One for Sorrow
Pairing: McRoll
Spoilers for season 10 - Episode 7
Chapter - 22
It had been a long couple of days for the McGarrett's and for Catherine, however as soon as he unlocked the door to his home, he felt some kind of relief knowing he was home again. He had been away from his home for around two months and the familiar smells and the sound of his dog Eddie barking as he walked through the door, he had missed all that a lot. "Come here Eddie, Did you miss me, I missed you to buddy", he knelt down and cuddled with Eddie for a moment, patting him before he let him go, not noticing the amused faces of Mary and Catherine.
Mary had Joan on her hip, she was still asleep and hadn't woken up when she got her out of the car, that showed how tired the six year old was. "I think Joan and I are gonna head up to bed now, she is still sound asleep and I don't think I won't be far behind once my head hits the pillows". She walked over to her brother who had stood up and she kissed his cheek, and he in turn kissed Joanie's forehead. "Night Mare, I love you both".
After saying goodnight to Catherine, Mary headed up stairs to the spare bedroom with Joan, happily surprised that Junior had tided the room up and even thought to put clean sheets on the bed. He didn't need to go to that trouble and yet here he was, going that extra mile for her. Once she put Joan down, she headed into the shower to take a nice hot shower to relax her tired muscles before jumping into bed, it was nice being back in her childhood home.
It might be her brother's home now, but Steve always made her feel like it was still her home as well and though she was seriously considering moving back to the island, she did know that she would want to look for a house of her own, one that she and Joan could live in and be a family in without crowding her brother and his housemate. She also got a feeling that she would be seeing more of Catherine as well, she wasn't sure how she knew, but she just had a gut feeling that Catherine would be here more often and she liked that idea and approved very much.
Meanwhile, though Catherine knew that Steve wouldn't be able to go straight to sleep even if he was really tired so she grabbed two beers from the fridge and then headed out to the Lānai where Steve had ended up to take Eddie to the bathroom. She walked down to the chairs that were placed near the water and smiled as she sat down on the free seat, Steve having already occupied the other seat and handed him his beer, then opening her own and taking a sip. "So, you have a dog?", her words were accompanied by a slight smirk on her face, knowing his feelings towards dogs.
"Alright, alright, I know where you are going with this", he chuckled, sipping on his own beer. "Eddie is a dog that is a trained sniffer dog, he was with the DEA and he got shot, his owner was killed and so we both kind of took a shining to each other, I'll still have you know that cats are the far superior animal but I can appreciate dogs a little more, especially my man Eddie here". Catherine nodded at that and smiled softly, she could tell as soon as the two saw each other when he walked in that he had an emotional connection to this dog and now she knew why, they had been through a lot together and Steve was there for Eddie when he needed him the most.
"You have gotten a lot more sentimental since living here permanently Sailor, and grown a lot.. I'm proud of you". She truly was proud of his growth and how much he had changed, she had seen it while she was living with him but this was much more of a personal growth. The man that claimed at one point he would never live permanently on the island was now living here in his childhood home, quite happily it seemed and had a lot of people he considered to be family around him as well. "Thanks, it means a lot to me, you have grown a lot as well Lieutenant, and though I was hurt when you left again, I realised why you did and I understand it". Catherine reached over and took his hand, her touch instantly bringing memories back to him, his head turning to look at her, gazing into her eyes, realising she was trying to tell him something without saying it.
He could sense she had something to say to him, something that was important and he knew it was possibly something hard for her to do.. "Catherine, whatever you need to say, you can tell me. I think by now you know that I'm not going to mad at anything.. If anything, it might help make sense of everything". He squeezed her hand gently, his focus remaining on her, his eyes never leaving hers as she continued to struggle to find the words to what she wanted to say.
Finally finding her words, she spoke quietly, "I'm not sure you do Steve.. I only did it because I was forced to Steve.. You know the CIA by now okay, they had threatened your life and the lives of the rest of the five-o taskforce because you didn't back down about what went on with Doris and Yeo Fat.. They came to me when I was in Afghanistan, they knew who I was and who I was to you". She sighed softly, this was hard for her to say.. She heard him say he wouldn't get mad but she knew he would at least in part at the CIA, maybe not her but certainly the CIA.
"The recruited me as a way of sparing your life and that of the taskforce.. If I didn't cooperate and join the CIA, then they would continue to try to make hits against your life and they didn't care if it meant potentially taking out other members of five-o or civilans, so I had no other choice at all Steve.. I wasn't going to let them come after you, the man that I love". The tears were falling from her eyes.. This is what she had wanted to tell him from day one, and every other time they had talked since. It was finally out now and she just hoped and prayed with all her heart that it wouldn't affect what they were potentially starting again with their relationship. She knew she had to be 100% honest with him this time and before they entered into anything, she wanted him to have all the facts.
Author's Notes.
Thank you again for all your support. I always say this in my Author notes but it truly does mean a lot to me and makes the difference in when you are writing a story. Knowing you have people that read it and appreciate it, it is what keeps me continuing this story. I am starting to think of this as a kind of continuation of my Winds of Change story. I will go back to that at some point, but I may leave it to where they leave each other at the end of that episode but that they have started to stay in more regular communication with each other after that.
SteveMcGarrettLover
Thank you, I appreciate your amazing reviews, I love them all so much. I really love in my story at least, she is leaving the CIA. I do think she would get along with Quinn as well, a lot of people might see Quinn as a threat, but I see her as another friend. That is an excellent idea, to have the girls all together doing something. I love the girls on this series and even Magnum P.I are all strong and powerful as much as the men are. Exactly as well, it is a sad occasion as to why they are all there together, but it doesn't mean that the story as a whole can't have a happy outcome. I am trying to be aware of the situation and the fact Steve and Mary will both have good days and bad, but that they can still move forward and get a positive out of it all.
HeyD501
Thank you, I really appreciate you taking the time to read my story. Happy New Year to you as well.
Pilarmnavas
Thank you for reading my story. I am happy to hear you are enjoying it. No, it is not finished yet, not sure when I am going to finish this one, I do want to show them getting married eventually and having some kids, so who knows If I stay with this one, or I finish it at some point and start another story as like a sequel to continue the story. I always try my hardest to make the McRoll shippers happy but also everyone else as well. I like knowing my stories are well loved by McRoll shippers, but I do like adding other elements as well so other people can read and still enjoy even if they don't ship McRoll. It would be amazing if the writers of H50 saw my writing, it would be a dream come true, but who knows lol. I'd love there to be some McRoll in S10, we can only hope.. It has been an annual tradition since she left in S6, and I did read somewhere that they aren't done with their story yet.