A/N: I just want to say to whoever has clicked on this, thank you. I know I am probably one of the few people who still write BTR fanfiction but I've started this and I refuse to let it go until my stories are completed. I've been working on original work as well which has taken me away from the fanfiction but I am still bringing you updates. Having a full time job also doesn't help but I'm trying lol. Well, anyways, please, enjoy!

"See, the majority of people on this poll said that they love the feeling of their partner's-"

"James, are you going to join me in this shower or talk about your kinks?" I asked him as I wiped my face with my hand. He tossed his phone on the counter before he stepped into the shower with me. He had a frown on his face and I was not going to let that stay there for long.

"I'm not kink shamming you. I want to make that clear." I told him and he looked at me. I'm guessing he was waiting on me to say more. "I think coming inside of you is the hottest thing ever. I just didn't think you would want that and you were so nonchalant when I told you that the condom broke."

"Because I trust you." He said, wrapping his arms around me. "And I've swallowed your cum before, which in hindsight, wasn't the brightest idea. But you're clean and I was a virgin, so, there's nothing to worry about." He made some very valid points and I didn't have anything else to say, so I just kissed him. He smiled against my lips before we separated, and I nudged him under the spray of the water. He was soaping himself up and I couldn't help but sit back and watch him. I started to get hard again and I pressed myself against his back. He giggled and pushed his hips back, moving my dick between his cheeks. The soap made the glide feel amazing and I almost slipped inside of him several times.

"Stop teasing." He told me as he reached back and guided me into him. He was still loose enough and I could feel some of my cum still inside of him. I knew I wasn't going to last long and soon enough, I was refilling him with my cum.

"Fuck." I moaned as he clamped down on me, milking whatever was left out of me.

"God, I love that feeling." He said breathlessly as he laid his head back on me. The water in the shower washing down his chest. I ran my hands all along his front before going down to grab him. I was surprised when I felt him throbbing and softening in my hand in seconds. He hissed when I squeezed him softly.

"That was probably the quickest fuck of my life." I told him before we both started laughing. I pulled out of him and we continued to shower normally.

"How was your first time?" James asked me as he turned to face me. I thought back for a moment before a frown came over my face, making him laugh.

"It was trash. It was rushed and just not at all what I expected." I explained and he shook his head.

"Was it a girl or a boy?"

"A girl." I said, laughing when I remembered how nervous I was. "She told me that she wanted to be with me and, you know, all of the stuff you tell someone to get into their pants. I was young and dumb. Turns out, she just wanted bragging rights to say that I slept with her. It was the worst. Not to mention, she had a boyfriend." I said and James gasped at that. "I almost fought him but Carlos stepped in and in typical Carlos fashion, he calmed everyone down. Well, as calmed down as we could get. We didn't fight but he did break up with her."

"So much drama." James said in amazement as I felt him run his hands over the same part of my chest over and over.

"Idiot." I mumbled as I knocked his hand away.

"What about your first time with a guy?" He asked before he stepped under the water, pulling me with him. I washed the soap off of me before stepping back to answer his question.

"First time experimenting with a guy was him, but we never went all the way cause, he chickened out."

"NO!" He yelled, looking like a ghost with his mouth hanging open. "How in the world did that happen?"

"What is this? Twenty questions?" I asked him and he rolled his eyes.

"Just answer the question."

"We were both drunk and he was still pissed about the whole thing and he wanted to know why she slept with me. I didn't think he would end up sucking my dick. He was terrible at it, but I couldn't fault him cause, we were drunk."

"What made you two stop?" James asked and I couldn't stop myself from laughing as memories flooded my mind.

"He was pretty surprised when I told him I was about to cum and then I did, right in his mouth."

"Well, I could see how that could scare someone." James said with a nod.

"Yeah, but the funny thing is, that's not what scared him. I think him actually liking it and coming in his pants from it, scared him off." I said with a laugh, especially at James' face.

"So…he got scared because he liked sucking dick?"

"I'm pretty sure it was more about what it meant to him. Duh." James burst into laughter as I shook my head at him.

"Do you know where he is now?" He asked and I shrugged.

"Aww."

"No one keeps up with their hook ups James. I mean, I believe he got accepted into some college, but I forgot. They said everyone's college acceptances at the graduation."

"Oh, how was that?" He asked, hugging me and laying his head on my chest.

"It was fun. It was also a little stressful because there were so many things that could've gone wrong. We had to walk in order and then the stage was so cheap that it shook when we walked on it." "That sounds like fun." He said, squeezing us closer together. I couldn't help but smile at how cuddly he was being.

"How was your graduation?" I asked him and he sighed.

"Didn't have one. I mean, it was a class of me, and they gave me the diploma and all of that but that was it. No prom or graduation but I did finish my first song by then. It was absolutely terrible but still."

"I want to hear it." I told him and he laughed.

"Lovely, but I deleted all of the copies."

"I'm sure Frida has a secret copy." I said and he laughed even more. I knew by this point our skin was starting to get wrinkly, so, I reached for the water, cutting it off.

We wrapped ourselves in the towels provided and I let James walk out ahead of me. He held onto my hand and I wanted to laugh when he led me out of the room and into the other room. He pulled back the blanket with one hand but didn't let go of mine. He sat on the bed and pulled me towards him. As we laid in the bed, he was trying to get as much skin on skin contact between us. If we still didn't have on our towels, I'm sure we would've gotten started up again. He looked up at me and moved to give me a kiss. I smiled against his lips as I felt his hand caress my face. The touch of our lips held so much more than it did before, and I could feel it between us. We both opened our eyes at the same time, and he smiled so bright before he buried his face in my neck, kissing me there. I rubbed his back before I felt him yawn against my neck. I chuckled a little as his yawn made me yawn as well. I wanted to say something, but I couldn't remember what it was since I got distracted by the painting on the wall. I couldn't figure out what it was, and my eyes were getting heavy. I wrapped my arms around him and held him close to me as I dozed off.

"Kendall, the food is going to get cold." James yelled and I sat up, looking around. The bed was empty, and I could hear footsteps coming towards the door. Then James was leaning up against the door frame in his underwear with a smile.

"Food's getting cold." He told me again and I smiled as I nodded. I got out of bed and noticed a pair of underwear at the bottom. I slipped them on and tossed my towel on the bed. He wrapped his arms around me when I walked up to him before he kissed my chest. He slapped me on my butt before turning to walk into the living room area. I closed the distance between us and rubbed my hand on his butt, knowing he would probably be sore.

"How are you feeling?" I asked him.

"I feel great. A little sore but I'll get over it." He said, uncovering the plates on the cart.

"No fan girls?" I asked him and he looked at me for a moment before he laughed.

"No, thank goodness. The older gentleman who delivered the food didn't even ask me for anything. He just smiled and told me to enjoy. He didn't even care that I was in my underwear."

"He's probably seen much worse." I commented as we sat down to eat our food. James had apparently hooked up his laptop to the Tv and was currently watching something on Netflix. I didn't know what was going on but it was getting weird. As the movie went on, we abandoned our empty plates and continued to be sucked in by what was happening on the screen. We both screamed when a man stepped out of the shadows and into the woman's face. By the end of the movie, James had his feet pulled up on the couch and was holding onto my arm.

"We are never trying anything like that." James told me as the movie ended and I saw that it was called Gerald's Game.

"Luckily, I don't think that's sexy at all." I responded as he scrolled through movies with his wireless mouse.

"I'm sorry I'm being so clingy." He said out of nowhere.

"It's okay. I was the same way when I lost my virginity. I understand." I said, making him blush.

"Really? What made you not be clingy."

"She told me she had a boyfriend."

"Right. That's fucking terrible. We should watch something fun."

"Okay, you pick it while I put our plates and stuff in the hall." I told him as I got up. He started scrolling while I gathered the plates and put them back on the cart. When James started the movie and I heard the beginning tones of 'Good Morning Baltimore' I shook my head.

"Really?" I asked him as I sat back down. He looked at me in shock before he glared.

"Hairspray is a classic and I love this version and it's not because of Zac Efron." He said and I held bit my lip to hide my laughter. "Go ahead. Make fun of me."

"I love the movie. I just didn't think you would be into something like this. Katie made me watch it so many times and I bought her the soundtrack to the whole movie when it first came out." I explained, and James practically beamed.

"I bought it too! Ugh, I just love it so much."

With that he turned back to the film and continued to hum along with the songs as they came about. I nodded along with the songs and I mumbled the words that I remembered while James started to sing. I took note of a few things that I noticed. He knew every name of 'The Nicest Kids in Town' and he did a few of Zac Efron's mannerisms when singing 'Ladies Choice' and he held back belting out the lyrics for 'I Know Where I've Been'. I ended up having to go to the bathroom and quickly went to the bathroom without him noticing. As I walked back into the living room, I could hear him singing.

"Once I was a selfish fool who never understood. Never looked inside myself though on the outside, I looked good." He sang as he noticed me. I was about to sit back down but he jumped up and gestured to me, continuing to sing.

"Then we met and you made me the man I am today. Tracy, I'm in love with you no matter what you weigh." He reached out and poked my stomach as he continued to sing. I let him put on this show for me as he continued to sing both parts, walking around the coffee table. When he got to Link's part again, he stopped in front of me, grabbing my hand. "If I'm left without my baby doll, I don't know what I'll do."

"Link, I've got to break out, so that I can get my hands on you!" I sang, touching all over his chest. He was surprised but didn't miss a beat.

"And girl, if I can't touch you, then I'm gonna lose control." He said, moving so that we were barely within arm's length.

"Seaweed, you're my black white knight. I've found my blue-eyed soul." I sang reaching out for him.

"Sweet freedom is our goal!" We sang, more so screamed.

"Trace, I wanna kiss ya!" He sung, sliding up to me.

"Let me out at the next toll!" I sang, shaking my fist and we both burst into laughter. James fell over onto the couch from laughing too hard and I could barely stand as my eyes filled with tears. I flopped down on the couch next to him as the song continued. We surprisingly finished the movie without jumping up into song and dance but that didn't stop James from singing along.

"All of this singing has gotten me inspired. I'm making phone calls." He said before he jumped up. He grabbed his phone and walked away from me as I laid out on the couch. I could hear him on the phone with somebody and I couldn't really understand what he was saying.

"Kendall! What's your password?" He yelled from the other room out of nowhere.

"The same as yours!" I yelled and he made a noise before I could hear his feet padding against the floor.

"Why?" He asked, peeking over the couch, looking down at me.

"For this exact reason." I told him and he smiled. "What are you doing?" I asked him and he shook his head before putting the phone up to his ear.

"Hey! I got an idea. Come meet me at the Ritz-Carlton, I have a surprise for you." James said before his smile brightened and he hung up. He handed me my phone back and patted my head. "Get dressed. Nothing fancy. Sweatpants." He told me and I gave him a confused look before following him into the bedroom. As we got dressed, James kept looking over at me, blushing. I put on sweatpants as instructed and threw on a shirt before he was standing in front of me. I smiled at him and he just wrapped his arms around me.

"I…I'm so happy that you're in my life." James said as he laid his head on my chest.

"I feel the exact same way." I told him and he looked at me with a smile before closing the distance between us. Kissing him felt so good and I really wanted to throw him on the bed and repeat what we did before, but I had to stop myself, knowing that he probably didn't feel the same given that he had about three orgasms to my one. Our kiss was interrupted by a knock on the door. James eyes widened and I barely saw the smile on his face before he was running out of the room. He opened the door and I ran my fingers through my hair as I followed him at a slower pace.

"Hey, I'm so glad you're here."

"Thank you for inviting us over." I recognized that voice. As I stepped around the corner, I saw that it was Carlos and Logan.

"Kendall!" Carlos said, raising his arms in the air while Logan gave me a look of confusion. Carlos gave me a hug after he hugged James and the two of them were now looking at me.

"Did James invite you too or did you stay here?" Carlos asked and now it was my turn for a look of confusion.

"You invited them?" I asked James and he nodded.

"I wanted to make sure I kept my promise." James said, smiling as we all looked at him, waiting for him to elaborate. Carlos was the first person to seem to get it, given that he gasped first.

"You're taking us to a studio?!" He screamed, and James nodded. A second later, he had his arms full of Carlos, who quickly apologized right after the impromptu tackle-hug. Logan looked shocked and I just smiled at James.

"Yes, we're heading there soon. Just waiting on the car to get here." James told them and Carlos looked like if he could smile any harder, his face would fall off. Luckily, Logan was able to get him together by rubbing his cheeks.

"I refuse to be with someone who permanently looks like the joker." He explained, making me laugh. Carlos' attention was then taken to the hotel suite that we were in as he batted away Logan's hands.

"This place is amazing! It has to be like a gazillion dollars a night." He said, walking through.

"Is that a telescope?" Logan asked me and I nodded.

"It caught me off guard too." I told him.

"It's for bird watching." James explained as Carlos looked through it.

"Cool." He said, stepping away from it and walking around more. As Carlos and Logan looked around the suite, I pulled James to the side to talk to him.

"I hope you aren't doing this because they're my friends." I told him and he smiled.

"I like them, and I told Carlos that I would get him some time in a real studio. I figured why not do that while I'm feeling inspired."

"Okay, just don't…buy them a car or something. That's too much."

"Oh, well, then I guess I better cancel that then." He said, rolling his eyes.

"You're ridiculous." I said, walking away from him. When I looked around, I saw Logan looking through the book of birds that the hotel provided.

"Where's Carlos?" I asked him.

"He went to the bathroom." Logan said and I nodded before my eyes widened.

"Which bathroom?"

"The one in there." When Logan pointed to the bedroom, I tried to hide my surprise before I walked swiftly into the room. "Is something wrong?" Logan asked before he looked around the room. I could feel my face heating up as James walked into the room. The room was still a mess from when we had sex and it was clear as day. The lube was still on the nightstand and the condom wrapper was on the floor. Our clothes were all over the place and there was no way out of this. I just looked at James and he looked back at me before the bathroom door opened. We turned to Carlos and he looked surprised to see us in the room.

"Oh hi." He said with a small wave.

"You owe me twenty dollars." Carlos said, pointing to Logan who just facepalmed in response.

"Twenty dollars?" I asked and they both nodded.

"After you two left our room, me and Logan-"

"Carlos!" Logan said, trying to stop him.

"What?"

"You can't tell them."

"It's too late. Spill it." I told him and he smiled.

"I knew you two were totally fucking and Logan wasn't convinced. So, we made a bet and I just won." He explained and James looked like a fish out of water.

"You still like them?" I asked him and he blushed like I did.

"To be fair, this was the first time we've had sex." I pointed out and Carlos looked impressed.

"So, the Paris pictures were real?" He asked and I rolled my eyes before James answered. "Yeah."

"This is so cool. My friend is banging my favorite celebrity." Carlos said before he looked like we weren't supposed to hear that. Logan just sighed and guided his boyfriend out of the room.

"I'm sorry." I said to James and he looked at me in confusion.

"Why are you apologizing?"

"Because I know you wanted to have this be…you know, under the radar."

"Yeah but that doesn't mean we can't tell a few people. You trust them, right?"

"With my life."

"Then I trust them too." James said before he kissed me. There was a squeal and I turned to see Carlos standing there with a hand covering his mouth.

"To be fair, you two weren't subtle about it with the marks." Carlos commented poking my neck as we walked into the studio. Luckily, he was whispering this time. I smacked his hand away from me as James pulled his hoodie closer around his neck. He decided to cover it the first time Carlos was staring at him. They weren't that visible but Carlos made it seem like they were, especially when he kept poking them on my neck. Logan held his other hand and I could see him pull Carlos to him every time his hand went up to mine.

"You should've told me."

"I didn't know how to say it." I told him and he nodded. James was walking ahead of everyone, carrying a black book in his hand and he gasped, looking into a room. He knocked on the door and stood to the side of it. When he saw me, he tried to grab me and pull me in front like the last time, but I held his hands away from me. A man who seemed to be in his mid-thirties opened the door and looked at the two of us in confusion before his face brightened when seeing James.

"James!"

"Gabe!" James said, giving him a hug. It was then that I noticed that Gabe was tattooed on every part of his body that we could see except for his face. They squeezed each other for a moment, and it was clear that they hadn't seen each other for quite some time. James took a step back and introduced us one by one before we all headed into the studio. Gabe had already had the boards lit up and I stared on at the millions of buttons. Carlos looked like a kid in a candy store as he walked around.

"Oh, Gabe, Carlos here wants to be just like you." James said, patting Carlos' shoulder.

"Does he now?" Gabe asked, spinning around in his chair. Carlos blushed madly as he nodded his head.

"It's, um, what I'm going to school for." Carlos told him and Gabe smiled.

"I love when someone is interested in the behind the scenes of making music. I would love to teach you the right way of making hit records." Gabe responded and Carlos squealed out what sounded like a question, but it was so high pitched that we all just looked at him. I looked at James and he just shrugged before he was blindsided by Carlos hugging him.

"Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you." Carlos said, squeezing James. The hug was awkward as Carlos squeezed James' arms to his sides. When he stepped away, he almost ran to the chair that was next to Gabe. The two of them began going over the lights and stuff that was on the board while I walked up to James.

"You're making his entire existence right now."

"It makes me so happy." James responded and I smiled.

"I'll have to repay you for this later on." I whispered to him and he smirked at that before pulling me closer to him.

"Oh yeah?" I wrapped my arm around him and was about to kiss before someone cleared their throat. James looked over and started laughing.

"Just no subtlety at all, huh?" Gabe said, turning to look at us.

"To be fair, we thought you were preoccupied." James explained as I stepped away from him.

"I was but I wanted to show Carlos the mics, but I needed some help." Gabe said.

"C'mon Kendall." James said, pulling me along with him into the booth. He handed me some headphones and took some for himself.

"James, I can't-"

"No, don't bullshit me. I know you can sing. I heard you earlier." James said before I could speak. I shook my head at him before he gave Gabe a thumbs up after putting on his headphones.

"What are we going to sing?" I asked him and he shrugged.

"We can redo our performance from earlier." He suggested and I shook my head.

"No."

"Sing Show Me." Carlos said from the speaker.

"My latest single which I'm sure you're familiar with."

"I've only heard it a million times." I said, rolling my eyes at his smirk.

"I'm sure you can handle it." He said before he nudged me.

"We don't even have the music."

"Don't insult Gabe like that. He has everything." James told me before Gabe gave a thumbs up. I rolled my eyes and began to psych myself up. I knew he was expecting me to mess up, so, I had to prove him wrong. James laughed before the music began to play.

He sang the first part before I jumped in for the first verse. The look on James' face was pure joy as I poked him in his side. He took over for the next part before I took the chorus from him. I looked over and saw Carlos cheering before James started singing next.

We both took over the chorus the next time it came around and I could see Logan bobbing along with us. The third time, James let me do the chorus and I couldn't help but do a little of the dancing he was doing in the music video as he adlibbed in the background. He sung the last part and the second the song was over, he pushed me away from him.

"I can't believe you!" He yelled and I laughed.

"Gabe, did you hear that voice?" James asked and Gabe nodded through the window.

"That was amazing."

"Thanks." I said, giving them a nod. I honestly don't think my voice is that great but I might be wrong. The way that James reacted was something that I wasn't expecting and no one seemed to cringe when I sang. The fact that Carlos cheered was something I did expect. He use to always cheer for me when I pretty much did anything.

"Kendall, I will have some aspect of you on my next song." James told me and I shook my head.

"I doubt that."

"Don't tempt me. I will put your blonde ass on the cover." He said and I burst into laughter. Carlos and Gabe were having some conversation that we couldn't hear and wondered if it were the other way around as well.

"Would you put my ass on your cover?" I asked him and he nodded.

"Guys, please." Gabe said and we both burst into laughter. That answers my question.

We had been in the studio for who knows how long, and it was primarily James in the booth with Carlos and Gabe messing around with the boards. Gabe was teaching Carlos about the difference between mic placements or something. I looked at Logan and he was beginning to doze off before James would say something in the mic.

"Logan." I said, nudging his foot with mine. He jumped up and I held my laugh as he looked over at me. "How about we walk to get something to eat." I suggested, and he nodded. We stood up and waited for the right moment to interject on the lesson.

"Sorry to interrupt but we're going to get something to eat. You guys want something?" I asked them and Carlos instantly swirled around in his seat.

"Yes!"

"There's a sandwich shop on the corner that has really good subs." Gabe commented. I pressed the button that I saw them press many times to speak to James.

"Hey, we're getting subs you want something?" I asked him and he nodded.

"Turkey please."

"I know." I told him and he smiled.

"Can you guys get me the BLT?" Gabe asked and I nodded before Carlos gasped and went on a tangent about how he wanted that too. I could tell Logan was about to start dozing again, so, I pushed him towards the exit.

"Alright, we'll be back." I told them before closing the door behind us. As Logan and I walked down the hallway of the studio, there was a comfortable silence between us.

"So, you know James' sandwich order?" Logan asked and I nodded.

"Yeah, he likes Turkey and ham. He only gets cheese when he doesn't have to sing. If he does get cheese, he likes provolone but he feels like he can't hit the same notes. I think it's ridiculous but that's him."

"Really? Why cheese?"

"I don't know. I think he heard it somewhere and just went with it." I said with a shrug as we stepped outside.

"How long have you two been together?" Logan asked. I shrugged and I know he was looking at me in confusion.

"I can't really pinpoint a time. You'll have to ask him. I just know that I've never met anyone like him. It was like, normally, I get annoyed with spending so much time with someone but with him, I'm happy all the time. Well, most of the time."

"Most?"

"Yeah, touring isn't the best thing for a relationship to blossom. So, there were some frustrating times." I explained and Logan nodded.

"For example, his mother is the ultimate stressor. She panics about every little thing and I spent most of my time ignoring her because if I didn't, I would've been kicked off of the tour. The time differences were also terrible on the body but the second I would see his face, it would trigger my second wave of energy." I told him and Logan smiled at that.

"I feel that with Carlos too. He is my sunshine and can always bring me back when I get too stressed about college." Logan said and I started to think about how I would make James smile or laugh when Camille or his mother pissed him off. We stepped into the sub shop and made the orders before returning to our conversation.

"So, how did you get the gig of being his bodyguard? Or was it like a cover for this?" Logan asked me and I shrugged.

"I think a bit of both. I don't know how to explain it. I met him when I was doing security for a night club and then I became a bodyguard after I was requested by a lovely woman in Australia. Little did I know, James has a long relationship with her. She saw that there was something between us and she sent me to go be with him. I guess I just assumed the role of his bodyguard naturally." I explained and he nodded. I paid for the sandwiches and drinks before we made our way back.

"Kendall, are you like rich?" Logan asked me and I couldn't help but laugh at him as we stepped our of the shop.

"No, I wouldn't say that." I told him before there was a girl standing in front of us. She was smiling super hard and Logan looked over at me.

"Hi." She said, her voice wavering.

"Hello." I said to her, instantly knowing that she was a fan.

"C-Can I have a picture with you?" She asked me. I nodded and Logan took a step over and she moved in to take a selfie. I smiled for her and once it was all said and done, the girl thanked me before we continued our walk.

"So, you're like properly famous."

"Oh, please. Only James' fans know who I am. The second I'm being recognized by a bunch of celebrities will I even start to think that." I told him and he shrugged.

"So, are you comfortable with that?" He asked me and I looked at him in confusion.

"Comfortable with what?"

"You know, taking pictures and stuff and the fame."

"I mean, it comes with James and I know how it feels to be on the other side. The pressure to mark the memory with something as solid as a picture can be a lot. So, I try to take as many pictures as possible with anyone who wants to. What about you? Could you handle it?" I asked him and he shrugged.

"I don't know. I mean, if Carlos was the famous one, I would learn to accept it. I would like to keep things private but I gave that up a long time ago with him." The two of us laughed at that before I continued. "James is like that as well in certain aspects. When he thinks of something, he's like a kid dying to tell you what he's come up with."

"Yeah, it's one of the many things that I love about him." Logan said, holding the door open for me.

"That's how I feel." I agreed.

"So, do you love him?"

"Yeah." I responded almost instantly, and the realization hit me like a ton of bricks. I stopped immediately in the hallway and looked at Logan in complete shock of what I had just said. I thought Logan would say something but instead, he just laughed. He doubled over and laughed at me as I thought about what I had said.

"I-I-oh my god. I'm guessing you haven't come to terms with it. I mean judging by the shock, you must've not known-"

"No, I've felt something but…when you asked the question, I didn't expect for me to answer so fast. I hadn't even thought about it like that. I mean, sure, we spend all of our time together but…love."

"Relax Kendall. It's okay to love someone."

"Yeah but I can't tell him that."

"Why not?" Logan asked and I shook my head at his questioning.

"We haven't been together that long for us to use those type of words."

"There's no time cap on love, Kendall. You can fall in love with someone the second you meet them. I mean, I loved Carlos after our first conversation. That doesn't mean you have to tell him right away. I waited until he revealed his feelings for me and then I told him how long I was waiting for him to tell me. You'd be surprised how long we both waited. Just wait for the perfect time and express how you feel. It's clear that he cares about you a lot."

"Caring a lot about someone and loving someone is two different things, Logan."

"I'm aware. You can always wait until you get some type of sign to tell him, Kendall."

"You're right." I told him before we stepped into the studio.

"Food!" Carlos said the second he saw us. He jumped out of his seat as I put the sandwiches on the table that in the room.

"Can we eat in here?" Logan asked.

"I mean the owner doesn't have a problem with it." James said as he came out of the booth.

"I also heard he's pretty cute too." Gabe said, standing up.

"I didn't know you were into guys." Carlos said in shock and Gabe laughed.

"He's not. He's talking about himself." James said, rolling his eyes.

"You own the studio?" Carlos asked Gabe, who nodded in response.

James grabbed his sandwich and gave me a kiss before grabbing his drink. I wasn't expecting it, but it made my stomach flutter with how something so small as a kiss made me feel. I looked over at Logan and he just smiled while Carlos looked at me in confusion.

"Kendall, you alright?" He asked me and I nodded before grabbing my sandwich.

We all sat down and ate our food and I couldn't stop thinking about the conversation that I had with Logan. I didn't know when the right time was and I definitely didn't want to be the one to admit it at an awkward time like after sex. I just think revealing that while having sex can be cliché and often times, people don't mean it when they say it in that moment. But then again, that can be said for any situation.

"What are you thinking about?" James asked me, poking my head.

"Nothing." I said before biting into my sandwich. James looked from me to Gabe, who shrugged and then looked towards Carlos, who looking like a deer in headlights.

"So…Kendall, I-uh, wanted to let you hear something." James said and I nodded my head before he jumped up. I grabbed his hand and he looked at me.

"Eat your food first."

"I can't eat. I just…I have to show you this." He told me and I let him go, noticing that his palms were sweaty. He walked over to the booth and Gabe moved over to his chair.

"What's going on?" I asked them as I sat my sandwich down.

"Um, just…oh god. Just, wait here and yeah." James said before he stepped into the booth. I looked at Gabe before I turned to look at Carlos and Logan. Logan was just as stunned as me while Carlos looked…excited. James opened his black book and let out a deep sighed.

"Its, uh, not finished but…I wrote a song. I've been writing a song and I want to sing it for you." James said before he gave Gabe a nod. As the music began to play, I just continued to stare at James, waiting to hear this song.

"I don't want to waste another moment. I don't want to pay for things unspoken. I just want to race with arms wide open, take a shot in the dark to be where you are. I don't want to watch the world keep changing. When I'm not with you my heart keeps shaking, cover up my eyes and just stop pacing. Take a shot in the dark to be where you are." He took a pause as the music played and started the next verse.

"I promised you I'd reach you, I swear I'm almost there." James sung, and the song faded away. I looked over at Gabe before I looked back at James. He looked so nervous and I had to take each word that he said to me and I felt the urge.

"W-What did you think of it?" James asked me and I pressed the button to speak to him and I didn't know what to say. I felt the urge and Logan's words from earlier ran through my head.

"I think it is a wonderful start and I would love to help you finish it but before that, I have to tell you something." I said.

"Okay." James said, immediately before he took off his headphones and made his way out. I was going to tell him while he was still in there, but I guess now, I'll tell him when he comes out. I looked over at Logan and he looked so hopeful and I'm sure he knows what I am about to say. When James came out, we met each other halfway and I could see his hands were shaking. I grabbed them and looked him in his eyes before I spoke.

"James, I have to be honest with you the way we've always been honest with each other. I had a conversation with Logan earlier and he asked me if I was in love. I immediately, without a doubt, in my mind, said yes." I said and James' eyes widened. "I know that complicates whatever we have going on between us and I get that if you don't feel the same way because we haven't known each other for the longest time but now that I've admitted it to myself, I can't help but share it with you. I am in love with you, James." I told him and he immediately had tears in his eyes. He let go of my hands and grabbed my face. For a moment, I didn't know what he was doing but a second after, he was kissing my lips over and over. The guys cheered us on and I could not stop smiling. Although he hadn't said anything back, his actions have much more of a meaning behind them. I still needed to hear him say it. I stopped him the last time he came in for another kiss and held him close to me.

"I need you to say something before my mind starts racing." I told him and he smiled.

"Okay." He said, taking a step back. He laughed a little before he spoke again.

"I actually had the same conversation with these two while you were gone. It was Gabe's idea to try to do it in song and I was trying to explain to him that it wasn't finished but he told me to seize the moment. Carlos told me to follow my heart and started talking about the movie Coco but that's besides the point. So, I was going to tell you that I love you, but you beat me to it. I don't care how long we've been together. I just cannot see my life ever being the same without you. I literally started writing this song the second we weren't together in Australia. It's the most ridiculous thing but I did. So, yeah. I love you and would love for you to help me finish the song." He told me and now it was my turn to kiss him. The guys cheered again, and I could feel someone hugging me from behind. I knew it was Carlos just based on how happy he seemed.

"I'm so happy for you, buddy." Carlos said, making me laugh.

We spent about an hour after this trying to finish the song that James had written but most of what we came up with wasn't the mood of the song. Gabe tried to help but I was just so focused on kissing James, that I did it every chance I got. Sometimes, I got the urge to kiss him in middle of him singing. James loved it but Gabe didn't like having to keep restarting the track. We eventually decided to wrap the session up and Gabe exchanged numbers with Carlos, which made him so happy.

As we left the studio, Carlos wouldn't stop talking about how great this day was and I couldn't agree more. James held my hand and I was so happy as we walked. I let go of his hand when there were some fans outside, waiting. I ushered James over to them when he gave me a confused look. They were grateful and wouldn't stop talking about how happy they were that he was in the studio again. I have no idea how they found out about us being in the studio, but James didn't seem to mind. They even called me over for a group photo after they all got their selfies.

We parted ways with them and made our way back to the hotel. There wasn't any paparazzi outside, but James and the girls were starting to get a small crowd. Luckily, James had called for a car to come get us and take us back to the hotel. When we arrived, Carlos and Logan decided that they weren't going to come up.

"We're going to give you two the time to…you know." Carlos said and it sounded like something that Logan would say. Even Logan looked surprised when Carlos said that.

"Thank you. Feel free to have the driver take you wherever you want to go." James told them.

"Thank you for this and just everything." Carlos said, jumping out of the car to give James a hug.

"No problem."

"You kids don't have too much fun."

"No promises." James told Carlos and he burst into laughter as he climbed back in the car. We waved them away before James grabbed my hand and pulled me towards the hotel. There was no doubt as to what was on his mind, especially when he started rubbing his hands all over me in the elevator.

"I love you." I told him. He still looked caught off guard by it but then he smiled.

"I love you too. Now, let me show you how much." He said, pulling me out of the elevator doors as they opened.

A/N: Once again, thank you for reading this! I had no idea it was this many words but at this point you all deserve even more to make up for how long I've been silent. I hope you all have a wonderful New Year if I don't get to uploading again in what...two days lol. Oh and my birthday is tomorrow! Woo!