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That night Emma had simply held a crying Regina in her arms. But when she begged her not to leave she sounded so hurt like someone had done this before, she could imagine a young Regina sobbing to herself in her room because someone left without thinking of anyone else. Emma knew she was different though, everyone wanted her gone. All they did was yell at her or hurt her. so it was different, if she did it she'd be leaving the world with one less person to hate. The death grip Regina had on her shirt made her heart clench. She was terrified of her leaving she even kept the tight hold in her sleep. She wrapped her arms around Emma's waist and buried her face in the crook of her neck.

Emma even had to sooth her while she slept, she'd cried in her sleep. sometimes even waking up to confirm Emma was still there. Emma did sleep but not that well, she couldn't get past the fact that she'd been so selfish. so utterly and completely selfish. she'd felt the way she had and hadn't thought of anyone else, she'd wanted to get help at first but now...not really she could deal with it she always has she mused to herself. Emma didn't know how long she sat there with her back against the head bored staring into space until she heard Cora calling her name but she ignored it knowing she'd eventually come to find her anyways.

"Emma, Dear? Are you ignoring m-" Cora cut herself off seeing a clearly distraught Regina, She walked closer in her black pantsuit kicking off her heels, she sat on the bed and started stroking her daughters head. "What happened? she hasn't looked this upset in awhile" Cora murmured running her fingers through thick strands.

"I wrote something that she wasn't supposed to see and she happened to find it and read it" Emma answered, pointing to the crumpled up note on her desk before going back into the depths of her mind. 'Is she going to send me back? i don't think she thought i was this...broken' She winced at the word, she hated thinking of herself as broken, that meant there was something to be fixed about her. she couldn't be fixed. She watched as Cora read the letter her face surprisingly never changing from that stupid stoic mask she always had on.

"This is how you felt? like you didn't deserve anything we gave you? I get that it was fast but you deserve everything we got you. you deserve a loving and caring family, a roof over you head. personally i think you deserve the world and i'm sure Regina would agree with me, You are worthy of everything we give you." Cora paused and walk over to Emma and looked her in the eyes "You are an extraordinary woman, Emma. You could ask me to give you a house and i would, i'll give you anything Within reason That you ask for. i know that is not going to make you love me but i want to give you choices, because i think that everyone chose for you when you were perfectly capable of choosing for yourself. Some people may have it worse than you but that doesn't make what happened to you any less important or hurtful."

Cora took a breath looking close to tears. "I didn't know you felt so strongly that you wanted to do that to yourself. i wish you would've told me, i know you don't think its true but i love you" she said firmly tears slipping down the mask she so carefully created " Henry loves you, Zelena loves you, even Regina loves you And you deserve every ounce of love if not more. all of us are going to be with you every step telling you how much we love you and how much you mean to us. I won't let you do that to yourself" She finished. Cora wiped away her tears and went to sit beside Emma.

"I'm sorry, Cora. I wasn't thinking when i wrote that. I was being selfish a-and rude. I-i'll understand if you take it all back." She hated the way she sounded like a child getting scolded for something they didn't do. She felt a pressure on her shoulder and a hand came to rest on hers "No one is taking anything away from you, Dear" Cora said firmly. no one noticed the brunette stirring or as she quietly listened the whole time, hearing this gave her even more reason to love her mother. "Could i talk to Emma?" she asked scaring the two people who were quietly sitting. "Of course, dear. i should probably get going anyways." Cora smiled. leaving the two alone to talk.