Chapter 13: Reckless

Moving in wasn't too difficult. I didn't have much when I'd met Higurashi anyway. Packed the clothes and shoes that I brought with me. As well as the few that I bought. Piled them into my car and was on my way. Our goodbye... it was an awkward one. It didn't sit right with me, but I didn't expect anything different. I sighed; she picked one hell of an apartment though. 3 bedrooms and one bath. I'm sure I could use the extra room space for something else. The kitchen and bathroom had well enough space It was on the eighth floor; a great view. Dark chestnut floors, that matched the door frames. That held black sliding doors. Cream walls that held Wide brown panoramic windows. It felt very open but still comfortable. I'd say I did a good job moving the furniture in and the arrangement of it all. Look at me, doing manual labor; for free at that, and I didn't even call for help not once. That is a gold star in my book. I sat down on the couch, listening to the sound of my own blood rushing through my veins. What a way to spend the weekend.

"Well, this is boring."

I sighed rubbing my eyes. I was feeling a little groggy.

"Some coffee wouldn't hurt. Going into the kitchen, I stopped in front of the coffee maker. This was one that was completely different from the one Higurashi had. By different, I meant very inexpensive, and too many buttons that I didn't know how to use. Someone with sense would have kept the manual.

"It's fine. How hard could it be?"

After twenty minutes of messing with the thing and I could figure it out. I didn't even know where the coffee was supposed to go. I sighed; putting my pride aside, pulling out my phone.

"Yes, hello. I need your help. Could you come over?"

I had found myself knocking on Sango's door at nine in the morning; hoping she was home. I didn't call ahead because knowing Sango she would have said no. The door creaked open; a grumpy woman staring back at me.

She groaned. "Kagome. Do you know what time it is?"

"Yeah, and I'm sorry I need some and advice. You wouldn't turn me away after I came all the way here, would you? Would you do that to your best friend?"

I tried my best to lay the puppy dog eyes on here.

She stepped aside. "Fine. Hurry up and come in."

I went in going straight to her couch. She did the same, laying on my lap.

"So, what do I owe this very early visit?"

"You remember Sesshomaru right?"

"The man-child? Yeah, how could I? What of him?"

"He moved out yesterday," I told her.

"Great. So what exactly is the issue?"

"I kind of miss having him around," I admitted sheepishly.

She sighed. "Kagome. YOu have to stop getting attached to people so easily. Since we were kids you've had a habit of picking up broken things and fixing them. When you do manage to fix them and it's time to let them go, that lonely feeling you try to ignore finds its way back. We've had this discussion too many times Kagome. You have to realize that doing this only hurting you."

I bit my lip. I wanted advice, not a lecture on the bad habits that I needed to shake.

"I can't help it. Growing up a Higurashi is a lonely life. You don't know who wants to be with you for you, or because they want something from you. You're the only person I've met that actually wanted to be my friend. I guess I'm wondering if our 'friendship' had an expiration date. Ugh, I'm sorry to bother you with something so stupid."

"It's not stupid. It matters to you, but you have to realize that not everyone has the same heart as you Kagome. Maybe this is another lesson that you needed to learn. How did he do it? Tell you that he wanted to move out I mean."

"Something about that I had helped him be able to take care of himself, and that he didn't need to impose anymore," I explained

A few moments of silence had passed. I looked down, making sure she hadn't fallen sleep on me. Instead, I found her looking at me strangely.

"What? Why are you looking at me like that?"

"You don't like him do you?"

"Of course I like him. He's my friend. Even though there are times when I want to pummel him into the ground."

"No. Kagome, I mean do you like, like him?"

I stood up quickly, causing her to fall onto the floor. "I do not have feelings for him Sango."

She got up, rubbing her arm. "You seem very defensive for someone who is supposed to be telling the truth."

Before I could open my mouth and give her a piece of my mind, my phone rang.

"Hello? Oh, alright I'll be right over."

She smiled at me. "Was that your boyfriend calling?

I rolled my eyes. "Bye Sango," I said running out her front door.

"You didn't say no!" she called behind me.

My doorbell rang about twenty minutes later. I opened the door, and she barged right in.

"What is it? What's wrong?"

She spun around her chest heaving. Her face flushed. Probably from running up the stairs. Did she really rush all the way over here?

"Did you run up here?"

She huffed. "Yeah, the elevator was taking too long. So what is it? What do you need my help with?"

I cleared my throat. "I couldn't figure out how to work the coffee machine."

Her shoulders dropped. "The coffee machine? Is that a joke? Here I am thinking you were in some kind of trouble."

"I am. I'm in need of coffee and I can't make it work. I would call that a problem."

She put her hands on her hips "I thought you were a man who was capable of being on his own."

"What I said still stands. Someone once told me accepting help from someone is nothing to be ashamed of, and right now I need some help."

She smiled. "I think you just missed me."

I shoved my hands into my pocket. "Well, you came running. Who's to say you didn't miss me."

She shrugged. "I guess I did. Maybe I just missed my friend," she said avoiding my eyes.

I sighed. There was that word again; friend. I watched as she looked around.

"I like what you've done with the place. Very homey. Not douchebaggy at all, which is progress for you." She said laughing.

I just watched her, not wanting to take my eyes off of her. I could watch her all day, as much as it bothered me to think about it. He thick tresses, I wanted to run my fingers through them. Her lips... I wanted to tase them.

She smiled. "You're awfully quiet what is it?"

"You wouldn't even date my brother would you?"

Her face fell. "Sesshomaru, that is disgusting. I would rather chew glass."

"Great. That is all I needed to hear."

I grabbed her by the waist, pulling her close to me. Smashing my lips onto her own. Suckling her bottom lip, gripping fistfuls of her hair gently. Tasting each and every crevice in her mouth that she had to offer. She held onto my arms, leaning into me. Soft moans slipping past her lips. It only riled me up more. I wasn't sure how long we continued on like that, but I didn't want it to end. However, I knew that was wishful thinking. I slowly pulled away, looking at her. Her eyes lidded, as her hazy eyes looked through thick lashes. Her bruised lips slightly parted. A heavy blush on her cheeks. Her breathing was heavy. I stroked her cheek with my thumb. I wanted her to say something; anything. I pulled away fully. I looked at her as she regained her composure. She blinked a few times. No doubt trying to process what just happened. She looked at me. I could see the shock in her eyes. I took a step towards her and she took one back.

"Kagome-"

"I'm sorry I have to go."

I watched her turn tail and run right out the front door. Shit, what had I done?