Chapter 25: What's going on here?
The affectionate smile on her face is evident as she gently lays Casey down to sleep in his crib. Softly stroking his cheek, there's a look of love on her face that only a mother could give as she protectively watches over him.
It gives Alex a warm feeling and he smiles, as he stands where he is in the bedroom doorway watching her. "You want some toast? I'm just making some"
"Yeah okay" she quietly answers, tucking the light cotton sheet over her baby's tiny body. He's sleeping soundly clean and changed after feeding well. She leans in, kissing his head and then sighing. Even after the extra sleep she still feels exhausted and she follows Alex through to the small kitchen area.
Grinning, as she watches him. Not realizing that her eyes are locked staring at him while he busily prepares the bread in the machine. Having just showered, he's naked except for the small white towel tied around his hips. His very toned and golden colored body being shown to its very best effect.
"You know you should get dressed" she smiles. Now averting her eyes she acknowledges that her gaze has lingered more than intended. She turns behind her, pouring some coffee from the jug on the machine into her cup. Then, turning back, her eyes once again divert straight to his chest muscles. She has to consciously force herself to look up, making her eyes focus on his face. His eyes are staring back at her in return as he leans his butt against the countertop, stuffing the toasted bread, somewhat seductively, into his mouth. Her noticing the butter on his lips as he licks it.
"Have you been working out more lately?" she frowns questioning him "You're um.. looking overly buff there. What's going on?" her own observation takes her by surprise, wondering why she felt any need to comment on the state of his body. "Oh..." she smiles teasingly "..are you seeing someone? Because if you are, you haven't mentioned it to me"
"No!... No, I'm not seeing anyone. But yeah, I have been working out a bit more. I just... I just wanted to keep my fitness up, that's all. Don't want to be seen as one of those instructors, who can't actually make the grade"
"What?" She leans her back against the kitchen cabinet, sipping her coffee as she looks at him puzzled "Instructor? What are you on about? Since when are you an instructor? And of what?"
"That's what the two-week course, I've been on, was for. Recruitment & training instructor"
"What?" she laughs "Wait, what? You're becoming an instructor? Alex..." The smiles quickly changing to a confused frown, her wondering if in the baby fog of the past few weeks she missed the mention of this or if for once his life he hadn't told her "So, what's this about? Are you thinking of quitting your command post? Alex... are you seriously thinking of giving up four two command? Why?"
"Maybe. I haven't decided yet, but yeah, maybe I'm ready to make a change."
"But...that's like as nine to five as the Marines gets. Why would you want to do that? Alex, I don't understand why would you wanna give it up now? I thought you loved all the action, all the unpredictability of your job. I mean you've never said anything to me before about giving it up."
She sighs her brain trying to read his body language but he's not giving much away as he stands there continuing to munch on the buttered bread "So when did you think about doing this?" She takes a breath staring at him as he shrugs his shoulders. Once again her eyes are being drawn naturally to the toned muscles on his neck and chest. She sighs "Well if you've already done a course, then you must be serious. But I don't understand, what brought this on?"
"I don't know" he sighs, wiping his greasy hands on the cloth that lays on the countertop beside him "It's just something I've been thinking about, for a while now. I mean, I'm not getting any younger and having been with you, watching you have a baby. It brought home to me that if I'm ever gonna settle down, have a family, then maybe I need to change my priorities. I need to be more practical. I mean I'm never gonna find someone to start a family with if I keep having to fly off on long deployments, am I? And yeah sure, I'll miss the action but... do I really need all the worry, the injuries, the pressure and responsibility. Maybe I'd like to be more settled."
"Wow!" She gasps in surprise "You! You're thinking of settling down?" she puts her hand to her mouth as she laughs out loud "Sorry, but who the hell with? You are seeing someone aren't you? Alex, c'mon tell me" she frowns "Oh god Alex are you in love with someone?"
"No... No! And anyway, so what if I was, what would be so funny about it? I mean, we all need to be with someone right. If the past six months taught me something, then it's that I ... I think it's time I had a bit of... well this. You know a woman, a home... a kid. I mean, Casey, he's great, who wouldn't want that?"
Hah! "Oh my god, don't tell me, Alex Morgan is getting broody?" she laughs mocking him. But then watching, the look on his face she can see he doesn't find it funny, he's serious. There's actually a hurt in his eyes at her mockery and she frowns apologetically "Okay, so you're serious. Oh, c'mon Alex stop messing, you'd want it for five minutes, then you'd be bored. I mean your attention span with women; it doesn't have a good track record in the past."
"Perhaps I just haven't been with the right woman. But I can do marriage and I know now that I can definitely do kids"
"Oh yeah right!" she laughs, nearly spitting her coffee over the floor. "And look how marriage worked out. Three months and you couldn't keep it in your pants" she sighs as he looks at her
"Yeah well.." He snaps back in retaliation " we both know why that was don't we! Perhaps a bit of support instead of judging me on past regrets"
"Regrets? " she frowns "Okay!...Okay yeah you're right. Well if that's what you really think you want, then hey..." she smiles "of course you know I'll support you. If that's your decision. But just think about it, carefully. I mean being a command officer has been your want your whole life. Hell, you even gave up being a medic and you loved that. So, just don't rush your decision. Make sure it's for the right reasons. I mean any girl who loves you she isn't going to want you giving up what you love doing, for her."
"No, but maybe it would be the decision I'd make for her"
Hmmm! She frowns still trying to work out the source behind this whole new direction in his life. She places her now, empty cup down on the worktop. As she moves position her hand gravitates to her chest, gently rubbing the sudden griping ache that even a small movement brings Ow!
"You alright? " he frowns concerned, seeing her face wince " Kelsey are you in more pain?"
Mmmm "No, it's the same as before. Really. Don't worry I'm fine."
He steps forward towards her "But I do worry!" He then brushes her hair back off her shoulder and gently wraps his arms around her body, pulling her closer him, resting his chin on the top of her head "C'mon, forget about my career move. We need to sort you out"
She looks up, her eyes smiling at him while she studies the expression on his face. Her hand can't help but smooth slowly across his naked chest. She can feel the warmth of his body against hers. His heart beating hard as she wraps her arms around him and closing her eyes tight shut, she holds him.
Mmmm! He sniffs the scent of her hair, stroking his hand down the length of it "I've missed you so much"
"Yeah!" Hmmm. This is nice. She thinks to herself as she inhales the smell of his clean skin in her nostrils and the slow stroking comfort of his touch on her tired body. "Alex what's wrong?" He has a firm hold on her, making soft, quiet groaning sighs. She questions him, worried "This is not like you. What's going on?" she looks up from where her face is resting against his skin. Looking him in the eyes while stroking the back of her fingers on his cheek "All this self-reflection, what's brought it on?"
" Oh, I don't know." he sighs "I guess just seeing you here, with him. Look, I know this is gonna sound stupid, but I'm jealous." he laughs "Yeah really, I'm jealous of Clay. I thought I was gonna be the one there when you had the baby. I mean, after all that time, you know I just had it in my head, I never thought about not being there when you gave birth. I was kind of excited about it. When we painted the nursery and all that stuff, it was fun. So, maybe now...now, I just want some of that for myself"
"Alex..." she strokes his face "I didn't know you felt like that. And, I thought you hated painting!" she laughs trying to lighten the sombre mood "So, why didn't you say something to me before?"
"Yeah, you know I keep asking myself that " he scoffs "Thing is, when I told you to make peace with Clay, let him know about the baby, I never in a million years imagined you'd get on a flight and come here. Let alone give birth here and not be able to come home!"
Hmmm! She frowns "Yeah I'm not quite sure what possessed me to do that either, to be honest. But something inside said I should tell him to his face. After all that time it just felt like the right thing to do, and... I suppose I wanted to know how he felt about me. See if he still felt the same" She sighs "I don't know. But yeah, it was a pretty mad thing to do, being that pregnant. I wouldn't say it was the brightest idea I've ever had, right?"
"Yeah... but that's you all over. Unpredictable and crazy!" he laughs, kissing the top of her head
"This is crazy alright! Everything that's happened, is madness." She feel a hard lump in her throat as her emotions start swirling like a whirlwind again and she takes lot of deep breaths trying not to cry "Oh what the hell's wrong with me!" she shakes her head trying desperately to stop herself from crying. Fed up with the constant emotional wave off feelings. Phew!
They stand in silence. Just holding each other their arms wrapped around each other. Her leaned with head against his chest taking in the warm, manly smell of his bare flesh close up, and him, his hand making gentle grooming motions down her back, comforting her.
He contentedly smiles, gently lifting her chin so that she's looking at him. Her glassy, tear-filled eyes searching the dark comforting depths of his. There's a prickly buzzing tension skipping back and forward between their bodies. A zapping of electricity, from the heightened sensations as they touch each other.
Then suddenly, and without a word, he takes her by surprise and kisses her full on the lips.
"Alex!" She groans as the soft of his lips becomes firmer. He becomes more needy, more wanting of her pushing the wet of his tongue into her throat. Invading and sliding deeper into her wet demanding mouth. His tongue tangling with her own as he pulls her body tighter and closer to his. Momentarily she closes her eyes, and she can't lie, she's enjoying kissing him. The feeling of his lips on hers, the feel of his hand touching her body. She likes it and she wants it.
Forcing her back against the kitchen cabinet, there's a power to his touch but he's also gentle as he caresses her stomach and hips. She holds him close, her fingers gripping at his neck pulling him towards her. The kiss is so nice and right now in this moment, he wants her, and she readily accepts the feeling of comfort his touch brings to her. But then a sound pierces the room, shattering the moment and bringing them back, fast, to reality. Casey! As he suddenly cries outs she pulls away , taking a breath, staring "Alex stop!"
Shit! She takes a sharp breath and pushes him back "Alex just stop! We can't do this." She shakes her head, her eyes welling with tears. "This...this no! No, we just can't. Get off me." she sighs "Oh god!... What they hell are we doing?! You know this doesn't work. Oh god... we should not be doing this... God what is wrong with me!"
"Kelsey please, wait just...look, this is not your fault. It's me... I want you so much."
"No! Alex... NO! Please don't do this to me. I should never ... I shouldn't be here like this. I love Clay. He's Casey's dad for god sake! I have to make that work, not... not this"
"You have to make that work?!" Alex laughs "What because he fathered your child during some pit stop fling!"
"Alex!" She snaps slapping him hard across the face. Shit!
"It's okay" he smiles and nods " I deserved that. I shouldn't have taken advantage. You're vulnerable right now and I pushed it too far. But I have to ask, if he loves you so much, then where is he? When you need him, when you're vulnerable, in pain where is he? For god sake Kelsey, you just had his baby he should have stayed here. He should have been here for you"
"He asked me, and I told him to go. I ...told him to go!"
"Yeah and he should have made that decision for himself. He should have seen you needed him...needed someone to be here."
"Alex, he has his work, it's his job. You know how hard that is and you know it's not that cut and dried you know that better than anyone. We both knew this life was not going to be simple"
"Well I would make it simple. I would give it all up for you" he snaps his fingers "I would give up all of what I've got, to have this, what he's got"
She stands back the tears roll down her cheeks and she wipes her nose on her hand " Alex please... don't say things like that. You know as well as I do that we can't be together. And I have too much to lose here"
"Yeah what this? " he frowns "Some crummy, military, single person apartment with a guy who's never gonna be here. Who's, always, gonna put his work before you"
"Oh god! " She laughs "And there was you encouraging me to go back to the Navy and now, you're slating Clay for his choices. Make your mind up Alex!"
"Yeah and where's his support for you? I don't hear him encouraging you. I don't hear him supporting your decisions. All I see him taking the part he wants. He doesn't know you Kelsey, not like I do. In a years' time this is not gonna be enough for you and what if he wants another kid, then what? You stay home, bake cakes!"
"Alex please, it's not like that. What do you expect from him? It's been a whirlwind this week. We haven't had time to talk, to discuss anything. Who knows what's gonna happen? Hell, I haven't even made my own mind up yet, so don't try to confuse things"
She sighs taking a breather from the intensity of the conversation "Look you need to get dressed. We were going out. Let's do that. Put this behind us. It's just emotions because we're both tired. Alex... let's just go back to where we were. I love having you here, so please don't spoil it"
"Yeah..." He takes a deep breath "Yeah, you're right. I'm sorry. I guess I'm more tired than I realised, and I shouldn't have taken advantage. I take it all back. Let's start again and pretend it never happened. Friends..." He smiles, pulling her close "I can't lose you as my friend and if that's all we can be, then I'll take it"
"Hey, you should know you don't get rid of me that easily" she smiles wrapping her arms tight around him. Sighing the sound resonating in her ears as Casey continues to cry "I need to sort him out"
"Yeah sorry" He kisses her gently "And I'm sorry for what I said, I shouldn't have. Just ignore me. Now, go sort your baby out and then we'll go to your class. Anyway, looks like I'll need to work on these abs some more if I'm gonna find myself a woman, right?" he smiles at her rubbing his hand against overly toned stomach
"Oh yeah cos you really need to work on them! I mean just look how flabby they are " she laughs, rolling her eyes sarcastically "Alex you are so vain. In fact, I don't think I know anyone vainer than you!" She smiles, reaching up gently kissing him. Looking him in the eyes "Alex you're my best friend, always. I've loved you since we were teenagers and that will never change but you know we can't be together; it just doesn't work. I'm with Clay and he loves Casey. He's a great dad. There is just no way I can take his son from him, not for some, momentary thing, that won't last. We both know that"
"Yeah you're right, as always" He smiles, stroking her face, kissing the top of her head "I'm gonna get dressed. Cover this body up" He laughs ".. cos I know you just can't resist me!"
"Go!" She smiles shaking her head. Phew! She takes a breath Shit!
She takes lots of deep breaths, wiping tears away from her cheek "Heyyy!" She calls out soothingly "C'mon Casey. Shhh! Mummy's coming. You hungry, yeah?"
She picks the baby up in her arms holding him close, kissing his head. She sniffs Aww! Casey I don't think you need to eat; you stink! I think we better change you "
o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o
"Hey, look there's Uncle Alex. He's coming now."
Kelsey frowns as she watches him talking and laughing with a tall, slim, very pretty blonde. Her hair tied in a high, tight ponytail and from her outfit, of shorts and crop top, it's obvious she's been working out too.
She continues watching. The mystery girl is very tactile, smiling as she touches and smooths her hands over Alex's arms and up his biceps. Which Right on cue! In true Alex fashion he flexes for her.
Having had enough of the public display of attention and Alex's continual preening she stands up from where she was sitting, waiting with Casey in the buggy, and walks towards them "Hey!" she smiles
"Oh, hey! " Alex kisses her cheek, greeting her "Um.. Kelsey this is Amy, we just got talking while we were working out.
"Hey Kelsey!"
"Hello!" Kelsey smiles apprehensively as the American voiced woman greets her
"I'm sorry Alex, I didn't realize you had girlfriend? I kinda thought you were single, from what you said. But... oh wow! Such a cute baby you've got."
"Oh um.. . no she's not my girlfriend. I mean he's not mine. No there's nothing between us, I just came to keep her company and help her with the baby. We're just friends. Nothing going on"
Alex sighs but boy does he regret his choice of words as he sees Kelsey glaring at him. Thinking about his wording it didn't sound too good, didn't convey their years of friendship.
"Oh ... oh right. so, you're not a couple? I just thought with the baby an all, that maybe, you were together"
"No!" Kelsey frowns "Oh no! There's nothing between us" she gets snippy in her tone "Just friends, like Alex said!"
"Oh well that's good! .. Well no... I mean, I don't mean good, I mean... good that you're single, for me, I mean ...oh shit! What I mean is ...well that means I can ask you to meet me for a drink right?"
Listening as Amy flusters over her words and Kelsey shakes her head in despair, he smiles "You sure can, and I would be delighted to go for a drink with you, Amy!"
"You would? "She smiles "Oh my god, don't you think his accent is just to die for?" She smiles looking at Kelsey "My friends are gonna be stoked... and so jealous"
"Really" Kelsey sighs, forcing herself to grin in reply " Yeah, well depends doesn't it. Me personally, I'm not sure he's all that, but.. then I know him better than most!" she rolls her eyes taking a deep and bored sigh.
Alex turns to look at her, frowning. "Well I always thought I was kind of special, but I know I don't do it for everyone!"
"Well..." Amy smiles running her fingers along his toned bicep "you certainly do it for me!"
Huh humm! Kelsey coughs. Growing impatiently tired of Amy's whining voice "Are we going for a coffee or not? " She frowns now bored and annoyed " Only we've been waiting for you for quite some time now"
"Oh yeah sure!" Alex frowns "Hey um... Amy. Why don't you join us, we're going across the street to the diner, for a coffee? Would you like to come?"
"You know what..." she looks, checking the time on her watch and smiles "sure. Why not!"
"That's great! You don't mind do you Kelsey, if Amy joins us?" he starts out smiling. In his head he thought the three of them getting know each other would be a good thing but then as he notices the look on Kelsey's face, that she doesn't look so pleased, he wonders if he's made a big mistake. Oh well too late! "Okay, well come on then. I'll drive!" he smiles, taking the buggy from Kelsey and pushing it forward.
Amy takes his arm as they walk, leaving Kelsey to follow behind them. She's mumbling to herself. Alex can't hear all of her words as coherent sentences but the odd ones that he catches, like bimbo and where the hell did he find her, go some way to explain what she's grumbling about.
Her complaining makes him smile and he laughs to himself. "Hey little boy.." he strokes Casey's chin with his finger " we go get a coffee, yeah right. C'mon on we'll take your mummy and cheer her up. " he jokingly hushes his voice, though Kelsey can still hear him "She's a bit grumpy today!" Amy also smiles and she looks around at Kelsey, who's not finding his comments at all funny but for appearances sake she keep forcing a grin on her face.
As they enter the diner and sit-down Alex lifts Casey from his buggy holding him against his chest.
"Oh my god" Amy smiles as she turns to look at the still pouting Kelsey. "That is so cute don't you think. A guy like this with a baby, it's just so sexy to me!"
Hmm Kelsey rolls her eyes "Can't say it does anything for me but ..,then each to their own, I guess"
As Amy excuses herself to the bathroom, Alex frowns "Kelsey are you okay?"
"Yeah I guess" she manages a faux grin again
"You didn't mind me asking her, did you? Amy I mean. She's nice don't you think?"
"Oh, c'mon Alex what the hell's going on here? She is so not your type. What some air head gym bunny? What, that's really what you're looking for? Or is this supposed to make me jealous. Some stupid game!"
"No! No, she's just a bit of company, some fun. Someone to let off some frustrations with while I'm here. I mean she's never gonna make wife material, right? Anyway she's more vain than me so that would never work!" he laughs and finally Kelsey cracks a proper smile. "That's better. Now c'mon, I'll buy you a donut. Oh..." he whispers, looking her in the eyes "out of curiosity, are you jealous?"
"Oh, shut up!" She laughs shoving him in the side as she sighs, shaking her head.
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Kelsey sighs, she's bored. She stirs the spoon in the second of her coffees while staring out of the window into the street. Lost in a world of her own. In the back of her head she can hear the noise of the inane chatter of Alex and Amy.
She sighs again thinking about this morning. Thinking about clay, wondering when he'll be back. As Amy laughs out loud she snaps back to reality and realises she can't take listening to her fawning over Alex any longer. Watching her still pawing at his arms. Her hand across the table stroking his. She looks up watching them, but they are ignoring her and she actually wonders why she's still bothering to sit there.
She smiles at Casey in his buggy, he's starting to fidget, and she hushes and settles him as she looks up about to speak she notices that Amy now has her tongue down Alex's throat.
Oh shit! "You know I need to go!" she snaps, sighing annoyed she suddenly stands up "He's gonna need a feed soon anyway. Alex are you coming with me?"
"Oh um... yeah sure!" Alex can see the look on her face "Look why don't I call you later Amy? We can meet up. I have a hotel not far we could have some dinner maybe."
Kelsey frowns watching as Amy inputs her number into his phone. She smiles and kisses him a long lingering kiss again, his hand working its way down her very toned body and over the curve of her firm ass
"Alex, are we going?" She demands to know as she snaps at him "Or are you going straight to the hotel? By the looks of things, you may as well skip dinner!"
Alex looks at her and frowns. He bites his lip. Inside his head,the look on her face, her pouting, it makes him laugh " No, I'm coming. Amy I will speak to you later. I need to take them home. She's right he's going to need a feed soon"
"Yeah that's fine" Amy flashes him a teasing smile "I'm counting on it. Bye Kelsey it was um... nice to meet you. And bye bye Baby Casey!" she strokes his cheek "He's is way too cute. You're very lucky. Not that I'm ready to do the whole baby thing yet. I mean for one I'd worry about getting my figure back in shape after" she puts he hand to her very flat, very tight abs. " This takes a lot of work so I admire any woman who can let herself go to have a baby. You have my respect"
Kelsey frowns, her comments are not taken graciously "Yeah well that was always my first concern!" she sighs. Alex can tell she's annoyed and he gestures Amy away.
As he says goodbye. And they end up with their lips locked again, her hands across his chest smoothing his tee shirt. He pulls away when he hears, the not so discreet, tutting and loud sighs of annoyance that Kelsey making as she stares watching them .
"Yeah goodbye Amy, nice to meet you.I must do it again sometime!"
Alex laughs as Amy leaves. "I'll call you later"
"Oh, thank god for that!" Kelsey rolls her eyes "I wondered how much more of her I was gonna endure! Seriously Alex, how the hell can you listen? She is the most whiney, annoying person ever, and you're right, she is actually more vain than you! Which I never thought was possible. Oh, I couldn't have a baby.. my figure .. my respect " she mocks
"Have you finished? " Alex smiles biting his lip "So catty Kelsey Roberts, it doesn't suit you. Anyone would think you were jealous. Are you jealous of Amy?"
"Oh, shut the fuck up Alex. No! I'm not jealous I just don't want to listen to her. I just wanna go home! I mean how much more can some vain air head bimbo talk about the vitamin shakes that she drinks or how much of a baby body blimp I am!"
Alex struggle to contain his laugh. "Here let me take him" He smiles as he pushes the buggy. Casey now making grizzly crying sounds "C'mon Casey we'll get you home. Your Mummy's a bit tired, and even more grumpy now." he puts his arm around her neck, pulling her towards him as he kisses her head "And you're not a baby blimp. You have a great body. So, cheer up."
"I am not grumpy"
"Oh..."Alex kisses her cheek "... you are so grumpy, but don't worry, I still love you!"
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Phew! Kelsey sighs as she lays back on the couch with Casey in her arms. She closes her eyes for a moment, enjoying the quiet.
"Hey Kelsey, you want me to order some pizza for later? I see there's a menu on the table for a delivery"
"Um...yeah whatever. I thought you were taking that Amy for dinner?"
"Yeah well... I was going to, but I've put her off for tonight. You were right, she was a bit whiney and I didn't fancy it" He sits on the end of the small table, taking hold of her foot in his hand he starts to rub at it. "I'd rather spend the night with the grumpy blimp" he laughs. "Joke!" he smiles "You wanna watch a film?"
Mmmm! She groans softly leaning back, enjoying him rubbing her feet "Yeah, I think I'll take a shower first. You'll sit with him ?"
"Yeah, yeah. Give him here" Alex happily takes him in his arms, smiling as he watches him trying to sleep "Hey there little guy. Me again"
"He's nearly asleep so you can put him down in the cot when you're ready"
o-o-o-o
She steps out of the shower and after drying herself she clips the strap of her bra as she puts it on. She has a towel wrapped around her waist covering her butt and legs.
She looks at her reflection in the long full-length mirror on the wall of the bedroom and she sighs. Standing up straight she twists her body from side to side, pulling in her stomach. Taking a deep breath, she massages her hand across the skin, parading herself, checking again her reflection Shit! she frowns
"Um... what exactly are you doing?" Alex frowns watching her from the bedroom doorway, he's holding Casey about to put him in his crib when he stops to stare at her.
Huh! She takes a breath "How long have you been stood there?"
"Long enough" he continues to frown "So? What are you doing?"
"Nothing!" She takes a deep breath "Oh.. just thinking about what Amy said. Do you think I'll ever get back in shape? I mean was that she right, you know about letting myself go." She turns herself from side to side looking at the tone of her skin, the excess on her stomach
"Hey..." He looks over as he lays Casey down to sleep, covering him with the light blanket over his body " Kelsey, don't be stupid. You're not seriously worrying about what she said are you? She wasn't meaning you!"
She sighs, shrugging her shoulders " Maybe... but look" she pulls at her flesh on her stomach "I mean how long is it going to take me to get my fitness back?"
"Kelsey stop this. What's wrong with you. You had a baby like five, six days ago. This is ridiculous, so stop!" He stands behind her, sliding his arms around her waist, his hands smoothing over her stomach as he stares at their reflection in the mirror.
He brushes her hair to one side and kisses her neck. "You've got a great body, you always did have, and it will be fine and if it's not then who the hell cares "
She places her hands firmly against his as he rest them on her hips and then turns around "Alex stop!" She bites at her quivering lip. She's shaking a chill on her skin the goose bumps raised on her arms as she looks up at him.
He rubs his nose against hers and then she can't help it she wraps her hand around his head pulling his lips to hers, pushing her tongue between them massaging his. He responds with an impulse of urgency, his heart beats faster. Her breathing quickens as he trails kisses down her neck, his hand gently groping at her breast. Mmmm she grimaces pulling away from his touch.
"Sorry! Shit... did I hurt you ?"
"Alex stop!" she frowns "Just stop. What the hell are we doing. This is wrong." she holds him back as she looks over at the sleeping crib "This so so wrong. What the hell am I even thinking. I can't, just get off me!" She pulls herself away from his grasp
"Kelsey please... you want this. You want me, as much as I want you."
"No" No, it's not like that, I just...just.. NO!" She takes a breath "This is not going to happen. Just...for god sake just go order the pizza or something and leave me alone!"
She frowns watching him leave the bedroom "Alright fine! You keep telling yourself that but.. this will happen it's meant to be"
She takes a deep breath looking at herself in the mirror again "Oh fuck!" Urggghh! She cries "Shit! ... Sorry..." she looks over at the crib then closes her eyes, raking her hands through her hair. She's distraught by what she's done "Oh...I'm so sorry!"
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She's enters the living room. Now wearing her robe and lounge pants as she watches Alex sitting in front of the TV. She swallows nervously wondering what to say to break the ice that's now frosted over between them.
"So what film are we going to watch " she smiles holding a sleeping Casey against the bare skin of her chest. She's taken her bra off, covering herself with the robe only, allowing her breast to rest from the rubbing of the tight material against it.
"Hey!" he turns around to look at her. "Just got the football on while I was waiting for you to get dressed. You okay now?" he sips apprehensively from the beer in his hand as he smiles at her
"Yeah, yeah I'm fine. I'm sorry about earlier. I just need to pull myself together. But things are gonna be okay" she smiles sitting down next to him. She gently kisses his cheek. "So, what film?"
"One of your favourites" he smiles "Pretty woman"
"Alex.." She laughs out loud" You do make me laugh" She opens her robe, placing Casey against her chest to feed him as Alex puts the film on and she snuggles against his side. He wraps his arm around her, kissing the top of her head, smiles as he watches Casey feeding. He takes a contented sip from his beer.
As the film comes to an end Alex notices that Kelsey's asleep next to him and he takes Casey from her arms. He kisses his cheek before placing him into the baby rocker seat on the floor. "Hey, shhh, your mummy's asleep. You stay there while I put Mummy to bed"
He slides his arm under her legs and picking her up in his arms he transfers her from the couch to the bedroom. Mm mm! She groans as he places her on the bed. Shhh shh "
Mmmm! She blinks again, starting to wake at the sound of Casey's crying .
"It's okay! Kelsey sleep. I'll sort him out ." He switches the side light off waiting a moment. She turns over onto her side, and goes back to sleep.
He takes Casey from the baby rocker, lifting him into his arms and switches the TV back to the sports channel, as they settle to rest, while he finishes another beer.
It's getting late. He checks the time as he gets up and heads into the kitchen where he prepares, by warming, one of the bottles of milk from the fridge. Then returning to the couch, he sits down. Pushing the bottle against Casey's crying lips
"C'mon this is it little guy, because we're going to let mummy sleep" he smiles encouraging Casey to take the milk, which reluctantly at first he does and then he starts to suck. Eventually giving in he greedily takes it. Alex smiles watching him, settling himself back into the cushions to relax as Casey tucks into the milk hungrily. "There's a good boy. I know it's not as nice as Mummy but... good yeah"
He checks his watch again. It's now, eleven thirty pm. He yawns, checking the bleep from his phone. He has a few messages from earlier. One from Amy asking when they can meet up. He frowns. One from his friend Tim asking how Kelsey's problem is now and did he need any more advice. and then he smiles as there's a text from Mandy!
He decides he will reply to her but just as he starts typing he looks up at the sound as the door lock clicking open.
The two men are both taken by surprise at the presence of the other and they just stare for a moment. Clay frowns, looking at Alex sat there, feeding Casey with the bottle
"So, what the hell's going on here