Chapter 19 Discovery

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On the way out of the apartment Blaine stopped by the security desk and put in a request for a duplicate key for the elevator, and his apartment, wanting Kurt to be able to come and go as he wanted without having to buzz for him to let him in. When he was done with that he asked what parking spots had been assigned to Bryce.

Heading towards the parking garage that was set up for the tenets of the apartment complex Blaine looked at Kurt "I forgot that in the will, not only did it say that I got the apartment, but he also had two cars here, I need to check them out really quick and figure out what to do with them" Blaine said

"What kind are they" Kurt asked looking at Blaine

"A BMW and a Mustang" Blaine answered shifting Kurt's bag, and the portable crib a little, wishing he had thought to leave them at the desk until they were ready to leave.

When they got to the spaces that had been assigned to Bryce, they found a black BMW that looked to be brand new and a car under a cover. Blaine sat down the suitcase and travel crib and walked over to the car, lifting up on the cover and stood there with his mouth open. Under the cover was a 1969 Ford Mustang Fastback in candy apple red. That had been his dream car when he was a teenager. He used to talk to Kurt about getting one when he was older.

From the look of it, it had been completely restored. Blaine walked around the car looking at it, and was in love. He tried the door handle and it was locked. He knew it would be but had to try it anyway. The same with the BMW.

"He never told you about the cars" Kurt asked looking at Blaine

"No, but I keep finding out more and more things I didn't know about. Until the will was read I didn't even know this place existed much less the Paris apartment. I knew about London because we had to go there to get stuff for Sere when we first got her. Bryce had a lot of secrets, I wonder if I will ever know them all" Blaine said looking at Kurt, feeling a little sad that Bryce felt he had to keep so much of himself hidden away.

"You don't have the keys?" Kurt asked looking at Blaine

"No, I'll look when we get back to California. He had a key ring that he kept in his nightstand in our bedroom. I saw him put it in there once but didn't really think that much about it at the time; the one that had our apartment key on it is still on the dresser. It was given to me along with the rest of his personal effects when I had to identify the body" Blaine answered leaning down to look through the window of the BMW.

Blaine had never even opened the envelope to see what all was in it when it was handed to him. He really hadn't cared. He had been given a sealed manila envelope and Bryce's key ring. He had sat both of them on the dresser and didn't look at them again. He guesses he might need to now.

"The mustang looks to be in really good condition. Whoever restored it seems to have done a good job on it. You should have dad check it out to be safe if you are thinking about keeping it" Kurt said shifting Sere a little when she started squirming.

"That probably wouldn't be a bad idea. What am I going to do with the BMW, I have a car in California I bought right after I moved there, I don't need another one." Blaine said looking at Kurt.

"I'm not sure, but, can I make a suggestion" Kurt asked looking at Blaine "give yourself time before you make that kind of a decision. I know you say you didn't love Bryce, but you did care about him. I know how much he hurt you, but it doesn't change the fact that you just lost someone who at one point was important enough to you, to marry him."

"Give yourself time to figure everything out. Give yourself time to grieve the loss of, if nothing else your friend. I know you can't really do anything like that about the London and Paris apartments, you need to get that settled, but the cars aren't going to hurt anything sitting here for a while."

"Give yourself time to figure yourself out before you make any major decisions. I know you are wanting to move out of your California apartment, you had already decided on that before he died, but for everything else take your time. They say after you lose someone you shouldn't make any big life changing decisions for at least a few months."

"When we lost mom, dad got rid of her stuff, because it hurt him too much to look at it, and later regretted that decision. He sold her car that she had loved so much, and then later wished he had saved it for me. I know the situation was a little different, that he really loved her, but it was still done in a moment of grief."

"All I am saying is just give yourself a little time" Kurt said looking at Blaine. Hoping he hadn't just over stepped. He and Blaine had just gotten back together and he was talking about something he really didn't know that much about; Bryce and Blaine's relationship.

"Thank you" Blaine whispered before pulling Kurt into his arms. He knew what Kurt was saying was good advice. The things he had done so far had been done out of anger and hurt, but like Kurt said, at one time Bryce had meant a lot to him. He didn't regret getting rid of his clothes and the awards, he knew he didn't need those things, but he would hold off on getting rid of anything else until he had time to rethink everything.

Bending over grabbing Kurt's suitcase and the crib they head back out of the garage and out the front door of the complex, Blaine was able to hail a passing cab and they were on their way to the airport.

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When they get to California, there were a few things Blaine needed to take care of before heading to London. He had told his dad he would go by and talk to Mr. Garrison, Bryce's lawyer and sign some paperwork he needed so they could proceed with the lawsuit against the Mitchell's. Even though it was Sunday, he had agreed to meet with Blaine, since he was going out of the country and they needed to file as soon as possible.

He needed to go by his manager's office and get the particulars on the show he was being required to do, and last but not least, he needed to go by and talk to Cooper. He deserved to know that him and Kurt were back together from him and not from the media. They had been lucky so far and no good pictures of Kurt had made it into the papers yet, but he knew it was only a matter of time and wanted him to have a heads up first.

Luckily the paperwork that Mr. Garrison needed signed was already together so that didn't take long, what took the longest was settling everything with his manager. He once again let him know that this show would be the last one he would do. Luckily he would only be filming roughly two days and that would be it. He would have a small part on the new show Forever Lost.

Jack told him that Bryce had hoped that there would be a recurring role for him. The producer had told Bryce they wanted both him and Blaine. He thought that they seemed to have good chemistry when they were filming Always. Blaine knows that was the only reason that Bryce would have agreed to working with Blaine again.

Next stop they made was Cooper's, he had called ahead to let him know that they would be coming over. He knew how Cooper felt about Kurt, but like his parents he didn't know the whole story about what had caused the first breakup and it was time to let him know.

When they walked in the door Blaine noticed the look Cooper kept shooting at Kurt, and Blaine knew it was time.

"Coop can I talk to you in your room for a minute" Blaine asked looking at him when Cooper nodded his head, Blaine followed him into the bedroom.

"Go ahead and have a seat Kurt, we will be right back" Cooper said looking at him, before shutting the door behind him. He didn't like Kurt being back with Blaine and he really didn't like him holding Sere.

"I can't believe you took him back after everything he did to you Blaine, didn't you learn anything" he said once the door was shut, raising his voice.

"Cooper I have something I need to talk to you about, can you please set down a minute and let me talk" Blaine asked looking at him

Cooper just looked at him "Fine" he said in an agitated voice before doing as Blaine requested and sat down. He could tell Cooper wanted to say so much, but did as Blaine requested and stayed quiet.

"Listen Cooper when me and Kurt broke up the first time there was a big reason for that and a lot of it, well most of it was my fault. When Kurt first moved to New York, he got busy with work and trying to get into NYADA, he didn't really know how to manage his time very well yet. He was on his own for the first time. He didn't have his dad micro managing his life, he was handling everything on his own, and don't forget he was only eighteen."

"I was seventeen, feeling very vulnerable because the person I loved, the person I was used to seeing every day was now hundreds of miles away, living a new life that suddenly I didn't feel like I was a part of. He kept having to work all these weird hours, so our phone calls a lot of times got pushed back and our skype dates became almost nonexistent."

"I was used to us spending hours talking about us, about things we both liked to do, what we wanted for our future, and all of a sudden we were talking about the makeover he had done for Rachel and filmed for the Vogue website. The neat outfits he was finding in the Vogue clothes vault. In other words he was now excited about more than just me, well us. He had finally found a place that made him happy, and hadn't learned how to balance all the different aspects of his life yet"

"I felt like I was losing him. The day before we broke up I had been trying to call him but he wasn't answering his phone. I didn't know at the time, that they had put him on the switch board so he could answer calls for them because their normal person was on vacation."

"In his usual job he could at least pick up his phone and let me know he was busy but that he would call me back. The week we broke up I had called him several times and he didn't answer his phone, it just kept going to voicemail, and sometimes I didn't hear back from him, no text, no calls. I don't know if I was feeling more vulnerable that day or what but…"

"Coop I was stupid, I cheated on him. I just felt so lost, so numb, I went out with someone I met on Facebook. It was stupid, instead of getting on a plane, acting like an adult and making him talk to me, I went out with someone else, and only then went to New York, I had to tell him. Cooper if you could have seen his face, when he opened his door and saw me standing there, heard how happy he was to see me, it still breaks my heart thinking about what I did to him."

"I had never lied to him before, in that moment I thought about keeping it to myself, how would he ever know anyway , but I couldn't do that to him. Like I said, I had never lied to him and to me not telling him what happened would have been just as bad as a lie, so I told him. Cooper I broke his heart. The look on his face is one I will never forget. He was so hurt and so betrayed, he broke up with me. Somehow we managed to work it all out, and he forgave me. It took time, but we got there and that is when we got engaged."

"Looking back on it now I know it was too soon for us to get engaged, we should have waited but once again I let my insecurities get the better of me. I wanted a ring on his finger when he went back home, I wanted everyone to know that he was taken, that he was mine."

"I don't mean that, that was the only reason I asked him to marry me, because it's not. I loved him so much and I just wanted to make our relationship a little more permanent." Blaine said looking at Cooper, seeing the look of disbelief on his face.

"So you're telling me you are the reason for the first break up. YOU cheated on him" Cooper said in disbelief

"Yes, I did. I blew everything out of proportion and threw away the best thing that ever happened to me. I still can't believe he took me back after that" Blaine said looking at Cooper, hoping he would understand and cut Kurt a little slack.

"Ok Blaine, I understand the first break up. What about the last one, the one that left you almost broken" Cooper asked not ready to forgive Kurt yet.

"Kurt felt nervous and insecure. When we were closing down glee at McKinley, one of the old glee club members made a comment about how that is all the world needs is another teen marriage that will soon end in divorce. Kurt had already been thinking that we were too young to jump in to marriage. I think he thought our engagement would be longer than I did. I started planning the wedding because to be honest I was ready to make him mine, I wanted him to be my husband"

"What I didn't know was that the closer the day came, the more scared Kurt became, he was doubting us. Were we to young, would we just end in divorce? He didn't know how to tell me that he wanted to wait, he was nineteen, things were moving too fast and he freaked out. I had already cheated on him once, could he handle it if I did it again. He decided the best thing was to end us, instead of letting us fall apart. Before we went from loving each other, to hating each other instead, he thought he could save at least our friendship."

"He told me he regretted the breakup the minute it happened. He wanted to take it back, he didn't want to break up, and he wanted to tell me he had changed his mind, but I didn't go home that night. I was so heartbroken I just couldn't look at him right then, so I stayed in a motel room, crying my eyes out."

"The next morning when I knew he would be in school, I went back to the apartment we were living in, packed my stuff and left. I refused to answer my phone when he called or respond to text messages. I was just so heartbroken I couldn't deal with him right then. I dropped out of NYADA and went home"

"I started working for the Warblers, and dating Dave. When Rachel came back to Lima, to restart the New Directions, Kurt followed her. To be honest I wasn't ready to see him yet, but everywhere I went he was there. I kept getting called to McKinley by different friends. We spent time talking like we used to when we were just friends, before we started dating. Kurt had been my best friend and I had really missed him."

"We started hanging around together again, and we almost fell back into place. It all felt so normal being with him again, because no matter what, I was still so very much in love with him, but I wasn't free, I was still with Dave."

Blaine stops and looks at Cooper for a minute, running his hand through his hair, feeling it like it was just yesterday. "We were having a party for Rachel one night. He dads were selling her childhood home, and she was having a really hard time dealing with everything going on. We all got together and decided to throw her a goodbye her childhood home party."

"Me and Kurt did a duet together and all these old feelings started crashing in and scared the shit out of me. We talked and when it was time for me to leave, I still don't know why I did it but I kissed him, I was just so drawn to him. We had our duet, like we had done so many times before, it brought back all the old feelings I had for him, I just pulled him to me and kissed him, I cheated on Dave. I went home, and couldn't hide it from him, somehow Dave knew something had happened, he asked me and I had to tell him the truth and he broke up with me."

"I'm not really sure how he found out about me and Dave breaking up, but Kurt came to me right after that and begged me to take him back, explaining everything, why everything had happened. He begged me to give him another chance, to take him back, but I just wasn't ready. I told him that we had broken up twice, there had to be a reason for that, and I told him that for now we needed to stay broken up. I quit my job and moved to California without even telling him goodbye, I just left."

"I don't know when it really hit me to be honest, I don't know if it was after all of our fights, or when Bryce just stopped coming home, but I started really wishing I hadn't left Lima, left him, I needed him in my life Cooper, I missed my friend. He had forgiven me, he had taken me back after cheating on him, after I had broken his trust, but I couldn't forgive him for being scared? I couldn't forgive him even after he told me everything, explained why he did what he did. I cheated and he forgave me, but I couldn't forgive him for being honest with himself, doing what he thought at the time was the best thing for him."

"I will spend the rest of my life trying to make that up to him for hurting him again. Yes he hurt me, but that was partially my fault. If I had not been so insecure in his love for me, if I have gotten on a plane and acted like the man I always pretended to be, if I hadn't cheated, I don't think either break up would have happened. Most of the fault is on me"

"Try to cut him a little slack. I love that you love me Cooper and that you are worried about me but I was just as at fault as he was. What I did had consequences in both break ups. Please give him a chance, if not for him than for me. I really love him Cooper, he is the person I know I am meant to spend the rest of my life with, and he makes me happy." Blaine said looking at him

"So, do you plan on asking Kurt to marry you" Cooper asked him

"No, I don't think I can do that again. I have been engaged twice and married once, I don't see myself doing either again, I will happily spend the rest of my life with him, but that…" Blaine answered shaking his head feeling a little sad, because Kurt was the one he had always wanted to be married too, the one he had dreamed of spending his life with.

Thinking back to all the plans they had made curled up on his bed at Dalton, all the things they were going to do, the life they were going to have. Life had seemed so much easier, but now he just didn't know if he could do it again

In every dream he had ever had, it had always been Kurt. But life has so many twists and turns and sometimes the curve balls thrown at you can't be avoided. He trusted Kurt with everything he had, but he no longer had the best opinion of marriage.

"Have you told him that" Cooper asked

"No, I am not ready to get into that with him yet" Blaine answered

"Blaine, you know I haven't been a Kurt fan, but if you love him and you want to spend the rest of your life with him, then don't shut yourself off. Give it time. I know how things worked out with Bryce but that wasn't Kurt. If you feel strong enough to let him back into your life, into your daughter's life, maybe you should wait and make that kind of decision later" Cooper said.

Blaine just laughed a little "You know what is funny, before we left New York he almost said the same thing. Not about marriage but about making important decisions. He said not to make any right now, give myself time to grieve for my friend."

"Well, he might be smarter than I gave him credit for" Cooper laughed pulling Blaine into a hug "What did the folks say about it"

"To be honest they are fine with it, and are happy for us, and in case you missed it Sere is crazy about him, and he is so good with her" Blaine said with a smile on his face

"Well squirt if you are happy, then I am happy for you. But if he hurts you again, I am going to hurt him. I just need you to understand that Blaine. You have been through too much already" Cooper said sounding and looking very much like the protective older brother he had always been.

"Thanks Coop, but don't forget he has been hurt too. I am hoping now that we are older we can learn to communicate better. We both know what it feels like to be apart from each other and we know it's not something we ever want to happen again, life without each other isn't worth it." Blaine said with a soft smile on his face

"So where do you go from here. What are your plans" Cooper asked as they walked back in the living room and sat down, Blaine beside Kurt and Cooper across from him.

"I am still working through a lot of that, but I know I want out of California, I want out of that apartment. I don't even like walking in that door anymore. I went to New York and Coop that apartment is amazing. I am going to sell the one here and I am going to move back to New York. I like the idea of being close to mom and dad and Kurt of course." Blaine said smiling at Kurt, placing his hand on his knee and gently squeezing it. "I want to get Sere away from all the cameras. It makes me really nervous, having someone in her face all the time."

"So, you are done with acting then" asked Cooper looking surprised.

"Yeah I'm done. I had already decided that when I went to the people's choice awards, but since Bryce died and there are so many people all the time following me, I definitely want out. I'm tired of feeling like I'm living in a fish bowl you know. 'Always' was fun because I was working with you and Bryce, but towards the end, even that wasn't as much fun."

"Unfortunately I have one more commitment I have to do, and then I'm done with all that, I want to go back to a normal life again, whatever that might be." Blaine answered pulling Sere onto his lap when she starts reaching for him.

"So how is it going with the Mitchell's have you heard anything more from them" Cooper asked

"Oh yeah, they are going to fight for Sere, they decided that they want custody, I found out from dad they had been having me followed the whole time I was with Bryce, trying to get proof that I was cheating on him, which to me is hilarious since he was the one doing the cheating" Blaine said pulling Sere a little closer to him, holding her a little tighter. She turned around and smiled at him. She somehow always seemed to know when he needed her.

"Ok, we need to head out. We are going to London later today, I need to clean out Shey's old apartment, dad said her lawyer thinks he knows someone interested in buying it" Blaine said standing up with Sere still in his arms

Cooper walked over to him and pulled Sere into his arms holding her for a few minutes before placing a kiss on her cheek "Take care of daddy for me baby girl, and I'll see you when you get back" he said handing her back to Blaine "You be careful little brother, and I know it's hard, but try not to worry you know dad isn't going to let anything happen to her, we have this" he said pulling Blaine into a hug

"And Kurt, it was good seeing you again" he said looking at Kurt. Cooper was still nervous about him being back in Blaine's life, but Blaine was an adult and he was the only one who could make that decision.

"It was good seeing you again too Cooper" Kurt said before turning around and heading to the door following Blaine.

They walked outside and Blaine reached down and grabbed Kurt's hand. It wasn't something he normally did in public even now, but he just needed to feel the connection with Kurt for a few minutes. Trying to shake the feeling of possibly losing Sere.

When they got to Blaine's apartment, Kurt feed Sere a bottle while Blaine went into her room to pack a suitcase for her. He decided to only pack enough diapers in her diaper bag to get them to the motel and then he would just buy more there. He wanted to make sure he had enough room for clothes, and her bear that had been given to her by her mother, she wouldn't sleep without it.

He smiled looking at the picture of Shey and Sere sitting on her little dresser. He had picked it up when they had gone to Shey's apartment right after she had died. He couldn't believe just how much his little girl had grown, and changed. He was hoping to find more pictures of Shey and Sere together so that later she would have them, also wanting to take some pictures of her in the apartment she lived in when she was born.

He next went into his room to pack a bag for himself. He cringed just walking through the door. He usually avoided going there except to shower and change clothes. He walked into his closet and pulled out his suitcase and carry on. He carried them both to his bed and opened them up and then went back to his closet and started pulling at the clothes he decided to take with him.

He went into his bathroom next and grabbed out his toiletry bag, making sure all the bottles inside it were full, before grabbing it, his brush and hair product and carrying them back to his room to get them ready to pack in his suitcase. He wasn't really looking forward to this trip at all. But he knew it was something he needed to do.

As he walked to his dresser, to grab out clean underwear, he noticed the manila envelope still setting on top. He had never even taken the time to open it up. When he had gotten home he had still felt so hurt and raw he just stuck it on his dresser and didn't think anymore about it. He slowly picked it up and walked over to the bed sitting down on it for the first time since he had left for Morocco. He hadn't liked even being in this room.

He opened the envelope up and dumped everything in it on the bed, the first thing he saw was Bryce's wedding ring as it rolled out. He picked it up and looked at it thinking back to when he had snuck out of their motel room to go to the jewelry store to try to find them a ring. He had wanted them to have one to exchange at their wedding. The store didn't really have what he had been looking for but he figured he would just replace them with something better for their first anniversary. They never even came close.

He stared at the ring, and in that instant he knew that Bryce hadn't been wearing it the day he died. The watch and necklace he had, had on that morning, the ones he never took off were in a clear plastic baggy keeping them safe, this ring would have been in the baggy with them, if he had.

Looking next at Bryce's wallet he knew that that was where the ring had normally been kept. Even if it had been taken off for a scene he was in, that didn't explain why the outside of the wallet had a worn place in the leather. A worn place that was the same size and shape of Bryce's ring. He probably only ever put it on when he was coming home. Heaven forbid someone should see the ring on his finger and know he was married.

Blaine looked down at his own hand. His ring was still there, he hadn't taken it off once since Bryce had put it on him the day they got married. He slowly raised up his hand looking at it one more time before slowly slipping it off his finger, it was time. He didn't really know what to do with the rings, so for now he decided to just put them in the change bowl he had on his dresser.

He walked back over to the bed and sat down picking up Bryce's wallet, he ran his finger around the circle indention, shaking his head. So much wasted time he thought with a sigh. He opened up Bryce's wallet, something he had never done before, he had never even been tempted to look in it. Even now, knowing he was dead, it still felt like an invasion of privacy.

He found a picture of Shey in the very front, it was bent and crinkled like it had been taken it out a lot and looked at. Blaine next found a picture of Bryce and another girl together when they were really young. Blaine figured that was probably Jennifer, she looked really sweet. He found several hundred dollars cash and several credit cards he knew he would need to pass on to Mr. Garrison to take care of.

What got his attention though was a folded piece of paper in the back of the wallet, it simply said National Bank of Hollywood c639, and he wondered what it meant. There was no other information with it. Something else he needed to check into, he thought sighing again.

Standing up and putting everything back in the envelope, he placed it back on the dresser and walked over to Bryce's side of the room and for the first time opening his nightstand drawer. He found a key ring with several keys, and found the one for the BMW and Mustang. He sat the key ring on top of the nightstand, and slowly closed the drawer figuring he would look into it later, shaking his head wondering what other secrets he might find in there.

He finished packing and was ready, he wanted to get this over with so he could move on with his life, wondering if he would ever feel normal again.

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By the time they landed at Heathrow and had made it through customs Blaine was wishing he had left Sere at home with his mom. Not that her fussing was getting on his nerves, he just knew that she was uncomfortable and it was his fault, he had been selfish bringing her with him in a way.

He had originally planned on leaving her with him mom, she would have been in a familiar location, she would have been comfortable and she would have already been in bed. Blaine had just not been able to leave her. She was changing so much right now, and with everything going on with the Mitchell's he wanted to spend as much time as he could with her.

When they had gotten off the plane Blaine had put Sere in her stroller, something she normally liked, but not this time. It was passed the time she normally went to bed, she had been confined to a seat for eight long hours and she was over it. He knew she was about to have a meltdown, and he couldn't blame her.

Blaine pushed the stroller as far to the right side as he could, trying to make sure he wasn't blocking the walkway and then walked around so he was in front of the stroller and squatted down in front of her. "What's wrong baby, can you stay in your stroller for a few more minutes for daddy and I'll get you out" he asked leaning over to kiss her on her forehead.

"Dada" she said and started crying more, her little fist balling up

It broke his heart because he knew this was his fault. "Ok baby, shh daddy will get you out" Blaine reached out and unbuckled her and she almost dove into his arms, he just held her little body tight snuggling his nose into her little neck

"Ok baby daddy has you shh" he whispered in her ear standing up and just holding her for a minute, listening as her little cries turned into hiccups, rubbing his hand up and down her little back, "shh sweet girl, daddy has you" he said rocking her for a few minutes.

When she finally calmed down Blaine slid the diaper bag off of his shoulder and placed it on the seat of the stroller.

"I can push our carry ons if you can handle her and the stroller" Kurt said walking up to them with a soft smile on his face, reaching out to gently rub his hand across Sere's back

"Thanks Kurt, I know I should have left her home, I just couldn't do it" Blaine said with a sad smile looking at Kurt

"Hey, nothing to think me for, and you did what you needed to do. If you hadn't brought her with you, you would have been miserable the whole time, and she probably would have been too. I think once we get her fed and ready for bed she will be fine." Kurt said leaning over and placing a kiss on first Sere's cheek and then Blaine's

"Let's get through customs, get our luggage and get out of here" Blaine said feeling better. Kurt had always had a way of making everything ok. He wanders for the hundredth time how he had survived without him, never wanting to find out again.

A/N: I didn't get as far into London on this chapter as I thought I would, but Blaine had some issues he needed to deal with first. But they are in London so next up Shey's apartment. Thanks for reading and all comments are appreciated. thanks