It has been 6 weeks since Raylynn and Penny were born. 6 weeks since I learned that I cannot have anymore babies.

My doctor put me on antidepressants. Apparently, I have post partum depression. It is partly because of my hysterectomy.

I've been slowly beginning to feel better. My husband has been supportive and he and the children are good at keeping my mind occupied and making me smile often. I am blessed with a fantastic supportive family. I don't know where I'd be without them.

The Greys have been extremely supportive as well. They come and visit as often as possible, as do Frank and Gloria.

Mia is now 27 weeks pregnant. Luke and her have a solid relationship and they are ecstatic about the impending arrival of their son.

Today I have a doctor's appointment to get cleared for sex and then I fully intend to seduce my irresistible husband right after my appointment. I need him badly. The bright side of a hysterectomy is no more periods or birth control. My hormones are all over the place though but the antidepressants really help with controlling my moods.

"It looks like everything is healing nicely. You are cleared to resume sexual relations."

"Thank you doctor."

"You're welcome. Take care Mrs. Cross."

I nod and she leaves the room. I get dressed and go out to where my CPO, Philips, is waiting. "Crossfire please."

"Yes, Mrs. Cross."

He drives me to Crossfire and I get onto the elevator to the top floor. Scott waves me through.

I enter my husband's office and find him looking out the floor to ceiling windows. "Are you available, Mr. Cross?"

He turns around surprised to see me. "I always have time for my amazing wife." He says with a huge smile on his handsome face. "Lock the door Goddess." I turn back and lock the door.

I stalk towards him and he meets me in the middle. I wrap my arms around his neck and he kisses me passionately. "Please fuck me Gideon." I whisper against his lips.

"As you wish, Mrs. Cross."

His lips crash back into mine and he picks me up by my ass and carries me to the couch and lays me down and he towers over me and continues to kiss me feverishly as his hands explore my body. He slides his hand up my skirt and is pleasantly surprised that I'm not wearing any panties. "No panties Mrs. Cross?"

"Only for you baby." His lips crash back into mine and I hear him undoing his pants and he aligns himself with my core and slowly penetrates me. He thrusts at a punishing rhythm, filling me further and further with each thrust. When he fills me completely, he stills.

"You okay?"

"Yes, please Gideon. Fuck me."

He begins thrusting slowly at first, slowly getting harder and faster. "Cum with me Ana." And I detonate around him taking him with me. "Fuck. You are truly amazing, Ana."

"Mmm.. I needed that. I've missed you Gideon."

"I've missed you too baby."

He kisses my nose as he pulls out and he lays with me and holds me until we both come down from our highs. "I love you Mr. Cross."

"I love you more Mrs. Cross."

"Not possible but I will accept it."

He looks at his watch. "I have a meeting. I will be right back afterwards. Stay here and wait for me?"

"I actually need to head home. My boobs hurt. I need to feed our girls."

"If you wait until after my meeting, I will go with you."

"Okay baby. I can do that." He gets up after giving me a sweet kiss I get up and help him get situated and situate myself as well. "I'm going to take a nap. Wake me when you get back."

"Oh, I will definitely wake you up."

I give him another sweet kiss and lay down as he goes to his meeting.

After he wakes me up in a most delicious way, we go home to spend the rest of the day with our amazing children.

3 months later

It has been 18 weeks since the girls were born. The kids are all growing like weeds. They are so smart and just perfect.

My relationship with Gideon is stronger than ever.

Christian is still being a man whore but after the dating 2 women who hurt him, I understand his fear of commitment.

Frank and Gloria still come over to spend time with us and the kids and have dinner with us on a regular basis. It is good to have some family close by.

Today, however, we are traveling to Seattle because we all want to be present when Mia has their son because she was there with us when the girls were born. We invited Frank and Gloria to come along to Seattle but they politely declined.

Christian doesn't see Frank and Gloria except when he comes to visit but I think the Lamberts are really growing on him. It is nice to have some family nearby besides Gideon's sister, Ireland. We love her and spend a lot of time with her. We just like that Frank and Gloria do as well now.

"You ready yet baby?" My husband asks me as he enters my closet where I'm sitting at my vanity finishing my light makeup.

I always wear skirts or dresses when I'm confident that I will be enjoying sexy time with my gorgeous husband.

"Yep. Pick a dress?"

He pulls out a beautiful sundress and matching pumps. "I love this one."

"Then that one it is. Help me into it?"

He smiles that panty soaking smile at me as he approaches me with the dress and helps me into it and kisses my neck in that spot that always drives me crazy… in a good way.

"Mmm… I'm having my way with you on the jet baby."

"I wouldn't have it any other way Goddess."

I turn around and give him a sweet kiss. "let's go before I jump you baby."

"Okay." He takes my hand and we go downstairs and make sure everyone is ready.

We haven't visited Seattle in a while and Christian says he has a surprise for us when we arrive.

I do not like surprises but I trust him.

We load up our family, Security and nannies into our awaiting SUVS and head to the jet.

Once we are safely up to our altitude, I take Gideon back to the on board bedroom and have my way with him. It was absolutely fantastic. I'll never tire of his incredible sexpertise.

"I'm going to take a nap."

"I'll go back to the cabin. You want me to hold you until you fall asleep?"

"I would love that. I was actually going to ask for that. Great minds think alike, right?"

"I love you baby. Get some sleep."

"I love you too Gideon."

I lay comfortably in his loving arms until I drift off to sleep.

I am awoken to my husband kissing me all over my face. I open my eyes and see his handsome face and smile. "time to be seated Goddess."

"Mmm… help me up?"

"of course baby"

He helps me up and back into my clothes and we go back up front and buckle up.

When we touch down in Seattle Luke and Taylor are waiting for us with a couple SUVs.

"Hi Taylor. Hi Luke. To Escala?"

"No actually. To your surprise."

"Okay."

We load into the SUVs and head out.

30 minutes later we come to a stop in front of a beautiful mansion. "wow. Who lives here?" I ask.

"We do. You apparently told Mr. Grey that you would visit more often if he had a grownup house and he did this for you all so he could see you more."

"Wow. Let's go see my brother."

They help us all out of our SUVs and Taylor guides us inside the beautiful home.

Once we're in the foyer, we find Christian standing there waiting to greet us. I hug him. "You did this for us?"

"Yes. I want all of you and Frank and Gloria to visit. This… is my grownup family house."

I give Christian a hug. "I'm so proud of you. This is wonderful. I love it. Now, where can I go to breastfeed?"

"Up the stairs, First door on the right."

"Thank you Christian. I love this surprise."

"I thought you might appreciate it. We have a guest house along with staff housing but you are welcome to stay in here."

"These rooms are fine unless you are opposed to all our babies waking you up bright and early."

"Of course I'm not opposed to your babies in the morning. I'm an early bird myself. They are my nieces and nephews."

"okay. Going to breastfeed now and then Mama wants some wine."

"That can be arranged."

I go upstairs and breastfeed in a room that he obviously set up for babies. I bet he made up another room for the older kids.

After changing and breastfeeding them, I lay Raylynn and Penelope down.

I wander back downstairs and find the men sitting on the couch drinking wine. "you started without me?" I fake whine.

"Quit whining and come join us."

"Other kids in bed?"

"Yes."

I giggle and sit between my brother and husband and take my glass of wine and start drinking. Again, they are talking to each other over my head so I move to the other side of Gideon and drink a couple more glasses before I summon my husband to take me to bed.

Once in our room for the duration of our stay, we strip off our clothes and quietly make love and drift off to sleep in each other's arms.