Lovelorn
Chapter 29: Fears of an Unwanted Bride
Kagome finally calmed down. Her tears stopped and Izayoi soothed the woman.
"Now Kagome will you tell me what is the matter, please?" Izayoi spoke softly keeping the young woman at ease.
Kagome at the age of sixteen was her own age when Izayoi was first brought to become the bride if a demon. Just as unaware of what becoming a demons mate truly ment.
"I can't read him. I feel like I'm forced into his hands and it's hard to cope with being the one practical forced into the arms of another whom barely cares for them. Bound to me for all eteturnity due to duty. I feel this terrible ache knowing that the more I fall for him the more it can hurt. This passive nature of mine isn't what I want. Yet father says if I dare upset your household. If I dare not be pregnant or civil and meek then he would force me back home. I'm risking war because I'm falling in love and I can't stop it!" Kagome was panicked.
Her breathing quickened as all her worries and secrets tumbled out. She was possessive in her love of Sesshomaru and it made her flinch realizing he probably just considered the miko as a close friend. He never once dusted that he cared more for her than just a friend to whom he had to be intimate with. He didn't even show her his demon.
Ah, that's what it was. The young woman wanted to be wanted. Wanted the passion of love and companionship. Wanted her husband to be hers only. Yet was fearful of it too.
"Have you ever considered talking to your husband about your fears?" Kagome grew pale at the second wife's suggestion.
"I'm so afraid that once I do. He will point out the truth. That I'm unworthy of someone like him. That he's doing this for duty. We've never had a conversation. He just calls me or sprits me away for intimacies. I feel like a buffoon trying to hope and fear what may already be the truth."
A knowing smile rose to the lips of Izayoi. "Then how did you fall in love with him my dear?"
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