A/N: Them coming home and then a little fluffin to stuff in! Haven't had a cute scene in a bit. How are we feeling? Do we want her to have the baby, have something happen to the baby? I'm all ears... err, eyes!

Disclaimer: as always, I don't own Marvel, MCU or any characters in this. I am not getting paid, no copyright, yada yada.

"You had to take the Audi, didn't you? You just couldn't take the Tesla." Tony said after they had been in the air for a bit, making Jess shrug as she kept her eyes out the windshield of the jet. She had insisted on him not driving, saying he had almost died though he insisted right back that it wasn't that close. Hulk had been able to smash the man off the roof before he could actually hurt Tony too badly, though she didn't care about schematics. He was either flying in the Quinjet where Bruce, who had finally turned back to his not so big counterpart, could watch him, or he was flying back in a medical helicopter.

Tony chose the jet. Nat was chosen to drive the sports car back, which had made Tony squirm a bit and whine.

"You just had to tell everyone that I'm pregnant didn't you?" Jess mocked, though there wasn't as much teasing in her voice as there had been in his. Peeking at him out of the corner of her eye, she was pleased to see that the man at least had the decency to look semi guilty.

"I was doing it-"

"To protect me. I get it. For some reason you think I, the one who has literal super powers and can lift a car if I wanted to, needs protecting." Jess raised an eyebrow as she looked at him for a moment, staring at him as he seemed to be processing her statements. "I don't need protecting, Tony Stark. I don't need people coddling me and treating me like I'm special because we fucked and I got knocked up. That's what everybody is going to do now." she groaned as she thought about it all over again, making her shake her head. "Especially the kid." Shit, she forgot no one had told him. "You get to tell him." Jess threw the words out before he could even open his mouth, making him groan.

"While I admit, some of it was because I was trying to get you benched- yeah, yeah, I know. That sour puss look can't change the fact of why I did it. While I was trying to get you benched, the other reason I wanted to tell people is... I don't know. I guess I'm sort of excited. And this team, these people, they're the only family and friends I have." Speaking of friends, he wondered what Pepper would say when she found out. He turned his head to look at the brunette, who was squeezing his hand lightly.

"I know. I understand... They're my friends, too."

"Family. You better believe I'm going to be Uncle Clint!" Clint yelled from the front, putting the jet on cruise control but staying close. "So, are you going to have one baby, or multiple? You know, since spiders have hundreds?" He snickered but was thrown forward a bit as a shoe hit the back of his head. "Ouch! Why do you two always have something to throw at me?!" he huffed, rubbing his head as Jess, Tony, and Steve laughed.

"Really though, what did Dr. Cho say? I know tensions were a bit high at the meeting, I forgot to say congratulations to both of you. Babies are great. And it'll be the most protected baby in the universe, I think that much is obvious."

Tony looked to Jess as if asking her permission, making her scowl. "Oh, now you don't say anything?" She rolled her eyes but still had a small smile for the man that had somehow won her heart. "She's a little concerned, but only because she can't see anything on an ultrasound. She's guessing it's due to my DNA and the spider genes, somehow the womb is just... harder? More durable? She even tried to use a needle to try to get some samples and the needle couldn't pierce it." She patted Tony's hand as he shuddered.

"Now that, was utterly horrible. I almost passed out." Jess raised an eyebrow, making him clear his throat. "Okay, I did pass out."

"But there's a heart beat, I can hear it." Jess confirmed, seeing a worried look on Steve's face that settled into a smile. Steve wanted kids and a family, he always had. It made Jess feel slightly bad, to get something by accident that he would have to dream of having one day. It made her feel even worse to think that she had thought at one point of not carrying the baby to term or keeping the baby. Looking around the jet at Thor speaking to Bruce, of Tony and Steve smiling at each other in a rare moment of peace... she couldn't imagine not keeping it now. "I do have terms I want to talk to you guys about, not terms as much as they are demands, Captain."

Tony tried to keep a smile on his face, though his natural instinct was to be concerned. Steve directed his attention to the small woman, crossing his fingers together.

"I am still a part of this team, and I expect to be treated as such. I'm still going to spar, I'm still going to go on missions. Until I'm unable or not willing to," she didn't imagine wanting to do nothing but from what she'd been reading about pregnancy it seemed to be more trying towards the end, "I am still Spider-woman. That will never change." Jess said firmly, not looking at Tony and content with the fact that he wasn't arguing, though she was sure he wanted to. "I say when it's time to be done."

Steve took a moment to weigh the alternatives, sighing and leaning back a little to eye the woman. "Unless it's a mission that involves radiation or something crazy, but I will talk to you beforehand so you're not taken aback." Jess thought it was fair, though she wasn't happy about it. She knew if she was going to commit to keeping the baby that she had to know her limits. "And no more of that doing what you think you need to do stuff you tend to do. Fury and I both agreed that you would stay behind. That was an order. I know you're not used to working on a team, but for it to work, we need to trust each other. Sometimes that means trusting me to do what is right for you, okay?"

Jess sighed but nodded, knowing she needed to try harder. "And, one more thing." Jess looked to Tony who nodded before looking back to Steve. "We want you to be the Godfather." Though they bickered like brothers and Tony was really close to everyone on the team in a way, it was obvious that Steve was the person he would trust above everyone else. The one who he knew through and through would protect his baby with every ounce of strength in him, and who would if both of them died for whatever reason, raise him right.

Steve seemed astonished, looking to her and back to Tony, a questioning look on his face mixed with an emotion that she could only compare to overwhelmed, he took a deep breath. "Really...? Me? Not Happy or Bruce?"

Tony coughed a bit, wincing as the pain in his shoulder was sharp for a moment. "Don't get all emotional on me, Rogers... you're our leader. If everything goes to shit, I know I can count on you to boss everyone around in a way that will protect the baby at all costs. It was a survival choice, not a personal one." Tony grumbled, not liking the idea of Steve thinking he was going soft.

Steve chuckled and clapped him gently on his good shoulder, knowing how much it meant for him to choose Steve. "Of course it was. And of course I would. Until the end."

"You better not let Barnes hear you saying that, he'll be butt hurt." Tony said, a small smile breaking through as he clapped his hand on Steve's arm.

"Either way it's an honor. Thank you." Steve gripped Jess' hand and squeezed it with a smile as she nodded. "We're going to be landing in a bit, I'm going to go up front with Clint." There was a smile the size of Russia on the man's face as he went to the front where Jess assumed he told the archer assassin the news because Clint smiled and did that clapping on the shoulder thing that seemed universal with men.

Jess sighed as she sat back in her seat, closing her eyes and holding a hand on her stomach. "What's wrong? Are you okay?" Jess opened her eyes and looked to Tony, smiling at the man.

"Nothing, just tired. It's been a long day. If this is how tired I am at only three months, I don't even want to know how bad things will get." Really, it bothered her imagining how big she would get and how much things would change. She squirmed a little with a frown. "I should be asking if you're okay, you're the hurt one silly."

"I'm fine, I was breathing the whole time. Just think I got knocked out is all. And shot, I mean I did get shot." Tony stuck his bottom lip out to pout, pointing to his lips and batting his long lashes (lucky! Why did guys always get the long lashes girls dreamed of?!) at her until she rolled her eyes and smiled softly, leaning forward to kiss him. "I feel a bit better now." He acted like he was thinking for a moment before nodding and looking back at her with a smile.

Jess ran a hand through his thick hair, propping her head up with her free hand, elbow on the arm rest between them. She closed her eyes as he did the same, humming in contentment.

"Marry me." Tony whispered, making Jess' eyes shoot open in surprise, not expecting that. She studied him intently, deciphering his statement.

"If you still want me after the baby is born, ask again..." Jess whispered back, his eyes scanning her face, his eyebrows pulled together.

"I'm always going to want you, Drew. I've never loved someone... but now that I have, it's so intoxicating. I don't know how people can throw it away. I'm addicted."

Jess couldn't help her lips curling up in amusement, sure the pain killers Bruce had given him had to be kicking in. "Is that what it's like?"

"Don't you feel it too?"

Jess turned so she could look at him, taking a moment to really soak him in. Her eyes roaming over his aging but still handsome face, the swagger he lived with still apparent even when he was hurt and half drugged. Her hand went through his hair again lightly, realizing though he was a bit loopy that his words were all true. "Yeah... I suppose you're right. I guess I've never been addicted to something before so I didn't realize how good it would feel.." The good feeling in general was new for her, it wasn't something she had seen a lot of in her years. Tony smiled a dopey grin at her, eyes closing as he nodded. "Go to sleep. We'll be home soon."

He was asleep before she could finish the statement.

"Miss Drew, Mr. Stark is requesting your presence upstairs." Jess didn't both looking up from the book she was reading, curled up in one of Tony's sweaters on a couch in the living room as Clint sat across from her cleaning his bow.

"Okay, FRIDAY. Where is he?" The woman put her book down after finishing the page and replacing her bookmark, letting out a yawn.

"In his bedroom, Miss." She looked up to Clint who had an eyebrow raised and a smirk on his face. She threw a throw pillow at him, rolling her eyes with a smile. It was kind of her thing, throwing stuff at him. Making her way to the elevator and nodding to Bucky who got in with her, Jess kept fidgeting in the elevator, worry on her face.

"What's wrong, Jess?"

Jess looked up in surprise to the man, not sure he had ever called her by name. While she hadn't voiced her concern to anyone, she felt like Bucky would probably understand the most. "... He got away... which means he knows I definitely am still with you guys. While everybody likes to think he's dumb, Rumlow's not an idiot. He knows what I am to Tony now." Jess wrung her hands, rubbing her palm with her other hand nervously. "They'll be back."

"I know what you're thinking... don't do it. We both know they'd do anything to get you and I, the others think they understand but only we really do. But don't run. This really is the safest place for us to try to evade them." Bucky said firmly, looking at her almost in an accusing way which made her look away in shame. She had been thinking about running, but only because it was for the best. All of the Avengers wouldn't be worth putting at risk just to keep her safe. "I'm serious."

"I know... they'll find us, though. I mean, we're in a huge building that's basically screaming 'bomb me, I have the Avengers here'. You need to promise me something... Tony promised but I don't trust him, not with this." Jess pushed the close button for the doors, waiting until he let his eyes meet her's. "I don't care if I'm pregnant, if they take me.. promise me you'll try to kill me. I can't go back."

Bucky hesitated, knowing Tony would be pissed and try to kill him if he ever found out... he understood though. "Only if you promise me the same... Steve would never kill me. He doesn't get it, not really. None of them do. The things they made me do, they're things I'll never be able to atone for. I can't do that again, I can't kill innocent people again." Jess nodded immediately, agreeing. "I promise I will do my best to kill you if there's no way to save you."

"I promise the same." Jess put a hand on his arm and squeezed lightly. "Thank you.."

Bucky nodded, going back to the stoic version she was most familiar with as she pressed the open button and walked to Tony's room, happy to see he was actually relaxing for once, propped up in his bed. It had been a few weeks since he had been shot, though that hadn't kept him from working in the lab and bothering everyone as always. He looked up from his phone and smiled, patting his lap.

The level of comfort she had with him was so different than she had ever felt with someone else, even Jared. Walking over to him, she crawled into the bed and curled up on his lap, letting him hold her almost like a baby as she rested her head on his good shoulder. "What were you and Tony Jr doing?" He stroked her hair and smiled as she huffed.

She refused to have the baby be a junior and he knew it, which is why he said it. Frequently. "Reading." she said, closing her eyes and letting out a hum of contentment as he ran his fingers through her hair.

"You have a billionaire boyfriend who could make you something better than a Kindle and you choose to read like you're in the Stone Age?" he teased, making her smile wryly and nod against his shoulder.

"Nothing will ever beat the smell of a new book or turning the crisp pages." she reminded him, a lot on her mind but feeling safe which was nice, even if it was just for a moment.

"What's on your mind, Drew?" The man planted a kiss on her neck in a non-sexual way, breathing in the smell of her flowery smelling shampoo as he buried his face in her neck.

"... Do you ever have the same nightmare over and over?"

Tony pulled away slowly, letting his hand stay on the side of her neck in a gentle embrace, frowning but nodding. "Yeah... I guess I do. Do you?"

Jess was quiet for a moment, messing with the collar of his shirt as she thought about how much to say before settling on the truth. "Yes.." except it wasn't a nightmare... it was a memory. Jess' hand was still, the worry of going back still fresh in her mind from the talk with Bucky.

"I'll tell you mine if you tell me your's."

She inhaled sharply, turning her head as her heart ached. "... They tell me to shoot him. He's young, eighteen... maybe early twenties. I ask why and the person slams the gun across my face and tells me it doesn't matter, it was an order. I refuse." It was after they had already convinced the woman that she was morphed from a spider. Sure, she had felt lost, but she was never that lost. She went through months of training, never receiving push back from her, she always listened. They didn't have to shock or brain wash her for almost a year... until the blond haired kid came through the door.

"I beg them, it's the only time I've ever begged in my life... I beg them to tell me what he did, gun in my hand. They refuse, say that's not my concern. They're yelling at me, holding me by my hair. I drop the gun... they take me back and I- I guess they mess with my head." She didn't realize her hand was shaking until Tony grabbed it, kissing it and listening to her with a somber look, though she refuses to look at him.

"They bring me back in... the kid is sobbing... he's sobbing through the gag. They put the gun in my hand, and tell me to shoot him. He hardly gets the chance to look at me before I shoot him in the head. I don't even blink." Her breath was coming out ragged as she shook, her eyes closed as Tony's arms wrap around her tightly. "When I have it, that's when I wake up all crazy and robot like. It's not a nightmare, it's a memory. One I'm forced to relive, to remind myself that I'm a murderer. That kid..." she swallowed, putting a hand to her mouth to try to keep herself from throwing up at the thought of their kid ending up like that. "I can't be a mother, there's mothers who will never know what happened to their kids. I'm a monster." Jess' heart hurt, she could feel the weight of everything she ever did and while she knew it was the elevated hormones, she also knew it was real.

"You're not. Nothing you did was who you are, Jess. You would never do that to an innocent person willingly and you know it. I know it. Any of us could have the same thing happen to us."

"The nightmare is the fact that it was probably the easiest thing I ever did or at least the quickest. I had no remorse, I just killed him." Oh God, this was awful. Pregnancy was awful! These were all things she knew, things that she had to relive over and over because the rap sheet was so long. When SHIELD gave her her memory back, it was the feelings that came attached to everything that had hit the hardest. The memories of what she had done were always there, they didn't hide those from her. But the knowledge of right and wrong, the feelings of grief and sadness; they were debilitating at best, she had just never had to feel them.

Tony didn't try to make her feel bad, he didn't try to make her stop feeling bad either since he realized it was something she would always carry with her. Instead, he simply held her and whispered in her ear that he was there and would always be there, that he loved her and she was strong. He held her tightly until she settled some in his arms, her hand slowly going back to playing with his collar. "Mine is that I'm back in the cave. Sometimes it's all dark like I have the bag over my head... sometimes it's not, because they have a gun to Pepper's head and I have to save her. I never make it to the end of that one, though. I suppose you could say mine are memories wrapped up in nightmares."

"We're both damaged... we both had absent and now dead parents... how are we supposed to be good parents, Tony? I'm scared." Nothing scared her, the admittance of her being scared was enough to worry him.

"Because we've been through it and don't want our kid to have to go through it. We won't be them because we had to deal with them." Tony said, determined that she understand he was not his father and never would be. "Jess, I'm going to love this kid like I'm going to lose it. Everyday. I will never take them for granted, I will always be a present father whether I'm busy or not. I won't let work take over like my dad. You won't inject spider serum into and then leave our kid in an incubator and never come back. See? We can do this!" His smile was wide as he realized he had made her laugh, never quite sure if his dark humor would tank or make people laugh.

"Don't give up on us, I promise I won't." Tony kissed her forehead and laid her down next to him, letting her get comfortable with her back pressed against his front. She drug his arm so it was slung over her waist and she felt at peace for a moment. His hand moved so it was splayed across her small stomach, his large hand covering it almost protectively. "I will keep you both safe, we're going to be fine."

Jess turned so she could see the man, her heightened emotions making the love she felt for him wash over her fiercely. She kissed him, closing her eyes and putting her hand over his.

A/N: Had to add in the hundreds of spider babies after getting my first review lol! Thought it was funny! The next chapter issss... not going to be cute. So sorry.