p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"The following morning I groggily woke up to the noise of a hard fist knocking lightly on the front door. I rustled in bed and stumbled to the door and tiredly turned the old knob. Jacob had been woken too and was soon behind me, one arm wrapped affectionately around my waist. Suddenly he put his hand on mine- stopping me from opening the door. He growled./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"I sniffed the air but my nose was too clogged to smell what was wrong. I snuffled and opened the door after pushing Jacob's hand away. I instantly could tell why he had been growling. Edward was there. His form was hidden behind Carlisle's./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""What do you want you leaches?" Jacob snarled dangerously, hate in his eyes./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Edward spoke quietly, "I would like to formally apologize for my behavior yesterday. It was completely out of line for me to act that way."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Jacob stretched up on his toes and leaned up above Edward; he was so much taller. "She doesn't except, you filthy rapist! Leave!" Jacob roared./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"I spoke up in a small voice from behind Jacob, "Please come in Edward."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""You're on our land, bloodsucker! I'm allowed to kill you here and now!" Jacob growled./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""Please, Jacob, stop." I murmured, having to stand on my toes to reach his ear- but what was the use? Edward and Carlisle could hear everything I said anyway. Even if Jacob didn't speak foully to Edward I was positive that he was thinking it./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"I sat on the couch and Jacob quickly stole the spot next to mine, his fingers curled into mine and he rested our hands on my knee. Carlisle and Edward didn't look at all uncomfortable standing where they were, only a few feet out of the doorway./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""Watch yourself, vamp." Jacob rumbled. At the intensity he was glaring at Edward, a hole should have burned straight through him already./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Edward looked straight into my eyes, his expression was pained and with his perfect voice, he spoke his apology./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""Bella, I am so absolutely sorry for what I did yesterday. I understand that you no longer belong to me, not that you ever did. As you know I always had been the one that belonged to emyou./em What I did was inexcusable and I know that there is no way for me to take back my actions. I'm trying to wrap myself around the idea of you and Jacob together instead of you and me. I left for a reason- because I wanted you to think that if I had moved on so would you. Now that you have actually done what I intended you to do I feel… empty. Incomplete./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""There has been and never will be another person like you in this world and I'm trying to imagine myself without you. Trust me, Bella; it's not a pretty sight. But I know that if I love you if I emreally /emlove you, I should let you go."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Then he got up with the most overt grace and left, Carlisle trailing behind him. I blinked my eyes together but found it hard to open them again. My eyelashes were stuck together and I knew that if I opened my eyes I would cry, I didn't want Jake to have to see that./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Jacob must have seen my expression, well emduh /emhe saw my expression, for he asked me in the most worried tone, "Bella are you ok?"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Wordlessly, I nodded my head having to make sure that my body actually obeyed my commands./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""Bella, look at me," Jacob commanded. I didn't move./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""Bella, look at me now!" Jacob's tone got more urgent. Slowly, I opened my eyes and all the tears that I had been holding in flooded out. With a gasp, I threw my arms around Jacob's neck and cried. He soothingly patted my back in slow circles./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""I'm a t-t-terrible p-person!" I stuttered between sobs, "I-I shouldn't have let… let him h-hurt over m-me! I j-just want him t-t-to be h-h-happy!"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""Here, here, Bella." Jacob eased, "Look at me, ok?" when I didn't obey he lifted my chin and looked me in the eyes until I looked back. He leaned into me and kissed me very gently. I held the kiss close, moving my chokehold on his neck to his back. I wanted to feel better. I wanted Jacob to make me feel better but it wasn't working./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"I deepened the kiss in desperation, my lips moving harder and faster. I could feel the worry radiating off of Jacob. He didn't want to do this. I could feel his body moving back away from me, trying to pull away and snap me out of my despondency but I moved with him./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"BANG!/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"The front door burst open with a smash, I jumped off of Jacob in fear and surprise. I could smell her before I could see her./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Vampire./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"My face flushed as I pushed myself farther away from Jacob./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""H-hey, Alice…" I stuttered my voice still thick from crying./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Alice's usually pallid face was red with embarrassment of walking in on us. She came closer to me. 'Sorry' she mouthed./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""S'ok," I muttered. Jacob groaned./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""Do you vampires have issues with personal space or something?" Jacob growled. Alice giggled./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""No, silly! Just came to announce to Bella we are officially staying in Forks!"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"My heart sank in my chest and stayed there. If felt as if someone had dropped a one hundred pound weight on my heart and watched it droop. Edward. Edward was staying. Edward was going to be at school. Jacob was making me go to school again. Didn't Alice see what happened between Edward and me only moments ago?/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""Alice…" I began, "Did you not see… what just happened here?" I whispered. Alice's face drooped, her face going red once more./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""Actually, no. I can't see you." She poked my belly, "Or you." She pointed to Jacob. "It's weird… but I did smell, Edward. I thought you two had made up?"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"I could feel more tears coming, "No." I choked. My shorter brown hair couldn't curtain my face anymore./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""I think you should leave," Jacob whispered to her, also feeling my emotional climax coming. Alice nodded and was out the door before I saw her move./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"I didn't know if Jacob was talking or not, if he was I couldn't hear him. I stared at nothing, knowing what I had to do tomorrow. I couldn't leave things the way that they were- I couldn't let Edward walk out and leave the tang of sorrow in the air. I hated him but I had to clear my conscience./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"I had to see Edward./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"I sniffed the air but my nose was too clogged to smell what was wrong. I snuffled and opened the door after pushing Jacob's hand away. I instantly could tell why he had been growling. Edward was there. His form was hidden behind Carlisle's./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""What do you want you leaches?" Jacob snarled dangerously, hate in his eyes./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Edward spoke quietly, "I would like to formally apologize for my behavior yesterday. It was completely out of line for me to act that way."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Jacob stretched up on his toes and leaned up above Edward; he was so much taller. "She doesn't except, you filthy rapist! Leave!" Jacob roared./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"I spoke up in a small voice from behind Jacob, "Please come in Edward."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""You're on our land, bloodsucker! I'm allowed to kill you here and now!" Jacob growled./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""Please, Jacob, stop." I murmured, having to stand on my toes to reach his ear- but what was the use? Edward and Carlisle could hear everything I said anyway. Even if Jacob didn't speak foully to Edward I was positive that he was thinking it./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"I sat on the couch and Jacob quickly stole the spot next to mine, his fingers curled into mine and he rested our hands on my knee. Carlisle and Edward didn't look at all uncomfortable standing where they were, only a few feet out of the doorway./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""Watch yourself, vamp." Jacob rumbled. At the intensity he was glaring at Edward, a hole should have burned straight through him already./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Edward looked straight into my eyes, his expression was pained and with his perfect voice, he spoke his apology./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""Bella, I am so absolutely sorry for what I did yesterday. I understand that you no longer belong to me, not that you ever did. As you know I always had been the one that belonged to emyou./em What I did was inexcusable and I know that there is no way for me to take back my actions. I'm trying to wrap myself around the idea of you and Jacob together instead of you and me. I left for a reason- because I wanted you to think that if I had moved on so would you. Now that you have actually done what I intended you to do I feel… empty. Incomplete./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""There has been and never will be another person like you in this world and I'm trying to imagine myself without you. Trust me, Bella; it's not a pretty sight. But I know that if I love you if I emreally /emlove you, I should let you go."/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Then he got up with the most overt grace and left, Carlisle trailing behind him. I blinked my eyes together but found it hard to open them again. My eyelashes were stuck together and I knew that if I opened my eyes I would cry, I didn't want Jake to have to see that./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Jacob must have seen my expression, well emduh /emhe saw my expression, for he asked me in the most worried tone, "Bella are you ok?"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Wordlessly, I nodded my head having to make sure that my body actually obeyed my commands./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""Bella, look at me," Jacob commanded. I didn't move./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""Bella, look at me now!" Jacob's tone got more urgent. Slowly, I opened my eyes and all the tears that I had been holding in flooded out. With a gasp, I threw my arms around Jacob's neck and cried. He soothingly patted my back in slow circles./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""I'm a t-t-terrible p-person!" I stuttered between sobs, "I-I shouldn't have let… let him h-hurt over m-me! I j-just want him t-t-to be h-h-happy!"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""Here, here, Bella." Jacob eased, "Look at me, ok?" when I didn't obey he lifted my chin and looked me in the eyes until I looked back. He leaned into me and kissed me very gently. I held the kiss close, moving my chokehold on his neck to his back. I wanted to feel better. I wanted Jacob to make me feel better but it wasn't working./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"I deepened the kiss in desperation, my lips moving harder and faster. I could feel the worry radiating off of Jacob. He didn't want to do this. I could feel his body moving back away from me, trying to pull away and snap me out of my despondency but I moved with him./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"BANG!/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"The front door burst open with a smash, I jumped off of Jacob in fear and surprise. I could smell her before I could see her./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Vampire./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"My face flushed as I pushed myself farther away from Jacob./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""H-hey, Alice…" I stuttered my voice still thick from crying./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"Alice's usually pallid face was red with embarrassment of walking in on us. She came closer to me. 'Sorry' she mouthed./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""S'ok," I muttered. Jacob groaned./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""Do you vampires have issues with personal space or something?" Jacob growled. Alice giggled./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""No, silly! Just came to announce to Bella we are officially staying in Forks!"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"My heart sank in my chest and stayed there. If felt as if someone had dropped a one hundred pound weight on my heart and watched it droop. Edward. Edward was staying. Edward was going to be at school. Jacob was making me go to school again. Didn't Alice see what happened between Edward and me only moments ago?/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""Alice…" I began, "Did you not see… what just happened here?" I whispered. Alice's face drooped, her face going red once more./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""Actually, no. I can't see you." She poked my belly, "Or you." She pointed to Jacob. "It's weird… but I did smell, Edward. I thought you two had made up?"/p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"I could feel more tears coming, "No." I choked. My shorter brown hair couldn't curtain my face anymore./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;""I think you should leave," Jacob whispered to her, also feeling my emotional climax coming. Alice nodded and was out the door before I saw her move./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"I didn't know if Jacob was talking or not, if he was I couldn't hear him. I stared at nothing, knowing what I had to do tomorrow. I couldn't leave things the way that they were- I couldn't let Edward walk out and leave the tang of sorrow in the air. I hated him but I had to clear my conscience./p
p style="max-height: 999999px; font-family: Arial, Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 14.08px;"I had to see Edward./p