This Poem is inspired by Dear X (you don't own me)
Dear Pain,
oh, it's been a long time
I think as I slice my arm
completely full with scars
I see the scars I created yesterday still fresh on my arm
and a little part of me wonders
if I'm going to far
Do you remember when you were- are holding me tight
as I slice
I press down on my arm
making deeper scars
I stay awake with you all night
As I toss and turn
I talk with the demons in my head
Who I know are always there
but they still say
"I'll always be there for you"
Dear Shame
I was safe in your arms
I feel an invisible person hug me
As I cried, Those fake arms made me feel more safe
than my family did
You were there when it all fell apart
I was crying into my pillow but no one was there
but the demons in my head
And they convinced me cutting my arm would stop me from falling apart
I would get so lost in the beautiful lies
But, the demons told me how many lies everyone told
And how I was not as beautiful
as everyone said
And I believed them, because they have been there for me always
Dear Hate
I know your not far
You were there when I fell apart
and you stabbed my heart
I could never let you go
And as my heart broke in two
You came back with an
"I told you"
You would wait at the door of my heart
And you made me smile
because even as
my life fell apart
you were there
and I was amazed at the passion in your cries
Until I let you into the door of my heart.
And you stayed there, not silencing your everlasting cries
but cracking my heart altogether
and as I look at you I wondered
why did I not let you in sooner?
Dear Anger,
I have a lot to say to you
You almost made me chop my arm into a stew
you are the reason I hate my brother so
and I hate you for it
why do you always be there on time?
you made me so high.
And as I look in the mirror I realize
I am no one's fault but mine