Chapter 16

- THIS CHAPTER IS NOT EDITED-

I have been training with Rock Lee and Neji for the past two weeks almost every day aside from the days when my ribs can hardly take it. I lied and told them that I pulled a muscle and that it acted up sometimes but a was taking relaxers for it. Neji wanted to bite my head off and said I would bring them down but Rock Lee was more than understanding. Even Guy sensei, our health teacher, came to train with us, spouting about the glory of youth and all of that. I learned that Sasuke and Karin went on a trip with Sasuke's family and wouldnt be back for a month or so, so I was confident walking through the halls of the school, racking my brain on a way to handle Karin when she came back. But I didnt have to worry or think about that now.

Training with everyone has worn me out and I have burned through more than 100 ice packs subduing the pain of my still sore ribs. I dont want to party tonight but I promised Naruto I would.

"Can you tell me why we're partying the night before Halloween and not on it?" I ask Ino as we walk down the costume filled aisles, each of us flipping the plastic packaged outfits.

"Naruto always throws a party the night before so the day of he can hand out candy to the kids." She holds up a unicorn onsie before scrunching up her nose and leaving it on the rack.

I nod at his sound logic and we continue strolling, after about 30 minutes I sigh in defeat, finding nothing relatively close to something I could wear, Ino on the other hand has her arms overflowing with possible costumes.

"Come on," she heads off to the dressing rooms and I involuntarily follow her. We enter one of the dressing rooms when Ino throws an armful of costumes my way.

"I couldnt tell what would look good on you so you have some options." I gape at some of the costumes she chose for me but she pays me no mind as she begins stripping. I roll my eyes and do the same until I am only in my bra and underwear. Since I've told Ino about what really happened she is the only one I have let see my bruises. Most of them have faded to an almost unseeable grey but the ones on my ribs are the worst, still blue and spotted.

I try on my first costume and absolutely dispise it. I take off the cowboy hat and the too small plaid bikini top, tossing them as well as the jean botty shorts into the discard pile and go to open the next one. This goes on for about 30 minutes and by the time I'm down to the last costume I'm sweaty and done with this.

"This one's cute." Ino says as she admires herself in the mirror. "I'm gonna get this one." She says as she eyes herself in the deep purple tuxedo bunny costume.

"Of course you are," I say with a sigh. Ino turns to me and frowns.

"What's your problem? You've been nothing but a bitch today when you have no reason to be. Is this about Kakashi sensei and how he is taking it easy on you or is it Gaara ignoring you?"

Any other day I would have snapped at her but her words were too true and my body is too tired to agrue with her, so I sit down on the dressing room bench and place my head in my hands. "Yes, all of it." Ino crosses her arms and sits down next to me, her fishnet covered thighs touching mine bare.

It's true that I have been upset about a few things. I reached out to talk to Gaara but he hasnt responded to any of my advances, I even sent Ino over to see if she could convice him to talk to me but he simply said he doesnt want to, and that pissed me off. After how he treated me he should have been the one who has been begging to talk to me.

And as for Kakashi, he has only offered to train me once he heard I was training with Neji and Rock Lee, even then he would barely left me lift weights without making up some excuse about how I'm not ready and how I should be taking it slow. Eventually I just gave up on trying to deal around his weird cryptic comments and looks and snapped, telling him that when he is really ready to train me he can come find me. I know that I was the one that cut things with Kakashi off, but the only way I can replace my lust is with anger and if thats what I need to do I'll do it.

Ino sighs before nudging me with her shoulder, "Everything will be fine, you just need a night to relax and have some fun." I can't help but crack a small smile up at her.

"I dont even have a costume yet-"

"-yet." She smiles and I stand as she hands me the last costume. I sigh and slip on the the leather and plastic costume, not even bothering to put on the thigh high socks or the veil that is designed to sit on my head.

Ino smiles viciously, "You are a child of God."

I cant help but smile maliciously with her. I was going to break hearts tonight.

When Ino and I rolled into the party, already buzzed from pregaming at her house, all eyes turned to us. We held back our giggling as we strode into Naruto's kitchen, trying to refrain from laughing at every Harley Quinn costume we saw.

Per usual Naruto was already stationed in his kitchen, his back was to us showing off his new nine tailed fox tattoo he ended up getting the night we all partied at the club. He was so fucked up that when he woke up the next morning he didnt even remember getting it.

We walk up to Naruto and I pinch his butt, Ino and I erupting into laugher as he turns around. "OH MY GOD SAKURA! INO!" Naruto picks both of us up and we immedietly begin flailing to be released, Naruto's bare chest already moist and muggy from the party.

"Nice costume Naruto," Ino says as she admired him in his tight black booty shorts accompanied with handcuffs clicked to his belt loop, a police badge hangs loosely around his neck.

"Thanks girls! Me and Hinata match!" At the mention of her name she appears next to Naruto, she is wearing a black and striped tight fitting minidress accessorized with a matching prisoners cap. "O-our c-costumes might b-be good b-but your g-guys are better." Hinata mumbles and Ino and I cant help but relish in the feelings of all eyes on us.

"Yeah you guys look great! Especially you Sakura, you're the hottest nun I've ever seen!" I sassily pose for them and they cheer me on, the white and black dress is short, the ends split so that if I bend over too far you can see my ass as well as my boobs. I decided to wear the tallest high heels I had, 'to make me feel closer to God'.

I bring my hands together and 'pray' as I batt my eyelashes, some guys in the corner of the room whoop and hollar at me and I cant help but feel my ego rize.

I grab a bottle of vodka off of the kitchen counter and hold it up in the air, "LETS GET FUCKED UP!" Cheers erupt every where, spreading through the house, I bring the bottle to my lips and chug heavily. A pit forms in the bottom of my stomach.

DRUGS by Lil Aaron blasts through the living room as everyone dances, yelling out the lyrics to the iconic song. "She only say she miss me when she come into the city, I only say I love her when I wanna fuck her. I only call her pretty when she's taking out her titties! I only say I love her when I wanna fuck her!" Ino and I yell in synch as we hold eachothers hands for dear life. Naruto throws himself into us as we yell the lyrics in sync, "I only hit her up when I'm taking drugs, I only hit her up when I'm taking drugs, I only hit her up when I'm taking drugs, I only hit her up when I'm taking drugs!"

I grind on Kiba, slamming the cup of water he brought me before discarding it to the ground. "Spend all my daddy's money making sure my nose stay runny, I only say I love her when I wanna fuck her, we pop a couple xannies now she's taking off her panties I only say I love her when I wanna fuck her!" Kiba and I playfully smile at eachother, our bodies just having drifted towards eachother.

After the first few rounds of shots in the kitchen Ino dragged my towards the pulsing of the living room where we found Kiba, Ten Ten, strangely enough Temari, who Ino avoided at all costs, and Sai, who showed up at the party a while before we did. Just like us almost everyone was already drunk, and when everyone except Ino decided to take more shots we moved as a collective to the dance floor. We were all dancing when Kiba decided to wrap his arms around my waist and pull me against him, my back to his chest.

Although our dancing was extremely sexual and the blurring lights made our energy more charged, neither of us had any expectations with eachother, although Kiba was practically dripping Pheromones and willing to hump anything that walked. But that made sense since he was dressed as a wolf, hardly any of his skin covered.

The song ends and I leave the dance floor, heading to the kitchen for some water to relieve my burning lungs. I take a solo cup and fill it up with water from the sink. I begin chugging it down when I feel a body slam into mine, causing the cup to fall out of my hand and into the sink.

"What the f-" I turn around only to find Ino, her eyes wide and her body breathing so heavily I thought her lungs might pop.

"We have a problem," she says her face flushed from the rush of the dance floor. I dont even get the chance to ask her what's wrong when she takes my arm and begins dragging me from the kitchen and back to the dance floor. She brings her face next to mine and points out into the dance floor. Because of the alcohol it takes me a minute for my vision to focus but once it does there is no denying that the silver puff of hair I see across and room is Kakashi.

My jaw drops and both every emotion possible and nothing flow through me while my mind races, but everything stops when I see a beautiful girl dancing with Kakashi. She is also dressed as a nun, but her outfit choice is much more modest than my own. Her short brown hair bops around her petite face as her and Kakashi dance.

I dont even know how to react. Part of me is happy to see him here, even though I still have gym with him we avoid eachother at every point we can, and with out him training me I miss the little things, but part of me is offended that he is showing his face here. I get that he's not that much older than us but he still shouldnt be partying with his students.

"Are you okay? What do we do?" Ino asks me but I cant rip my eyes from Kakashi and the girl he is dancing with in the group of people. Although they are surrounded they are both dancing as if all they see is eachother.

"Oh my god! Is that Kakashi?" I hear Naruto behind me and it spooks me enough to tear my eyes away from Kakashi and to him. However before Ino or I could say anything Naruto had already screamed out his name. With just my luck when I return my eyes to the dance floor Kakashi is already heading our way, the brown haired girl following behind him, their hands entertwined.

I desperately look at Ino but she is just as clueless with what we should do. As Kakashi gets closer and closer Ino speak without words, as if our minds are one.

What the fuck is he doing here?

I dont know Sakura, Naruto probably invited him.

But why did he have to be heeereree? And who is that girl with him?

I dont know Sakura! Do we need to run for it? We could probably use the excuse that you got sick and you need me to hold back your hair.

But it's too late. Kakashi and his date are already before us. Kakashi and Naruto loudly open their arms and hug eachother both of them patting the others backs. During this I look over every inch of him. His messy hair has gotten slightly longer. He is dressed in black from head to toe, matching the mask over his lips. My eyes are drawn to the color of white on his collar. There, underneith his collar is the white band that represents a holy persons calling. I inwardly scream.

What the fuck, of course he came dressed as a priest.

Kakashi turns his head to Ino and I and I could have pissed my pants from the way he looked at me. Although the look was only a second long it shook my to my core.

"Sakura, Ino, it's good to see you." All I could do was nod but Ino said something plesant I couldnt understand. Kakashi turns his attention back to naruto, but I can still feel his eyes on me, as if they were sneaking a peek from beneath his spiked hair.

"Naruto thanks for inviting us." Kakashi says and Naruto throws his arm around his shoulders, as if they have been friends for their entire lives.

"Of course Kakashi! You're always welcome in my home, but who's your date?" Naruto says calling out the silent elephant in the room that everyone but him can feel. I feel Ino's hand silently brush my shoulder blades in a comforting manner but it doesnt calm the empty pulsing ball of what I can only identify as fear is the bottom of my stomach.

"This is Rin." The small brown haired girl steps forward, Kakashi holding his hand out to becon she steps froward.

"It's nice to meet you all," she says bowing in an extremely elegant gesture. The world goes silent as I look at the woman in front of me. She looks mature but extremely beautiful and young. Her hair is parted in the middle, framing her almost flawless face, her brown caramel colored eyes glow and reflect the shine of the lights around us. Although I am wearing heels and she isnt she appears to be about my height, me being maybe a touch taller.

I watch her blush at something Kakashi says before she looks at him. He doesnt see it but I do, I know that look, they way her eyes gloss over and how she plumps her lips when she finds him doing something adorably amusing.

I feel myself drifting farther away from everyone with every secod that passes, And with every word spoken I can see the circle we are standing in get smaller, only where I was now stands Rin. They all laugh about something and I can fully see it, Rin is in love with Kakashi, and not the usual physical attraction he see's everyday. They have a connection, an unspoken bond, and she loves him incredibly.

"Sakura are you okay?" I hear Naruto mutter and I am broken out of my trance.

"uh, um." I glance around and everyone looks at me as if they are waiting for me to say something. "Haha yeah I'm fine. I just drank a bit too much, I think I need to go to the bathroom." I turn around, making my way towards they stairs. I can feel Ino besides me, following me. She knows my problem isnt that I drank too much.

She follows me as I make my way up the stairs and down the hallways, I can feel an ache in my chest but I ignore it, telling myself over and over again, he's not worth my tears, although I can feel me fighting those words with everything I have.

We make it to the large patio balcony we all played truth or drink on all those weeks ago. I immedietly take deep breaths of the cold air, trying to clear my head.

"Do you need anything from me?" I hear Ino say besides me. I close my eyes and immedietly open them when I feel as though the world is a blender and I am nothing but the fruit inside of it.

"Um, I'm okay. You can go back to the party if you want." I can see in her eyes that she is worried about me. And some part of that kills me.

I smile at her, "Go on, you dont need to be here holding my hand over something that doesnt really matter. Go have fun."

"Are you sure?" I chuckle at her words and look at her for a second, really looking at the person that has become such a close friend to me.

"I'm sure, if you're really so worried you could get me a few things? Like maybe a beer, a glass of water, a bag of chips and a few cigarette's?"

"Say no more!" Ino exclaims loudly causing the few people on the balcony to look at us before she begins jegging inside, she slams her shoulder into the door frame and both of us release a light laugh before she continues making her way.

When she is fully out of sight I turn around. The night sky is beautiful. Although it is Autumn the nights in Konoha are still plesantly comfortable, the cold never really hitting until a week or so into winter. I make my way over to the railing overlooking the large pool that is filled with screaming bodies and place my hand on it, using it as a support while I take off my now inconvenient heels. Once they are off I plop myself on the ground harder than I meant too, but the alcohol in my system told me I didnt feel a thing before I slithered my thighs in between the bars of the railing and dangled my feet off the edge.

I swing my feet and hum to myself enjoying the cool breeze when Ino comes back. Her arms full of much more than I asked for. "Here you go." She says setting down a pack of cigarettes, a couple unopened water bottles and full bag of family sized chips and an entire six pack.

"Ino this is way too much." I say but she sushes me.

"If I'm gonna leave you alone I want you to be comfortable and have everything you need. Also here is your phone, you left it in the kitchen. I have mine on me and its on vibrate so if you need anything call me." She pats her tittie where you can see the rectangular shape of her phone and I cant help but drunkenly smile at her.

"Thank Ino." She wraps her arms around me "He's not worth it," with a whisper she hugs me tight before stumbling off into the loud pulsing hallway and dissapearing. The sudden realism of what happened earlier sits on me and I try my best to focus on anything but the way Rin looked at Kakashi, and they way they were dancing together. I'm sure she is nice, she is probably so nice she puts even Naruto to shame, but that part of me thats jealous, the part of me that want's to be on Kakashi's arm, that part of me refuses to like her.

I open the new pack of cigarette's Ino brought me and I ask one of the other people smoking on the balcony for a lighter. Once I deeply inhale and hand the lighter back I place my arms on one of the bars that is wide enough and make myself comfortable, cracking open a beer.

"He's not worth it, he's not worth it, he's not worth it."

Time has passed but I havnt bothered to check to see how long I have been planted in my spot. I can tell it's past midnight becuase the entire energy of the party has changed into a sloppy mess like usual. Ino came up once to smoke and check up with me before when went back to the party and was never seen again. I have sobered up but kept my buzz going, having just finished sipping on my second beer in the time I've been up here.

I have had to decline drugs from multiple people during the while I have been up here, and it's starting to get a touch annoying. Like the guy next to me right now. He is so far got on horse tranqualizer that he doesnt even notice the drool that has seeped into his shirt while he has been talking to me.

"-and you see, that's why women can never be considered equals to men." I sarcastically nod my head, rolling my eyes at his idiotic rationalization. He opens his mouth to keep speaking but I cut him off.

"Did you ever think that the things you're saying are offensive? Or that maybe the things that are coming out of your mouth make you seem like the stupidest person alive? Oh wait, did you ever thing that maybe I dont want you to talk to me considering I havnt said anything in about 20 minutes?" Although I think I sounded so badass I know a few of my words got jumbled coming out, but none the less the guy stares at me, his wet mouth a jar and his eyes as wide as they can be with him on a narcotic.

He stares at me for a moment and goes to open his mouth when a smell surrounds me, immedietly the guy closes his mouth and tragically stands before stumbling away. I watch his figure before cracking open another beer and returning my eyes to the people covered lawn, all too aware of the male presence next to me.

"What do you want Kakashi?" I ask with absolutely no interest. I managed to get my mind off of him and when his face or anything else involving him happened to creep in on me I got pissed at it for being there. For clouding my thoughts.

"You took off so soon. I thought you had left before Ino told me you were just getting some air. But when you getting air turned into more than an hour I wanted to come looking for you."

I want to scoff at his words, but some part of me, some pathetic part of me is so happy he is even talking to me right now. "You dont need to worry, I'm fine, you should go back to your date." Okay the words coming out of my mouth sounded a little bitter but what does he expect from me? He knows where I stand.

He sighs, "She's not my date Sakura."

I look to him for the first time since he sat next to me and it takes all of my control to keep speaking, "Does she know that?"

He raises a perfectly shaped silver eyebrow an looks at me, a small twinkle in his eye. "We have been friends since childhood Sakura, anything that could have happened already has." I try not to let the adrenaline of dissapointment flow through my as I keep a serious voice, 'has already happened', meaning something has happened, and they were childhood friends.

"She's in love with you Kakashi. You play dumb but you arent stupid."

He is quiet for a moment, "I know she's in love with me, but I get lonely sometimes too Sakura."

I know that feeling all too well, so I cant hold it against him.

"So why are you hiding away up here instead of partying downstairs with your friends?"

"I didnt really want to watch a girl that wasnt me grind on you so I'm pretty sure you can connect the dots yourself." At this point I have nothing to loose and he knows my feelings.

He laughs at my words and I cant help but smile. This feeling is what I missed the past few weeks, the feeling of comradarie, a friend.

"Should we change that and go dance?" Kakashi's words make me whip my head to him, and that's when I get a good look at him. He is smashed. A light flush dusts his cheeks and his eyes sluggishly blink.

"Woah party animal slow down, buy me a beer first," I say handing him a beer. He cracks it open and asks for a cigarette. I light one up too and soon we are drinking and smoking, laughter roaring from us as we share stories from the past weeks.

"A-and Lee goes, 'what do you mean it's ugly?'"

"You mean to tell me he didnt realize that green spandex isnt something you should wear on a first date?!" Tears are in Kakashi's eyes as he holds his stomach, the pain of laughing over cumbering him.

"I told him she would see him and turn around! But he didnt believe me so he wore that on the date and waited the entire day for her to show and she never did!"

"Poor guy."

"Personally I think she showed up, saw him, and took off." I say finishing off the beer Kakashi and I shared after we each drank one of our own.

"Damn I sure miss a lot when I dont see you." Kakashi says soberly and I shrug.

"That's what you get for thinking I cant take care of myself."

"I dont think you cant take care of yourself Sakura, I just..." I look at him expectantly and he is quiet as if trying to find the right words in his drunken state, "I just didnt want me to be the reason your body didnt heal. You obviously have things you need to handle with the people at Akatsuki High, and I didnt want you training with me to be an excuse you use to not move on."

The fact that his words make so much sense pisses me off.

"Oh my god you make me so angry!" I growl running my fingers through my already messed up hair. In that moment I dont know what happened to me up I get up, "Fuck this, Come on Kakashi." He stands up as I pull down the edge or my dress that was riding too high.

"Where are we going?" He asks and I roll my eyes at him.

"Come on." I say grabbing his hand and leading him back into the house. With every step I take I cant help but get more annoyed at him. We slither through the house that is filled with people that are already too far gone.

No one bats an eyes as we enter the kitchen, and although the world is fuzzy and my body is both light and heavy at the same time, I dont spot Ino or Naruto, or anyone from our friend group. We reach the island fittered with bottles and empty cups and I get two shot glasses. "Sakura whatr you doing?" Kakashi asks as I pour two shots, one for each of us.

I hand Kakashi his shot glass and he takes it, his expression confused. I clink our glasses together, "Bottoms up Kakashi." I down my shot and slam the glass down on the table. Kakashi stares at me but downs his shot as I begin refilling mine. I hear him hiss and cringe at the alcohol.

"Not your taste Kakashi?" I ask as I take his shot glass and begin refilling it.

"I'm not good at mixing my alcohol." He says inbetween deep breaths, "Plus I'm taking shots with my student so you know who's getting teacher of the year." I cant help but give a light laugh before handing his now full glass back to him.

He drunkenly looks at the glass and back to me as if this is the most difficult descision he's ever had to make. "Cheers." I say one more time and we both take our shots. Once the second shot reaches my stomach I feel the alcohol really hit me and I blink a few times at Kakashi, who just blinks back.

"Fuck you Kakashi sensei." He crumples his eyebrows and places one hand on the counter to, what I can only assume, steady himself.

"What'd I do?" He mumbles with the slightest slur.

"You are always looking out for me and you're sho smart. You really look at things from every angle and I'm upset because I dont think I'm observant like you are." I dont even fucking know what I am saying at this point. I genuienally have no clue what words are coming out of my mouth. "But Kakashi, I really- no you already know how I feel about you, it's just redundant at his point. Kakashi I dont want you to think that I would ever use you as an excuse, I know what I need to do and I'm not gonna let you stop me." By the time I am done with my speech I am fully drunk and leaning against the counter just like Kakashi.

He looks at me and smiles beneath his mask. "Sakura I heard everything you said and I understood all of it but I have no idea what to say right now." I smile and nod my head, It's clear how fucked up he is.

"Sakura *hic* do you wanna..." My heart drops at the few words coming out of his mouth. Where is this coming from? WhAt?

"-do you wanna eat some chips with me?" He drops his eyes to the ground like a little kids asking for something he knows he is not supposed to have. Laughter roars from me.

"What the fuck kind of question is that?" I ask before turning and grabbing a bag of chips off of the counter behind me. "Let's fuck with dis." I say and Kakashi smiles before leading us to the living room. We sit down and devour the bag of chips, quite messily I must say before we slam hella water.

"Oh my god that was amazing," Kakashi sighs before discarding his empty water bottle onto the floor. I have to say, it is incredible to see this side of Kakashi. He is acting like a child, but he is still the strong man I am infatuated with. He is letting down his walls and melting the cold outershell he usually wears.

Out of nowhere he abruptally stands up, spooking the couple next to us.

"Are you okay? Are you gonna throw up?" I ask sitting up, my party mom mode immedietly kicking in.

He turns to me, his beautiful silver catching in the cool lighting of the house. Without saying anything, he extends his hand and I stare at it. I look up at him and he looks so soft, his features look so gentle and kind, yet the part of him that is scarred and bruised from whatever life has done to him is hidden, not gone but sleeping inside of him, completely forgotten. Before I know what is happening I am placing my hand in his, his kind demeanor tricking my body into moving on it's own without any knowledge as to what was going to happen.

"Let's go dance." He says quietly and I felt an overwhelming amount of happiness flow over me. I nod and we head to the dance floor.

I know if I was sober, I would be terrified to dance with Kakshi, but I'm not sober and I'm not scared so as soon as we hit the dance floor we begin dancing. We laugh and joke as we dance, just loving the feeling of everyone moving around us, but no one paying us anymind. I have my back to Kakashi as the music changes, the music having more bass and a different melody. We look at eachother, both of our eyes dark and unsure. The bodies around us grind around us, pushing us closer and closer together.

I try to avoid Kakashi's inky gaze but I cant help but get sucked in. There is a look of worry in his eyes, something unreadable, and as soon as I am about to say we should go sit down I take a deep inhale as I feel Kakashi's hand on my waist. He pulls me closer to him, to the point that our chests are touching. I drape my arms around his neck as he leans into me, placing a leg inbetween mind. Our breath mingles as we begin moving, slowly, sexually, without a single eye on us. Kakashi's hands are on my waist woving as we grind our groins, I travel my hands over his shoulders as he leans into me.

We breath and grind the entire song and then some. Immedietly I feel how hard his dick is once we start dancing, and that just makes my pussy melt. While we dance Kakashi and I look at eachother, the movement of his hands getting desperate as we move more and more, his scarred fingers grazing the short hem of my dress as he grabs my ass to push my into him harder. I cant help but pant like a dog, relesing a small moan that only makes him grab me tighter. I can feel the despiration in his body as as song ends and we separate. I can feel the heat on my face from how aroused I got dancing with him, hell I was practically humping his leg for three songs.

Kakashi is panting and his hair looks rough from me running my fingers through it, we smile at eachother, not knowing exactly what is going on.

But with my luck everything goes wrong at some point and the enivatable happened when I see a hand grab Kakashi's shoulder.

Quickly kakashi turns around and there's Rin, her innocent nun costume flawless, as if she hasnt been bumped in to at all by any of the people here.

"Kakashi where have you been? I've been waiting for more than an hour. Can you take me home?" She asks and I can feel some part of me die. Luckily she hasnt even glaced in my direction, which surpises me seeming as she looks completely sober.

Kakashi si quiet for a moment, not once turning to look at me before nodding, and telling her he will meet her at the car. I am so dissapointed right now. I will always be grateful for the time I shared with Kakashi tonight but it is ending too soon. I wanted to do so much more with him, I wanted us to jump in the pool and do body shot's and have a night to remember, but it seems like I'll be the only one that will view this night as memorable.

Rin nods at Kakashi and walks away, a small sheepish smile on her lips. Kakashi watches her walk off and all I can do is stare at his back, waiting for the moment when I have to thrown on a fake smile.

He slowly turns to me in the chaos of people and as expected I have my smile up and ready to go.

"You taking off?" I ask and Kakashi nods at me.

"I'm sorry Sakura I completely forgot she was here. Do you need a ride home? I can drop you off on the way."

He has no idea how hurt his words are making me.

"No Kakashi I'll be fine I planned on spending the night here anyways." He nods and I let my smile drop a little bit, "Goodnight Kakashi." He smiles back, "Good night Sakura." And like that he turns away and moves through the grinding bodies as if they arent even real. Each step he takes makes time slow down a little but. And I forget who I am, I forget where I am or what is happening, I forget who he is and what is happening. The only thing I know, is that I am obsessed with this man, and I need every bit of him.

"Kakashi!" I yell as I run after him, he doesnt have a moment to react before I grab his arm and whip him around to face me, he has a look of confusion him face before it transforms into shock, and my lips place a light kiss on his. I pull away and look at his with a smile before I see the crushing look of horror on his face. And it all comes rushing back to me.

Who we are, what is happening, what I just did and how it's the worst thing I could have done. Immediately regret fills me, the only good thing is that no one is paying even the slightest bit of attention to us.

I stare at him with my jaw dropped at my action and Kakashi does the same. "I-" I start but dont even know what to say. "I shouldnt have done that, I- I'm so sorry." I mutter as tears prick my eyes. I messed up, I royally messed up.

Kakashi's eyes are hidden beneath his hair and I fear for the worst when he finally looks back up at me. "You're right you shouldnt have." He says and I can feel a tear stream down my cheek. "I should." I have no time to react to his words. No time to wipe my eyes before I feel the soft touch of, not mask, but his lips on mine. It takes me a second to realise what's happening but every part of me that has been wanting this for the last few months takes over. I close my eyes and our lips crash against eachothers. Our tongues dance together and I moan into his mouth, his hand sliding up to grab the back of my head to push us closer together.

He tastes like peppermint and starlight.

Hey guys, so I m sorry for the update being 3 months late and not even edited. I am going through quite a few medical and mental problems and have not been able to motivate myself to write or even be a real living person.

I love all of you and all the support I have received from you while writing This Girl Can't be Boxed, but sadly I am officially putter this story on Hiatus. I do not know when I will continue the story but right now there is too much going on and needing to work on this story has bee a stress for me. I love you all and I hope you will hold on for me to get my shit together.

I would like to thank,

RedReapper 88, Nikki Root, Cruisegirl86,

koolkidSwaggy, and Guest

for reviewing the last chapter, you all mean so much to me. 3

Hold on for more TGCB in the future!

Bye Bye!