Chapter 14: Beyond repair?

I ran straight out of his apartment. Oh my God, what just happened? What did I just do? Why did I let that happen? He kissed me and I kissed him back. I stepped into the elevator, letting out a deep long sigh. I brought my hands to my lips, touching them. I enjoyed what had just happened, but he was my friend and that's what I called him. I swore to sango that he was just a friend. All of this was so confusing. Was Sango right? Did I have feelings for Sesshomaru? The ding of the elevator pulled me from my thoughts. I hurried out of the building and into my car. I just sat back and did nothing. I was still trying to make sense of it all. I enjoyed that kiss and Imean I really enjoyed it, and I wanted more. Who knows what would have happened if he didn't pull away from me at that last second. Oh God, what did I just do? I banged my head against the steering wheel. Then a thought crossed my mind. Was I just another woman to him? Ugh. Of course, I was. He was Sesshomaru Taisho. I sighed. I don't even know why I was thinking about it this hard. It happened, whatever. I just needed to put it behind me. Act as if it never happened, and hopefully, he will to. I started my car and drove off. Dreading going to work Monday morning.

I sat at my desk. I had gotten in extra early on Monday morning. I checked my watch. Sesshomaru would be here soon, and I would be lying if I said that I wasn't a bit nervous. About his coming in. Knowing him he would try and talk about things once he'd gotten here. I got started on my work and tried to push the situation with Sesshomaru out of my mind. I tapped away on my keys. Updating spreadsheets, typing up reports and answering emails. I was so deep in my work that I hadn't even realized when he had walked into the room and was standing right in front of me.

"Goodmorning." I heard him say.

I jumped. "Oh, Sesshomaru, good morning. How are you?"

"I'm fine. You?" He asked, walking over to his desk.

The tension between was so thick and this conversation was so awkward.

"I'm alright."

"Kagome look, about what had happened at my place. I'm sorry that was a mistake, and I should not have gone there. I was just being reckless."

Mistake. The word rang in my ears.

"Don't worry about."

I went back to my computer. Trying to pretend that what he said didn't bother me. Kissing me was a mistake. Whatever. I shouldn't even be letting it bother me so much. Turns out I wasn't another girl under his belt. I hadn't even made it that far. I had only been granted the title of mistake.

I looked over at her from time to time. I could smell the anger overpowering her usual scent. Perhaps I should not have used the word mistake. Is that why she was upset or was there more to it? I stood, straightening my blazer; going over to her desk.

"I checked the calendar. Apparently there's a conference Nagasaki that we'll have to attend in two days."

"I know that Mr. Taisho."

There was a chill in the way that she spoke. She was pissed and I wanted to know why. I sat on the edge of her desk.

"Up." she practically ordered, and I listened. I wasn't trying to make her any angrier than she already was.

"Is there something wrong Kagome?"

"Ms. Higurashi." She corrected. "No. There's nothing wrong." she'd said.

A blatant lie.

"Ms. Higurashi. I don't think that is the case-"

"Mr. Taisho please go back to your desk. We are here to work. Not to talk."

I sighed. I had made things worse apparently. I went back to my desk and did my work. I couldn't stop myself from looking at her. She was beautiful and wanted to kiss her again, but I had to restrain myself. Not only was she angry but I had already told her that what I'd done was a mistake. Doing something like kissing her again would only further complicate things more. We spent the next couple of hours in awkward silence. She left the office only a few times, for meetings and what. I know I had made her angry but her not speaking to me was beginning to bother me. I locked her office door and went back over to her.

"Okay, Kagome stop this. What's going on? Why are you behaving like this?"

She looked up at me, practically slamming her laptop shut. She stood walking over to me, her hands on her hips; neck stuck out. She was in full Kagome mode.

"Oh me? I'm the one who is behaving a sort of way!?"

"Okay, I think you should keep your voice down. People can't see in here but I'm positive that their ears still work."

She slapped my chest. "Do not tell me what to do. This is my office., and I will be as loud as I want."

I sighed. "Okay fine. Now can you tell me what's wrong? You're obviously angry about something."

Her lips pressed together in a tight line, and she huffed. Her anger disappeared from her scent and was replaced with heavy melancholy. Her hands fell from her hips.

"It's nothing. It doesn't matter. You can go home early today. You've finished your work anyway."

"Kagome-"

She put her hand up. "Sesshomaru, please. Not right now okay. Just go."

"Alright."

I gathered my things and headed out. Every time I tried to fix it. I just made a bigger mess of things. It felt like I'd reuined things beyond repair.