Chapter 21

That night after supper, Lou had told the others what she had done in town. How she had given Kathleen a chance to redeem herself. When asked why she hadn't just destroyed her, like she had tried to do to Lou and Buck, Lou could only say, she was trying to see the good in everybody, the way Buck does. Buck smiled softly down at Lou as she curled against his side on the couch. It touched him that Lou, thought the best of him like that, but Buck knew better. He hated Kathleen, he wanted her to burn. He resented those in town who dared speak ill of Lou. He had killed a man in cold blood over Ike. He wasn't a good person … he didn't deserve Lou.

Buck sighed as he took his arm from around Lou's shoulders, the others had long since gone to bed. "I'm tired, think I'm gonna turn in."

"Is everything alright Buck?" Lou asked as he stood up stretching his arms over his head.

"Lou … I'm not a good person." Buck whispered his back towards her.

"No, Buck, why would you even say that?" Lou asked, standing, her hand on his face forcing him to look at her.

"You think, I try to see the best in people. You think I would give Kathleen a chance to make things right." Buck whispered, unable to meet her eyes.

"Buck … you are a good person." Lou swore.

"I hate her … I hate the people in town who think the worst about you, who believed her … Lou I killed that bastard in cold blood …" Buck said brokenly.

"Buck you listen to me and you listen good. You are a good person with a good heart. You love deeply and when you do you will do anything to protect those you love, including killing that man. He killed Ike… you did what anybody would have … anyone of us would have. I would have been right there with you, if I'd known what you were planning to do." Lou promised, both hands on his face, brushing his hair back, soothing him.

"No Lou … I could have never asked that of you. Of any of you." Buck told her, taking her hands in his.

"You wouldn't have had to… Buck, you're not a bad person. After everything you been through, after everything we both been through, it's alright to have hard feelings towards Kathleen and those in town that think the worst. But Buck … they don't matter. You do." Lou told him, bringing his hands to her lips to kiss his knuckles.

"I don't deserve you," Buck whispered before he captured her lips in a gentle kiss.

Lou broke the kiss, stepping back, letting go of one of his hands as she turned and led them to their bedroom. Buck closed the door quietly behind them, Lou letting go of his hand as she moved to stand in the middle of the room, her back to Buck. He moved up behind her, his lips ghosting along the flesh of her neck. Lou tilted her head to give him better access, a smile on her lips. Buck's hands on her shoulders, began running down her arms till they touch her fingers, his fingers intertwining with hers. His teeth nibbling on the shell of her ear, causing a breathy moan to escape Lou.

"Buck, please …" Lou breathed as she felt Buck's hardness pressing against the small of her back through their clothes.

Buck turned Lou in his arms, his hands on either side of her face as his mouth claimed hers, his tongue begging for entrance, Lou opened to him. She felt his tongue delve deeply, her tongue pressing back against his. Her fingers in his hair. She needed more. Her hands went to his shirt pulling it lose from his buckskin pants. He stopped her, "No, Lou … let me worship you." Buck said breaking their kiss.

Lou stopped, her eyes uncertain until Buck's fingers went to the button's on the front of her dress. Slowly one by one, he undid them, exposing the soft camisole she had underneath. Buck slowly pushed the fabric from her shoulders, letting it drop to the floor until Lou stood before him in just her undergarments. Her camisole only tied over her breast, her stomach bare before him, her petticoat, sitting just below her bump. Lou blushed knowing she looked ridiculous. "You are so beautiful." Buck said softly, the back of his knuckles brushing her cheek.

"I'm fat." Lou stated, a look of doubt on her face.

"No … you're perfect." Buck whispered, his hands going to the ties of her camisole, slowly undoing the simple bow, letting it fall open to reveal her perky breast. Breast that were fuller than they had been months before. He cupped one of them in his palm, his mouth descending to the other, tongue twirling around her nipple, teeth nipping gently. A strange taste in Buck's mouth caused him to pull back, to look at her bosoms. He squeezed her nipple between two fingers, a whitish liquid seeping out a little, he touched his tongue to it.

Buck's hand went around Lou's back, to find the ties of her petticoat, letting it drop to the floor with her dress. Buck lowered one arm to behind her legs, the other still behind her back as he lifted her bridal style in his arms and moved her to the bed. "You have too many clothes on." Lou breathed out, her body aching with desire.

Buck smirked, "Not yet, honey… I'm not done with you yet."

Lou arched an eyebrow at him, mimicking his signature look of snark. The corner of Buck's mouth lifted, as he crawled over her, his mouth attacking the soft flesh of her neck. His hand ghosted down her body, settling over her belly, a kick meeting his hand. Buck broke the assault on Lou's neck to look down at where his hand was resting, as he felt another kick. He moved down her body, his ear resting over where he had felt the baby move, his eyes closing as he concentrated. Lou's hands went to his head, her fingers tangling in his hair, a smile on her face. She loved it when he did this, she could almost believe that the baby she carried really was Buck's. She felt Buck raise his head, placing a soft kiss to her swollen belly, whispered Kiowa words slipping from his lips.

"What does that mean?" Lou asked softly, as she continued to brush her fingers through Buck's hair, she just loved the way it felt.

"I told him, that I love him always, that he was my son in all ways that matter." Buck admitted, his cheeks staining a little.

"Him?" Lou asked.

"Just a feeling." Buck said shrugging his shoulders.

"I love you Buck." Lou said softly, a smile on her lips.

Buck pressed another kiss to her stomach before he began trailing down her body, pressing kisses and little bites to the inside of her thighs, all the way down to her ankles and worked his way back up until he was level with her mound, a smattering of dark curls covering the heaven he knew was between her legs. His tongue darted forward tasting her. Lou moaned. A wicked smile on Buck's face as he teased her with his tongue, never giving her more than just the lightest of touches with the tip of his tongue between her folds.

"Buck please quit teasing me." Lou whimpered, her core aching in need.

"What do you want Lou?" Buck asked, raising so he could look at her face, her eyes were heavy with desire, she was nibbling on her lower lip.

"You.. all of you." Lou said, her voice thick with want.

"You have me Lou … Tell me what you want?" Buck teased, his tongue flicking out touching that little bundle of nerves that always causes Lou to come undone, her hips bucking up in response.

"God, Buck … I want to feel your tongue on me, to feel your fingers inside me." Lou told him heatedly.

Buck smirked as his mouth descended on her, his tongue delving deep inside her hot wet core. His thumb rubbing against her little bundle of nerves. Lou's moan filled the air. "More Buck."

He replaced his tongue with two fingers, curling them up against that spot inside, his mouth sucking on her nub. His tongue teasing her, as he thrust his fingers in and out of her slowly, tortuously. Lou panted under him, her breathy moans filling the air. Her fingers digging into his scalp. She bent her knees up pushing herself against Buck's mouth, her hips rocking in time with his fingers. She was so close.

"Buck … oh Buck… BUCK!" Lou cried out as her climax hit her, her back arching off the bed, before she collapsed back against it breathing hard.

Buck withdrew his fingers, licking them slowly in front of her, before he crawled up her body and captured her mouth. "Clothes off now." Lou ordered when she broke the kiss.

Buck moved from the bed, standing before her as she sat up on the edge, her hands brushing Buck's vest from his shoulders. Her fingers quickly undoing the buttons of his shirt, pulling it free from his pants before it too joined the vest on the floor. Lou pulled Buck's long john top off over his head, tossing it somewhere to the side, her hands gently taking his medicine pouch off, hanging it from the bed post. Her hands went to the ties of his buckskin pants, pushing them from his hips along with the long johns, freeing Buck's painfully hard erection. Lou licked her lips wanting to taste him, like he did her. She leaned forward, her hands grabbing Buck's hips, as her tongue touching the tip of his manhood tasting the little bead of liquid there. "Lou..." Buck breathed out as she opened her mouth to take him into it.

"Shit … Lou …," Buck breathed as he moved his hips forward, thrusting himself into her warm mouth. He was going to come undone. No, he couldn't do that… he wanted to lose himself inside her hot wet core. "Stop Lou … I need to be in you."

Lou released him with a little pop, as she leaned back, propping herself up on her elbows. Buck moved between her legs, pulling her bottom so that it slightly hung off the edge, his arm holding Lou's leg below the knee as he lined up with her entrance, pushing inside her. God, he had never been this deep in her before.

Lou had never felt so full of Buck before, this was so good. She rolled her hips against him, both of their groans filling the air. Buck pulled out until just his tip was inside her before he thrust back in. Lou moaning with each thrust. Each one going deeper. Buck leaned closer to her, holding himself over her on one hand, encouraging her to put her leg over his shoulder. Buck almost came undone, this angle caused him all new sensations. His grunts matching Lou's moans. He could feel her walls tightened around him, her climax hitting her hard. "BUCK!" she wailed loudly. Buck felt his own climax being pumped from him by her walls, his seed being pulled from his body, filling her. "Oh, Hell Lou!" Buck called out his whole body, locking as he emptied himself into her, before collapsing on top of her, before he rolled to his side pulling her with him, he didn't want to leave her just yet.

"Do you think it will always be like this?" Lou asked a short time later when her breathing slowed down.

"Like what?" Buck asked, cradling her against his side.

"So intense … like it's the first time every time." Lou told him.

"I think so … I know I can never get enough of you." Buck swore, kissing the top of her head.

"Marry me Buck." Lou asked raising herself up on her elbows to look down into his face.

"Lou … it's too soon. You know the town wouldn't accept it." Buck told her, "As much as I want to make you mine and tell the whole world… it's just not the time."

"What about Red Bear? You said you would send for him come Spring?" Lou reminded him.

"I want to … I just don't know where he is. And I can't leave you right now to track him down. Soon, honey, I promise." Buck told her, pulling her down to capture her lips, rolling her to the side, raising her leg over his hip as he slipped inside her.

A/N: Thanks Shauna for the beta! And no I don't think Kid will be returning but a muse can be a cruel cruel thing. You never know what they will have you do. Thanks for all the lovely reviews. I'm not sure how much longer this story is going be. I've still a few things to wrap up but I don't see it lasting much longer. Maybe about 30 chapters total. Let me know what y'all think. Any thoughts?