A/N: I am very thankful that you have read the last chapter. Many of you ask if they are together, well you'll find it out here in this new chapter! Holidays are coming up, so I just want to say a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to all of you! My break will be also coming up, so I'll do my best to post more chapters. :)

Enjoy!

CHAPTER SIXTEEN: TAKING IT SLOWLY

Santana woken up from the sound of the heavy footsteps coming to the room. And when she saw the door opened, a Doctor came in and smiled sheepishly to her. The Doctor handed her out a clipboard and spoke, "It's been almost a month since she has been here, she is ready to go out now."

"That's good news Doc," Santana whispered while reading the clipboard on her hand. The Doctor quickly gave her a pen to sign it. "Please sign it, so she can be submitted out from the hospital."

The Latina quickly signed her signature on the clipboard and gave it back to the doctor. The Doctor smiled wholeheartedly and said, "I hope she'll be okay."

Once the doctor walked out from the room, Santana yawned quietly and stood up from her chair, stretching her long arms out. She rubbed her eyes with her fingers and looked back at her lover who is sleeping so peacefully. The Latina smiled like a child.

"My beautiful girl.." Santana whispered to herself. Maybe this could be a start of their new relationship, and it has been going well for the past few weeks. But she would still go home and wash herself and come back from the hospital smelling good. Of course she didn't wanted to smell, that would be such a turn off.

But then Sam flashes through her mind and it made her angry that fists are balling up. She inhaled sharply and let out her breath, to keep herself calm. But it didn't work.

God, I need a cigar. Santana thought. So, she grabbed her purse and dig her hand down inside it to grab her Caramel pack and her lighter. She pulled it out and tug it in her pocket and went out to the room quietly, making sure the blonde won't wake up. She tromped her feet down the hallway and when she saw the elevator open, she went inside and saw an old woman with a cane on her hand. Santana smiled softly to the woman and said, "Good morning."

"Good morning, young lady," She said with her croaky voice and asked, "Doing fine this morning?"

"Definitely." Santana breathed. It was a terrific morning actually, until Sam popped up in her head. The elevator opened and it was time for them to step out of the elevator. The old woman smiled at her for the last time and walked away, Santana bolted out from the hospital and went to the parking lot to get in her car. Once she was inside, she lit up her cigarette and put it on her lips to inhale the smoke. Her eyes flutter when she felt smoke inside her mouth, it felt relaxing for her. She took out her cigarette and blew a big puffy out of it. She sighed and took a big blunt and blew it again and again. When a stick was done, she decided to get another one.

And so she did.

Until she finished the whole packet..

She coughed and coughed out the smoke and leaned her head against the car seat. She felt better, but then she wouldn't want to come inside Brittany's room to smell like that. Of course the blonde doesn't like for the Latina to smoke, she thinks it's unhealthy. Meanwhile, Santana was scratching her head. Thinking if she should go home and wash herself up or she should go back to Brittany's room. And her car was filled with smoke. Bad idea, especially if they're going home.

Santana comes back to the room, smelling a little weird since she sprayed cologne everywhere on her clothes just to not smell like smoke. And when she came in, she saw Brittany awake, eating her breakfast on the bed. The Latina quickly walked towards her and leaned down her head to press her plump lips on her head. She whispered, "Morning, baby."

"I know you were smoking."

Damn it. Santana mentally punched herself on her face because her lover found out. she knew the perfume didn't took much effect. So she sighed and pouted lightly.

"Sorry, babe. I just needed a hit."

Brittany sighed and nodded slowly. She grabbed a banana from the tray and gave it to Santana nicely, well more like offering it to her. The Latina shook her head and said, "You should eat that, Britt-"

"I've been hearing your stomach grumbling ever since you came back here," She said. "So, have my banana."

"Thank you, babe." Santana said with her usual tone when she's around Brittany and kisses her head again. She grabbed the banana from her and peeled off the skin.

"Am I being submitted out?" Brittany asked.

"Yes, love. We will be leaving after breakfast."

"Okay," She said blankly. "I'm ready to get out of here."

Brittany was putting on her civilian clothes while I was outside of the room, thinking if I should pick up the kids. i could not believe that I would be going home with Brittany for the first time in two years, I have surely missed her around my home. And I couldn't wait for her to live with me again.

Rachel told me that all of her clothes and the kids things are at my home, because they won't be staying there anymore. The feeling of my family coming back to me is one of my hopes and dreams. I can't wait to sleep beside her again, eating with her again and practically doing all those lovely things with her again. And I also could not wait to spend time with my children more. I really am happy that I get to have my family back.

As I was grabbing the keys from my pocket, Brittany was outside of the room with her normal dress on. I smiled softly at her and whispered, "You're so beautiful."

"Thank you, Santana." She replied cheerfully and twirled herself around. I giggled a little and wrapped my arm around her waist, guiding us out of the hospital. Once we got inside the car, Brittany pulled the seat belt on her and smiled.

"I can't wait to go home!" exclaimed Brittany.

"Same here, god I miss the house." I said while starting the car up.

It was kind of silent while we were going home, since there's nothing really to talk about. Brittany had her head popped out of the window and feel the wind blowing on her face. Me, on the other hand was just listening to some good old songs on the radio. As I driving slowly, Brittany broke the silence.

"We are finally living together again."

"Yes," I said with a breathy tone. "Are you excited?"

"You bet I am!" She replied with a smile, her teeth was dazzingly white against her dress that fit so perfectly well. I just chuckled and shake my head. Brittany was very adorable when she's all giddy and happy. She's like a child, a big child. I remember when I was stressing out on my work, she would always make me happy. She would brighten yup my gloomy day just by giving me her funniest faces or dance in front of me. Brittany was a perfect wife for a man, she would cook you dinner when you get home late, she would take care of you when you're tired or sick. That's why I am so glad to have her, to finally have her. I can finally hold her hand and kiss it tenderly.

I can finally have my future with her.

"Are there any changes around the house?" Brittany asked curiously as she closed the window beside her. I shook my head lightly.

"No, it's still the same thing. All though I uh..I removed the playroom." Brittany just nodded and looked away from me. The awkward silence was going back.

"You didn't really have to remove the playroom, you could just have locked it."

"Are you saying that you want the playroom back?" I asked. Does she want it back? I thought she hated the playroom, especially the whipping and dominating part. All thought the dominate side of me is still there but, does she want it back? Not that i'm complaining.

"N-no, I-I mean I do but, if you don't-"

"I'll bring it back for you-"

"Santana, just-if you want to, the playroom is somehow our thing, you know? And you took it away?"

"Yes! Because it gives back the memories of what I've done to you..on the floor!" I stepped the pedal too hard that the car stopped out of nowhere. My breathing was quite ragged, and my knuckles were completely white from holding the steering wheel too tight.

"I hurt you, I whipped you with my pleasure, I..I raped you Brittany! I touched you too hard and-and I didn't even controlled my temper or myself!" I didn't realize that I was letting all of my burden out of her. I should have controlled it, but everything was so fast. I wanted to pour all of my sorrows out of her.

"Brittany, I have raped a lot of women. Like, a lot that I lose count. I made them bleed with my pleasure, I touched them too much that their arms or thighs were purple as hell. I should be put on jail! For what I did to those women, I should be dead right now! I thought I would change if I am going to be with you but, I didn't. I still cheated on you multiple times. You don't deserve me,"

"I don't deserve you." I choked out a sob and rested my head on the wheel, crying it all out. Brittany was just sitting there, completely shocked. Of course she would be shocked, especially to this kind of situation.

She looked at me with her sad eyes and unbuckled her seatbelt and stretched her arms out for me. I quickly wrapped my arms around her and cried.

"Santana, of course you deserve me. I know you did all those stuff, and honestly it's very painful for me to see you like that. But, I love you San. I love you and I don't care if that was you before, I am now looking forward to the new you. The new Santana."

"R-Really? You love me?" I asked her with my broken voice. Her lips curled up softly and nodded.

"I love you, Santana. And I am so proud of you that you're changing. Not for me, but also for yourself."

I quickly gave her a warm smile and rested my forehead against hers, taking this moment very very slowly. This was the first time I have ever let out my feelings to Brittany, and it feels so good to let it all out. I can finally be free and continue to change myself. There is no holding back now.

"Thank you, Brittany. For accepting me again."

Seeing Brittany coming inside into my home again felt so nostalgic. It's real, she's actually walking through the kitchen and to the living room. I smiled softly when I saw her flopped her whole body against the couch and said, "I feel like I'm at home!"

"Well, this is your home." I said as a matter of a fact. She lifts her head up and nodded.

God she's so adorable.

She quickly stood up and walked back towards me, she's currently looking down at me while I'm looking up to her. Yes, our height difference is different. Brittany is taller than me for 2-3 inches. Sometimes I hate the height difference, people think that she's more of the older one while I am the older one. I quickly wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled her closer to me. I slowly leaned in for a leisurely kiss and she accepted it. My lips pressed against hers and I can definitely heard her moan. I groaned a little and deepen the kiss, by licking her bottom lip for entrance. She opens her mouth a little for consent and I thrust my tongue inside of her mouth. My hands slowly went down on her soft covered ass and I squeezed it a little. Then she pulled away from my lips and panted.

"What's wrong?" I whispered worriedly. She just bit her lip and whispered, "Santana, since we are together again, it doesn't mean we will have sex right away. I still need more time of that, could we um, take it slow?"

That's why I hate myself so much, I am very pushy.

I felt heat around my cheeks as she shyly looks away from me. God, I shouldn't have done that. I knew she wanted to take it slow, and I totally understand that. But my horny side couldn't stop it, and I miss her body. Oh, how badly I want to make love to her.

"Oh, I understand." I say with my low voice.

"Thank you for understanding me right now, I promise we will do it soon. Just..not now." She said by kissing my cheek softly and smiled. Well, I couldn't get mad at her for not having sex, I mean we just got together. And I understood that she didn't want to do it, yet. So, I crept my hand on her small back and led her to our bedroom.

It was still the same, dark blue covered sheets along with the pillows too, and on the right, there is a small desk with an iMac on it. And then beside the desk, there is a door for the bathroom which includes the bathtub and the shower. There's also another door in the bathroom which leads to the walk-in closet. It has all my clothes there, I should start removing my clothes so Brittany can put her clothes in.

And then the only thing I love about our bedroom is the balcony where you can see the beautiful view of Seattle. Brittany sat down on the bed and looked around the room.

"The bedroom still looks the same," She said. "Nothing has changed at all."

"Yeah, I just kind of lost interest of changing things. Since you were gone." I told her honestly as I sat down beside her. Silence slowly crept around our atmosphere, and it was killing me. What could I say? Nothing. Of course I couldn't say anything, I guess I was just shy or I didn't really know what to say or ask. I looked down at my own hands and looked at her hand as well. It was on her lap perfectly, makes me want to hold it. I slowly made my hand go to her left hand without being noticed and once I felt her skin, I held her hand quickly and gripped it softly. She gasped a little of our touch and stared at me. I raised my chin up to look at her and our gazes locked. Blue ones to brown ones. I bit my bottom lip nervously when she looks down at my lip. Those lips are so soft and kissable, oh how much I want to kiss her right now.

She softly ask, "I think we will be doing just fine.." I didn't know what that meant, but I just nodded.

"Yeah, I hope so."

But then suddenly, she unclasped her hands on mine and stood up. She looked at me and said, "Show me the piano room."

"Britt, I haven't been in there in-"

"I don't care if it's dusty and all that, but show me." It sounded more of a demand than a plead. I sighed with defeat and stood up walking outside of the room then walked a little further to the hallways. Once I finally reached to the last room, I opened the door slowly and it was completely dirty and all dusty. There were a few boxes around the room. And the piano looked like it hasn't been touched in years, which is true. Since Brittany left, I stopped playing the piano and decided to abandon it.

She happily went inside the piano room, her mouth parted as she looked around it. There were trophies and also medals around the floor and she picked up one. The one she picked up was 30 years ago when I won the Piano competition. She looked at me with a smirk.

"Wow, you played ever since you were little?" She asked with her wide eyes. I chuckled and nodded.

"Yeah, my uh mom discovered my talent ever since I was a baby. I guess being a pianist was my talent."

"Maybe you could bring it back? I mean, you're terrific despite from all these awards." She said and showed me my old awards. I just sighed and scratched the back of my neck and stuttered.

"I-I don't k-know Britt, I mean what if I'm not good anymore?"

"Oh shut up, just play one piece for me? Please?" She pleaded with a pout. I mean that pout could definitely persuade me to play the piano but I-

"Okay, fine." Why did I give in?! "Only one, okay?" Yeah, only one Lopez. She just nodded with a smile and waited for me to sit on that chair. I slowly sat down on the soft chair and opened the keyboard cover, not going to lie, I kind of miss this. I stretched my hands a bit and curling them, and then stretching them once again. My fingers lay on the keys and glanced at her, she had her arms folded below her breast and the next thing I do is..

I started playing.

I didn't know what I was doing, I wanted to stop. But my fingers are moving freely on its own, like it knows what it's doing. I started to use the pedal a little then continue to play the piece. She gasped a little then sat down beside me to watch me play. I smiled a little then I started to play with more feeling, with more love. This piece was actually for Brittany, before we even gotten together. She slowly hummed while I play the piano and it made the sound even better while she's humming. I looked at her with my hooded eyes and she stares back at me too. We slowly leaned in until our faces were inches apart until I captured her lips. I stopped playing the keyboards and quickly brought my hands around her neck, my other hand on her face to deepen the kiss. She pulled away from the kiss for air and my lips are attached on her neck, feeling her more. I started to kiss her roughly while my hands are gripping her waist.

"Santana-oh, stop, wait we have to-" I cut her off with my lips around her mouth again and moaned like some horny guy. I knew this was wrong, we shouldn't be having sex but, I just miss her body. I pulled away abruptly and lifted her up to put her on the floor beside all of the trophies. I immediately leaned forward that our fronts were touching and I continued to make out with her neck.

"Britt-oh Britt, let me make love to you.." I whispered desperately as I removed my red heels and threw them across the room. Brittany whimpered and pushed my shoulders away, but I resisted her and pinned her hands on the floor as I humped her roughly. She was trying to push my again but I was already pulling her dress up until she screamed, "NO!" I was startled when she screamed at me and I quickly back myself further from her. Did I hurt her?

"Britt-I, are you okay?" I asked worriedly but she shook her head. I guess I made her remember something, but I couldn't seem to remember.

Right, I raped her on the floor.

"Sorry it's just that-" She sobbed and brought her knees up to her chin. "I want to make love with you too, Santana but-not now or here, not on the floor please..." She pleaded. My body started to soften and I immediately hugged Brittany from my arms. I soothed her shoulder with my hand and whispered, "I'm so sorry, baby I was-God I was being a jerk again to you, I didn't mean to and I'm so sorry love..forgive me?"

"Of course I forgive you just, don't do that again to me please.." She whispered with a plead and I nodded, I rested my forehead against hers, my arms are still wrapped around her and replied, "I won't Britt, I'm sorry."

It's kind of a small chapter but the next chapter will be longer, but thank you so much for reading this chapter! I hope you like it! Until next time!