Hello! This update is short. Thanks for reading! I am no doctor, so hope its accurate!
Clay had been quietly sleeping for a few hours now, Sonny Alexander Quinn on the other-hand had not. Sonny had kept most of his big ole Texas sized heart deeply covered in his brash and inappropriate behaviors. Situations that have happened over the years with his teammates have brought that big caring heart to the surface, but no teammate more than Clay Spenser. It was something that radiated off of Clay, this deep need to comfort and meet his needs. Clay was not openly needy, it was just this deep longing to take care of him.
Sonny smirked to himself as he watched Clay sleep, he couldn't believe he let himself get so close to someone, much less a teammate. The smirk quickly faded as the reality of Clay's current health situation hit Sonny like a ton of bricks. Even though Clay was still with them, he hadn't made much progress since they found him, and his kidney's were still in a very fragile state. He couldn't lose Clay now, they had been trough too much and too many hard situations recently to have it end like this.
Sonny was shook from his thoughts by Clay groaning and shifting in the bed, Sonny waited a few seconds to see if Clay would settle back down, when he didn't and tried to sit up, Sonny made it to the side of the bed just in time for Clay to throw up all over Sonny's arms that were trying to help Clay sit up or help him settle back to sleep. Clay continued to gag, still half asleep as Sonny hit the call button so they could both get cleaned up.
"Clay, hey you awake?"
"Hm, so..rry" Clay said very timid and shyly, then weirdly, as Sonny was waiting for Clay to wake up and respond more, tears started streaming down Clay's face, and Clay laid back and turned away from Sonny. Sonny hesitated for a second, but then pushed through the discomfort that intimate situations brought him and went over to comfort Clay.
"Clay, c'mon bud, whats going on." Sonny was met with nothing, Clay just laid there and kept ignoring Sonny, tears still streaming down his thin face.
"Just go."
"Bud, we've been over this, I'm not going anywhere and neither is anyone else. Why the emotion all the sudden? Was it something i said?"
"Go."
"Sorry pretty boy, not gonna happen. So just keep pouting or tell me what wrong?" That came out a bit brash, but Sonny was tired and worried.
"Everything." Clay responded after a minute or two of silence.
"Everything? Gonna have to give me more than that blondie."
"Please just go, you've spent too much time here just sitting around and getting puked on." Clay said while trying to hide a wince.
"Clay, you've said that more times then my father was in prison, and thats a lot, so just spit it out, i'm not leaving."
"Im tired of always ruining your guy's life. So please just leave..."
"Clay, stop it right now. You are not a burden, you know what ruined our lives? When we lost you. You will never know how crushed we all were. I was sure Jace was never going to recover. So, stop with that kind of attitude, i will not listen to you ramble on about how you have ruined our lives, and neither will anyone else, so just give it up already. So now that we've settled that, how are you feeling? And don't lie to me."
"Hm, if you want the truth, can you just end it now?"
"End what Clay?" Sonny asked, a little worried at what he thinks Clay is hinting at.
"All this." Clay said sobbing harder than he already was. "I can't do this any longer." Now Clay was sobbing so hard he was gagging and coughing so hard he couldn't catch his breath.
Sonny moved over to the bed, shocked and heartbroken. He lifted Clay off the bed and held him in a hug. Clay held onto Sonny and sobbed so hard, Sonny was worried.
"Bud, shhh calm down. You're ok." Sonny tried rubbing Clay's back to soothe him, until he touched the area of Clay's kidney's, and instantly regretted it. Clay let out an awful, painful scream. Sonny instantly flinched and pushed the call button for the nurse. Clay grabbed onto Sonny's shirt, as he was leaning into Sonny's chest trying to breathe through the pain that was in his back, but while panting he started coughing and by the time the nurse came in, he was setting off the pulse ox alert and unable to catch his breath.
"Clay, hey you're okay, just take some deep breaths, Sonny and i are going to lay you back, i know it's gonna feel like you can't breathe, but just keep calm and i'm gonna help ya breathe better." The sweet nurse said, as she upped the oxygen in Clay's mask to a higher concentration. She was one of Sonny's favorites. She was nice and stern at the same time.
Clay had calmed down slightly, but was still restless, and moaning, panicked that he couldn't catch his breath. His back still the problem, but he also sounded more congested, and was trying to clear some mucus from his air way. After the nurse checked his other vitals and wrote them down, Clay was still struggling but had calmed down a bit, Clay was still coughing, struggling to draw air, still not breathing like she wanted.
"Okay, Clay, i'm gonna suction your throat a bit to help clear the mucus and help you breathe better. It won't feel good, but Sonny is right here so keep calm and ill get ya feeling better in no time."
The nurse readied the suction tube, Sonny gagged just thinking that was going in Clay's throat, but anything was better than watching Clay struggle to catch his breath.
"Okay Clay, just keep calm, this is gonna be uncomfortable. Sonny's right here, just hold unto him."
As the nurse turned on the suction, Sonny marveled at the fact that this kind of situation had become an everyday occurrence since they rescued Clay, and that broke his heart.