Death is Not an Option
Bakudeku flash fic
He never feared for his own death. Rather, he scoffed in the face of anyone that tried to hasten him to the grave. It was part of the job as a hero, you win some, you lose some. No matter if you were at the top of the pack or some low-key sidekick. Look at Jeans. He was shocked to find out his old intern boss had been killed and the guy was number 3 for crying out loud!
Each time the odds were stacked against him, he never flinched. Death in the line of duty would be an honor as far as he was concerned. Of course, he would go down kicking and screaming, damn straight he'd take some of the villains down with him! But the grim reaper himself, could kiss his ass.
Fear was not an option.
That is, until it wasn't he who fell in the line of fire. All this time, Katsuki had told himself, it wouldn't matter if someone he knew died fighting against a villain. Giving their life to save others was the epitome of a hero! It wasn't supposed to affect him. He never thought he'd mourn or feel the creeping anxieties of fear paralyzing his mind.
But it wasn't supposed to be Deku either. They were supposed to be rivals fighting through the ranks! He was supposed to beat that damn nerd fair and square and become number 1 some day! And how dare that goofy fucking dork make him look bad, jumping in between him and the villain like that! How many times has he done that goddamn it! Stupid self-less bastard!
"You son-of-a," Katuski bites his knuckle, stifling the scream bubbling in his throat. If he threw another tantrum, the hospital was going to kick him out and he needed to be there the moment Deku opened his eyes.
No one knew if the man would survive. Deku's body was broken, and because of possible brain damage, the doctors had induced a coma. "Fuck!" For two weeks, Katsuki had maintained a bedside vigil, rarely leaving, and only if someone agreed to stay put while he was gone.
There wasn't supposed to be tears shed! Not for Deku, not like this! Yet here he was, like an unrequited lover waiting for their beloved to return again. No one dared to question Katsuki's seeming turn of behavior. They'd all thought he hated Deku when in reality…
"I wanna hear you say Kaachan again…" Katsuki hangs his head to hide the falling tears. "I wanna hear that annoying ass voice. I want you to follow me around like a lost fucking puppy! I need y…" his throat seizes up unable to continue. He grabs Midoriya's hand, squeezing tightly, and gritting out the words. "You better hear me in there nerd. You fucking fight this! If you let death win I swear to All Might I will fucking come after you in hell!"