Chapter 14 - abscisio

Shepard laughed out loud. James had really come by. Besides the beer he had brought Kaidan and Steve with him. They had watched the game and the redhead had predicted the winner again. Since the men had bet again and she was again not allowed to participate, they played poker now. James had really undressed Kaidan and Steve, but he had a lot of trouble with her. Finally he went all in and grinned at her. Of course the admiral went with him. A dirty grin lay on her trains. James had a straight flush. He stretched out his hands at the chips, but Litavis hit him on the fingers. She slowly turned her cards over with relish. One after the other. Finally there was a royal flush on the table. She sipped her beer and listened to James ranting. They had the apartment to themselves. Garrus was out with his family. They played some more games and finally sat down in front of the TV again. The major had wanted to cook again, but they had ordered pizza instead. They spent the whole day together. Finally James and Steve said goodbye and she was left alone with Kaidan. She looked radiantly at the Canadian as he pulled an antique game console out of his pocket. Immediately a hot battle broke out between them. The screams and moans of their characters could be heard all over the apartment. They both didn't care. Shepard hadn't felt that free in a long time. She didn't have to worry about anything, she didn't have to think, and her most important decision was which attack to take next. As time went by they got better and better. It took something to get them used to the game again. But maybe it was the constant consumption of alcohol that was the reason. Laughing she caught Kaidan when he stumbled on the way to the bathroom. Still grinning, she brought him to the door. She never expected to see the Major like this. Slightly stumbling he came out again. Shepard directly grabbed him under his arms. Back on the sofa she laid the dark-haired man down and made a coffee. As soon as she was back and had put the cups down, Kaidan suddenly pulled her to himself.

"Why Garrus?"

"What?"

"Why Garrus, why not me?"

"Kaidan, what are you talking about?"

"Why are you with Garrus and not with me?"

"Are you jealous?"

"Yes, I am."

"Kaidan, I..."

"Why, Litavis?"

"Kaidan, I'm not with Garrus. We are doing this for his father. He wants Garrus to get married and he doesn't want that."

"So, aren't you with him?"

"No, I'm not..."

She wasn't, was she? Even though it was always faked, it felt real from time to time. Her best friend was always there. He took her in his arms and left her alone when she needed it. He held her tight, gave her security... The kisses they shared... it felt so real. Meanwhile they slept in the same bed. Every night the redhead snuggled into his arms and there she was safe. Safe from the nightmares that had plagued her night after night. The Turian was very attentive. Any change in her immediately caught his eye and he reacted. Despite all her scars, he called her beautiful. He was not afraid of her sight. On top of that, he had been sitting at her bedside for days. They were not a couple, but every now and then it felt that way. Litavis was ripped from her mind as warm lips lay on hers. Frightened, she retreated.

"You are drunk, Kaidan."

"You are right. I'm sorry."

Shepard quickly got up and handed the coffee to the Canadian. The feeling had been familiar. Of course it was. After all, they were once... well... what had they actually been? A couple? That would probably be too much to say. But close to it. What did she delude herself? They had been together. Kaidan had loved her and she too had feelings for him. At least until Horizon. Everything had changed there. It had hurt her. And again Garrus had been there to catch her. Quickly she drove the thought away again. That led to nothing. Smiling, she looked at the major who was quietly slurping his coffee. He didn't try to get any closer. After some time he stood up staggering. Quickly she caught him again.

"I should go."

"I'll bring you. You can't make your way alone anymore."

So she went outside with him and took him to the taxi. Litavis really got in and brought Kaidan to the front door. The swaying didn't stop the whole time. So the path led her to his bed, where Shepard gently laid down the major.

"Stay with me."

"Sleep, Kaidan."

"Only this night..."

Sighing, she covered him up and breathed a kiss on his forehead. Before he could reach for her, she disappeared home. The taxi took her back. But not in her apartment, but in the AAA. Too many thoughts were circling in her head. She had to let off steam. Fight after fight was won. For a change also one, without firing a single shot. Close combat in combination with Biotic. It was exhausting and the whole body began to tingle pleasantly. The Biotic had not triggered this feeling for a long time. Hot and cold showers overcame them. At that time she had felt this feeling more often. It had taken many years of training to control herself. Now she welcomed it. It was nice to know that her destroyed body was still capable of it. But now she urgently needed a cold shower. As fast as she could, the redhead made her way home. Unfortunately the cold shower had to wait. Her roommate and his family were back. Like every time since his family was there, he came up to her to kiss her. This time he put his mouthplates on their lips. She leaned slightly against the Turian. Shocked, Litavis gasped as she was suddenly lifted up. The sniper ran up the stairs with her so fast that she really had to hold on this time.

"Garrus, what's the matter?"

"You smell excited."

"I'm doing what?"

She got warm. Heat rose in her face, she turned red. Shepard had always realized that Turians had a very fine sense of smell, but that he could smell it so well was embarrassing to her. She quickly looked in a different direction.

"You smell excited, Litavis."

"Oh..."

"I didn't want my father... are you embarrassed right now?"

"Yes, damn it."

"It doesn't have to be."

Sighing, the redhead looked briefly at her best friend before she shook her head and wanted to turn around. The sniper grabbed her and pulled her tight. His face rested in her neck bend and he took a deep breath. Shepard stopped as if frozen. Her heart beat violently in her chest. She swallowed hard.

"Garrus, what are you doing?"

"You smell so good."

"That's what's going on, that's embarrassing, not better."

"I'm sorry."

He just wouldn't let her go. His heavy breath made her shiver more and more. Damn it. He kissed her. Moaning, Shepard opened her lips. Garrus' rough tongue entered her. Her legs gave way and the Turian held her tight. Litavis gasped against the strange tongue in her mouth. Her hands lay in Garrus' neck and she massaged the sensitive spot just below his fringe. The vibrating of his chest chased down another shower through her body. Breathing heavily, she finally detached herself from him.

"I should really take a shower now."

Discontented, he finally let her go. Under the cold shower she looked at her hands. A slightly bluish shimmer emanated from them. She should have been more careful with the new implants. Inside, an unbridled heat raged. She seemed to melt. The water became colder and colder, but the burning remained. She breathed deeply. Control. She needed control. The redhead turned off the water. She couldn't get out now. The whole family would smell her. Only with a towel she went back into the bedroom. Like a few days ago, Garrus was still in the bedroom looking at her. Directly he pulled her back to himself and buried his face in her neck bend. What did he do with her? He pulled the towel away. Shepard didn't care that she now stood naked in front of him. She didn't care that he saw all her scars, none of which bothered him. The sniper lifted her up and carried her to bed. As soon as she didn't feel his body any more, she started thinking again. This was a mistake. What if she suddenly had to remember again? She couldn't just use Garrus like that. Not her best friend. If she would at least remember her one night. But... was this really so wrong? After all, the initiative came from him, not from her. Again his mouthplates hit her lips and she moaned softly. As soon as his weight depressed her, she moaned painfully. Under the pressure some of her scars opened. Garrus immediately withdrew. Her blood stuck to his top. Without further ado, he took it off after retiring. Again he bent over her, but this time he caught his weight. His rough, long tongue speeded over her bloody belly. Litavis moaned hoarse. Again and again the cheeky tongue jumped over her trembling muscles. She bit her lips hard not to groan loudly. What did he do with her? He penetrated her oral cavity and Shepard tasted her own blood. The iron taste had never bothered her. Again her hands lay down on his neck and massaged the sensitive spot. His whole body vibrated through his purring. Her action shifted to the sides of his neck, where the skin was much softer. Shepard's fingers slipped to Garrus' waist. She kept stroking the soft leather. His purring became louder.

"Your smell is driving you crazy, Litavis... I want you."

She could only nod. Hard he grabbed her and suddenly the door opened. Litavis flinched and looked back. The sniper had fallen from bed in shock. She reached for the blanket and covered her nakedness. Angrily, she sparkled at Castis.

"OUT!"

Solana pulled on her father, who was clearly drunk.

"I told you we were disturbing. Now come on. Damn it."

As soon as the door closed, she turned around and announced her best friend. He slowly straightened up and sat next to him.

"From now on I only call your father Coitus Interruptus."

Laughing he wrapped his arms around her.