A Long Time Ago – First Aid Kit.

This one features Casey, as Olivia, discloses her feeling about Elliot to Casey. No happy ending here, but an understanding. Sort of E/O.

Olivia thought in her heart that when Elliot said goodbye to Kathy that there was a small chance, he was saying hello to her. That didn't happen, though. The relationship felt more intense than ever. The brushes and touches of skin allowed her to feel the sparks, and she knew he did too. The look in his eyes, the sharp intake of breath by both of them, explained it all, but she refused to make the first move. He didn't budge either. When Olivia heard Elliot claim that Kathy was pregnant and they were back together, she knew that she had lost him yet again.

When Elliot told Olivia, the news she said she was happy. He saw in her eyes the pure devastation he had caused. He wanted her more than he could ever imagine, and he had months to tell her, but he couldn't risk both his life partners, so he chose the safe option. He went back with Kathy, and it wasn't that he didn't love Kathy. He did, but Olivia was his passion. He couldn't explain that, so he took the easy way out yet again.

They were working on a case when the two got into a heated argument. It was over something that didn't even matter to the case. Cragen had come out twice, warning them, and they were still were going at it.

"Can I talk to you please?" Elliot seethed.

Olivia followed him back to the cribs, and he closed and locked the door.

"What the hell is going on, I swear Liv if I told you the sky was blue you would argue and say its brown," Elliot stated.

"El, I'm not trying to start something," Olivia admitted.

"Then what is it because you've been pissed at me for weeks," Elliot stated.

"I'm not mad at you. God El, don't you get it? I'm mad at myself," Olivia admitted.

"For what? I have no idea what you're talking about," Elliot said.

"It doesn't matter, El not anymore," Olivia claimed.

"It does Liv, because I care," as Elliot reached a hand out to hers.

They both felt the spark that they had felt time and time again and Olivia wanted nothing more for him to hold her, but he wasn't hers, and never was.

"Just get out Elliot, I'm fine. I need a few minutes, okay." Olivia claimed.

Elliot nodded his head, not wanting to get her more upset.

Olivia relished the silence for a moment only to let her own thoughts get in the way.

Someone knocked on the door.

"El, I just need a minute!" Olivia yelled.

"Hey, it's just me," Casey stated.

"Liv, is everything okay?" Casey asked.

"I don't know anymore," Olivia admitted.

"What's going on, Fin told me I would find you here."

"Casey, I'm an idiot," Olivia claimed.

"I know you're a lot of things, but idiot isn't one of them whats going on?" Casey asked.

"I love him," Olivia claimed.

Casey didn't need to ask who she was talking about. Casey's face fell, as Olivia explained.

"I swear the moment I met him, we connected, even though he was an ass for a while. I don't know what came over me, and I've found myself giving up everything to spend time with him," Olivia explained.

"Well, he and Kathy are divorced, why don't you tell him?" Casey asked.

"Kathy's pregnant," Olivia admitted.

"You know before him, I was just happy and free to see any man I wanted any time I wanted. Then every time I was with him even if it was drinking with the guys, if I so much as batted my eye at another guy, he was all over it," Olivia claimed.

"He is rather protective of you," Casey admitted.

"I can't blame him. I have a terrible taste in men." Olivia sighed.

"Stop that, you just haven't found the right one," Casey claimed

"When he told me that Kathy left him, I was sad for him but relieved that we might finally have a chance, you know. He asked me to dinner, not a date but to dinner, and I turned him down because I knew I couldn't give him what Kathy could. He was so heartbroken I just wanted him to get back with her so he would be happy again. I didn't even care about how I felt," Olivia claimed.

"You do love him," Casey said out loud.

"I'm always the one who is there for him, he doesn't want to bring this home to Kathy and the kids, and I get that, but I am his sounding board for work, for home, for his kids, and I feel like I should mean more to him, than I do," Olivia claimed.

"Liv, is he back with her for sure?" Casey asked.

"Yeah." Olivia sighed.

"Isn't that what you wanted?" Casey asked.

"Only because I thought it would make him happy," Olivia claimed.

"Are you mad that he's back with Kathy," Casey asked.

"No, I just want him to know what I am sacrificing." Olivia claimed.

Casey sighed.

"Listen, if that's what is happening, and you're not going to intervene, then you need to get over it because nothing is going to change." Casey explained.

"Yeah, I know. Thanks, Case, I've got my head screwed back right for the time being," Olivia stated.

"What is it that you need?" Olivia asked.

"I was coming to see if you wanted to take a lunch," Casey laughed.

"Yeah, that sounds good," Olivia stated.

Olivia and Casey ignore the words that came out of Olivia's mouth earlier in the day and talk about any other subject for the next 30 minutes at Bea's dinner one block from the department. When she comes back into the office, Elliot looks up at her. She has her smile again. She looks refreshed somehow, but he's not clear what has changed.

"Are we okay?" Elliot asked.

"Yeah listen El, I'm sorry I realized I lost this fight a while ago, and I just didn't want to admit it," Olivia claimed.

Elliot wasn't sure exactly what she was talking about but was just glad to see a smile on her face, so he accepted it with a smiled and a head nod. Olivia sat down, watching the man he loved knowing she would never be his and carried on with the case at hand.