Chapter 13: Promises

I had taken a very well needed cold and I meant a cold shower. Yeah, I had been turned on before, but not like that. Maybe while watching a video or two, but never touched by someone else. I stared at my reflection in the mirror. Disappointed in myself. I enjoyed it. That stupid kiss on my collar bone. The way he was holding me like that. I wanted to slap myself. There had to be some reason that I liked what had happened. Mabe being a virgin was finally starting to take a toll on me. Maybe I was the dog in heat. Drooling over Shippo, enjoying Sesshomaru's advances, and even going out with SSango the way that I was dressed. I was turning out to be quite the little wanton woman. He was a jerk and he says and does things that made me angry. So, why? Why was everything he said in that room true? I groaned, opening the door. I couldn't hide away in the bathroom forever. There he was standing there in all his gloating glory.

"Don't look so smug."

"How can I not? You decided to stay."

I took a seat at the table. "Well, I don't know where we are. I am hungry, and I didn't want to walk out of here and look like I was doing the walk of shame."

"Hn. Whatever you say, and I took the liberty of ordering everything on the menu. I wasn't sure what you wanted."

I looked up at him. "Do you ever do anything normally?"

He took a seat. "No. I do not."

"I figured as much."

I plucked different things from different plates. I could see him watching me eat, but I didn't care. I was too hungry to care.

"Let me take you out. Dinner this Saturday, to Japan's best restaurant."

I set my glass of water down. "One thing you should know about is that I am not impressed by money. Besides I can't go. I have plans with someone else."

He quirked a brow. "Someone else? As in a date?"

I cleared my throat. "Yes. A date. We are having dinner and he'll be the one cooking."

I could see the annoyance on his face.

I smiled. "You seem angry Sesshomaru. Are you okay?"

"Do I know who he is?"

I shrugged. "Probably... his name is Shippo Tanaka... maybe you've heard of him," I said looking out the window.

"You're dating the competition? Do you have no sense of loyalty?"

"Oh spare me. I think you've forgotten that I don't work for you anymore."

"Break it off," he ordered.

"You see. There you go again thinking you can just tell me what to do? I don't belong to you Sesshomaru. I make my own decisions."

He huffed. "What makes him so great?"

I looked at him. Was he jealous?

"Well for one he is kind. He also very generous, courteous and he listens and he doesn't order me around as some people do. He's sweet, and I like sweet."

I could have sworn I saw a hint of sadness in his eyes, but only for a second.

"Can he make you feel like I do?" he asked.

"That was just something physical Sesshomaru, that doesn't count. It's different with Shippou. I have some feelings for him."

"It doesn't do well for my ego to hear the woman that I want, say that she has feelings for another man."

Now I felt kind of guilty. He actually was hurt.

"Could you ever feel that way about me?" he asked.

The question had caught me off guard, and I wasn't really sure how to answer.

"Sesshomaru look, you and I are two different people. We value different things. I don't think that we could eve really have a thing. I just have no emotional connection to you. Well, except when you make me angry and that's not a good thing."

"I can change that."

"Sesshomaru why are you even trying this hard. You can have any woman you want."

"Apparently I can't. The one that I truly want doesn't want me but she wants another man."

I tried to brush off my guilt. "It's fine. You'll get tired of me eventually."

"No. I won't. I don't think you understand what it means when a demon chooses their intended. When they choose there is no one else, which is why I'm letting you know that I am not going to quit. You're stuck with me."

"Come again?"

"I am going to fight for you."

"Fight for me" Okay listen-"

I was cut off. Not by his own talking, but because his lips were on mine. I was shocked. My first kiss. He took it, just like that. He held my face and his hands and they were so soft. My shock slowly faded away as my lips started to move against his. It was as if my body was acting on its own. My arms slid around his neck and found their way into his hair. He held me so close and this time I did not mind one bit. I was acting like an animal. How could he bring this side out of me? Maybe he had softened me up with talk of his emotions. He slipped his tongue into my mouth. God his tongue. It swirled with my own. It was as though they were dancing together. I moaned into his mouth. Something I had never done. Usually, I would have been embarrassed by it, but right now; at this moment I just wanted to feel. He kissed my neck, nibbling on my collar bone; his claws raking up and down my thigh. I could feel a wetness pooling between my thighs, but then... everything stopped. I looked up, seeing him standing there. His chest heaving; red mingling in with amber. I sat up fixing my robe, avoiding his gaze.

"We need to stop."

I nodded.

I was acting very nonchalant for someone who just threw their morals out the window and lost their first kiss. To Sesshomaru of all people. He walked back over to me, setting his hands on my thighs. His eyes had returned to normal. I clutched my robe in my hands.

"You said you weren't going to kiss me."

"That was before I knew there was another man in the picture. I meant what I said when I said I was going to fight for you. You may have some feelings for him, and that's okay. He can be your first crush or whatever he is to you, but I plan to be your last; everything and I promise you that."

This had just gotten a whole lot more complicated.