I look at food and stuff it in my mouth
to silence the growling protests my stomach is giving me
And As I talk to the voice in my head named "Maddie"
She whispers my weakness and how I shouldn't eat
as I gag and spit out the skittle my brother just gave me
the sweet taste is still on my tongue and
Maddie is threatening to do something bad
So I drop the skittle on the floor
and Maddie agrees that I shouldn't taste it once more
I chew on the gum that I don't really like and my arm
is covered once more
I have to stop eating or i'm though
But I stop and panic thinking
What do I do?
She is willing to cut me a deal
"you can stop cutting if you stop eating meals"
She hisses like a snake
and I wish she would give me a break
But she knows me better than all the rest
So I don't eat
and it hurt that before my friends wouldn't meet
But now that I've stopped my eating
they are remembering
And Maddie whispers triumphant in my ear
"Now your prettier"
and I believe her