"Come shower with me first," he got up and grabbed her hand to pull her into his bathroom. The two of them rinsed off in the hot water together, stealing a few more touches and glances of each other. When they were done and towel dried, Ben pulled a pair of loose pants on and Rey stayed wrapped in a towel and they sat back down on the bed.
"Okay, now tell me," Rey said jumping straight to the point, not even wanting to dress until she knew what he was going to say.
"I...I know who Pryde has been talking to."
A concerned look crossed her face.
"You do? Who is it? Will we be able to defeat him?"
Ben hung his head, "no. And it's dangerous to even try. If Pryde told him you're here, you're already in danger."
"Me? Why? Why would..." but she paused and thought a moment, "it's him isn't it? Palpatine."
Well she certainly caught on fast.
"Yes."
"How did you know?" She asked.
"Because..." he felt guilty suddenly and pressed his hands to his face, then ran them back through his hair, "because I was in contact with him too."
Rey looked down taking all of this information in. Ben spoke up quickly before she could get any ideas formed.
"But not since I brought you here! As much as I wanted you, I didn't wanted him to be the one to turn you. I-"
"You wanted to do it yourself...seduce me and make me turn to the dark side so you could have me..."
Ben knew what he said came out wrong. He heard the anger in her voice.
"Yes...no Rey it wasn't like that, what I meant-"
"You don't have to explain. It's clear now what this was all about. You were just using me to get what you want...again," she felt her eyes sting, "using me and manipulating me so I would like you, then you would try to turn me...and I fell for it. God I'm so stupid." She jumped up before he could see the tears fall and began hastily pulling her clothes on trying to hide herself from him as she did so. She was so disgusted and ashamed at herself.
"Rey stop, maybe it started out like that but I promise-"
"Just stop, Ben," she plead pulling her shirt on, "you got what you wanted. I gave myself to you willingly and..." she swallowed back a sob, "trusted you. It was my fault for falling for this stupid game. Just take me to him and let him do whatever he wants. It doesn't matter anymore. I lost." The tears streamed freely down her pink cheeks now. She finished dressing and Ben sat stunned, unsure of what he could say or do to make her understand he didn't want to take her there. He didn't want Palpatine to corrupt her. He didn't want her to change...
"Rey-"
"Stop talking! Please!" She cried, "just take me to him! I give up! You win!"
She knew it was no use fighting what was destined to happen to her. It was in her blood...she was destined to be on the dark side. She wouldn't deny herself any longer.
Ben knew nothing he said would help right now. So he had to show her.
"Okay." He said calmly and pulled his shirt on. Rey refused to look at him but followed him as he walked from the room silently.
She paid no attention to where they went and didn't say a word, simply keeping her arms around herself and trying to wipe her face off. They passed a few storm troopers which Ben ignored and Rey tried to stare at the ground as they passed, but she knew they were looking at her. She felt their eyes on her. They finally walked through a doorway and she lifted her head to see where they were. They were in the lower bay where the ships were kept. They walked up to a small, speedy X wing fighter and he opened the door. She climbed in and Ben leaned in clicking buttons on the dash but didn't get in with her. She shot him a confused look.
"What are you doing?" She said quietly.
"Putting in the coordinates for the planet I dropped your friends off in. You'll want to be careful around it's orbit the gravity of the planet is strong but other than that it will be a smooth ride."
Rey sat stunned for a moment, "...what?"
Ben looked up at her.
"I'm letting you go, Rey. You need to get out of here. Far away where your grandfather can't find you. I can't run from my past, I'm in too deep...but there's still time for you. Your too good and kind and...perfect to turn. I don't want to be responsible for it, I refuse. So I'm letting you go."
Rey swallowed hard and more tears filled her eyes.
"You mean it? This isn't some kind of...trick or-"
"No, I promise you won't be followed by my men. You need to get out before General Pryde finds out though. He wants you dead so he can remain in control and won't stop until you are...unless you disappear. So go," he leaned back slightly. Rey searched his face for any hint of dishonesty...but all she found was his eyes full of pain. She knew at that moment he really had changed. He was no longer Kylo Ren. He really hadn't used her afterall.
"Come with me," she said quietly. Ben shook his head.
"You know I can't. It can only be you. I have things to take care of here."
"But if Palpatine finds out you did this..."
"I know," he interrupted, "but he won't. I won't show him. I'll say you escaped and make up a vision to show him if he pries."
"Promise me you'll stay safe. And don't break the connection with me," she said sadly.
Ben swallowed. This was harder than he thought it would be.
"I promise. But I may have to try to keep the connection at bay for awhile until this blows over. If he sees where you are..." he trailed off not able to finish his sentence, it hurt too badly to think about.
"I understand. And when you're able to...you'll join me, right? We can be together then..."
Ben's heart ached. He wanted more than anything to be with her, no matter what she stood for or which side she fought for.
"Of course," he said, more to reassure himself than her. Rey strapped herself in and started up the fighter, clicking a few buttons.
"You can fly this, right?" He asked hopefully.
"I can fly anything," she said with a small grin and looked over at him. Her body wanted to stay with him so badly...but she knew she had to leave. She wouldn't get another chance like this.
"Ben..." she had so much she wanted to say but couldn't find the words. So instead she reached out and grabbed his shirt, pulling him in and crashing her lips to his. He returned the kiss, placing a hand on her leg. They broke apart and he stepped back away from the fighter, closing the door as he did so. She stared through the glass at him a long moment, not wanting to forget his face, then hovered the fighter and flew it out into the vast, empty space. She sped quickly following the coordinates, jumping to light speed once to make sure she wasn't followed. The coast appeared to be clear and she soon saw the little planet and determinedly flew towards it. She didn't know what she was going to do or where she would go after finding her friends...but she had to start somewhere.
