestly though, it was rather gruesome, the fact that the worst you got out of waking up was all of that is a good thing I'd say.'
I guess, but even still, why is it that of all the thing's I saw, the only thing that scared me the most was seeing Lelouch die...
'Perhaps it's because you secretly yearn for him?'
Don't okay, just DON'T.
Anyhow, now I'm here with Lelouch and am trying to talk about with him what happened last night without implying anything that suggest I know's he's Zero...
"Really? Guess not a lot of thing's scare you then huh?" I say to him, as he mentioned to my asking him about how he felt he replied that it didn't bother him at all...
"To be honest no, however I guess you can say that what thing's can scare me tend to, leave a bit of an impact on me..." He tells me.
"What do you mean?" Does he have PTSD? Is it from almost falling to his death last night?
"It isn't so much anything that linger's, it's just that well. I had a rather intense nightmare just before I woke up." He admit's.
Wait, could it be?
"Funny you should mention that, I happened to have one just before getting up as well, and... Well, I don't want you to take this the wrong way, but you were well, in it..." I tell him, it's not like he'd POSSIBLY have the EXACT SAME ONE AS-
"Was it surrounded by the remain's of people you know and don't know, all of them dead and in a variety of state's, and with a figure of utter malice that sought to kill you and me both?" He ask's me while looking dead on in my eye's...
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He KNOW'S about the nightmare...
Is it really possible for people to share dream's and stuff like that?
"Yes." Was all I told him, I didn't feel like I could say anything more than just that one word.
He sit's up and tell's me "You know we can talk about it right? It might help us understand?"
I mean, yeah I suppose, it's not like we've got anything else to loose right?
I go ahead and sit's on his bed and he sit's in such a way to keep his injured leg from being agitated and we look at each other in the eye's...
"Why do you think we had the same nightmare? I understand if for you it would be a close brush with death and the like..." I tell him, trying to keep my mind focused on anything BUT his eye's, or his face...
"I guess, it could be that for you at least, I was one of the first people to introduce you to the Student Council, and knowing that your Subconscious mind felt something of a 'sympathetic response' to the stimuli of someone you know being affected. Well, Theoretically speaking anyhow..." He tell's me.
"So, what does that mean for the two us then?" It's just an explanation that's all, nothing more or less to it!
"Well, I suppose you could say the two of us have something of a connection of sort's established between us, though granted I can't say I've ever really had such a response to someone before." He say's, in that voice of his that can move whole people's.
"What do you mean, you haven't had a 'response' like that before?" Don't focus on his eye's. DON'T focus on his eye's!
"In the sense that the connection's I have with other's can leave an Impact on me, it can both help make the day's feel easier on me when the connection between me and someone is healthy, but also can make thing's feel far worse for me in the event that the relation I have with someone is poor or otherwise damaged to a degree, it's part of the reason why I am rather well known around the school for being the so called 'Ice Prince' it's less out of a disinterest, as it is that I just would rather not harm anything between me and those around me." He tell's me in that voice of his.
"Then does that mean you and I have a deep connection?" Oh how those eye's of his are such an amazing tone and how they are so deep it's as if you can get lost in them forever and...
"Perhaps, if we managed to share a dream together than perhaps it must mean something." Oh how that voice of his sound's coming from his mouth and how his lip's move in such a way...
"Do you think it's at all possible to see what kind of reaction we had if we had physical contact?" Oh Kami how I want to feel him and everything that he has and...
Closer, just a bit closer then and...
KNOCK! KNOCK!
Lelouch P.O.V.
The sound of someone knocking on the door is enough to snap the two of us out of whatever trance we were in...
Kallen's eye's grew to the size of saucer's as much as mine must have and we both made sure to get as FAR away from each other as possible...
"Wh-Who is it?" I say, trying to keep any inflection's in my voice from making it apparent that Kallen and I were going to do something I had NO intention of going up on.
"It's Suzaku. everything alright Lelouch?"
Oh thank you Suzaku, thank you so much!
'If your so thankful for him, then why does it seem like your disappointed?'
NOT NOW! Let's see what he has to ask.
"I'm fine, please come in." I tell him, making sure to NOT look at Kallen or anywhere NEAR her...
Suzaku P.O.V.
I have to admit, seeing Lelouch and Kallen as they were right now was rather, different than what I was expecting...
"Are you guy's sure you're okay? You both seem a little red. Do you think you caught some sort of bug?" I ask them.
"NO!" The two of them Shout out at once.
"Um..." Kallen say's
"We're fine, it's just that, well, we had lot to talk about last night is all!" Lelouch state's.
Okay? What is going on?
"Oh yeah, like what?" I ask...
"Well, I had a nightmare, we both did actually..." He admit's.
Ah, so that's why Nunnally and Jeremiah and Sayoko were so worried looking.
"Yeah, and what was it all about?" I ask them.
"Well, it had people, a lot of DEAD people, all in various state's and apparent cause's of Death, now that I think about it I think you were one of them..." Lelouch say's.
"Oh. How was it for me?" I ask, honestly I can only wonder what was so bad that made them have to just open up about it?
"Well, for you, you were-uh. Protecting someone! Yes that's it, um I think it she uh, I think it was the new Sub-Viceroy I believe?" Kallen say's.
Oh, well I guess it make's sense that even in a Nightmare, I'd be shown trying to defend Euphie with all that I had, though I can Imagine that both of us were dead in there...
I couldn't help but frown "Was there anyone alive there?"
Lelouch then say's next "Yes, us, and we were, facing the Lord of Wraith's, Jeremiah and Sayoko tried to block it from attacking us but, it didn't work..." He start's breathing a bit faster...
"It-it was awful! It just faced us down and it-it STABBED us! Suzaku! And as we were about to die we looked into each other's eye's and we..." Kallen started saying, but cut off after she started to hyperventilate.
"Woah, calm down you two it's okay!" I try to tell them but...
"We... We... WE DON'T WANT TO DIE SUZAKU!" The two of them cried out before they just held onto me and went in hysterical crying fit's and sobbing non-stop...
"It's okay, it's okay. I'll protect you both, just please, calm down." I tell them, trying to rub their back's in comfort...
"But, but we..." They try to speak.
"Shh, Shh, Shh. It's alright, you don't need to do anything, just relax." I tell them.
We stay like that for an hour, at least until the two of them finally get tired enough to fall asleep...
I let them go and try to lay them on Lelouch's bed, so they can at least lie down in comfort.
And while they are asleep, I notice their bodies subconsciously grab onto and embrace each other, as if even while sleeping they know where the other is and try to hold on and never let go...
Honestly, if it wasn't for what caused them to feel like this, I might have even thought about taking a picture of the two like this, sleeping next to each other...
"You alright Suzaku?" Nunnally ask's me, concern on her face.
"Hey Nunnally, they just got to sleep, take a look." I tell her, giving a chance to see her brother and Kallen sleeping.
"Oh Suzaku, why is it that they feel as if they have to suffer in the place of other's?" She ask's me.
"Honestly, I don't know, but I think it's just a part of what make's them who they are." I tell her.
"You know, if Mother was here, she'd probably say the two of them looked so cute together, but I know she'd be crying at how sad Lelouch is." She say's.
"She know's, and she's as heartbroken as you think she is." C.C. say's from behind us.
"C.C." I say.
"Suzaku." She replies.
The three of us share a pensive look.
"You said you can speak with mother correct?" Nunnally ask's.
"Indeed, it's part of the contract I have with her, it allows me to speak with her on a Direct Level." C.C. say's
"So all those time's you've been talking to yourself..." Nunnally state's.
"I've been talking to your Mother, yes. And no, I can't talk to her right now, beside's I don't think she'd feel any better about what is going on right now." She say's.
"Is there any reason why they are suffering like this?" I ask her, is it due to Geass? If so then who has it and how do I kill them?
"Don't go thinking it's due to any outside force at play here, it's just their own mind's dealing with the stresses at play." She inform's us.
"What are we going to do then? What CAN we do?" Nunnally ask's, and I understand how she want's to see them be okay.
"Not much I'm afraid, just be there for them." I hear another voice from behind us.
"Rai!" Nunnally exclaim's.
He and I share a look, and we nod.
"Let's leave them alone, at least for now, okay Princess?" Rai say's
Due to her behavior and demeanor, everyone in Ashford's Student body had called Nunnally (ironically enough, or humorously, depending on who you ask) the school's very own 'Princess' of the Academy...
As such it was something Rai took to calling her by as a way to get her attention, or to ensure she listen's to what he has to say...
As the 'Princess' and her 'Knight,' as many around the school took to calling Rai that due to his near constant presence around Nunnally. Left to the Student Council Room. Sayoko came in and said "Kururgi-Sama, please, I'll watch over Master Lelouch and Lady Kallen." with a formal bow.
I give her a formal bow in return "Thank you, Sayoko-san, please, make sure they are okay when they wake up."
She nodded, though she had a slight frown upon seeing how Lelouch and Kallen still lay upon his bed, tear's still streaming down their eye's even though they were asleep...
I figured it was about time I'd have to go to report to the ASEEC, so I had to bid my leave as well.
I wound up going to the car that would take me there to find Guliford, of all people, in the driver's seat...
"What's going on? Does the Viceroy need me?" I ask him to which he sigh's and replies.
"No, but to be honest, something tell's me today hasn't been that great of a day for you has it?" He ask's me.
I nod and inform him about the current issue's that Lelouch and Kallen have experienced.
"I see, to be honest, it's kind of worrying to know they were so badly affected by recent event's, but not unheard of." He tells me.
Not unheard of? What does he mean?
"Care to explain, Sir?" I ask him.
He let's out a long sigh. "The only other person beside's me and Princess Cornelia who know's this is Darlton, so don't tell anyone! Not even Euphemira, understand Warrent Officer Kururgi." he tells me.
"Yes sir!" I tell him with a bit of a salute.
"Alright then, fact of the matter is. I've, had similar incident's with regard's to Princess Cornelia as well being connected. Though not as well defined or, extensive to say the least." He tell's me.
Honestly it's a bit of a shock to know that Cornelia Li Britannia, and her Knight Gilbert G.P. Guliford, have these sort of thing's...
"Sir?" I ask in shock.
"It's only simple matter's for me, either I see her dead, dying, or other more, unpleasant situation's to put it mildly..." He tells me.
"And the Princess?" I ask.
"She's only mentioned a few of them, such as how I am found hanging by her with a note stating how I have failed in my duty as her Knight. As well as one in which I am left to the action's of the first Princess..." He tell's me.
"Guinevere? What does she have to do with anything?" I ask, having no real understanding what importance that might have.
"I suppose you wouldn't know, but the First Princess and Second Princess have a deep seated hatred for each other. Often time's due to the First Princess's peculiarities when it come's her more infamous action's to put it cleanly." He say's, with a bit of a disgusted look in his face.
"Ah, I get it now." Even despite the change's in the timeline, Guinevere has always been a Royal of a more Promiscuous nature such being the case that, if she had no intent of not having children, she might have had quite the number of successor's in line should she have become Empress.
Then again, while Guinevere LOATHED the very concept of Motherhood, instead preferring to just simply to act without care at all of how many time's she would 'correct a mistake' on her part. Cornelia, despite many claims to the contrary by other's, actually had been a rather thoughtful figure when it came to Motherhood...
In fact, in the old timeline, just before everything truly went to hell, the last good thing I ever recall hearing from her and Guliford was how they were finally expecting a child, and said that if it was a Girl they would name her Euphemira, and if it was a boy they would name him Lelouch...
I asked them why they would name their Potential Son after the infamous 'Demon Emperor' they only told me that they realized what his plan was all along, and hoped that they could ensure his memory would be properly honored by having a son named after him...
They never did get to know if they where having a boy or a girl though...
Enough Suzaku, that's all a distant memory now, figure out why Guliford has to mention what the issue's are between Cornelia and Guinevere NOW.
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Oh I give up...
Guliford seem's to notice the look of exasperation and let's out a brief laugh "Can't figure it out can you? Well it's because Guinevere wished to have my name to be among her list of 'Men I have conquered in all matter's' and Cornelia was rather, understandably, mad at her elder Sister for viewing me as just another man to be used and thrown away like a spent cartage. Although don't tell her I said that, she would be rather mad if that fact got out."
OOHHH! I get it now.
"She's jealous of the idea of you being with another woman, isn't she?" I tell him with a knowing smirk.
"N-NO! Don't be ridiculous! She simply is concerned for the combat ability of her Knight of Honor, that's all!" He tell's me, with a rather predictable blush.
"If that's the case, then why are you Blushing?" I ask him in a teasing tone.
Okay, I am SO going to mention to Euphie at least THIS much!
Euphemira P.O.V.
Honestly, being Sub-Viceroy can be such a pain in the ass sometime's...
If it isn't having to deal with all of the complaint's that have to be then sent up to the Viceroy which more often than not get send back to me...
Then it's dealing with all of the Paperwork...
ALL OF THE MOUNTAIN'S OF PAPERWORK!
Honestly it was a pain in the ass to deal with the first time around enough as is, but now?
Honestly what sort of idiot was in charge of all of this!
Oh wait that's right, Clovis...
Whenever I find the actual Clovis, I'm going to be putting him on PAPERWORK DUTY! Let's see how HE LIKE'S IT!
Still at least I don't have to deal with it on my own THIS time around...
"Honestly Princess, when your sister said she would put me in for a promotion. This was the LAST thing I had in mind upon my advance in rank." Viletta Nu said.
I let out a sigh "Well even if you didn't want to, eventually at some point you'd be left doing desk-work mostly as is. The only reason why some like my sister can act on the front line's is because they have a High Enough rank and in her case in particular at least. Due to her status as being the Second Princess." I tell Nu.
"Beside's, at least this way you have a reason for going over the various document's, so if anything particularity important show's up you can make sure to inform your 'Black Knight of virtue' if you feel like it." I tell her with a knowing smirk.
"Honestly Princess, I don't consider him in any sort of way besides a contact between us and Zero..." Viletta say's...
"Then why are you blushing? huh?" Poking fun with people with regard's to relationship's is fun! No wonder Lady Marianne consider's it so fun!
"Honestly! There a far more important thing's to be going on!" And I guess there are.
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"So, I have to ask, are any of the rumor's surrounding Your Sister and her Knight are true to some degree?" Nu ask's.
"Which one's? I've heard a lot of them." I tell her, and it is certainly a lot of them, honestly whoever thought that Guliford was only present to leave no suspicion's to me and Nelly having any sort of 'Sisterly Bonding Time' is going to find themselves stripped of their rank and thrown out with no trial!
Unless either of us try to kill whoever started it...
Beside's, that seem's like something Guinevere would do more than Nelly or I...
"I was more so wondering about wither or not the claim's that the First Princess has some sort of 'contest for the conquest of Gilbert Guliford' with your sister has any real basis or is just something made up entirely."
"Oh, THAT. Yeah it's pretty much real, only Nelly and Gil don't want to admit it." I tell her
"Excuse me?" Nu ask's.
"Oh right, well I just call my sister Nelly so often and Guliford Gil for Gilbert for short so often I forget that it's only really between the three of us and Darlton." I say.
"Huh. And what do you call the First Princess then?" She ask's me.
"Oh HER, a few thing's, 'Miss Abortionist' is one both Nelly and I share with equal ire."
"Really? THAT Rumor is true?" She ask's with disbelief in her voice.
I let out a hollow, sardonic laugh "Trust me when I saw they don't call her, 'First Leg-spreader of the Realm' for nothing. Honestly the ONE time I went to her estate, actually I don't even wan't to talk about it, ugh!" I say while shivering in disgust at the memory...
Honestly I DID NOT need to know some thing's she does with regard's to whatever man she caught at the time...
"Huh, guess she has a lot of experience then, does she only bother with men or?" She trials off
"Or what?" I ask her
"You know 'Play both sides'?" She clarifies.
"Oh, Honestly I don't know, but knowing her, she probably does, of course if you want to talk about royalty who 'play's for the other team' then you don't really have to look much further then Schinzey." I tell her.
"Who?" She ask's.
"Schenizel, the Prime Minister?" I tell her.
"OH! Wait, REALLY?" She ask's.
"Yep, honestly I don't know why no one's brought it up yet, I thought it was a well known fact?" I tell her, does she REALLY not know his preference?
"Um, I can't really say for most people, but I didn't know about it at least!" Viletta say's.
"Huh, Perhaps it's just cause I'm used to it." I say. Honestly I guess being around him and not thinking him all that much different from any of my other sibling's does make it different...
"Wouldn't that cause an issue if he were to become Emperor?" Viletta ask's.
"What do you mean?" I ask.
"Well, It's just that, well you know, line of succession and all that..." She say's.
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Oh.
OH!
"Eh, Schenizel would just leave it to one of our sibling's who would fit his overall world view if needed. And besides that, I can't really say I have ever known him to be all that interested in the throne to be honest. Unless your counting the one Sibling who can actually compete with him of course." I tell her.
"Who can compete with the Prime Minister?" She ask's...
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Does she have an issue with her Memory or something? I'm pretty sure Lelouch didn't use his Geass on her...
Maybe THAT's why no one investigated her forgetting where her Knightmare Frame was the first time around?
"I was referring to Lelouch..." I told her flatly...
"Ah right! Sorry, must have slipped my mind!" She tell's me...
Honestly Kaname Ohgi, I really do wonder what made you fall for this woman in the first place, aside from her look's of course...
Not like I can compare to either of my older sister's in that regard. In fact I'm sure NUNNALLY will have more in that regard as she grow's up more, if her Mother is anything to go by...
I wonder if Father took her for Empress and as a consort for just as much as her look's as her actual combat skill...
It would explain why Lelouch is someone that might be described as a bit of a 'Lady Killer' in term's of look's as he grow's older.
But he's too nice to actually be that sort of guy, FAR to nice...
Plus I think he'd rather just have ONE potential partner to have his children with...
Honestly I think I recall Father mumbling under his breath a few time's that he 'didn't have to put up with this unwritten rule of being Emperor' and while I'm sure most men would DREAM of the chance of having as many partner's as they want legally...
I can tell Lelouch isn't the sort of guy for that sort of thing, not to mention the absolute HEADACHE that would have to be to manage ALL of those potential Heir's...
And while Suzaku and I wouldn't mind having a fair few kid's, I think it would be best to limit the amount to a manageable level. If only because of how much I'd have to do about it...
But such plan's and dream's will have to wait, right now we ought to just focus on getting the Throne back to where it belong's...
"Ah, Princess Euphemira." I hear the voice of my love and future knight call out to me.
"Warrent Officer Kururgi, how is your time at Ashford Academy?" I ask him, as sadly we have to be mostly professional in our action's.
"It's been about as well as I expected, had a fair few of the student's talk behind my back a lot of time's and some thinly-veiled and not so veiled insult's be thrown at me. Overall my most optimistic expectation's." He tells me, and I can't help but frown at him telling me this.
"But" he added "The Lamperouge sibling's have been doing all matter of effort's to ensure I am as treated fairly as I can be, given the circumstances of course." And I can't help but smile at how Lelouch and Nunnally have been doing what they can to help Suzaku out in whatever way they can to make his stay just a bit easier...
He soon frown's though "Although, I have to admit that Lelouch and one of our classmate's haven't been doing so well..."
Seeing that he is going into a rather touchy and personal subject I tell Nu she has the rest of the day off and is excused from her duties...
"What's wrong with them Suzaku?" I ask him, all pretense of formality being dropped, if something is wrong with my brother, I NEED to know.
"Apparently, they had a nightmare, a REALLY bad one. As in 'You and me and everyone else they care about being dead and soon joining them via Lord of Wraith's' levels of bad." He say's, and I'll admit that DOES sound bad.
Wait a second...
"What do you mean they had A nightmare?" I ask him.
"In the sense that apparently the Nightmare they had was a shared experience. And the classmate in question was Kallen, Euphie." He tell's me.
"How bad was their response?" I ask him, knowing that those two have a lot on them both...
Him being Zero, and her being one of the best the Black Knight's have as a soldier, considering she has the potential to take on Suzaku evenly in a one-on-one fight...
"The two of them wound up bursting in hysterical tear's and fit's of sobbing when I asked them. As well as how they said they 'didn't want to die' among other thing's, when they fell asleep and I had left them they were STILL Crying in their sleep."
OH Lelouch! Kallen! YOU POOR THINGS!
Taking a deep breath to keep myself from crying myself "How long has this been going on?" I ask him.
"Apparently Lelouch has had it only ONE other time, though it was not as severe, and he didn't explain what it was either, not even to Nunnally even. And as for WHEN it occurred, it was the morning before Shinjuku." He said, also taking a deep breath to steady his nerve's.
"And Kallen?" I ask, perhaps she has had more incident's of this occuring?
Suzaku only shake's his head "I've checked through all the record's, even put in a formal inquiry to the Stradfield esate. And I've also asked her Brother, nothing. Not even once."
Well that doesn't help with thing's...
"What are we going to do? Well Suzaku?" I ask him, honestly it's annoying that there appear's to be no real solution.
"C.C. suggested the best we can do is simply let this run it's course. And while that is an option, figuring out what the root cause of the problem is also useful." He inform's me.
"Do you think it might have something to do with Geass?" And while there was never any indication of someone with a Geass that could affect people's dream's, the fact that Lelouch could use his to affect a person's wakeful perception might suggest something to that sort of an effect.
"Nope, C.C. herself told me as such. And while she isn't always the most forthcoming with information, it might be best to take her word for it." Suzaku tell's me, and while I might have to agree with his assessment, it might not necessarily Geass from an EXTERNAL Source that is affecting Lelouch...
At least Relative to him.
"Do you think it's his own Geass?" I suggest.
"If it is, then I don't believe it's a sign of it going Rampart, from what Cornelia, Guliford, and Darlton informed me. Ranger himself said how 'it doesn't work like anyone else's' so that mean's the likely hood of it going wild is non-existent." And I'm convinced that's true, since this is RANGER we are referring to...
"In that case, perhaps as a sort of 'warning' system for him to be mindful of how he approaches thing's?" I suggest.
"If that was the case, then why did it affect Kallen, and not only that, why did he have it happen to him BEFORE he obtained Geass?" Suzaku bring's up.
"Fair Point." And I forgot about that whole tidbit of information.
DAMMIT WHY DOES THIS HAVE TO BE SO CONFUSING!
"Um, Euphie?"
"WHAT!"
"Um, behind you." He say's with a nervous look in his face and voice.
Please don't let it be a Wraith. Please, PLEASE Don't let it be a Wraith!
"Oh don't be so quick to judge my dear Princess, your Boyfriend here was just surprised at how I showed up without making a single sound."
Oh, it's just her.
Turning around to face our uninvited guest I confront her "Shadow Wayfinder right? Do you mind telling us what the problem is with my brother and Kallen?"
She let's out an amused chuckle "Oh? Not even going to try to deny the claim's of you and Suzaku here being Boyfriend/Girlfriend?"
I feel a slight rise of heat in my cheek's "I know what I feel for him, and he know's what he feel's for me. Beside's it's not like I can say anything about it in Public. So you saying it isn't that much really."
She lift's her head back and let's out a roar of laughter "AH!HA!HA! Well now! I wonder if the two of you would rather just skip all the Pomp-and-circumstance expected of the two of you and just go straight to 'consummating the relationship' as it were..."
Okay, now I KNOW she's just doing that for the reaction!
Trying to keep the blush on my cheek's as under control as possible I ask her again "What do you know about the issue's plaguing Lelouch and Kallen?"
She stop's laughing and has her Visor gleam straight into my eye's. "Well then, if you insist..."
What does she intend to do...
"If you must know, I can't explain the exact details on the matter at hand. And even if I WANTED to! There is the fact of the matter is that there are thing's in play and rules to abide by that even WE can't break or ignore. By those being's who are SO high up on pecking Order that even the 'World of C' as you call it is but comparable to a Amoeba as to you are to it in complexity..."
The idea that there are thing's whose Power exist beyond that which is often thought of as 'God' or the 'World of C' as Suzaku said it was called by Charles Zi Britannia...
"You haven't even BEGUN to scratch the surface on how the way the world work's, much less to consider the MULTIVERSE! To say the least of the one's who you can call our 'Bosses' for lack of a better word..." She continue's saying.
"What about the Lord of Wraith's? Where does a being like THAT place on the scale?" Suzaku ask's, he's taking this a fair bit better than me at least, or he can hide it better anyhow...
"If you plan on comparing me and my Partner to THAT... THING! Than you are an Idiot who has NO idea on how this all work's. Okay I'll try to give you an analogy, If the World we exist in here is a Computer system, and you all are akin to Program's within said system. Then the Lord of Wraith's as you call it is akin to a Virus that seek's to take total control of the Computer and ALL other one's that have, can, and WILL Exist. And as for my and my Partner, you can think of us as Counter-Agent's designed to hunt down and DESTROY whatever trace's of that Virus are found and still remain while eradicating the source of the infection within the system..." She explained.
"And where does that put being's like 'God'? System user's?" I said.
She only laughed "No, think of being's on that level as being more like System admin's, be it on a local level or a more large scale component-wise, the one's who we have the order's from, the one's who are the REALLY High up there as I said earlier? The one's that make God's comparable to an Amoeba in complexity by comparison? THOSE Are what you might Call System User's!"
What sort of being's could exist with that level of power? What kind of DIMENSION do they reside in?
"I know you're probably thinking about the nature of their existence. Word of advice, DON'T Bother doing so with your understanding of how thing's work right now. You'll get a proper explanation sooner or later. All you need to know right now is that you're better off just waiting off till later, okay?" She said.
Okay fine, but only because I have more important thing's to be doing!
"Well, simply put the issue is that being who they are, they feel as if they will always set themselves for failure. As a result they feel a lack of confidence in themselves, which can impact the relationship they have with each other. Point being that they NEED each other, and that without it, then they will fall apart and break down into pieces..."
"Wait a second, so the reason why they are like this is cause they aren't TOGETHER?!" Suzaku and I exclaim at the same time.
"It's not as simple as getting them to admit that they like each other, and if you go about it like that then you'll just make it worse, the thing is. It's that they need someone to just go up to them and tell them 'You can do this!' as well as 'You can rely on each other!' among other thing's, well. I say that they need to be TOLD that, but it's more like having a situation where they need to know they can depend on the other to give them strength when needed, kind of like you two actually..."
"What? But I'm nothing special! I'm not strong or capable like Nelly, and I always need Suzaku to watch out for me..." I tell her.
"Euphie..." Susaku calls out to me.
"That's were you're wrong. Euphemira Li Britannia..."
"HOW AM I WRONG! HOW!" I yell out.
"Isn't it obvious? You ensure Suzaku has someone to return to, that no matter how hard the fight get's, he has someone to LIVE FOR! That's why he was commanded to 'Live On' in your old timeline. You are as much, if not MORE SO, important to him than ANYTHING else, Not the Lancelot, not the ASEEC, not anything!"
"She's right you know, you have always been the most important thing in my life, when you died. I lost my grip on the world, on everything, including my humanity..." Suzaku tell's me, the pain in his voice so clear.
"OH! SUZAKU!" I cry out as I hug him.
"EUPHIE!" He respond's with, holding onto me as if his life depended on it.
"So you finally understand? The bond you share will always remain, even after everything that has happened to you both. Once, you both were simply Naive fool's who thought the world would be simple to change. But you have learned, and now know that it is not simply holding onto an ideal, but doing what you can to make it a reality. And as a result of that realization, you now have a confidence in your action's and abilities that can ensure that even after all you have faced and will face. You know that you are not alone and will always have at least one other to stand beside you, no matter what. Lelouch and Kallen know this in part, but their mind's are always filled with a degree of self-doubt that stem's from the fact that they are afraid. Afraid of the truth of who they are coming out, and I'm not talking about their heritage's when I say that..." She say's.
"What do you mean?" I ask her.
"I am talking about the full nature and history of their soul's of course. To keep it light on the details, they have suffered in many aspect's, the mind, the body, and above all else, the soul. They are afraid of having the information regarding the nature of their soul's from being revealed. Information that, sadly, can not be told to you two until the SAZ massacre and the ensuring battle that will follow in it's wake, and while the cause of the massacre will NOT be tied to you Euphemira Li Britannia. It is a fact that some thing's can not be simply overruled, even by being's such as I and my Partner..."
"So people are going to die, no matter what we try?" I ask, tear's falling from my eye's as I realize that I will bear witness to yet another Massacre, even if I am not the one in control of it.
"Death happen's to all living thing's eventually, and even still I am certain you both can assume just WHAT sort of figure would desire such an event..."
"The Lord of Wraith's" Suzaku spoke through grinding teeth, anger and righteous fury seeping into his voice, and we both know that if there was anything to cause it in this timeline, it would be at the order's of that THING above all else...
"I am sorry, both I and my partner are sorry for how there is only so much we can do, as I said, even we have our limit's. However if there is one potential benefit to be gained. Is that it will ensure both Britannian's and Japanese alike will rally to the Rebellion you all wish to ignite, regardless of background or previous action's. Say what you will about Zero Requiem. But you must admit, Lelouch had a point in how by making himself the enemy of the world. He wound up being the one to save it. But don't worry, that won't play out here. Not when their is THAT THING to have as a comparison..."
And she has a point, why make yourself the 'Demon Emperor' when their is a being that make's a Demon look noble by comparison?
"To be fair, their are such being's a 'Noble Demon's' in the existence beyond your Multiverse. One of which could be said to have punished a 'God' that acted out of line even!"
I kind of wish I could see that for myself...
"Believe me, it is something incredible to behold. But that, is a story for another time..." She finishes, before she disappear's, as if she was never there in the first place...
At least we know what we need to keep in mind to ensure my Brother and his own Knight-no, his QUEEN. From falling into constant self-doubt and helplessness...
Lelouch P.O.V.
What happened?
Why am I in bed?
Oh that's right...
I'm sorry you had to deal with that Suzaku...
I know you've dealt with me having self-worth issue's in your 'canon' timeline, but I think the one's that I have will beat out any other Lelouch you could meet...
Well, most of them anyhow...
Still, it feels so soft...
Too soft...
'Oh come on! Can't we just enjoy it a little? It's not like she seem's to be complaining!'
I don't see how it's fair when she still seem's ASLEEP!
'Come on dude. You've pretty much NEVER had the chance to feel the comfort of a gal outside your own family, and you know I don't mean THAT kind!'
*sigh* I guess if she isn't opposed to it...
'There we go, it doesn't have to mean anything, just two friend's giving each other some much needed comfort!'
Who just so happen to be a guy and a girl? Who ALSO happen to be just about the age to be considered Mature Adult's?
'...'
...
'Do you feel anything 'down there' going on?'
To be honest, no...
'So? It mean's it's okay!'
I GUESS so...
'So we gonna talk about what happened before Suzaku came in? And DON'T try to claim you don't remember! You're memory is top notch!'
I don't want to talk about it now...
'HEY! What give's huh?'
Honestly, I'm feeling rather tired, I think I'll just sleep here...
'At the very least, could you change into some proper sleepwear?'
Well, I guess it wouldn't be that big of a problem...
Thankfully I am rather skilled in moving about without disturbing someone who is already asleep, and manged to change my clothes without any real issue's...
'Well, here's hoping to better dream's ahead!'
Yeah, here's hoping...
Ranger P.O.V.
It seem's like they are starting to forge a proper sense of bond and trust with each other...
'It's slow going to be sure, but they are our Lighter Half's, they'll get their eventually...'
I know THAT! It's just that I am worried that they might take a bit too long.
'Considering the mental image their shared dreamscape created...'
A sort of mixture of 'internal warning' and 'kick in the pant's as it were...
'Agreed, my love. I just hope they don't try to rush it, lest they burn their bond out...'
It's a tough balancing act to be sure. But they will manage...
'I know what you mean, my Darkened Love...'
I love you for all of time, my Shadowy Wayfinder...
'And I you, my Dark-enveloped Ranger...'
A/N: So that's it for this chapter! So I figured it was best to give something that helped showcase that for all the brave face's both Lelouch and Kallen put on to the world, they are in fact two soul's who have endured pain and suffering like none can imagine. And as a result of that pain, are very much so scared to giving a hint of opening up to another about the pain's they feel within them, so while the Lelouch and Kallen of canon had self-sacrificial and self-worth issue's, the version's of them in my story have that turned up to 11 as it were. If not more than that even!
Also no, Viletta wasn't replaced with a fake or anything like that, I just happen to write her in that she has such moment's, as it stand's it seem's odd that she would be let off the hook as she in canon unless there was anything to indicate her at time's being somewhat forgetful is not at all that unusual for her. (I mean she lost a freaking KNIGHTMARE FRAME! HOW DO YOU EXPLAIN THAT TO A SUPERIOR OFFICER!)
Speaking of nightmare's... it's not exactly a telling of what will happen, but rather what is it stake should the two of them (Lelouch and Kallen that is) fail to connect in any real way. And I'm not saying in the sense that they 'figure out the other's big secret and end up declaring their love for each other!' In any kind of way, it's like this...
The two of them have been in a lot of pain in their old live's and lost most if not ALL the people they had cared about and loved at one point (And in Lelouch's case at least thing's got a BIT more out of hand rather than it being just for him.) And it took time for them to have made new connection's with people past that point, so upon finding themselves in their new live's. They are VERY afraid of the idea of people finding out about their hidden past's that even their own parent's and sibling's don't know about. As such, it will take time for them to build up a strong enough bond with the people closest to them for them to feel okay with revealing such a major secret. And as a result the fear's of losing everyone they ever know and love cause them to react as they do when the mask's start to slip off, revealing the hurt and injured soul's beneath...
For comparison with another Anime, let's take a look at Shinji Ikari and Asuka Langley-Soyru from Neon Genesis Evangelion. (Of which I have a Fanfic titled 'Evangelion: A few Specter's in the Work's' which I WILL start working on again when I finally feel my creative streak shift to it, whenever that might be!)
Both of them suffered a great loss at some point in their live's. That being their Mother's having their soul's placed within the Eva's, as I'm sure everyone who has a basic understanding of the plot know's about in this day and age. With Shinji having seen the whole process unfold before his very eye's when it goes WELL, and Asuka seeing the result when it only end's up with just HALF of the soul in question being initially absorbed in the Eva. In which she find's the other half, and it's...
Effort to rejoin with it's missing half, to put it lightly, and how it succeeded in that effort...
And of how she was the first person to stumble upon it with her own eye's...
Point is, the two of them had their world's completely and utterly SHATTERED. And the action's of those around them and the event's that followed didn't help.
Their Father's having pretty much abandoned them in all matter's of their live's...
Forced to skip out being children, only living a lie when in the presence of other's to give a false sense of normalcy, both for other's and themselves...
And of course, being forced to fight in giant Bio-Mech's designed to kill being's that defy standard reasoning and seek to destroy all life on earth and replace it, and also having said Bio-Mech's being powered by the SOUL'S OF THEIR MOM'S!
AND ALSO having to deal with being part of an Organization that DEMAND'S that they act as if they are fully grown adult's when they are called SECOND AND THIRD CHILD!
Not to mention how said Organization's Parent group seek's to bring about an END OF THE WORLD SCENARIO! As well as how said Organization's 'Bastard King' seek's to use SAID Scenario for his own reasons...
AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF! When they FINALLY get a sense of Normalcy in their live's and can feel as if they are who they really are, when they end up trying to connect, it all fails and the people they care about either Die (In the case of Misato and Kaji being their surrogate parent's) or are forced to leave and might as well BE DEAD when it all come's to the climax (Their three classmate's) or end up forgetting them and are little more than pawn's in the larger game carried out by those who hold power above them (That being Rei and Kaworu, in different degrees of each depending on the version of the story in question)...
Point being, they have been through utter HELL, and the ONE time they see each other for who they ACTUALLY are deep inside...
Well, I think the following quote sum's it up enough...
'I Feel Sick...'
And that should be enough to tell you the sort of mindset our Prince and his Q-1 are in...
Even though they managed to push through and endure the pain's they faced in their old live's, the fact of the matter is they never got a chance to truly HEAL from the experience, the best they did was do a rather well stitch up job on their Heart's, but they have yet to begin to actually heal up the wound's that require said Stitches in the first place...
And while they have the mental ability to keep everything from falling apart in an instant, the fact is Lelouch and Kallen are wounded and need time to heal, not so much in a physical sense, but rather on a deeper, mental level, beyond that even!
It's just that they are afraid of the idea of showing that pain to anyone, and just the THOUGHT alone that someone else might ACTUALLY have the same experience and pain as they do in each other's mind's at least...
They need to learn to trust each other with these deep secret's with each other, if they just went ahead and proclaimed their love for each other, it would only make them feel MORE pain, as they would feel that such love isn't GENUINE in their eye's...
A good relationship, from my understanding at least (I have yet to believe I have had any actual experience with love and romance of any kind.), is built upon all else, a foundation of trust...
Trust in that your partner can understand that even when you seem angry and mad at them, that it's just the anger talking, and that you do care for them...
Trust in that the both of you can talk about your deepest, darkest secret's that you would rather have the world never know...
Trust in that you can show them who you REALLY are behind all the mask's you wear in life (A rather major yet also fitting point for these two above anyone else, given the canon history they share)...
And above all else, Trust in that you know they have your back even in the worst of situation's, and that they will never abandon you even in the face of certain death, for knowing they would rather die with you than live without you...
THAT is the sort of thing's that our Prince of Zero and his Q-1 need to figure out and establish, and it need's to be done at THEIR own pace.
Too slow and they will never realize it before it's too late...
Too fast, and they will burn each other out and fail to fully grasp the level of the connection's they share, as well as feeling as if burned by the too sudden contact and reveal of such thing's that they will instead retract from each other fully and isolate themselves from each other (If not in the sense they try to stay out of the same location as the other, than at the very least acting as if they have never even met in the first place, or as if they were total stranger's if asked.)...
As such, the romance between the two to of them is going to be something of a slow-burn sort, drawn out by the fact's of the live's they live, as well as the event's they will be having to deal with, alongside the result's of action's of both their own doing and that of other's...
After all, they have a Rebellion to manage...
In that sense, when you look at how it wound up for them in canon, it's as tragic as what befell Suzaku and Euphie's own budding relationship, it could have been something amazing to behold, yet it was halted before anything could come from it. Ending with his 'Death' and being left to exist in such a way and in a world that even though they would want to be together, they can't...
Him for being the 'Demon Emperor' of the world, hated and misunderstood by many, the truth of which is only known by a select few, who even if they wished to tell the world, would be forced to accept the view of the masses. Knowing that doing so would undo the peace they have sacrificed for, and for all those who died to make it a reality be dead in vain...
And her for knowing that even though she love's him, he can never be a part of her world, for she is smart enough to know what he wanted, and is willing to suffer a lonely life to honor his wish, one that she herself shared at one point, even if she refused to admit it...
As for how Lelouch act's in canon, I think it's more of a coping mechanism, to him, he lost his mother, his father cast him and his sister out even though she can not fend or care for herself in many way's. Was sent off to a nation that he felt could be a second home to him, only for his new home to be invaded and turned into a place where those whom he would have called friend's were forced to be glorified slave's in many way's...
I do believe that whenever he said he used people and lied to them, he was actually lying to himself...
He probably did care for the Black Knight's, and that he DID wish for them to be free, he just wanted to say that he used them so when the time came, he would give them a reason to keep fighting for their shared dream, even if it was against himself...
I would even say he did come to view Rolo as a sort of Younger Brother, he just claimed that he 'used him' like the Geass Directorate did as a mean's of coming to grip's with the death of another he came to view as a Sibling in a manner of speaking...
And above all else, I am certain that if there ever was a Girl to have won his Heart, it would be Kallen, his Q-1...
Why exactly? Because in Chess, the only second most important Piece one can have is the Queen, for the Queen can move in way's most can't, and as a result, is at time's even more protected than even the King!
As a result, Lelouch as the 'King', gave up all chance of a life with Kallen to Protect his 'Queen', even though he knew that it would lead to 'checkmate' in that they would be forever forced to live apart...
For what better indicator of love and trust between two people, than the mean's and ability for them to let each other go?
I can see why people who Ship with Lelouch with other's feel the way they do (Yes, that even include's the SuzuLuLu shipper's, not that I have anything against gay love, it's just that it feel's a bit off to me in their case...) and that they have some point's to bring up of how some might be a good fit based on this thing or that thing...
Their have been a number of people who have already given their reason's why KallenxLelouch work's for them, the fact of how they are pretty much mirror image's of each other in that both hide their true selves behind false mask's, representing both the side of them that yearn's to be normal, and also the side that wishes to rebel. As for my thought's on the matter? I can't really say, since even I am still trying to figure it all out myself, but I like to think it's based on the point's other's have brought up...
As I said before, I have no real experience with romance of any kind. At one point I thought I had, but looking back on it now, I can tell what I felt for her didn't seem that much more deeper than a surface level affection. I don't think she'll ever come across this site, let alone this story in particular, but even still, all I'll say is that I have no hard feeling's against her, and even if some we know might say she was taking advantage of my feeling's, well, if nothing else I just wanted to be a good friend if nothing else. And there was another who professed her own attraction to me, on the day of our Graduation 4 year's ago now, soon to be 5 year's upon the coming of the New Year at the Time of this writing (12/29/2019) and she admitted it to me, and I told her I just didn't feel the same way. Why? Because I felt more of a brother and sister bond with her than anything else, even if I was never the most outgoing and social person at school, but it was also because I just knew back then, that once we finally Graduated, we would all go our separate way's. And how I would no doubt be forced to move again due to reason's beyond my control, and so I let her go, I hope she's found a guy who can make her feel happy. And that whoever she's in a relationship with can make it last, as for me? I am wiling to go on my life without finding that special someone, even if it will be lonely and painful. I am willing to endure it, if only because that once Death finally decide's it's time for me to leave this world behind, I am certain that wherever I end up, being Heaven, Hell, Limbo, or even a world like Code Geass for an example! (That WOULD be kind of meta, so I guess I'm writing out as much as potential guide for me to follow along as much as a story for all of you to enjoy!) I am certain that wherever I end up living, WHOever I end up living as. I feel that in that life, I just might find that Special Someone I am certain is out their for me, my own Twin Flame...
Which is what most people are ACTUALLY talking about when they claim that some one is their 'Soulmate' ACTUAL Soulmate's are just friend's you have across multiple live's, like that one friend you feel like you've know your entire life but have only just met or haven't 'known' all that long, that's what a REAL Soulmate is. That one person you feel as if you have always been in love with even though you only just had a brief moment of eye contact with? THAT is what A Twin Flame is, I learned about it from a video on Youtube, look it up if your interested! But also be mindful that there are such thing's as 'False Flame's' who you THINK is your Twin Flame, but actually isn't, I wouldn't go so far as to say the person I had a crush on back in my school day's was one... But I know better than to just act on such thing's like how I did then, I won't go into details, just the fact that I am wiser on the matter's of my heart now than I was back then...
So that was rather long! A bit of a contrast compared to what I had for the opening segment's Author's Note! Still I hope it give's you all a better idea of how I plan on going about the more 'Romantic' and 'Heartfelt' side of the story!
Anyhow, til next time!