Sorry this one kind of took a while.

The room was so quiet, Buck could have sworn he heard Zofia's heart break into a million pieces. "W…what?" She asked, her voice quivering "I thought you forgive me."

"I do forgive you Zo. That wasn't the reason why I chose to do this."

"Then what is it?"

Buck took out the letter from his pocket and gave it to Zofia. She unfolded it and began reading its contents, immediately recognizing what it was when she read the first line.

"The whole thing was a pain in itself to read but what really hurt were the last few lines."

Zofia looked near the bottom of the paper, words barely intelligible from how smudged they were when she was crying as she wrote it way back when. Though of course she knew what it said since she was the one that wrote it.

You brought me happiness I would have never expected to have, much less deserve. I love you, but I can't be with you anymore. It would make things complicated, not to mention painful. Things would be easier if we weren't together anymore.

Having to go through that again brought tears to Zofia's eyes. "Sebastien, that wasn't meant for you."

"I know. They were supposed to be for Jeremiah and Sofie right?" Buck asked "That makes it worse."

"What are you talking about? How is it worse?"

"Because you were willing to give up your family for me." Buck said "I'm not letting you choose between them or me so I'm removing myself as an option."

"That's not your decision to make Sebastien!" Zofia yelled.

"Well its not yours either." Buck said "Say what you will about Jeremiah and Sofie, they're still your family. How do you think they would feel if they found out you left them the moment you found someone you loved more?"

"Don't talk like you know what's best for them Sebastien. You don't get to do that."

"You're right, I can't do that." Buck said "Because I'm not a part of your family. I'm just some idiot who barged in out of nowhere and fucked everything up. Well I'm not going to be that guy anymore."

Zofia slapped Buck. "Don't act like you were the one behind this. You didn't barge into shit, I let you in my life. It was my decision so don't try to act all heroic by saying you're leaving so I don't have to make a choice."

"Come on Zo, we both knew this would've had to happen eventually. We can't keep acting like you don't have to choose and you weren't planning on doing anything so I am."

Zofia was at a loss for words. "I did this for us Sebastien. So we could be together." She said "I did this because I thought you loved me as much as I loved you."

Buck expected her to say that but it still hurt way more than he thought it would. "Well you were wrong. I love you even more, which is why I can't let you rip your family apart."

"You're always like this." Zofia cried out "You never put yourself first. For once can you please be selfish and value your own happiness over mine?"

"I want to Zo, believe me I do but I can't be happy knowing that you aren't."

"What makes you think I won't be happy with you?"

"You're leaving your family behind Zofia." Buck said "Try all you want, but that will eat away at you no matter how happy you say you are."

"But I don't want to lose you either."

Buck stayed silent. If there was anything he could say in that situation, he didn't know what it was. The only thing he could do was apologize. He tried to pull Zofia into a hug but she swatted him away.

"I don't need your apologies Sebastien." Zofia said, voice trembling from how much she was holding her tears back. "Just go. If you really want to leave me then go on ahead. You know where the door is."

"Please don't do this Zo." Buck pleaded "I don't want this to end but if it has to then I at least want it to end on good terms."

"This doesn't have to end Sebastien. You're choosing to end it. I won't force you to change your mind, but you better make sure I never see your face again."

Zofia didn't mean for her to sound like a toxic ex but she knew that it would hurt too much to see him after what happened tonight. She expected Buck to try and convince her that this was the best thing for both if them, but he didn't. He offered her one more apology before composing himself and leaving.

"Goddammit." She muttered to herself as she fell to her knees.

…

"Your friends are looking for you, you know?"

Buck looked behind him to see who the voice belonged to. Not that it did him any good though, since ge didn't even know the owner's actual name.

"How did you know where I was?"

Nokk sat down next to Buck, taking a good look at the view in front of her before answering his question. "You're not the only one who comes to the roof to clear their head."

"And what's been bothering you?"

"Oh, I wasn't referring to myself." Nokk said.

"You're just referring to the ones you stalk."

"I don't stalk Sebastien, I just gather information that I can use in case anyone decides to blackmail me."

Buck didn't bother. "Fine, whatever makes you happy." He said "Now what do you want?"

"To check on you, dumbass. What's wrong?"

"If you really do gather information about everyone, then you already know what my problem is."

"Fair point." Nokk said "Have you been avoiding Zofia after you broke up?"

"Why do you think I'm on the roof?"

"Running away from your problems won't solve them, you know?" Nokk said "It will only make them hurt more when you finally have to face them."

Buck didn't say anything, which Nokk took as a sign to keep talking. "I'm not going to act like I know what happened, but cutting her out of your life won't make everything that happened between you two disappear."

"I just…I don't want to hurt her any more than I already did."

"You're hurting her by doing this Sebastien." Nokk said "She most likely blames herself already, seeing the man she loves avoid her will only make her feel worse."

"What do you want me to do then? I can't just act like there was nothing between us. Being with her hurts just as much as being away from her."

"You should've figured that out before you decided to break things off with her."

"I thought I did." Buck said "I never expected things to be so hard once I actually did it."

"What, you never had break ups before?"

"None of them ever hurt this much."

"Then we both know what that means Sebastien." Nokk said.

That's what he was afraid of. "She was going to get hurt no matter what happened." Buck said "She'd lose someone whether she stayed with me or not. I knew it, she knew it, and yet we still went through with it. We should've never gotten together."

"Don't do this Sebastien." Nokk said "Don't drag all that you two have been through through the mud just because it ended."

"I can't exactly celebrate it either."

"Then leave it as a memory and move on."

Buck twiddled his fingers. Despite having gone over it countless times in his head, he still felt the need to bring it up. "Do you think we could be together again some day?"

"That is a rabbit hole you do not want to fall into Sebastien."

Buck sighed. He knew it wouldn't do him any good, but he can't help but wonder how Zofia had been dealing with all this.

…

"Come out Zo." Ela said, knocking on her sister's door. "Let's talk about it."

"I got dumped, what's there to talk about?" Zofia yelled from inside the room.

"Don't you have a spare key to her room?" Rook asked "Harry requires us to have them."

"I can't even keep track of my own keys, Julien."

"Nizan's here?" Zofia yelled through the door again. "Why would you bring him here?"

"Well, he was actually the one that said we should come here."

That was so unexpected that it got Zofia out of her room. "Did I hear that correctly?"

"Never mind that, what happened last night?"

"Don't make me go through it again please." Zofia said "Just thinking about it makes me want to fucking kill myself."

"Was it because you slept with your husband?" Rook asked.

Zofia stared at Rook for a second, still surprised that he actually gave a shit about her. "No, it wasn't."

Rook let out a sigh of relief. "Thank god, my conscience is clear."

No wonder Rook wanted to check on her. "That's what you came here for?" Zofia asked, pissed. "To see if all this was your fault?"

"Of course I wanted to find out, but I also wanted to see if you were ok."

Now she was even more confused. "Why?" Zofia asked "Its not like we're friends."

Rook shrugged. "I want to be. I'm planning on you being my sister-in-law then I want us to be closer."

The whole room went silent, both sisters caught off guard by what Rook just said.

Ela found her voice first. "What do you mean by that Julien?"

Seeing the look on both their faces made Rook realize what he just let slip. "Oh shit. Uh, Ela, let's talk about this later."

"No, you can't leave me in the air like that." Ela said, almost like she was threatening him "What did you mean by that?"

"Well, I wasn't planning on doing it just yet because of our job and all, but I am planning on doing it."

"Just worry about the details Julien, you already know my answer anyway."

Zofia saw the dumbass smile that formed on Rook and Ela's faces and she groaned. "Oh you two can go fuck off." She said "I've done the whole marriage thing, its overrated."

"Oh, she's bitter." Rook said "Just tell us what happened so we can knock some sense into that dumbass."

"I'm the dumbass, dumbass!"

"Never thought I'd here you take the blame." Ela said "If it wasn't the thing with Jeremiah, then how is it your fault?"

"I was planning on getting a divorce so we could be together."

Seeing Rook and Ela's reaction be the same as Buck's made her relive last night all over again. "Why?" the two of them asked in unison "You can't just jump the gun like that."

"I know!" Zofia yelled "That's why I didn't push through with it, but I was stupid enough to leave my letter to my family crumpled on the floor and Sebastien found it."

"Let me guess, he left you so you didn't have to make that choice."

"You're damn right he did." Zofia said "Its something that he'd do, and I can't blame him for it. He had every right to break things off with me."

"You didn't actually do it though." Rook said.

"Yeah, but I was planning to. That much was enough to scare him away." Zofia answered "I guess I can't say I blame him though. I'd do the same if I were in his position."

"No you wouldn't."

Zofia looked at Rook. "Yeah, who the fuck am I kidding, if I were in his position I would've told his family myself." Zofia said "Just another reason why I don't deserve him."

Ela and Rook nodded silently.

"You guys weren't supposed to agree with me!" Zofia said "Fuck it, never mind. I don't know what you two were hoping to achieve from talking to me, but it clearly didn't work so if you don't mind, I'd like to get back to moping around in my room."

"Well, you have a few more hours to do that because you'll be leaving soon." Ela said.

"With the man who you're moping over." Rook said "You were asking why we're really here, weren't you?"

"Did Harry put you up to this?" Zofia asked.

"It's not like he knew you two just broke up, but it doesn't matter. He didn't ask us to do this."

Rook nodded in agreement. "Sebastien did."

Zofia scanned both their faces for any hint of malice. Anything to tell her that those two were just fucking with her. She didn't find any.

"He approached me once he found out." Rook said "He said he'd do it himself, but…well, you know."

"What does Harry need me for? Why does it have to be me?"

"They're transferring Meredith to a prison facility in Poland." Ela answered "She asked for you two to be the ones who accompanied her, and I guess Harry allowed it."

"That bastard."

"You can call in sick if you want." Ela said "I have a feeling she'd be fine even if it were just Sebastien."

"No. I'm going."

"You sure?" Rook asked. "You don't have to do this if you don't want to."

"I need to be able to act normally around Sebastien, otherwise people would get curious."

That wasn't entirely true. Sure, acting as if things were normal between them was important, but Zofia wanted to go because this all started at the same time the operation did, and she felt that being there when it ends can offer her some closure since the relationship ended at the same time as well.

Little did she know, she just made her life harder.

…

Morning came and Zofia found herself glaring daggers at Frost, who had no trouble matching her intensity.

"What are you doing here?" Frost snarled.

"I should be the one asking that question." Zofia snarled back "You are in no way involved in this operation."

"That's enough." Jager yelled from inside the plane. He poked his head out from the door and hurried them along. "Something came up with one of the recruits that was supposed to be coming with us and she was already awake and ready so Harry asked her to fill in."

"Get your ass in the plane Bosak. I don't want to be with you anymore than you do." Frost said, walking in and taking a seat.

With a groan, Zofia walked in as well and sat as far as she can from her. "How long will this take Streicher?"

"A few hours. At most, we'll be back here just before the sun sets."

"Have you taken traffic into consideration Marius?" Buck's voice suddenly appeared.

Jager shook his head. "That wasn't funny then, it isn't funny now Seb." He said "Are we cleared yet?"

"Harry's still fixing some paperwork. He'll be bringing her here soon." Buck said. "Good morning Zofia."

The way Buck greeted her so casually after what happened was something Zofia wasn't ready for. "Uh…g-good morning."

With a nod, Buck went to sit by Frost. Thankfully, Zofia was spared the awkwardness of her sitting by herself when Harry arrived, handcuffed but otherwise the same Meredith in tow. They entered the plane and filled in the seemingly huge gap between the people sitting on the opposite sides of the plane.

"You're coming with us?" Zofia asked Harry "Never thought I'd see the day."

"I arranged for me and the higher ups of GROM to have a little chat about dirty operatives." Harry responded.

"Hmm." Zofia said absentmindedly, her gaze shifting towards Buck and Frost, who were talking normally again, as if their confrontation the other day never happened.

She scoffed. Figures Frost would be like that once she found out they broke up. She expected that anyway. It was Buck that intrigued her though. He was able to hide the fact that there were things between them that it was almost as if there really was nothing between them.

Or that he didn't care about it enough for him to cry over it.

"Hey Zofia." Meredith called out, snapping her out of the rabbit hole she was about to fall into. "You mind if I sit next to you?"

Zofia raised an eyebrow at her. "Harry? You're hearing this right?"

"I know, this isn't standard operating procedure for transferring potential threats, but-"

"Damn right its not." Zofia said "We might as well let her roam free with how little restraints she has."

"Oh come on Zo, don't you trust me anymore?" Meredith asked.

"Not really, no."

"After I kept my mouth shut about the thing you asked me to be quiet about." Meredith said, raising both her eyebrows for emphasis.

Zofia doubted Meredith would sell her out over something so petty, but then again she also doubted that she'd ever be a double agent so she gave in. "Fine. Sit here."

"Alright." Meredith said, giving Harry a small nod before placing herself next to Zofia. "So Zofia, why am I sitting here?"

"You wanted to?" Zofia suggested.

"No, I know that. What I don't know is why the seat next to you was empty."

Zofia kept a straight face. "I have no idea what you're talking about."

"The reason I came over here was because I know something is wrong, Zofia." Meredith said "Now tell me what it is."

Meredith didn't mean that as a command but that was how Zofia took it as. "You don't get to boss me around Meredith. Not after what you did."

Zofia's hostility towards her confirmed Meredith's suspicions. "Its about Sebastien isn't it?"

Wanting to object at first, Zofia gave up instead. "Was it that obvious?"

"Only to those who know the context." Meredith said "I know about you and Sebastien, so not seeing you two together at a time when you can be, naturally that would raise some questions."

"Congrats, you can tell if something is bothering a person." Zofia deadpanned "That isn't going to get me to tell you what's wrong."

"Then I'll just start guessing. Loudly."

She was bluffing. There was no way she'd do that. Zofia was determined to call out her bluff. She was not going to say a word.

"We broke up." Fuck.

Meredith stared at Zofia in shock. "Why? What happened?"

"It was never going to work anyway. Not with me being married and all."

"Did your actual husband have anything to do with it?"

"N-no."

Meredith sighed. "What did you do?"

"Telling you about it doesn't matter. It won't bring us back together."

Meredith didn't pry any further, something Zofia was thankful for. "So what are you going to do now?"

"Good question." Zofia said "I'd like to know the answer to it as well."

They didn't talk much after that, and Zofia nodded off at one point afterwards. She only wake up once the smooth ride she was used to suddenly turned bumpy.

"What the hell?" she groaned as she saw the others buckle up.

"Marius!" she heard Buck yell "What are you doing?"

"The radar picked up a missile!" Jager yelled back from the cockpit. "I'm trying to lose it."

Zofia strapped herself in as Jager's flying grew even more hectic, making her heart feel like it dropped into her stomach. The others weren't doing any better either, Buck and Frost barely hanging onto their seats. Despite all the commotion, there was one sound that stood put above the rest.

Aside from the disgruntled cussing from Jager, Zofia heard a beep come from the cockpit. One that started out slowly before picking up the pace. She didn't need to be a pilot to know what that meant.

Shortly after, an explosion took out the back of the aircraft.