12:00 am, Todorki Shoto's room:
I looked at the alarm clock beside my bed as the 11:59 turned to 00:00.
I sighed in frustration.
I could not sleep, not even for one minute.
I was thinking about her... about imoto. The whole time.
She was acting out of character lately.
She was shutting everyone out...
she was shutting me out...
Even if she was giving them friendly smiles and speaking sweet words.
Those are fake... I know that...
After all, I was feeling her pain.
And to top things up, she... she had an episode...
After so long , they came back.
She hid all of her suffering inside though.
"There is nothing important, just a head ache".
"No need for help."
"I am ok."
As usual, the same excuses.
But I don't buy these.
I...
When I saw her fall to her knees...
I could not control myself.
I felt like if my soul left my body...
'I cannot tolerate her nonsense anymore...'
I stood up then walked to the window.
The rays of the moon illuminated a part of my room, killing a little bit of the darkness around me, bringing a bit life to it.
I closed my eyes.
'Hikoori for me is like this moon...
She is the last light of my life...
Without her... I...
I don't know what to do...
...'
Suddenly, interrupting my train of thought, a strong stabbing pain stroke in my heart.
I clutched my chest intensely.
"Gaah...!!"
'Imoto...!'
I moved as fast as my legs could carry me toward my twin's room. I opened it's door silently to avoid waking her if she was asleep.
I rushed to her side as soon as I could let my body in.
I knelt beside her sleeping on bed form.
She was frowning, mumbling some muffled words that made no sense.
More importantly, she was shivering under her cover.
I was surprised.
'This is April... she should not be this cold...'
I moved the cover a little bit from her face.
'Ice stamps...!'
She had ice stamps forming on various places on her face.
I took out her and in mine.
'It's freezing too...'
'It's happening again, like today in the sports grounds...!'
This hasn't began from a long time, because bed is still intact.
I closed my eyes, gritting my teeth so hard.
'Just an another time... I will use it just to keep her warm...'
I sat on the bed beside her, my left side sticking closer to her. I activated my fire faintly, only to ensure warming her up.
Her shivering stilled.
'But the pain is still here...'
She was still frowning.
'The same used to happen when we were young...
her psychotherapist said that when she grows up those nightmares will fade and their intensity would diminuate... but they are returning to her, much stronger now...'
she had too many nightmares in her childhood, especially when mom left.
I used fo comfort her in her sleep, so that she can enjoy at least those few hours in peace...
She was supposed to heal by now, but... the last week, she was retreating to the state she was in after the incident.
No one is noticing that except of me.
Not Endeavour, not Natsuo, not even Fuyumi.
"Nii-san... ice... blood" she muttered, eyes squeezing.
Involuntarily, I reached out for her head and caressed it. She released some of the pressure on her eyes.
"O-ka s-san..." she stuttered, but not out of cold. It was out of the deep down sadness.
I shivered. My gaze moved to the burn mark on her right side without permission.
Mother... how much we need her... how much we miss her...
I rested my head on the back of the bed, closing my eyes.
I let out a shaky sigh.
'No... I promised myself I won't cry on her anymore...
I swore I will prove her power instead of weeping her.
I will become stronger with just her power. I will neglect that excuse of a father and win over him with just and only ice.'
I reopened my eyes.
'Her.. her forehead... it's hot'
I stopped my fire quirk and waited two minutes to make sure it was not me overheating. Itouched her forehead again.
'Yes... it is hot now... she has a fever.'
I got up and headed to the kitchen.
'She is having weird changes in her body. One minute she is as cold as ice, the other she becomes feverish.'
I took a sheet of cotton and soaked it in water and squeezed the extra out. Then I filled a small bowl with water and cooled it with my right side.
I got back to her room, right beside her.
I placed the perfectly wet sheet on her forehead.
I looked through the window and saw the first rays of light shine.
'I should go... it is won't play out good if she saw me here...
Besides I should sleep too...'
I got up to leave, but she swiftly took my hand right in her left one.
I sat back down.
It's not that I do not want that.
I was more than happy to take care of her like I did before.
"Will you hold my hand like that tomorrow though, when you are conscious...?" I asked her sleeping form.
'Judging by her past actions, she will most likely not.'
She squeezed my hand, like if she heard me.
Then, tears streamed out of her eyes.
'Is she awake...?'
I studied her for a moment again. She was breathing louder than usual.
'No... definitely sleeping. She hates the voice of loud breathing, after all.'
"s-ay.. aw-y..." she cried.
"Mon-ter... I..." She said.
"On-... f-or... a-...l" Imoto spoke incoherently in her sleep again.
"...o-er... con-ol..."
'What does that mean...?'
Oh, but I had no idea...
What my sister was going through, was way beyond a simple nightmare or an episode.
Actually, now I wish it was just that...And that is a Shoto Todoroki for you!He surely loves his twin as much as she does.He just needs to know more.Will he?Maybe.What you should be sure of is that he will try his best to get to the truth.There will be more of such chapters in the future.After all, seeing from one eye is not good. To make the truth clear, we have to change perspectives.Hope you enjoyed!Author-chan.