Lena sat on Kara's bed while her girlfriend set up a game on her PS4. Its been a few days since her and her family came back to Midvale and things had felt a little odd between her and Kara.
Kara was usually the talkative one, always asking questions and laughing, even if no one else was. The last few days had been spent with Lena poking and prodding her till she answered a question or actually engaged in conversation. This was one of those times it seemed.
"are you going to go easy on me this time? You know I'm not as good at call of duty as you" Lena tried to be lighthearted, hoping the attempt at flattery would liven her girlfriend up. It did not, Kara simply shrugging and handing a controller to her.
Lena couldn't hide the frown but decided to jump into the game headfirst, maybe then Kara would tell her what was bugging her. Because of course, you can't just ask someone what's wrong.
Can you? Should I?
The pair began to play but a few minutes in, Kara stopped just to look at her. Lena felt like she was being scrutinized and tried her best to ignore it. Kara turned her body to her, setting the controller down.
"do you think we'll last?" Kara asked her as if she absolutely knew the answer. Lena was shocked, at a complete loss for words. How do you answer that? Maybe? Yes? They can't know what will happen, but everyone hopes to never break up at first right?
"well I hope so." Lena put down her own controller and turned to Kara. She avoided eye contact, electing to play with a loose string from Kara's comforter.
"that's not much of an answer" Kara huffed, snatching up her controller and beginning to play the game again. Lena sat there staring, utterly confused at how their day was going. Really, she was confused at how the past couple of days have gone for them. She reached over and took the controller from Kara.
"but its true. Maybe one of us will die or have to move. Maybe." Lena grabbed Kara's hand and rubbed the back of it.
"but we're here now together. Why ruin it with what ifs?" Lena smiled at the blonde but wasn't greeted back by one. Instead, Kara ripped her hand from Lena's grasp and paused the game.
"do you even have any confidence in us?" Kara asked, standing up from the bed. Lena had had it though with Kara's behavior.
"what is your problem Kara? You've been off for days, and now this?" Lena stood up and looked into Kara's eyes.
"what is wrong?" she asked, hoping upon hope that this would not undo them, simply be their first fight and that would be that.
"I don't know!" Kara yelled, Lena taking a step back. She thought after their talk a few weeks ago, Kara wouldn't be like this. Maybe if anything, it was made worse. Lena knew she didn't mean any of this, that something larger was going on and it was best she just leave for now.
"you know what Kara, you're not in the right headspace right now." Lena moved to walk out the door but stopped, holding the door frame and not daring to look back.
"call me when you've figured out what's really wrong. And ill be there, just like I said." Lena walked out the door, a red-faced Kara right behind her.
"go ahead, leave like everybody else Lena! I should've known it would fall apart anyway!" Kara cried from her doorway but didn't follow and Lena was grateful. This was not how any of this was supposed to go. Once it started though, it just snowballed. And there was not stopping it for now.
After her dad got better and everyone was home, everything was supposed to be fine. Now Kara was angry for some reason and Lena couldn't help but feel like the universe was making sure that not everything was going well at once. Something always had to happen.
Lena ran over to the front door of the Danvers house and pulled her shoes on, forcing the tears that wanted to fall to stay inside where no one could see them.
She ripped open the door and of course was met with Alex and Eliza coming back home for the day. They must have been able to tell something was off, because both of their faces had concern written all over them.
"Lena? What's wrong?" Alex walked over and put a hand on her shoulder. Lena couldn't hold it in anymore and cried. Alex looked unsure of what to do for her and simply hugged her.
"did Kara do something?" Eliza asked in one of the most concerned tones Lena had ever heard. She nodded.
"she had been off for the last few days and I thought maybe it would just go away but today she blew up at me, saying things I know she wouldn't usually." Lena stuttered through her explanation, her face red and blotchy from her crying.
"ill talk to her. Alex, can you please take Lena home?" Eliza ran inside the house and shut the door behind her. The older Danvers sister held her for a few minutes and Lena hadn't even realized they had started walking.
"I'm sorry Kara isn't feeling well right now. She's been through a lot. She hasn't dealt with everything before and now that she is, its all coming up to the surface" Alex was attempting to calm her down and it certainly wasn't working.
Lena wasn't so much scared of what had happened with Kara. She was just hurt that Kara picked her to attack this time.
"it started because she asked if we would last and I said I hope so instead of yes." Lena sobbed out her story.
"then she said that she knew I would leave like everybody else." Lena cried into the girl's shoulder, who was lightly patting her back.
"we'll talk to her, don't worry. But I think its best you guys keep separate for a few days." Lena didn't want to not talk to Kara but knew it was probably best to keep a distance.
"just until she's calmed down. Give us time to take her to her therapist again and see what's up." Lena looked up as they now stood in front of her house.
"everything will work out, I'm sure of it" Alex took her hand and knocked on the door. They could hear some muffled shuffling and a 'coming!'. Lex opened it and looked down, confused and already very worried. He knelt and wrapped her up in a hug.
"Lena, what happened?" he asked frantically. Alex took the chance to explain, allowing Lena to let out her sadness on her brother's shirt. Alex took that as her cue to leave and left the brother and sister on their own.
"oh Lena. Its okay. Let it out." Lex pulled her inside and closed the front door. He carried her up to her room and continued comforting her.
"I'm sorry that happened between you two. Just give it time alright?" Lex held her for a few more minutes then stood up.
"how bout I make us something to eat and we watch a movie? Just the two of us?" Lena curled up and set her head on her knees. She shrugged at his question.
"I'm taking that as a yes. Ill be back tiny" he patted her head and walked down to the kitchen, leaving Lena to her thoughts.
Why did our first fight have to be so bad? She asked herself. She knew that there was a lot going on in Kara's life she didn't know about but that didn't give her the right to talk to her like that. No one had the right.
Until she apologized, Lena would do her best to not think of Kara. Once she got that apology, they could be together again. While she waited, it wouldn't hurt to hang out with Lex.
After a few hours of movies and tv bingeing, Lena laid in her bed and mulled over her time with Kara. She knew that smiling girl was in there, it was just going to be work to get her back. Lena's thoughts were interrupted by her phone buzzing. Grabbing it from her bedside table, she looked at a simple text from Kara.
I'm sorry. Tty soon.
Lena knew she wanted Kara back, they just needed to work through some things first.