I had an hour break, and then the doorbell rang again. This time it was Rosalie Hale, all done up in a black dress and a grey jacket, and black heels. She came in and sat down on the couch wordlessly.
"Good afternoon Rose. You look pretty today," I said.
"Let's get this over with," she said hastily.
"Okay," I said, walking over to my chair, and sitting down. Then, I grabbed my notebook and turned to a new page. "So is there something you would like to talk about?"
"No, nothing," she said.
"Okay, how about we start with a deep breath and relax." I saw her breathe a little, but she was still tense. "Carlisle told me that you had such a traumatizing death, and that being a vampire is very difficult for you emotionally. Do you agree with that?"
"I killed the men who killed me, and I am fine with what I am."
"Okay, taking revenge is good, but it can leave us empty if we put all of our hope in it, and you say you are fine with what you are, but you did not even name it."
"I'm fine."
"Rose, what happens if you are not fine? If you are hurting and talk to me, or Emmett, or Carlisle, or Edward? What is the worst that could happen?"
"The others could see me as weak, which I am not."
"If Carlisle said he could not go into work because he had not hunt in two weeks, and he thought he would kill someone, would you call him weak?"
She looked at me, confused, "No, he is being responsible."
"Right, because there is a difference between admitting you have limitations, and being weak."
"So if I talk, I am admitting I have limitations, and we work on how to work around them?"
"That's the job."
"I suppose I can do that," she said. She sat for a minute, then she finally said, "You are going to think I am a horrible person."
"I highly doubt that."
"Oh, but I am. We are getting a new sister, Bella. Alice is all excited to have a new barbie doll, Jasper is thrilled that he will stop craving her, and soon he will have a newborn to train, Emmet is ecstatic to have an unbreakable playmate, Carlisle and Esme are so glad that Edward will be happy and in love, only Edward and me are mad. Edward is mad that she is throwing her life away on him, but I could not care about that. I am mad… I am mad… that the little bitch has a choice."
"What do you mean?"
"None of us had any say in whether or not Carlisle or another turned us. All of us were on our deathbeds, except for Alice and Jasper. Alice was so out of it from the visions, and Maria turned Jasper for a war. But, none of us had a vampire give us so much information about their lives, and then asked if we want to join the club. Bella has all of that, and she wants to be a vampire for some sick reason. She doesn't want a husband, a house, kids, grandkids. She wants this hellhole and no one can talk her out of it."
"That is very frustrating," I said, then I thought for a minute, weighing if what I was about to say was going to be helpful, "but can I tell you something? This is not to say there is a right or wrong in if Bella should be a vampire, but I am just telling you this so you can understand her choice. I am working with Bella on keeping her human, but I am saying this to you now to develop empathy.
"I grew up human in a world filled with vampires, and I did not have the Cullen clan to protect me. I knew what they were, what they did, and that it was painful, and that made me desperate to fight back. The only way to fight against a vampire is to become a huntress, which is very difficult, and you have a very short life span, or become a vampire yourself, which is what my mother chose for me to do. Now the process with Ciaus was awful, it would have been better if Aro bit me, but the end result was that I was a powerful vampire that no one could hurt. My first mission, in 1940, as a newborn was the most breathtaking mission I had as an assassin. I never felt so much power. That could be what Bella is after. The glory that comes with being a vampire, it is what I was after."
Rosealie sat back and took that in. "The slut is power hungry?" she finally asked.
I started to laugh, "It is possible that she feels so powerless as a human that she sees vampirism as the only option."
"Well, what are we going to do about that?"
"What are some ways that we can make her feel powerful without causing her to turn?"
"I suppose I could stop making her feel like she is the scum of the earth for dating my brother."
I nodded, "You could do that."
Rose sighed. "I suppose I could explain to her why I would stay human and say that she is not a burden to have around."
"That is a great thought to say to Bella. How about we stop here for this week, and your assignment is to talk to Bella and tell her that that?"
"Fine."