It has been 8 weeks since our big family dinner where I played mediator twice. Now, they call me anytime they have a conflict. It is getting old. I have no one to blame but myself for it though.

I just continue to dole out advice and telling them they need an actual therapist sometimes.

I am 38 weeks pregnant and I feel like I'm about to explode because I am SO big. My husband has been a dream throughout my pregnancy, yet again. My other family members help as well when they are around.

Mia is now 21 weeks pregnant with a boy. Her and Luke are generally very excited about it. I can't wait to have a nephew. Mia and I are sisters by everything except DNA.

Nevaeh is now 2 and the boys are 1 now. They know they're getting new sisters but at their age, the boys aren't really interested yet.

The Greys still come visit a lot. Christian comes every other weekend. Mia brings Luke with her now. They don't come too often because apparently my brother works his ass off but at least I am kind of getting to know him as family as well. Kate and Elliot and Ava also come once a month because Elliot is still pretty busy working on Kate's dream home.

Frank and Gloria have dinner with our family 3 days a week. Gideon has been kind enough to show them around NYC. They had never been here, except for when Frank was trying to meet me so they appreciated a tour from someone who has basically lived here his whole life.

Today, I'm going in for my scheduled c-section. We finally get to meet Penelope and Raylynn today. My husband and I are beyond ecstatic. Christian, Kate and Mia flew in to be supportive.

It is getting close to time for them to take me to surgery and I'm getting more nervous, as is my husband. They take him to get changed and then he comes along with us as they wheel me into the OR. Kate, Mia and Christian wish me luck and give me kisses on the cheek.

Gideon holds my hand as the doctors do their thing and work hard to bring my daughters into the world safely.

I hear both my daughters' cries fill the room and it brings me to tears and Gideon kisses them away. "Go to the babies Gideon. Stay with them, please."

"Okay Goddess. You did great."

He gives me a sweet kiss and checks out the girls and he leaves the room with them.

"Suction." I hear my doctor say.

The alarms start beeping much like last time. "what's going on?" I ask frantically.

"There's been a complication but we're working on it Mrs. Cross. Put her to sleep please?" she tells the anesthesiologist.

That's the last thing I remember before everything fades to black.

Gideon's POV

I'm in the nursery admiring our beautiful daughters. I get to take turns holding them. After an hour, Ana still isn't out of surgery so I go ask how she is and all they say is that there was a complication and they don't know how long it will be.

Not another childbirth complication. I call Christian to join me at the nursery. It's best not to be completely alone with the babies or I will be frantic.

"She has to be okay, Christian. The doctors know what they're doing. Right?"

"She is strong. She pulled through last time. She will be okay."

I sigh. "I hope so. I can't do all this without her."

"You won't have to."

He gives me a hug.

2 hours later, we finally see the doctor approach. "How is she?"

"She is okay now, but again, she lost a lot of blood. We had to do a partial hysterectomy to save her. I'm so sorry."

"So she can't have anymore babies."

"No, she can't Mr. Cross. This may be a hard thing for her to absorb. She will need everyone to just be there for her. This news can be devastating to a new Mom so she will need everyone to be there for her."

She can't have anymore babies. I wonder if she can handle this. As Christian said though, she is strong and will pull through this. "Thank you doctor. Can we go see her?"

"Yes. After she is awake, we can transfer her to a bigger room. She will probably want to see the babies when she wakes up. But we need to get her transferred to a bigger room before she can see them. It would probably be best if she had the babies in front of her before she receives this news. It may help soften the blow."

"Okay. Where is she?" I ask.

"Follow me."

She walks me to recovery and there is my Ana, sleeping peacefully. She looks so small and helpless on the big hospital bed.

I give her a kiss on the forehead and sit down in the chair beside the bed and hold her hand.

Ana's POV

I wake up and smell the hospital. I open my eyes and find my husband staring at me. "the babies?"

"They're fantastic Goddess. You did great."

He has a sad smile on his face. "What is it Gideon? I can see something is bothering you."

"I will have the doctor explain that to you. Let's let them know that you are awake and when we get you in a bigger room, you can see the babies."

I nod. I need to know what is wrong. A nurse comes in. "Mrs. Cross, glad to see you're awake. We are going to transfer to your own private room since you're awake."

I nod again. They roll me into a big room and get me settled in. "The babies. I need to see Raylynn and Penny."

"I'll go get them Goddess." Says my wonderful husband as he gives me another sweet kiss.

He leaves the room and I contemplate what he could possibly be so worried about. What isn't he saying?

A little bit later, him and Christian come rolling the babies into my room. Christian hands me a baby first. "Hi Raylynn Katherine. I'm your Mommy baby."

After I hold her for a little bit I pass her back to Christian. Gideon then hands me Penny. "Hi Penelope Grace. I'm your Mommy."

As I'm holding her, my doctor comes into the room with sadness etched on her face and I look to Christian and Gideon and they have the same look. "What's wrong people?"

"Mrs. Cross, there were complications during your surgery, much like last time. This time, the only way we could get control of it was to remove your uterus. We had to give you a partial hysterectomy. I'm so sorry."

I think about what this means, and just stare at Penny, willing for this to not be true. "You okay baby?" My husband asks. I can feel the tears begin to fall.

I look up at him. "No more babies?"

He nods with a sad smile on his face. "I will give you some privacy now. Again, I'm sorry Mrs. Cross." The doctor says as she makes her way out of my room.

I just admire my daughter and scoot over so Gideon can sit beside me. Christian hands Raylynn to him and I stare at both my babies, unable to speak a word. These will be my youngest babies. I finally speak. "it will be alright? We can adopt children who need loving homes down the road, right?"

"Anything for you baby."

"I need to see my therapist Gideon. I need to sort my thoughts."

"You want me to contact her and have her come see you now?"

"Please." He nods and gives me a sweet kiss. Christian, can you take Penny and I will give her Raylynn so I can call her therapist?"

"Of course." I hand him Penny and Gideon hands me Raylynn.

He calls and get my therapist to come in. As much as we pay the woman, she can do house calls or hospital calls.

Christian hands Penny back to Gideon and leaves the room so that I can feed them and he doesn't have to see my boob. He goes out to talk to Kate and Mia about what is going on.

After the babies are fed, I have Gideon lay them down and come back to hold me until the therapist comes. "I love you Gideon. We will be okay, won't we?"

"Of course Goddess. We will be fine." I nod and start crying into his chest and he just holds me.

When my therapist, Rebecca, finally comes in, I give Gideon a kiss and he leaves the room.

I talk for an hour to Rebecca about my concerns and my feelings about not having anymore babies.

I didn't want to have more babies anytime soon but it would be nice to know I was able to, whenever I'm ready.

She tells me that we can either adopt or have a surrogate down the line and she says all the right things to help sweep away my fears.

"I'm going to leave now. You want me to send your husband back in?"

"Yes, please."

Gideon comes back in and after feeding the babies and changing them again, he holds me. "I love you Gideon. Thank you for all my babies."

"You're more than welcome baby. Thank you too. You did the hard part."

I nod and smile and give him a sweet kiss. "sleep now Goddess."

I fall asleep in the safe and loving arms of my handsome husband.