Chapter 15: What Happens If…

"Ugh." Meredith moaned as she dropped her tray on the table "I'm so hungry I could eat a horse."

"Yuck." Lexie mumbled through a mouthful of chips "Don't they make dog food out of horses?"

"Who would know something like that?" Christina scoffed "We're doctors, not veterinarians."

"No, but Jackson's vet is pretty hot." Lexie grinned.

"How would you know what Jackson's vet looks like." Meredith smirked "How would you know that he had a dog… did you two?"

"How did the girlfriend thing work out?" Lexie asked to quickly change the subject.

"How did you hear about the girlfriend thing."

"Half the damn hospital heard it firsthand." Christina snickered "Nothing is a sacred secret here Meredith, you of all people know this."

"I do." She shrugged "And I guess it'll work out."

"So he's getting rid of the pussy whipper?" Christina asked.

"Something like that." Meredith shrugged "I don't know, I think it's stupid she's so upset. She has nothing to worry about, Derek and I are just being us. No threat to her little New York stilettos."

"So I'm guessing you'll be sticking to using bob?"

"Oh no, Derek fucked me already." She said, "It was mind blowing as usual." She glanced up to see two wide open mouths staring at her "Don't keep your faces like that too long, you look like you've been giving too much blow."

"Are you serious?" Lexie stuttered "You and Derek just had sex and she has nothing to worry about?"

"Her and Derek apparently can't help themselves, I'm not sure anyone has a choice in the matter."

"But the girlfriend obviously has something to worry about!"

"Why?" Meredith frowned "Why would she have to worry about us having sex?"

"Well how would you feel if your boyfriend was screwing his friend?" Lexie asked, Meredith looked at her incredulously "You wouldn't feel jealous?"

"Mer." Christina smirked "What was the name of your last boyfriend?" Meredith gave her a blank stare "when was the last time you had a boyfriend?" Meredith deepened her blank look "See Lex? She really has no idea."

"You've never had a boyfriend?" Lexie frowned, Meredith shook her head "Really!"

"I've just had one-night stands and Derek." She shrugged "I've never needed or wanted a boyfriend. Why put myself into an emotional draining affair, for kicks? Landing myself into my parents shoes has never sounded appealing to me."

"So you've never even tried?" Lexie scoffed "That is so sad."

"Actually it sounds smart to me." Christina shrugged "Boys are so stupid, if you're lucky enough to find a good one he's probably gay or secretly married."

"Exactly." Meredith mumbled as she took a bite of her hamburger "It's a waste of time in my opinion."

"What about Derek?" Lexie asked.

"What about him?"

"Well he obviously values relationships to a degree. What happens when he wants to settle down into one."

"He is in one…that's fine."

"What happens when he wants to get married, to stop dicking around and have a family." Lexie argued. Meredith looked up, her blank stare was back "He's mid-twenties Meredith, and I know you are too. But one of these days he's going to get tired of hooking up every so many months or years and he's going to want someone to come home to at night. And if you're not willing then he'll move on."

"Derek knows how I feel, and he's been ok with it all these years. Nothing will change, and that's the point. I don't want to ruin things that we have by dragging us through a relationship that will fail."

"That might fail." Lexie said, "You never know unless you try."

"I've lost my appetite." Meredith sighed and got up "Thanks."

"Meredith." Lexie sighed "Don't go, I was just being honest."

"And your parents are perfect right? Your dad's always halfway in the bottle and your mother is dead. So, who are you to preach to me about life being a fucking fairytale."

"Whoa!" Christina piped up "Nice kitty. Calm down, ok? Lexie, Mer is going to do what she wants to do no matter what. And whatever happens will happen. Mer, Lex was just trying to beat some sense into you. As much as I hate to agree there's a chance Derek might move on, and we don't want to see you drowning yourself in tequila and being picked up on park benches. Comprende?"

Meredith nodded as her pager went off "I have to go, see you guys later."

"Later."

"She's going to lose him." Lexie said, "You know that right?"

"I know…but some people just have to learn the hard way."

Do you guys agree with Lexie and Christina?