Telling Finn and Rose later that morning went about as well as Rey expected. Finn just looked sad and disappointed and Rose was speechless for once in her life. They told them about the Poe acting as the father for the rest of the resistance in order to protect the baby and Finn actually laughed out loud in a very 'I can't believe this' fashion. Rose thought the plan was brilliant. Rey told both of them to keep in on the low for now and they both promised they wouldn't say a word.
Now came telling Leia which Rey had been dreading. She made Poe come with her to help keep her calm and to better explain the situation. She really had never appreciated him like she did today. No matter how much they argued in the past he really was as loyal as they come and truly a great friend. They decided to talk in the privacy of her tent and they got her just as she was about to leave.
"General! A quick minute please," Poe said gently leading her back into her tent.
"What? What's wrong, what's this about?" Leia asked very confused as she was led back in. She turned and looked at the two of them.
Rey sighed she didn't even know how to start this conversation.
"Rey's pregnant," Poe blurted out not skipping a beat. Rey shot him a stunned look.
"What?" Poe said.
"Is this true, Rey?" Leia asked calmly.
"Yes...I'm afraid it is," Rey looked at the ground. Leia put a hand on her face.
"It's Ben's...isn't it?"
Rey nodded. Leia stared at her a minute then hugged her. She hugged back so relieved she wasn't mad. Leia pulled back.
"So what's he doing here then?" She nodded to Poe.
"I'm playing dad apparently," Poe said.
"He's going to claim it so the rest of the resistance doesn't judge me or the baby. But I'm going to hide it as long as I can." Rey said.
"I see...not a bad idea, I don't know how the others would take this."
Leia then hugged her again and put a hand on Rey's belly.
"My only grandchild..." she said emotionally. Rey wanted to hug her and tell her everything would be okay...but she didn't know if it would.
"Poe just promise if you have to keep this act up after the baby is born that you won't hold any of his fathers crimes against him," Leia said now turning to him and grabbing his hand.
"I won't, I promise. It wasn't Rey's fault she's in this situation and I certainly wouldn't take my anger out on a baby."
Rey snapped, "Poe! She doesn't need to know about that!"
"Rey did my son...violate you?" She said now a worried look on her face. Rey shot a dirty look to Poe and he gave her an apologetic smile and stepped back out of the tent.
"Listen Leia, Ben was confused. He offered me a deal to set Poe and Finn free and I took it. He wasn't violent, he didn't hurt me, and he even apologized for it later. I know I sound like some weak victim talking down what happened to her but I swear it wasn't as horrible as it sounds. I really did and still do care for him. And I would do it again if I could save my friends."
"Rey...I'm so sorry he made you choose that. Truth be told he's never had a girlfriend or anybody he really truly cared about and I'm shocked and ashamed this is how he chose to act on his feelings for you."
"It's fine, I promise. It's in the past and we've worked through it. I know he wouldn't do something like that now."
"I really hope not," Leia said staring into her eyes, "I'm glad Poe told me the truth. He never was a good liar." They both laughed.
A few hours later Rey felt so much better. A weight had lifted from her shoulders having told all of her friends. She only had to worry about telling Ben now, and though that thought scared her, she didn't think it would have to be addressed any time soon. She wasn't sure what to expect when he found out. Would he be angry? Would he love this baby like she already was starting to? Would he not want anything to do with it? She didn't want to think about it...the thought of this child growing up without it's father just made her sad.
Little did Rey know that moment would come sooner than she knew. It had been about a week now. She was sitting against a tree braiding a strand of rope just within sight of the camp. She preferred to be alone but close enough she could help if someone needed her. She mindlessly braided, almost bored out of her mind when she felt it. That tingle down her spine and feeling that she wasn't alone. She thought it may be the baby again for a split second but this felt too familiar...it was Ben. She could just feel it. She didn't stand but stayed quiet and looked around waiting for him to speak first.
"Rey, can you hear me?" She heard his deep voice echo throughout her head.
"Yes I'm here," she said, "I can't see you."
"I don't want you to. Rey...I need you to tell me your location. I know you don't trust me one hundred percent yet, but believe me when I tell you this is an emergency. I need to get there immediately. I'm badly injured..." he sounded desperate and her heart ached.
"Ben...I don't know if I should..."
"I can't talk much longer, he's going to find me, hurry, Rey, please, the coordinates...General Pryde is dead and I'm bleeding badly. I need your help..." if he was faking it he was doing an amazing job. She could feel the panic in his voice.
She debated with herself. Could she trust him enough to give him the entire resistance's location? What if he really was injured and needed her...what if he died because she didn't help him. She thought of the baby...their baby.
"Ok...ok I'll do it," she said and relayed the coordinates to him.
"Don't tell anyone I'm coming Rey okay?"
"I won't," Rey said knowing full well she had to go tell Leia immediately.
"I'll find your base and I'll land far enough away that we can meet secretly."
"Okay," she said bravely. The connection broke quickly and she sat there silent a moment. She was going to see Ben! She was so happy and yet...so afraid what she just did was a mistake. She got up and jogged over to Leia who was sitting at a table reading by herself. Rey leaned down next to her very close and whispered.
"Ben is on his way. He says he's badly injured. I gave him the coordinates to the planet..." Rey said guilt overwhelming her, but she pushed the feeling aside focusing on Ben.
"You gave him the coordinates?" Leia asked in disbelief.
"Yes, he's injured! I can't let him suffer or...die because he didnt know where we are...surely you understand that..." Rey pled.
"Of course I understand it but...do you really think we can trust him, Rey? I don't know if this is a great idea..."
"We don't have a choice I can't let him suffer because people are afraid. We have to give him a chance."
Leia gave up arguing but still was uneasy about the whole situation. She would just have to see how things played out.
A short hour later she felt the tingle again.
"I'm near some ruins north of your camp. Come quickly."
She heard the voice loud and clear and grabbed her staff and took off north immediately not knowing what she was going to come upon. She had gone a good mile into the forest before she finally saw a clearing with a small ship in it that looked like it had a rough landing. It was definitely a first order ship. Rey sprinted over to it and just as she came to the door, Ben opened it and practically fell out of it. Her heart swelled when she saw him for a brief second, then she realized he needed help and got up under his arm to help him limp over to a tree where she helped lower him down to sit.
He looked horrible.
She saw two bad wounds that immediately needed treated, one gash on his right leg and another across his chest around to his side. He was pale from blood loss, those dark circles still under his eyes.
"Jesus Ben what did this to you," she said breathlessly. Through a ragged pained voice he spoke.
"I...was attacked. General Pryde...he mutinied against me. Got a small army of troopers to turn and they got me when i was alone...I killed him but his men got a few good hits in first..." he squeezed his eyes closed and shook as he grabbed as his leg.
"Don't touch it, it's ok. I'm going to help. Here, stay still," Rey said removing his hand from the limb. His hands dug into the earth roughly instead and Rey lay a hand on his chest and closed her eyes. She let the force flow through her, taking calming deep breaths...focusing on his wounds...after a minute she felt her work was done and opened her eyes. The wounds were healed entirely. Just dried blood and ripped clothing where they once were. Even the scar she had given him across his face so long ago was gone now. Ben's breathing was slow and even now.
"How did you do that?" He asked eyeing her up and down.
"There's a lot about the force you don't understand," she grinned. Ben leaned forward and pulled her into a hug which she gladly returned. Rey felt so relieved. He wasn't here to kill the resistance...he really did need her. This would prove to Leia he really had turned. Rey pulled back and put her forehead against his closing her eyes.
"I didn't think you would come back..." she said.
"I didn't have a choice. I would have been killed anywhere else I went..."
Rey knew that to be true. She pulled her head back and stared into his deep eyes.
"So what now? Are you going to stay?"
Ben faltered a bit.
"I don't know if I can. The entire resistance is here and won't take kindly to me being here. I think I should lay low out here. Stay away from everyone for awhile and get some strength back."
"I understand," Rey said, "I'll sneak some supplies to you tonight. Until then just sit here and rest."
She grabbed a canteen from her side and handed it to him.
"Here, you need water you look awful. Sip on this and I'll bring food with me tonight."
Ben took the canteen and stay staring at her incredulously. She really dropped everything and came to help him when he needed it most. And now she was going to smuggle supplies to him. Ben felt a grateful lump in his throat.
"How can I ever thank you enough for trusting me..." he said emotionally.
"By getting better and letting your mother see you," Rey answered without hesitation. He looked down away from her.
"I don't want her to see me like this..."
"She doesn't care, Ben. You're her son. She needs her son back."
He shook his head, messy, sweaty hair swinging around his dirty face.
"Not yet."
Rey nodded, she knew he needed time.
"Fine. I need to get back before people start looking for me. Stay safe and I'll be back once everyone's asleep." He nodded at her. Rey placed a hand on his face and he leaned into her touch, his eyes were soft and vulnerable. She had never seen him look like this before...almost frightened...
"I really am glad you came, Ben..." they looked at each other a long moment then Rey grabbed her staff and took back off into the jungle.
