Rey reported back to Leia immediately as soon as she returned to camp. Leia seemed very relieved that it was just him alone and he didn't seem a threat. But she remained on edge about it. She would have to see him in person to believe him. Mothers know when their children are lying, that much is true, and she would know if she could talk to him. Rey promised that she would be careful and bring her staff and a tracker bracelet with her whenever she went to see him to make her feel better.
"Did you tell him about the pregnancy?" Leia asked.
"No...it wasn't the right time. But I will I swear it just has to be at the right moment," Rey answered, "he was weak, injured, and very shaken up already. I think he needs to focus on recovery first."
Leia understood that and applauded Rey on her selflessness and bravery.
That night she waited in her tent and listened as everyone began to go to their own and get ready to sleep. She stayed awake effortlessly as she never slept good anyway and the excitement of seeing Ben again plagued her. She had filled a rucksack up with supplies and food, secured an extra one person tent they had laying around, and tied a blanket to the rucksack. This should hold him over a few days at least. She wasn't sure if he had a weapon on him but she assumed he could protect himself should the situation arise.
She waited another hour after she had stopped hearing movement outside of the camp. She knew someone would be keeping watch all night so all she had to do was avoid them and she would be fine. She put the heavy ruck on her back and peaked out. The night watch was to the far left facing away from her poking at a small fire. She slipped into the woods as quiet as a deer and began following her same trail she made last time to the ruins.
It was a long mile with the heavy pack and took her twice as long to get there as last time, but she finally saw the clearing and sighed in relief.
There was a small fire lit and a thick log on its side beside it. She walked over to it and lay the heavy pack against the log and looked around. She didn't see Ben anywhere. She opened the door to the ship and peeked inside but it was empty.
"Ben?" She said softly now getting slightly freaked out.
She suddenly felt long arms wrap tightly around her from behind and lift her off the ground. She screamed.
"What do you think you're doing here?!" She heard a deep voice say in her ear.
There was a moments confusion before realizing who it was and she laughed kicking her heel into his leg. He dropped her and leaned over to baby his shin.
"Jesus you didn't have to kick so hard," Ben said in a mock hurt sort of way.
"You shouldn't have scared me," she said with a triumphant teasing grin.
"I'll do worse to you than that if you keep this up," he shot a teasing grin at her. Rey felt her stomach knot up and chose not to acknowledge that statement.
"So...what have you been doing all day?" She said walking over to the ruck sack with him following.
"Mostly resting. I managed to make a fire surprisingly, I never was very good at it."
Rey began unpacking and Ben sat beside her looking at everything she brought.
She had thought of nearly everything. As she tossed him a prepackaged meal, he opened it with haste and began eating ravenously.
"A little hungry, are we?" She said amused. He shoved his mouth full as she continued to unpack. She waited until he finished eating and began to unroll the tent she brought him.
"Help me set this up," she said. He looked at the small tent slightly disgusted and Rey could tell he wanted to say something demeaning about it.
"It's all I could manage, don't start," she warned looking up at him. He moved his jaw around a bit but ultimately decided to lean down and help. It was a quick set as the tent was so small. Rey then pulled the blanket off the rucksack and put it inside and they sat beside eachother in front of it.
"There. Home sweet home," she teased pushing his arm. He gave a small half grin and stared at the tent. His expression was...Rey would describe it as...sad...maybe a bit conflicted.
"Everything okay?" She asked. He smiled and sighed.
"I'm fine," he said quickly, "um...thanks for the supplies. Even if it is...well..." they looked at the ragged thing in front of them and Rey laughed.
"As soon as we explain everything to the resistance and your mother-"
"You know I can't go back to my old life," Ben snapped quickly. Rey stared at him for a moment, a little taken aback. He tried to calm his voice down a bit.
"Sorry...but im only telling the truth. I dug myself into this hole and it's where I have to stay. I can't live a normal life anymore. I'll see my mother because you want me to, thats it. But I can't join you..."
"You don't have to sound so...heartless about it all...I was trying to be optimistic-"
"Well don't," he spoke harshly.
Rey wanted to argue back but decided she would leave instead. She got up and grabbed the empty rucksack. Ben watched her but remained silent.
"I'll try to come back in a day or two. Stay safe," and with that she marched back into the woods where she came from. She was about halfway back to camp when she felt the tears rolling down her cheeks. She stopped walking and wiped her face, but a wave of sadness overcame her thinking about how hopeless Ben felt and she let out a small sob that brought her to her knees. She shouldn't be feeling this way about him. She had to get herself together. She couldn't do much in terms of changing people's minds about him but she couldn't let him live in exile or die either. There had to be some in between ground they could achieve. She just didn't know what that was yet...
