EMDR With Alice at 2
An hour after Rosealie left, her sister appeared at my door for her scheduled session. Alice came in wearing black jeans, a black sleeveless top, a gray choker, and some black six-inch heels.
"Hey, cuz, you look good."
"Thanks, I see that you are wearing that Calvin Kline dress we bought Sunday. It looks great on you too."
I smiled at the compliment as we walked into the therapy room and sat down.
"I like your place," said Alice. "This is the first time I have been here."
"Yeah, your mom is amazing," I said. "So, is there something that you want to talk about?"
"Well, I was perfectly fine, no problems at all until September of last year, then Jasper tried to kill Bella and Edward insisted that we all leave for Bella's safety. I tried to protest, but Edward was adamant. Jasper and I started to trace my life and see who I was. I realized that I had visions all of my life, and I had a vision that my father killed my mother. I tried to tell people, and I ended up telling the sheriff, and they placed me in an asylum, around 1918. There was a vampire who lived at the asylum and fed of the inmates. He did not feed on me because he liked me. The doctors gave me electroshock treatment which erased all my memory. Then James, another vampire, who also tried to kill Bella, attacked us. The nice vampire bit me, and let me escape, but James killed him. I followed my visions to the Cullens, then to Jasper."
"That sounds like a genuinely horrible story, but you persisted Alice. I am glad that you are able to find happiness. By last September, you mean when Bella and Edward broke up?"
"Yeah. I don't know why that was so hard. I watched her constantly, and I saw her. She got sick, Sisi. She lost weight, became pale, then she disappeared for days, and I realize now she was hanging with mutts, which is not comforting. Edward kept saying, 'she is human, she will get over us, its worse for us than it is on her,' but it wasn't. She was suicidal. I should have stayed. Should have fought him."
"Alice, you were respecting your brother's wishes and trying to keep Bella safe. Your vision is not perfect. Look at what had just happened, she had gotten hurt because of an accident, and being around vampires had made it worse. It was a split second decision to keep second decision. Was it perfect? No. But those hardly ever are. You can't blame yourself."
"We should have done it in stages. Like some of us go, and some of us stay. That way she would not have gotten so sick."
"Did y'all consider that?"
"Yes. Edward was adamant that we could all kill her, and we were all a threat."
"He had a point."
"But now look at her, having panic attacks, not sleeping, not eating, running with wolves. I mean, she is hardly healthy and safe."
"No she is not safe, but how were y'all to know that?"
"I should have seen it."
"How? Edward was adamant. It was a split second decision. Did they give you time to look into the future and consider if it was beneficial for Bella?"
"No."
"And Sam was the one who found her in the woods, so she was around the wolves from day one off and on, so how would your vision be accurate?"
"I just love her so much, and I missed her so much, and the idea that we hurt Bella that much makes me so depressed."
"I know, but focus on what you can do about it, not what you cannot do about it. You can not go back in time and make Edward not leave Bella, but there are things that you can do now."
"Like what?"
"Well for one, support Jasper in fostering a relationship with Bella so it lessons the desire to feed on her. Also, stay in contact with Bella and do things together like go to bookstores, go hiking at a human pace, if you can handle it, and other things like that. Finally, support Edwards and Bella's relationship in any way you can, and make Bella feel like your second sister."
"Can I take her shopping?" she asked, her eyes lighting up.
"Does Bella like shopping?"
"No." She thought for a minute. "Ha! I have it. I'll tell Charlie Edward, Carlisle, and Jasper went camping, he thinks Emmetts in college, and we can have a sleepover at my house. Esme can cook spaghetti, and we can stay up and watch a movie, Bella likes horror, and then we plan for when we bite her. I can tell all sorts of vampire laws and tell her what to expect, she will love that."
"Yes, but you can not dangle a carrot and take it away," I cautioned. "Edward does not want us to bite her, and there is a whole wolf pack on the other side of the river that is against it too."
"Bah, I can handle Edward. And the treaty will be null and void when we move away, anyway. We are probably going to go Tanana, Alaska. There is very little sunlight there, and wonderful game there. There is only 300 people in town, and we don't talk to anyone. We can hunt and be by ourselves. Jasper will love it. It will be wonderful."
"Sounds like a plan," I said. I looked at the clock, and it said 2:48. "Is this a good place to stop?"
"Yeah." We hugged, and she kissed me on the cheek before walking out.