Chapter 15: Hide/Hideaway

I was in another sulking spell. This time I was in Sango's bed instead of my own. I looked around her room. As neat as ever. Not a single thing out of place. It was sleek modern; the best room in the entire apartment. The rain was pouring and this dark room set the mood. It only added to my depressing state. I had no choice but to deal with it because I didn't want to be alone right now. I'd been here since this morning, I was doing my best to avoid Sesshomaru; which is why I decided not to go into work today. I wouldn't be able to hide out for long, but I had to try. Seeing as the conference in Nagasaki was tomorrow, my avoid the dog plan would be coming to an end soon. Great; hours on a private plane with him. Then we'd be sleeping in conjoining rooms. I groaned rolling over onto my face. Maybe I should just suffocate myself. Then all of my problems would be solved. I felt the other side of the bed sink in. I turned my head seeing Sango giving me one of her signature staredowns. She always knew how to break me.

I sighed. "Sango please don't look at me like that. It's not fair. I'm already weak." I whined.

She shrugged. "I wouldn't have to if you told me what was wrong. It's clearly serious. I have never seen you in such a funk before."

I sat up. "Fine. If I tell you what's wrong. You just have to promise not to say I told you so and promise not to judge me."

"I'll be nice I swear." She held her hand over her heart." Cross my heart and hope to die." She laid on her side. "So spill it. What happened?"

"Okay so, that day I ran off in a hurry was because I went to Sesshomaru."

She snorted. "Obviously."

I flicked her arm and she laughed. "I'm sorry, go on."

"I left in such a hurry because he said it was an emergency, but when I got there it was the most ridiculous thing that he needed help with. He couldn't get his coffee machine to work."

She laughed out loud. "What did you expect? It's Sesshomaru. The person you had to teach to do laundry and basic human decency and pretty much every other simple thing in the world. It's kind of obvious he isn't so good at the simple things. To him, it probably really was an emergency. The idiot."

"Yeah, you're right but that's not the crazy part. We were in his kitchen talking and he had this strange look on his face. Then out of the blue, he asked me If I would ever date his brother."

"Disgusting." she chimed in.

"My thoughts exactly, but of course I said no 'that I would rather chew glass.', harsh as it may sound. This is Inuyasha we're talking about. But after I had said that, he said something about 'that's what he wanted to hear.' Then... he kissed me, and I might have kissed him back. Then when he saw me at work, he said that kissing me was a mistake and that he should have never done it in the first place."

I could see the shock plastered all over her face. She sat up slowly, taking a deep breath.

"Sango can you say something; please.

"I'm trying to find the right words. But it's hard because I'm also not trying to break the promise you just made me make."

I sighed. "It's fine, forget it. Let me hear it."

"Remember you said that. Kagome, I love you but come on. Sesshomaru Taisho of all people? Japan's most problematic playboy. There are plenty of other guys out there that would be way better for you. Not some spoiled entitled man child."

I wrung my hands. "He is not that bad Sango."

"Don't make excuses for him Kagome. You are too good for him. I warned you; to leave him alone, to let him go. Now look, you've gone and caught feelings for him. He's a dick Kagome. He's a playboy who uses people and he will only end up hurting you. You have heard what people have said about him. I know you can't trust word of mouth, but there are too many mouths saying he same thing. He isn't good Kagome. Especially not for you. You're too good; too pure. So please, cut him loose before you fall so hard you can't get out."

I avoided her gaze. Was she right about him? It's true that was his reputation... was. I had spent so much time with him. He had progressed so much, but then again he just pulled that stunt in his apartment

"What if he could change?."

She pinched the bridge of her nose. "You're starting to sound like Kikyo. The other Taisho boy already has her wrapped around his little finger. Don't let Sesshomaru do the same to you; okay?"

I gnawed on my lip thinking about what she had said.

I heard her sigh. "I have to go to work now. I'll see you when I get back."

She kissed my forehead and left. Well, that didn't make me feel better at all.

I locked her office door behind me. She didn't come into work today. No doubt she was avoiding me. I couldn't blame her, but still, it bothered me. Her not being there. Living alone was enough. I couldn't stand her absence at work too. She was probably thinking that I just made a past at her like I"ve done with the rest of the women. I went out into the parking lot, running to my car; trying to escape the heavy downpour of the rain. I gripped my steering wheel a little too hard. I had bent it. I let out a frustrated groan, leaning back into the chair. What happened between us in my kitchen played over and over in my mind. The way she leaned into me. She smelled so good and her lips were so soft... and the noises she made. The way her skin felt under my palms. She was intoxicating. A few months ago if anyone would have told me I'd be fawning over a human woman like this I would have laughed... I guess nothing is impossible. Despite how much I had enjoyed what had happened. I hated the fact that I had made her uncomfortable enough to want to hide from me. Not only had I made her uncomfortable, but I had hurt her feelings on top of it. Telling her that kissing her was a mistake. I was never good at using my words. Except when it came to pissing people off apparently. I had to fix this. She was going to be stuck with me for the next couple of days. I would fix this mess then. She can't hide from me forever.